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  2. I see you, I hear you, …. 💪 call a crisis line, get to a therapist! I’m sorry, I don’t have any answers for you, but to remind you that your brain is hurting, and healing at the same time! I know the despair is excruciating…. one breathe at a time!!! One breathe at a time!!! 🙏🏻🙏🏻🙏🏻🥰🥰🥰
  3. hayduke

    FireflyFyte: Latuda withdrawal

    I cross tapered from espresso to decaf in the later stages of my taper. It was hard, but worth it - I won't start again. Hopefully you're not seeing any signs of dopamine supersensitivity? You're on a really low dose now, so take your time and ride it out carefully. The good stuff will return before long
  4. What can I do, what shall I do? I feel so helpless, clueless... I need some help.
  5. Been a minute! If anybody would like to reach out to me privately, feel free to do so. Know that I'm doing awesome and living life with passion and having a lot of fun.
  6. Today
  7. I feel so much hatred towards myself. I can't trust my feelings. I hate myself so much that I don't even want to watch or listen to anything that pleases me. I hate myself so much that I even had energy yesterday but didn't want to go ouside. Instead, I forced myself to sit and not move even my body is screaming because of discomfort. I feel hatred towards everything. I feel lost. But I know this feeling too well. I know this feeling because I felt the same in the past. Why are these occuring to me? Why am I getting stuck in every feeling that I hated so much in the past? Now it doesn't even feel like 'symptoms' anymore, it just feels like I am stuck into this forever. I feel no 'life' anymore, but only personal problems. This is how I felt in the past, and now I know how cruel it is to feel like this all the time... I feel guilty about not sharing any positive thoughts.
  8. I started really slow. Started at 50mg p5p. niacin, is best started at 100mg a few times a day. Until you get used to the flush. Which will eventually subside. managanese I started and stuck with 25mg. Managanese affects synaptic dopamine, so unless you have dyskinesia symptoms (any one of these - tremors, tics, twitches, excessive eye blinking, wobbly feet, other facial problems), this may be unnecessary. But it doesn’t hurt to try.
  9. Altostrata

    PSSD Post-SSRI sexual dysfunction

    It would be a waste of staff time to comment on reddit posts. There are many good, bad, and very stupid reddit posts. Please discuss reddit posts on forums specialized for PSSD, such as pssdforum.org
  10. Altostrata

    Why taper by 10% of my dosage?

  11. I really wish I could forget everything again. I wish I didn't have these 'feelings' anymore. I wish I could return to that void again. This is worse. This is the real hell. This is where I was stuck before, a place I hated more than death but was too afraid of death to face it, so I had to destroy myself instead. All the good parts of me are now gone. Where did they go? Was it all just an illusion? What is happening to me... I liked myself and my life so much more just a month ago, even in those waves... And somehow, deep inside, I knew that what I feared the most was my past coming alive again. But it happened. Now I don't know what to do. I can't feel content with myself at all anymore. I have become a meaningless, wandering ghost again. I am so angry, frustrated, agitated, depressed, confused, hurt,...
  12. Hi @BoyMom70 i have been tapering below 1mg by making cuts in ml. I still haven't calculated in mgs. Will be planning calculations in mgs with my wife's help this weekend. Water titration method had worked well for hayduke and is working for me as well. I too had the same doubts about olanzapine dissolving in water and the dose obtained from it. It forms a suspension in water not a solution which would be preferred. But I tried this method and this is working reasonably well. 🙏
  13. Honestly, I think it's more problematic that doctors are prescribing them unnecessarily in the first place. And if you do a search online, you'll see that a companion guide covering antipsychotics, among other things, is in the works for a second volume. I wouldn't imagine it's an easy task to write one of these books. It really does sound like your putting down a group that was spreading awareness and trying to legitimately help people. Am I misinterpreting what you're trying to say? I don't think that one person would be able to answer the very complex question of why these drugs are being prescribed off-label so readily.
  14. LotusRising

    Vulnicura: looking for my own Vulnicura

    No need to redo it. It looks like I just misread it. I'm not sure why they think that's good advice. I wouldn't cold turkey anything after what I've been through. I hope it goes smoothly for you. If you have more questions, let us know. You can tag me if you need to.
  15. mariamisery

    Dahlia50: Reducing Zoloft

    Is there a timeline for taking mirtazapine for 7 weeks. It has alreafy been 2 awful months. Feeling awful but can't explain it. Tiredness, very emotional. It may be my central nervous system. I wonder how much longer. Will complete healing come. Thanks.
  16. mariamisery

    Gigi68: introduction

    The worst part is awful uncomfortable feelings. tiredness and very emotional. Thinking it is my central nervous system. I hope it ends soon. Thank you.
  17. Lunchtime gratitude list is a great habit I'm starting to build. Wonder if I should have one IRL too? Might be a nice way to wind down before bedtime. Hope y'all are well!
  18. Gigi68

    Gigi68: introduction

    @mariamisery I wouldn't say that WD is over for me but so far it has been tolerable, no worse than tapering which was always very unpleasant. I'm sorry you are having such a difficult time. Hopefully since you were on it such a short time, your windows will increase soon. Hang in there.
  19. Gigi68

    Gigi68: introduction

    @FaureThank you! Well done on your taper. I could never say in the past 3 years that I didn't have much in the way of WD. You are making good progress.
  20. wantrelief

    wantrelief

    I don't think that is a crazy suggestion at all. Guided meditations can be helpful and I like Tara Brach. I haven't listened to her recently so thank you for reminding me of her and this particular meditation. Yes, fortunately, I am able to enjoy a bit of TV at night. Well it was a similar problem to what happened with tapering citalopram. I was slowly tapering Zoloft when I had a very stressful event occur and my nervous system "crashed". I ended up back on clonazepam and eventually switched over several months to citalopram. I eat red meat very occasionally. I haven't focused on a particular diet but try to eat healthily. That is wonderful you have found a support group! This journey can indeed be so lonely so I am glad you have found an "antidote". This has been an antidote for me, so thank you! I will be thinking of you too, Jaffa.
  21. mariamisery

    Dahlia50: Reducing Zoloft

    Hope you get some relief from the suffering
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  23. Xcaretuk

    Xcaretuk: Kindled and Petrified

    Hi Bailey, I just answered this but now cannot find my comment 😊 They used Lidocaine to wipe across my skin so no injection of a local anaesthetic. They tested two nodules but I had to have 5 needles because they couldn’t get enough of a sample on those attempts. Funny thing was when they put the needle in it made my head pain worse, very strange. I did have some more anxiety first thing this morning with a very mild increase in Akathisia but that probably was just the stress of it. No major increase of withdrawal symptoms so far. How are you coping ? We certainly didn’t expect such a long journey but I try to take each day as it comes and there have been some improvements. Sending hugs right back at you and thank you for asking…
  24. Jaffa

    wantrelief

    @wantrelief I can relate to all of your symptoms and I especially relate to you not being able to explain them. Added to that, when the mind is tired from the struggle it can feel very hard to describe our experience. What you describe is clearly withdrawal. Its so hard. I have some of these symptoms This is my body every morning. I have to get up and do stuff to distract from how unpleasant this is. Horrible I know! This may be a crazy suggestion but does a guided meditation help you at all? I sometimes try Tara Brach - saying Yes to life . Its about 15 minutes and when you get a bit better at it you can do the 25 minutes. This is also good brain training/ neuroplasticity. Even 5 minutes can be a start. I also do some youtube yoga - Cassandra yoga for stress and anxiety. I know these things barely touch the sides of this experience but I feel like its so important to keep doing something positive for the nervous system every day. All this said I'm not experiencing such acute symptoms ....yet, so these things are manageable for me. I think when the neuro emotions are in full swing - everything is really hard. Absolutely nothing feels like its helping. Neuro emotions can feel quite maddening. I try to just see them as they are. When I feel the exaggerated emotion or warped negative emotion I call it out. Say it out loud - neuroemotion - not real -brain injury - on its way to healing. Yep! Are you able to enjoy a bit of tv at night? Have you tried dancing even when you don't feel like it. Finding the right music is difficult. Dancing can put you into your body and can be a healing way of expressing the pain or whatever it is you are feeling. You can move a little or a lot. Maybe just your hands move to the music. Just looking at your signature and I wonder why you changed from Zoloft to Citalopram? I think you already told me -it felt like the Zoloft wasn't working? Don't explain if its too exhausting. I can check back in your thread. Do you eat red meat? Some one I've been talking to has been praising the Carnivore diet for repairing the brain??? There is a newish branch of psychiatry called metabolic psychiatry. They recommend a ketogenic diet for epilepsy which has had success. I need to do more research on this. Im off to a support group today. An antidote for the chronic loneliness of this journey. Talk soon Thinking of you and sending you warm healing vibes. Keep on keeping on . Remember that body knows how to heal. Keep being kind to yourself Much love Jaffa
  25. @jon1 I'm afraid that I have to agree. Nothing works. Even Mg sometimes makes me more anxious. I don't advocate caffeine, but... However, I don't have a link to it, but I remember very much a yt video of lab workers. The tested cortisol spikes before and after drinking coffee. Their conclusion was that coffee DOESN'T spike cortisol. And that it's a myth. For a couple of months I was drinking every morning a quality coffee of my local roaster. Every time I drank it, i felt very calm. Then he get a new shipment and... Not anymore! A new one was different and I didn't feel good. Now I can't get a good one anywhere... What I have to say is that it's not just one thing in food that is causing problem. Like caffeine. Mold is almost in every coffee. And mold spike anxiety very very much. Moldy cheese make my brain "shaking" after one bite. @jon1 Can you share any concrete things that delayed your recovery? Have you tried B6 maybe?
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