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Hey Everyone! I'm Ghost, A 19 year old College Sophomore. Some people may recognize me as an Admin from pssdforum.com. I am indeed the same "Ghost". For anyone with enough time, I will link my Intro to that site, which follows some updates throughout the months leading till now (10 since my last pill). http://www.pssdforum.com/viewtopic.php?f=14&t=179. Otherwise, I'll leave a shorter version below: Following a period of anxiety last summer I was prescribed 10mg of Escitalpram, 50mg Trazodone, and 1mg Ativan. I fought hard to not take the meds, but when I went away to college I was unable to sleep the first night and I reluctantly took 5mg Escitalopram for 4 days. I stopped because I noticed insomnia, delayed orgasm, loss of sex drive, and genital numbing. I assumed that they would go away after stopping, but it has been 10 months so far without taking the medication, and some symptoms remain. Delayed orgasm cleared up within a few days, and there have been occasional waves slight improvement, but each has been met with PSSD returning. Most of the improvements have been brought on by taking something for PSSD. (Zinc, St. John's Wort, Curcumin...I've tried a lot). I always had a really high sex drive, and now I'd say that It's lower than average. Maybe 75% of what it once was. I'd also say that my genitals are about 20% numb. I can't tell for sure/ remember exactly what it was like before. My entire skin feels slightly numbed. Even scarier is the feelings of being emotionally dulled, although this has seemingly improved a bit with time. I currently am in a relationship that makes me quite happy. She's the best, and I feel awful that I can't always feel emotion for her, and that I still have sexual problems. But when I do feel love for her in a window...damn it's strong. I found this all extremely devastating at first. I cried every day, and hated myself every second. I woke up every morning feeling like I had gotten no good sleep. I was always tired. Another thing that Escitalopram left me with was severe depression. I never had that before the drug. It also destroyed my anxiety, which has luckily never came back like it did before Lexapro. These were the darkest days of my life. It's why I call myself "Ghost" online. I literally felt like a shadow of my old self. Luckily I am feeling a bit better now, although I miss my old self dearly. This whole thing has taught me a lot. I am a pre-med student that is very involved with the chemistry of PSSD/ AD withdrawal. I hope to someday become a doctor that is aware of the dangers of these drugs. I really love helping people. I'm extremely devoted to my recovery. I care about other people struggling with this, and that's why I joined this forum. It seems like a great community, and one that has a different viewpoint than the one that I help lead. I like keeping my mind open, and learning new ways to get back to being the old me. I hope to meet some friends along the way, Ghost