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Well hello everyone. I am about to write a bigger introduction in the near future but for now im just in to much (physical pain to write all of it down). For now I'm looking for some Good advice on how to deal with my current situation. I have been taking zoloft for 8 years on and off. Up until last week i took it for 5 consecutive years. This has been due to my ocd and depression. Twice (before these last 5 years) i tried tapering down without succes. I had terrible brain zaps and just overall feeling of depression. The last 6 months ive been under treatment of a psychiatric department of a hospital. Due to zoloft not doing its job anymore at 200 mgs they told me i should try clomipramine. They said the switch could be done within 3 weeks and tapering of zoloft could be done within just one week, because they said clomipramine would protect me from any zoloft withdrawal symptoms... Well here i am 2 weeks in and my right side of my body ( neck, shoulder, back, arm shoulder blade and since yesterday my leg (buttocks' are cramping up like crazy, constant terrible pain. I have no brain zaps or other mental symptoms, just crazy painfull cramped up muscles. I told them i thought it must have been the newly taken clomipramine they denied it and insisted i must have ruptured some kind of neck muscle or something during working out. I highly doubt it. The pain started to come about a couple days in of tapering down zoloft and starting up clomipramine. They pursueded me into holding on. But yesterday i called it quits. I called them and said im stopping the clomipramine because we only got to 75 mg per day yet, and the end goal was 250 in about 2 weeks from now. They told me i could just quit the clomipramine without real taper. So i did. Yesterday morning was my last tablet. But after taking that decision i found that alot of my symptoms may be due to having tapered zoloft waaaaay to fast. And here is my question, what do i do? Do i go back on zoloft and taper it down with the 10% rule ive read about here? Im about a week without taking the time zoloft entirely now, would restarting it not cause even more trouble? I would love some advice, especially because none of my healtcare doctors seems to know or care about it. I really am in so much pain that im taking oxycodone, paracetamol, diazepam, and 3200 mg of ibuprofen. The pain stilling cocktail maybe causes me to have 20% less pain... I cant keep going like this it really hurts, please help!

I am on Fetzima80 mg, Geodon 160 mg, Depacote 1000mg, Desaryl 600 mugs Klonapin4mg, Neurontin 1000 mg, Clonadine 25 mg, Percocet2 tabs/day and Tinzanadine 3 tabs/day plus meds forthyroid and Rheumatoid Arthritis. I feel like the meds are a major food group and I'm sick of taking so many meds I have been on this regiment for10 years. I need help on Howard whatto taper off first?

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A bit long winded but please read... BACKGROUND: (I'm Elizabeth and ended up on ADs (Celexa and Wellbutrin and Gabapentin) when the real problem was after a thryoidectomy I was being OVER prescribed replacement doses of replacement thyroid hormone. My TSH was less than 0.01 which was causing anxiety. It is well know that thryoid overdoses are completely preventable but I would have no longer been profitable to the p-doc if he did his job. Left the p-doc who didn't bother to check my thyroid and instead am on a "placebo dose" of celexa according to my p-nurse and was standing steady. Am fighting with my endocrinologist to judge my replacement thyroid hormone based on free t4 and NOT TSH.) CURRENT PROBLEM/ NEED ADVICE: ***I now did a fertility IVF cycle before starting grad school in the fall. I ended up with Ovarian Hyperstimulation Syndrome (OHSS) and since I have ended up with a positive pregnancy result for the moment. I have about 10 pounds of extra water and fluid which has stopped up in my belly. I look 5 months pregnant. I had horrible nausea and severe belly pain from the swelling, more than I could stand. When I went to the ER to deal with this problem last week, they gave me prescription narcotics and anti-nausea meds. Dilaudid and Phenegran. I took them as prescribed for 2 days, read that they can be addictive, and spent 3 days trying to make it without the meds. I couldn't hack it. My mood went way low. In retrospect I think those 3 days were h*ll cause I was so sick. ****Can legitimate pain cause your mood to go south? I've now gone back on to 1/2 the dose of meds prescribed. To give you the dose, I'm taking 1 mg dilauded and 6.5 mg phengeran and trying to do this just every 5 hours. (Lighter meds like vicodin make me depressed). By the time hour 4 passes, I start to feel sick and anxious again. OHSS is like having a 10 lb balloon filled with a rock under your belly button. I start to relax again when the meds kick in and I don't like feeling a medicinal based "relaxation." ****Am I crazy to worry about this? How addictive are these? Anyone else needed heavy pain meds and have a problem getting back off them post ADs? Am I just being hypersensitive because of my AD experience? Am I worrying too much??? I have to start grad school in 3 weeks and 5 hours away from home and really need to be able to function as me, without pain drugs. I don't want a drug addition to deal with. I'm so terrified after trusting p-docs when I never should have. Thanks so much for any advice or experience!!! --Elizabeth