Hi All- I am in desperate need of help. 6 months ago I was diagnosed with post partum depression and given Zoloft it made me intensely suicidal. I was hospitalized and put on .05 mg risperdone and remeron. After 4 antidepsressant trials and suicidality that followed I stuck with pristiq. They increased my risperdone to 1mg. It has been 4 months and I am anhedonic and have akisthesia. I want off of these meds Im terrified Im never going to get my feelings back. Please tell me this gets better, are there success stories? I am a painter and rely on creativity and its all gone. I am panicking and devastated. Please help.