just reading thru your thread, fellow high dose lexapro survivor here, also going thru a rough time
I like your poem. I can relate to some of it anyway
I am relieved to see that I'm not the only one who experienced that excessive sleepiness on lexapro. Although I'm sad you went thru this too
I kept telling my drs about it, and they kept saying you're depressed, you need more/different meds
I knew it was the lexapro but each time I tried to get off it, things went so badly, I went back on.
now I have been off since May, "jumping off" as they say, at 2.5mgs and wishing that I hadn't done that!
I just reinstated at 0.2 mgs, at first just once a day, now twice a day
yes that's right, I take the whopping dose of 1/10 of one mg!! and it's helped with the horrible panic attacks, cortisol spikes etc that I was having
I'm still struggling but it's a lot better now
I'm mostly just popping in to say hi, and to urge you not to go too fast
I TOTALLY understand wanting to have these poisons out of our systems but now I am seeing that my brain needs time to heal and esp since I don't sleep well nor very much, and I think it's during sleep that your brain repairs itself...? I think that I need to give my brain a LOT more time to do this work of recovery
I wish you all the best in your journey. pop on over to my thread if you feel up to it, and you'll see we were going thru very similar symptoms at roughly the same time this past month
i too have multiple diagnosis, have been on lithium, depakote, lamictal, haldol, phenathaizines, and on and on. Got a maternal grandmother and a paternal uncle who had manic depression. both self medicated with alcohol and were never properly treated but the symptoms were unmistakable and classic.
but back to me LOL I was given an anti psychotic as teenager for NO GOOD reason, other than it was new and they were testing it on inpatients in mental hospitals, I guess.
I can only imagine that at least some of the problems I've had since then were related to the drugs I was given, and other issues are def from past traumas.
I am just now finding the true me and learning how to manage life, and I"m 60. wish someone had helped me with this decades ago, I might have had a decent life. instead i've been on disability most of my adult life
oh, you mentioned you have CP? my brother had that and he also had a very low tolerance for frustration. I wonder if some of your issues around that are related to your brain injury?
1974-2002 many psych meds, all types; longest used drugs include lithium, seroquel, SSRI's zoloft & celexa; many CT's off drugs
2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs
June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015: found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs
Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.
Oct 26 2016 reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves
Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)
Jan 12 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15
Jan 26 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia
March 1 insomnia got worse, back down to 0.29 for one day, then 0.27, then 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24
March 7 added low dose lamictal, titrated up to 25mgs March 25
vit D-3, Magnesium taurate 250mg, chromium, pro-biotic, biotin, valerian root, L-theanine