It sounds like you were doing pretty well on the medications. Can I ask what led you to want to come off of them?
Well you're the opposite of me, I was put on SSRIs precisely because I had social anxiety and agoraphobia as well as depression. Since my last cut I have noticed all these things return, which makes me think I'm just returning to this state....but then again I'm being told it's just my CNS stabilising...stabilising to what I don't know because it was never stable to begin with, that's why I was put on the drugs.
I thought I had better make a concerted effort to come off them otherwise I'd be on them the rest of my life, no other reason than that. A sort of heroic decision to see if I could could cope with life without medication. If I could barely enter a shop without anxiety, then take the medication and move freely in public with no anxiety and then see the same symptoms reoccur upon gradual tapering, what logical conclusion can you draw from that? Does a leopard change it's spots? Do you suddenly lose those utterly debilitating conditions because you tapered gently?
I ask myself continuously if I was doing fine on the medication is there really any point putting yourself through this torture only to arrive back at the same point you were at, which is utterly miserable.
Feel free to butt in anytime.
My situation is so different from yours. The medication had clearly dumped me in a horrid place. I was at a point where I could no longer live the way I was. Everything had become so empty. Extreme changes to my diet and exercise routines just weren't doing anything for me. When I realized that there was a possibility that the drugs themselves were laying me so low, it was obvious I had no choice but to try to rid myself of them.
I realized that my reasons for going on them were minor compared to the debilitating emptiness that had become my life. When I first started the drugs, I was working full time, raising a little girl and had a relatively full social life. Juggling all those things did cause some anxiety and the pressure I put on myself to always be better and do more led to some depression, but at least I was DOING SOMETHING! The drugs made it so that leaving my bed seemed like a huge task. Now that I've reduced them at least I can stay awake most of the day.
If I was like you, and I could clearly see how I was better on the drugs than off them, I don't think it would've ever occurred to me to taper. I do know, however from personal experience that people do not age well on them. My mother, for instance, has been on various psychotropic drugs all my life and she ended up in a nursing home at the age of 77. It's not pretty. I have yet to hear of a healthy, active older adult who has been on psychiatric medications for years. That right there may be more than enough reason to come off them.
You see I know for sure that any depression, anxiety, etc. that I was experiencing before the drugs were nothing compared to the horrible side effects and withdrawal symptoms they've unleashed on me. I know that once this is over, I can deal with the "original symptoms" just fine on my own thank you very much.
If you don't think you can deal with your original symptoms without the drug, there still may be valid reasons for coming off them as I've stated above. You just have to make sure you find alternative ways to deal with theses things. Otherwise life without drugs may not work for you,
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Zoloft 150-200 mg- on and off between 1998 and 2004.
Lexapro 40 mg - 2004-2013 30 mg 2013 - August 2015 20 mg August 2015- September 2015 15 mg September 2015 - October 2015 10 mg October 2015 -Nov. 1 2015. Nov. 2015 increased dose to 12.5 mg to stabilize. Dec. 28 2015 11.25 mg March 29, 2016 10 mg. August 1, 2016 9 mg. October 23, 2016 8.1 mg. Nov. 29, 2016 7.5 mg
Depakote 1000 mg 2008-2013 750 2013-Dec 2015 500 mg Dec 2015 to Feb 2, 2016. Sopped completely Feb 2 2016.
Adderall 40mg 2004-Feb 29, 2016. Feb 29,2016 - reduced Adderall to 20 mg based on pdoc's recommendations. March 29, 2016 - Reduced Adderall to 15 mg. April 30 reduced Adderall to 10 mgs. May 28, 2016 reduced Adderall to 5 mgs.June 8, 2016 stopped taking Adderall due to extreme agitation.
Amphetamine 20mg 2008 - 1/16. 1/16 - Stopped Amphetamine completely because pdoc did not renew script.
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