I think I've figured out why my last two weekends have been completely crappy. And possibly why I've been getting cortisol spikes.
Milk. I've been drinking it in increasing amounts the last few weeks. Milk with coffee. Butter with toast. Creamer in the coffee. Cheese on the sandwich. Even straight milk on a couple of occasions. Last Friday- I drank some commercial egg-nog and the rest of the day I started feeling crappy. A headache, some chills, lethargy. And the next day (Saturday the 30th) another close to nasty fatigue day. That afternoon I nap for several hours, and I had fitful sleep that night. Diarrhea for the food I'd eaten.
Sunday the 31st- pretty much the same. All the while- I have to drag myself out of bed because of a lack of sleep, and cortisol spikes during the night and morning. And like the previous weekend- I'm cranky as all get down, and fly off the handle. Saturday morning I had a meltdown due to the lack of rest. I got up, went to make coffee, and stepped into a pile of cat vomit. Bare feet, cold vomit, on a carpet that had been vaccummed the day before.
And every night- cortisol spikes in the wee hours. 2:30, 3:00, 1:30 last night. I keep reading of folks geting such spikes at 4:00 in the morning. I'd LOVE to have that then, since that's my usual wake up time. But NOOOOOO. I get to have them a couple of hours BEFORE that time if not more.
I'd started eating nuts in an effort to get more magnesium to help with the spikes. I'd forgotten one thing though- I'm allergic to walnuts. And now it appears, that I'm allergic to almonds and cashews as well. Which seem to trigger the diarrhea that ends up with me being royally cranky. Catch-22. So, no nuts period. I'd also been eating some some almond butter and jelly sandwiches during the last couple of weeks- guess what! I'd been getting some allergic reactions to that as well. Big surprise.
So I fully expected not being able to get a halfway decent night's sleep last night, but somehow I managed to anyways.
I tried a method- of turning on the bedroom lights after getting a cortisol spike, simulate a day time condition. Conclusion: total waste of time and effort. The spikes still came, and I ended up NOT getting any restful sleep as a result.
On Sunday- I was making myself eat in an effort to replace what I'd lost. One of the upsides I guess you'd call it was that I was so low down that I'd had no anxiety attacks worth speaking of. I tried some gatorade and suddenly drank about half of it. Within a half hour- I had an anxiety attack. Sugar? Quite possibly.
I've cut back on the sugar in the coffee this morning. I've got some skin burn, but no perceptible anxiety. Wait and see how that goes.
I may reinstate the lightbox in the evening. Wait and see what happens then.
1)Zoloft- 6/99 to 8/04 2)Escitalopram- 8/04 to 8/10 3)Citalopram 8/10 to 4/14 (C/T), 4)Paxil a week or so, 5)Wellbutrin a week or so, 6)Reinstated Citalopram- 9/14 to 7/15
Before Taper- Celexa/20 mg....Taper Start- 04/21/15- 15mg....05/26/15- 10 mg...06/22/15- 5 mg...07/18/15- 0mg. http://tinyurl.com/qjfoqe9 Ativan/Lorazepam use/taper 10/14 to 2/15- http://tinyurl.com/ljebp84
Baclofen- Intermittent use of from 2008 till 2014. Some use of Promethazine. Some use of Zofran. Clobetasol Propionate- for Lichen Planus. Some Flexeril use.
Ativan- GABA,A receptor Agonist., Baclofen- GABA,B receptor Agonist., Celexa/Lexapro- Serotonin 5-HT1A Receptor Agonist., Zofran- Serotonin 5-HT3 Receptor Agonist..Promethazine- Histamine H1-Receptor Antagonist. Flexeril- Serotonin 5HT2a Antagonist.
My self imposed Amino Acid Therapy: Tyrosine 500mg 1xday, Theanine 200 mg 1xday, & Taurine 500 mg 2x day. (All neurotransitter pre-cursors)- seems to have helped me immensely. And of course- eating healthy, including Black Beans for the oligosaccharides for gut health.
The attempt to develop a sense of humor and to see things in a humorous light is some kind of trick learned while mastering the Art of Living. - Viktor Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning.