found some posts in another forum, a private one, and discovered that my med history is MUCH worse than I recalled
will try to jot down some of the highlights (or low lights, as the case may be)
subject to change as I sort thru the notes I took, having a hard time reading my own handwriting!! pfft
Jan 2007 taken off 40mgs lexapro and 300?mgs lamictal COLD TURKEY during a brief psych hospital stay, put on Geodon and Lyrica- one caused? akithesia, the other caused a heart problem
I know I didn't stay on these long, but I don't know how quicky after being discharged I stopped taking them. I remember feeling immediately suicidal on Lyrica. I never got an answer to why Lyrica was Rxed at all, isn't that for pain? Fibromyalgia or something??
What happened after that is kind of a blur- In May, apparently I was on lamictal at varying doses. I was on a beta blocker because my heart rate was dangerously high
I was had severe insomnia, dizzy spells so bad I was sent for an brain MRI, they found what a tiny infarct, but it was very old, I still don't really know what that means. :/
During this time there were several big losses in my life and I also had a lumpectomy for what turned out to be, thank goodness, a benign tumor that was acting in a not so benign way.
hmm, also in May of 2007, I was given trazadone for the continuing severe insomnia, It appears I didn't stay on that long, as the side effects were intolerable
IN June 2007 I was hospitalized because I was in afib. (cardiac)
In Oct 2007, my blood pressure was going thru the roof, and I was put on blood pressure meds (oddly, I had high blood pressure readings at EVERY doctors visit for 2 yrs previous to this, but Dr declined to treat...???)
In November 2007 I was put on lithium (something that worked for me in the past, but I'd stopped that back in 1990 or earlier)
It did not help at all, so I was switched to trileptal.
ALL of 2008 is a blur, I don't know if I was on any med except for atenelol for my heart issue. I was suicidally depressed and had severe anxiety, restlessness, intrusive thoughts, it was the most horrible year, I dont know how I got thru it, I really don't. I fell and injured my SI joint and was in severe pain but did not go to a doctor because at this point I didnt trust any of them and didn't believe that they could or would do anything to help me.
I don't know when, but I was finally put back on lexapro.
I don't know what the dose was. I dont know who Rxed it either, but I think it was my PCP, the one who just "fired" me
my notes say that a diff doc decreased that dose and added seroquel. No idea who that doc was LOL wow, my memory is bad.
Not sure what happened after this but there's mention of a second anti depressant being added, that was quickly discontinued.
as far as I can tell, the insomnia was "cured" by going back on the lexapro, but i developed a severe case of hypersomnia, which has been an issue for me off and on ever since, but was NEVER an issue before being taken off the lexapro the first time.
I have had at least 2 sleep studies to try to determine why/how I can sleep as long as I have (up to 20 hrs a day)
In Jan 2009 I was having serious issues with neuropathy and insomnia again. Plus a lot of pain that turned out be spinal stenosis (both cervical and lumbar) plus DDD and bad arthritis in my rt knee, so I was in and out of PT and getting cortisone shots and steroids orally, etc during this time period
Notes for 2010 indicate more pain, lots and lots of pain
I was Rxed zyprexa in April 2010 as a PRN and it helped a LOT (come back to this later)
I was also Rxed depakote in Dec 2010, but didn't stay on that. No clue why.
Winter of 2011 had the hypersomnia returning but insomnia hit in Sept (or earlier) as I was rexed trazodone which caused hallucinations
In Nov 2011, I was dealing with horrible dizziness once again.
Feb 2012, hypersomnia strikes once again
May 2012, Rxed cymbalta for pain, bad side effects, didn't continue
Nov 2012 in afib, stayed home this time, converted in 3.5 days
started blood thinners
April 2013 hypersomnia is the only issue mentioned in my posts
I don't know how all this ties in with what I am going thru now and will need to re read the stickied posts here, but just out of curiosity
what are my chances of ever recovering from this?
1974-2002 many psych meds, all types; longest used drugs include lithium, seroquel, SSRI's zoloft & celexa; many CT's off drugs
2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs
June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015: found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs
Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.
Oct 26 2016 reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves
Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)
Jan 12 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15
Jan 26 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia
March 1 insomnia got worse, back down to 0.29 for one day, then 0.27, then 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24
March 7 added low dose lamictal, titrated up to 25mgs March 25
vit D-3, Magnesium taurate 250mg, chromium, pro-biotic, biotin, valerian root, L-theanine