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mFrustrated: Need insight - Zoloft withdrawal

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Thanks Scallywag!

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I do have a question...has anyone had issues with anxiety while driving at night? I feel like my vision is blurred at night and I am super sensitive to car lights. Definitely worse during waves.

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I don't drive at night but recently I have had trouble focussing my vision.  It seems a bit blurry.  I have also noticed that sometimes I seem to get "mesmerised".  For example if I look at the car in front and their brake lights are on as I approach them (ie I haven't seen them go from off to on), it seems to take my brain longer to register what I am seeing and I am slower to react by braking.  I've also found that I have somedays where I have to focus harder than others.  It's like my auto pilot is turned off and I have to take full control.

 

Other members have reported light sensivity:  Sensitivity to light, sound etc

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Thanks ChessieCat. Tail lights are exactly what throw my eyes off at night. I guess it's just one of those things that are gonna be a part of my healing process.

 

Feeling super down today. My sweet husband is making me rest today. It's normally my day to get stuff done and prep meals for the week ahead. Just not feeling able to do any of that at this moment. I know it's just a wave and there isn't much I can do about it. Really sucks though.

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Hi MFrusturated,

I experienced the same thing like you at night.

I had trouble driving at night, because I could not tolerate bright lights, and traffic lights and lights would appear blurry with a hallo around it. Almost like a hologram.

But it does go away. I don't get that anymore. Driving at night would give me anxiety, weird head feelings and sometimes panic attacks.

I had that for a long time.

But it is gone now. Don't feel down, it will go away. It does take time.

Once the nervous system starts to heal, you will see symptoms slowly dissappear.

You have to be patient.

Take care of your self, Hopefull.

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Thanks for the input Hopefull. I figured that what I am experiencing was bc of the medicine. I had terrible eyes and have worn contacts since I was a teenager, so I just wanted to make sure that it wasn't something I should get checked. It worsens when I'm in deeper waves, so that's why I figured it was medicine induced. This wave has been a pain, intrusive thoughts have been so ugly this go around. Seemingly as bad as when they first started a year ago...probably just my perspective, but frightening for sure. I obviously don't want to hurt myself or die, but I just want this wave to end. When we left church today I came straight home and plan to stay in until I have to go to work in the morning. Being home helps for sure. If the wave stays as bad this week as it is right now, I'll at least have work as a distraction this week. Fingers crossed and prayers for some relief this week. Thank you all for the encouragement and reminders that this will end and that I am not stuck like this. When I recover fully, I plan to share my story with as many people taking or thinking of taking these drugs as possible. I've had a lot of really great conversations with several people in the health/mental health field that totally believe me and want to know more. Here's to educating people on the true dangers of these drugs! For now, I'm gonna do the best I can to take care of myself so that I can be the wife and mom that I love being.

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Still struggling this morning. Didn't sleep well at all last night. Fighting some sinus stuff and digestive issues. This wave is just totally the pits!

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Day 4 of my wave...I've had to cut caffeine again. Symptoms today are shortness of breath, jitters, lots of anxiety and intrusive thoughts about "what if I give up" and "what if I can't take it anymore." Thankful to be home this evening and snuggling my kids on the couch. Planning to take an Epsom salt bath after they go to bed and enjoy some camomile tea as well. Here's to healing and hopefully some relief soon. This mental struggle part of healing is no fun at all and oh, so hard!

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Hang in there MFrusturated, time is a healer. One year is not enough, so don't feel down. It might take another year or two to feel better and maybe not.

Every one is different.

I had a bad reaction to Zoloft as well,things are getting better.

So don't despair, healing is possible!

Take care, Hopefull. :)

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Thanks Hopefull! Today was a better, so here's to that! I was able to enjoy my students at school and enjoy a little reading at the coffee shop before picking my kids up...so that was nice. Intrusive thoughts and anxiety were low today, just bothersome here and there. Still struggling a little with shortness of breath here and there too. Definitely nice to have a brighter day!

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Seem to be coming out of this wave. School was great today, and I actually drove in the dark last night. Hoping for some somewhat normal feeling days to come! ????????

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Or not...ugh! This morning I'm back to feeling like I'm gonna jump out of my skin, intrusive thoughts, neuro emotions, and now my eyes are struggle with bright light. I know this will subside eventually, but gosh it's so hard to keeping going with the plans of the day when waves pop up. We have family in town and a birthday party to attend today. Nothing like having to act like I'm ok. ????

 

Also, on a different note...y'all, I don't know if you've seen news from NC (USA) but an 18 year old boy decapitated his mom and called 911 on himself. Come to find out, he's on 3 different psychotic drugs and has been in a mental hospital. 1st thing I said to my husband when I heard about it was "I cannot believe they don't connect meds to the reason for this stuff." That poor kid has ruined his life and killed his mother and I guarantee it was from taking that poison. I am grateful we learned that my issue was the medicine and for all of us, time will help us become ourselves again. It's torture now, but oh so grateful we know the truth about meds.

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Hi M.

 

I do have a question...has anyone had issues with anxiety while driving at night? I feel like my vision is blurred at night and I am super sensitive to car lights. Definitely worse during waves.

 

Yes. I don't drive at night anymore for that very reason.

 

Regarding the news stories like the one you mentioned , It's always my first thought and it's usually right unless there has been a cover up in which case no one ever really knows.

 

I'm sorry for your wave. I hope you survive the birthday event. I've been through many social situations in W/D and it can be exhausting ! Good luck.

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Hi Ali. Thanks for your feedback. I'm sorry you've have to stop driving at night. I'm really hoping that one day, this won't effect me anymore. I have always been a go,go, go person...we love to travel and do things. I am able to drive here and there within a few miles from my house, but that's really sucking it up and making myself do it. I hope for both of our sakes, we can drive at night again. Seems like you've recovered a lot, maybe this will also be a step in the process for you. How are you, have you come out of your last wave?

 

The party was actually really great and helped me take my mind off thing a lot. I'm glad we went and we're able to spend time with family. Guess that's also a sign that I'm healing. I've learned a lot of patience in this mess, you don't really have a choice...

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Still in this wave....things have lifted a little as far as neuro emotions and not feeling like I can go on. Intrusive thoughts aren't as bothersome, but GAD is still pretty present. Completely off caffine, especially coffee. Energy levels are back up, but weary and tired of this wave. Hoping for more clouds to lift soon. This has certainly been the longest wave in quite sometime.

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Feeling worse today...very emotional, tired, and intrusive thoughts today. Planning to make it mandatory nap time and movies on the couch this afternoon for my kids while my husband is working. Those of you who have been in recovery longer than me, this wave is going on a little over a month...longest one I've had since all of this began. I'm so baffled. It's been a crazy few weeks with a sick dog, stress at work, normal busyness of having 2 small kids...allergies have been stirred up and digestive isssues...would all of this cause my wave to last longer? Why do I feel like I've taken so many steps backwards?

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Just having a sick pet is stressful.  Combine that with everything else I imagine it would make a wave last longer.

 

Last week I had my son in law stay for 3 nights.  He didn't spend much time here but it did make me a bit anxious.  I took time out for 3 days after he went and was feeling good.  But the experience left my 18 year old cat stressed and she became constipated (5 days), so the last couple of days I've been concerned over that and my anxiety went up again.  I was at the point that if she hadn't gone today I was taking her to the vet.  Thankfully she did, but she's been "naughty" this morning wanting to climb up on everything.  I'm not sure if she is picking up on my anxiety or not.  She wouldn't let me cuddle her, so I've just been walking around the house (had to stop typing this) with her over my shoulder and she has finally settle on her cushion by the window.  Wow, hard work, like having a baby!

 

In fact whilst this has been going on this morning I was thinking about how tough is must be for people going through withdrawal having other people, especially children, in a house.

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CheesieCat, our animals are so interesting to pick up on things aren't they? I'm pretty sure they sense when there is something wrong.

 

My wave worsens at certain times during the day and are so sporadic. Today I thought I was getting better but by 3:00 this afternoon I was a mess again. Driving over bridges and in traffic was super for my anxiety this afternoon...not! This evening I'm convinced that I'll be like this forever (although deep down I know it's not true), but I'm so weary. My kids need me and I hate being like this. I just want a break. This wave is just horrible and I want to be better. ????

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Hey guys...was trying to figure out if I had changed up anything that may have caused a wave or made it worse... Anyone know if taking ibeprofen for a headache could have made my wave worse or stir things up again?

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Had a nice little bit of relief yesterday, not all the way but much better than I've been doing. Back down in this wave today. The games my mind plays with me are just exhausting. Trying to embrace not being able to control it with the hopes that I can reduce freaking out over thoughts of running my car off a bridge when I'm driving or not being able to go on. Just doesn't seem to get easier. I wish I could just accept the thoughts and move on.

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Been a while since I've posted and I just wanted to post an update to hopefully encourage someone that comes across my feed. I am so thankful that I can say that I have been doing MUCH better these days. I am still having waves and windows, but the truly scary intrusive thoughts of hurting myself, not being able to go on, etc. have passed. It's been 4 months since my last really dark wave, and I feel like I've experienced so much healing since then. I am still dealing with "anxiety" and intrusive thoughts about all kinds of things, but I am finally feeling like I am truly healing. To anyone that has had a bad reaction to a drug, the people on this site that have shared their wealth of knowledge about how bad these drugs are BUT about how YOU WILL HEAL absolutely know what they are talking about. I am SO thankful for those of you that have encouraged me and helped me get to this point. I am so very thankful to feel like I can be someone to encourage others as well. Here's to more days of healing ahead and enjoying life! 

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That is great news! I wish you continued healing! I am over 7 months out from my last adverse reaction. It is encouraging to read your update to know there are better days ahead :) 

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