Posted 25 April 2017 - 05:03 AM
Trying to hang in there, but having another very difficult morning. Plus, there are a lot of outside stressors on me. My 10 year old daughter is having trouble transitioning to a new school after a forced mid-semester change (too long of a story). She's missing her old friends and routine. And now my cat who has been with me for 16 years is showing signs of illness. If she dies, it is going to devastate all of us.
I just don't know why my family cannot seem to catch a break lately. God, where are You?!?!?
God is right there with you, holding you up as you get thru this tough time. (((hugs)))
so sorry you're all going thru such a hard time.
try to look for even tiny things that are going ok and hold onto them. they will help you get thru this.
and remember, the one constant in life is change. That means, even though good times will end, bad times end too. this is not forever, things will get better.
wishing you and O2bhappy some relief soon!!
1974-2002 many psych meds, all types; longest used drugs include lithium, seroquel, SSRI's zoloft & celexa; many CT's off drugs
2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs
June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015: found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs
Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.
Oct 26 2016 reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves
Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)
Jan 12 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15
Jan 26 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia
March 1 insomnia worse, back down to 0.29 for one day, then 0.27, then 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24 April 7 0.21
March 7 added low dose lamictal, adjusting dose based on response (currently ~18mgs)
Supplements: Magnesium taurate 250mg, chromium, pro-biotic, biotin, glycine 2grams PM, 1 gram AM