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O2bhappy: 9 months off Prozac - does it get any better?

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#289 O2bhappy

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Posted 28 April 2017 - 08:23 AM

ShakeyJerr -

 

Thanks for checking on me.  I am hanging in here.  I was very emotional yesterday.  I woke up feeling very weepy and spent most of the morning crying.  Today I don't feel weepy at all. 

 

I am still dealing with the constant anxiety.  I pray that over time it gets better.  I have been dealing with it since I went off Prozac.

 

How are you doing today? 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

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Posted 28 April 2017 - 08:31 AM

20 months...I have been off Prozac!  I am going to take a moment today to jump up and down and celebrate this achievement.  Usually when the month anniversary comes I focus on what hasn't improved.  Sure there is an awful lot that hasn't improved or that I am still dealing with but today I am going to "try" to focus on how far I have come. 

 

I am going to celebrate that I am no longer dealing with nausea and that I can eat a Reese Peanut Butter cup.  I am going to celebrate that I am sleeping, a little better.  Even when I don't sleep I am still getting some sleep.  I am going to celebrate that I am not bed ridden anymore and that I can take a walk outside.  I am going to celebrate that I am not crying today.

 

Today I am going to turn my constant anxiety into doing something productive. 

 

I am going to focus on today, now tomorrow could be another story but today I am celebrating 20 months off Prozac!!!


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 28 April 2017 - 08:38 AM

20 months...I have been off Prozac!  I am going to take a moment today to jump up and down and celebrate this achievement.  Usually when the month anniversary comes I focus on what hasn't improved.  Sure there is an awful lot that hasn't improved or that I am still dealing with but today I am going to "try" to focus on how far I have come. 
 
I am going to celebrate that I am no longer dealing with nausea and that I can eat a Reese Peanut Butter cup.  I am going to celebrate that I am sleeping, a little better.  Even when I don't sleep I am still getting some sleep.  I am going to celebrate that I am not bed ridden anymore and that I can take a walk outside.  I am going to celebrate that I am not crying today.
 
Today I am going to turn my constant anxiety into doing something productive. 
 
I am going to focus on today, now tomorrow could be another story but today I am celebrating 20 months off Prozac!!!


That's awesome!

You are a very special person and deserve to celebrate. :)

Take care,
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PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Zoloft, 1997-1999; switch to Paxil, 1999-2002 ___2009 - 2015: Gabapentin, 900mg, 2010-2015: tapered of 9 weeks, last dose Sept. 2015, no symptoms ___ Lamictal, 300mg, 2009-2015, taper of 6 weeks, last dose Oct 2015,no symptoms ___ Valium, 40mg, 2008-2015, 8 week taper, last dose Dec 2015, no symptoms ___ 2016: Carafate 1mg (anti-ulcer med) 4x a day as needed. Prescribed but not taking it. ___ Prilosec 40mg; 28-Aug started 25% taper; 1-Oct 20mg a.m. + 15mg p.m. Stopped Nov 26, 2016 w/rebound acid but not too bad.---CURRENT MEDICATIONS---Supplements: 150 mg Mag chloride, 350mg Krill Oil, Milk Thistle, ProbioticFor nausea as needed: Zantac, 300mg only "as needed". Zofran 4mg for nausea; only take it when nausea is unbearable or phenegran.Xanax, 3 mg in 4 split doses, 2008-present Lexpro: 2002 - March 2016: 20 mg; Mar-Apr 2016: 8 week taper 20 mg - 10 mg; 8-June 9mg; 13-June 10 mg; 11-Sep 7.5 mg; 25-Sep 5 mg; 5-Oct 10mg; started taking Liquid Lexapro in Nov 2016; started taper with liquid 1-Jan-17 9mg; 22-Jan 8.1mg; 22-Feb 7.3 mg, (horrible nausea); 30-Mar, updosed to 7.6 (1st morning, not as much nausea, hopefully it will get better); nausea was brutal; 6-April, updosed to 7.9mg, hoping nausea will let up; nausea stopped on 14-April for 2 days so far; 17-April nausea started back up :( stopped supplements on 10-April

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Posted 28 April 2017 - 08:44 AM

O2 be Happy. That is huge . I'm not sure if anyone that hasn't been there understands.  I do though and I celebrate with you . That is such a way to come forward and shows so much strength. 


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Posted 28 April 2017 - 09:55 AM

When we are in such a bad place we all wonder were GOD is in all this but hang on you will see light

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Posted 28 April 2017 - 10:08 AM

Well done O2be,  congratulations on the 20 months and the new attitude.  Have a great celebration.

 

(((((((((((HUGS))))))))


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Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mg it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

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Posted 28 April 2017 - 10:25 AM

Congrats, O2!

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Dates are tentative (my memory is shot)...

Prozac & Lithium from 1999 to 2003 (I don't remember the dosages). Went off but developed symptoms so put back on after 4 months.

Switched to Effexor (75mg 3/day) and Seroquel (50mg 3/day) some time in 2010 (I think). Did a self-taper during 2016 after losing insurance. Been off since around the beginning of 2017.

Developed Discontinuation Syndrome beginning with uncontrolled/unexplained crying in 02/17.

Moved on to full-blow symptoms from there. Been really bad since late 03/17.


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Posted 28 April 2017 - 01:34 PM

Yay that's so good to hear, O2bhappy! Proud of you and how far you've come! Changing our perception of the situation can really turn our experience around for the better. It is so hard but I'm glad you are able to do that for yourself now. I am still gong through the thick of WD and I'm definitely not at a point of positive thinking but I am trying to. *hugs* I hope you see more healing  :)


My medication -- Prozac
August 2015: Started on 10mg/day
September 2015 to May 2016: Increased to 20mg/day
May 2016: Abruptly stopped 20mg for 2 weeks (withdrawal symtoms arose but assumed it was worsened depression)
June 2016 to August 2016: increased to 40mg (my body reacted very badly to this dose)
August 2016: decreased back to 20mg
September 2016: tapered off 10mg this month alone
September 30, 2016: last day of Prozac
October 2016: month long window
November 2016-Present: WD symptoms (too many physical sxs and some mental sxs)
February 5-20, 2017: Reinstated at 1-2mg // February 21, 2017: Back to no meds

 


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 02:27 PM

Frogie -

 

Thank you for saying that I deserve to celebrate.  Sometimes it is hard to remember especially when you are struggling and dealing with w/d. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 02:32 PM

AliG -

 

Thank you for celebrating with me.  I constantly find myself thinking about how far I still have to go in this process instead of looking at how far I have come.  It is very easy to develop a negative mindset in w/d and that is certainly what I have done.  I did take the time to celebrate and reflect on how far I have come.  I certainly do not feel like I am in a window or anything but I am trying to change my mindset.  I know that will take time since I have been negative the whole 20 months that I have been in withdrawal.

 

Thank you for saying that I had shown strength.  I don't view myself as being strong, but I guess I am. 

 

Let this journey of healing continue...


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 02:34 PM

doggiemama -

 

Thank you for your kind words.  I will continue to hang on the best that I can.  It is certainly a struggle.  Never thought that you would have to have so much patience in dealing with withdrawal. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 02:39 PM

brassmonkey -

 

Thank you.  I took the time that I needed to celebrate.  I am still struggling, but I didn't want my 20 month anniversary to be all focused on how bad I still feel.  This whole process has been so frustrating.  I am hoping one day that I get to the point that my withdrawal is an afterthought. Withdrawal is certainly all consuming. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 02:40 PM

Shakeyjerr -

 

Thank you.  I appreciate all your support and kind words.


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 02:46 PM

anongrl5590 -

 

Thanks for your kind words and saying you are proud of me.  I greatly appreciate it.  I agree that changing our perception of the situation can really turn our experience around for the better, or at least that is what I am hoping.  Getting to a point of positive thinking is hard.  I am not 100% there.  On my 20th anniversary I was ready to celebrate.  I was tired of saying I am so many months off but I am still struggling.  It is still the truth but I just didn't want to say it.  My negative mindset and thought process kept sending me down a negative road.  For once during this whole process I wanted to not think about how I was feeling. 

 

I hope that you are getting some relief.  I know this is very hard, but you can do it!!!!


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 30 April 2017 - 04:13 PM

Frogie -
 
Thank you for saying that I deserve to celebrate.  Sometimes it is hard to remember especially when you are struggling and dealing with w/d.


It is hard but look how far you have come. :)

You will feel better soon, just take care of yourself.

I am still on the poison!

Take care,
Frogie xx
PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Zoloft, 1997-1999; switch to Paxil, 1999-2002 ___2009 - 2015: Gabapentin, 900mg, 2010-2015: tapered of 9 weeks, last dose Sept. 2015, no symptoms ___ Lamictal, 300mg, 2009-2015, taper of 6 weeks, last dose Oct 2015,no symptoms ___ Valium, 40mg, 2008-2015, 8 week taper, last dose Dec 2015, no symptoms ___ 2016: Carafate 1mg (anti-ulcer med) 4x a day as needed. Prescribed but not taking it. ___ Prilosec 40mg; 28-Aug started 25% taper; 1-Oct 20mg a.m. + 15mg p.m. Stopped Nov 26, 2016 w/rebound acid but not too bad.---CURRENT MEDICATIONS---Supplements: 150 mg Mag chloride, 350mg Krill Oil, Milk Thistle, ProbioticFor nausea as needed: Zantac, 300mg only "as needed". Zofran 4mg for nausea; only take it when nausea is unbearable or phenegran.Xanax, 3 mg in 4 split doses, 2008-present Lexpro: 2002 - March 2016: 20 mg; Mar-Apr 2016: 8 week taper 20 mg - 10 mg; 8-June 9mg; 13-June 10 mg; 11-Sep 7.5 mg; 25-Sep 5 mg; 5-Oct 10mg; started taking Liquid Lexapro in Nov 2016; started taper with liquid 1-Jan-17 9mg; 22-Jan 8.1mg; 22-Feb 7.3 mg, (horrible nausea); 30-Mar, updosed to 7.6 (1st morning, not as much nausea, hopefully it will get better); nausea was brutal; 6-April, updosed to 7.9mg, hoping nausea will let up; nausea stopped on 14-April for 2 days so far; 17-April nausea started back up :( stopped supplements on 10-April

Levothyroxine
50mcg 18-April for hypothydroidism Stopped by dr. on 20-April too many side effects, going to try again in 6 months

#304 anongrl5590

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Posted 01 May 2017 - 10:06 AM

anongrl5590 -

 

Thanks for your kind words and saying you are proud of me.  I greatly appreciate it.  I agree that changing our perception of the situation can really turn our experience around for the better, or at least that is what I am hoping.  Getting to a point of positive thinking is hard.  I am not 100% there.  On my 20th anniversary I was ready to celebrate.  I was tired of saying I am so many months off but I am still struggling.  It is still the truth but I just didn't want to say it.  My negative mindset and thought process kept sending me down a negative road.  For once during this whole process I wanted to not think about how I was feeling. 

 

I hope that you are getting some relief.  I know this is very hard, but you can do it!!!!

 

 

I totally understand. I am the exact same way right now. My depression has been the deepest, darkest black hole that consumes me every second, everyday. It really is SO hard to change my perception because I think about my symptoms 24/7. What symptoms are you experiencing now? See any improvements so far? 


My medication -- Prozac
August 2015: Started on 10mg/day
September 2015 to May 2016: Increased to 20mg/day
May 2016: Abruptly stopped 20mg for 2 weeks (withdrawal symtoms arose but assumed it was worsened depression)
June 2016 to August 2016: increased to 40mg (my body reacted very badly to this dose)
August 2016: decreased back to 20mg
September 2016: tapered off 10mg this month alone
September 30, 2016: last day of Prozac
October 2016: month long window
November 2016-Present: WD symptoms (too many physical sxs and some mental sxs)
February 5-20, 2017: Reinstated at 1-2mg // February 21, 2017: Back to no meds

 


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Posted 01 May 2017 - 04:47 PM

o2bhappy you have come so far, you may not see it, but even the tone of your updates show such improvement.  you are so very strong.  I celebrate with you.  Well done!!


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Posted 03 May 2017 - 05:57 AM

Frogie -

 

You are right...I should look at how far I have come, but sometimes that is difficult.  I always think how much farther do I have to go to be able to say I am 100% and out of withdrawal.  


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 03 May 2017 - 06:03 AM

anongrl5590 -

 

My physical symptoms are: smell hallucinations, internal shaking, breathing issues,  insomnia, hot flashes and night sweats (that could be from menopause).   The emotional/psychological symptoms are DP/DR, crying, anxiety, no motivation, depression, scared feelings, and intrusive thoughts.  I might be forgetting something.  Yes I have seen symptoms improve, but I have seen others stay the same.  I think I am becoming use to the physical symptoms.  The psychological ones are very hard for me to deal with right now.   I am working on "allowing" these feelings but it is difficult to allow something that you don't want.  I think that is one of my biggest hurdles in withdrawal.   


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 03 May 2017 - 06:05 AM

mustangwoman -

 

Thank you for celebrating with me.  I greatly appreciate it.  I don't consider myself strong, but I guess you have to be strong to get through withdrawal.  Maybe one day I will go back and read my introduction to see how far I have come.  Like you said, I don't see it. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 03 May 2017 - 06:08 AM

One thing that I have been struggling with lately is my lack of motivation.  Before taking Prozac and even on Prozac I was very motivated.  Since being in withdrawal I have lost all motivation.  I understand when I was extremely sick that I wouldn't have motivation to do anything, but now that I am beginning to feel better why hasn't the motivation come back.  Is lack of motivation actually a w/d symptom?   How do you get your motivation back?  Any suggestions would be greatly appreciated it.


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 03 May 2017 - 06:43 AM

Happy. I hope you don't mind if I call you that . It's more positive for me at least.

 

I have had the whole lack of motivation thing too. In fact I'm still struggling with it also. I think it's a withdrawal symptom and also associated with anhedonia etc. I do believe it will pass like most symptoms do. It just takes time and extreme patience.

 

How do you get it back ?  Behave your way there. I believe it is a muscle that we need to exercise everyday.

 

Today stretches ahead of me, waiting to be shaped.

 

And here I am , the sculptor who gets to do the shaping.

What today will be like is up to me . 

I get to choose what kind of day I will have !

 

Have a great day ..... unless you have other plans.


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Posted 03 May 2017 - 01:31 PM

Frogie -
 
Thank you for saying that I deserve to celebrate.  Sometimes it is hard to remember especially when you are struggling and dealing with w/d.


I'm sure it's very difficult, but sit back and say, look how far I've come. :)

You have given me hope, and I have a long way to go! But I've come a long way too!

Take care,
Frogie xx
PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Zoloft, 1997-1999; switch to Paxil, 1999-2002 ___2009 - 2015: Gabapentin, 900mg, 2010-2015: tapered of 9 weeks, last dose Sept. 2015, no symptoms ___ Lamictal, 300mg, 2009-2015, taper of 6 weeks, last dose Oct 2015,no symptoms ___ Valium, 40mg, 2008-2015, 8 week taper, last dose Dec 2015, no symptoms ___ 2016: Carafate 1mg (anti-ulcer med) 4x a day as needed. Prescribed but not taking it. ___ Prilosec 40mg; 28-Aug started 25% taper; 1-Oct 20mg a.m. + 15mg p.m. Stopped Nov 26, 2016 w/rebound acid but not too bad.---CURRENT MEDICATIONS---Supplements: 150 mg Mag chloride, 350mg Krill Oil, Milk Thistle, ProbioticFor nausea as needed: Zantac, 300mg only "as needed". Zofran 4mg for nausea; only take it when nausea is unbearable or phenegran.Xanax, 3 mg in 4 split doses, 2008-present Lexpro: 2002 - March 2016: 20 mg; Mar-Apr 2016: 8 week taper 20 mg - 10 mg; 8-June 9mg; 13-June 10 mg; 11-Sep 7.5 mg; 25-Sep 5 mg; 5-Oct 10mg; started taking Liquid Lexapro in Nov 2016; started taper with liquid 1-Jan-17 9mg; 22-Jan 8.1mg; 22-Feb 7.3 mg, (horrible nausea); 30-Mar, updosed to 7.6 (1st morning, not as much nausea, hopefully it will get better); nausea was brutal; 6-April, updosed to 7.9mg, hoping nausea will let up; nausea stopped on 14-April for 2 days so far; 17-April nausea started back up :( stopped supplements on 10-April

Levothyroxine
50mcg 18-April for hypothydroidism Stopped by dr. on 20-April too many side effects, going to try again in 6 months

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Posted 04 May 2017 - 05:03 AM

AliG -

 

Please call me Happy.  That is much more positive.  It could imply that I am actually Happy instead of wish and longing to be Happy. 

 

I am sorry to hear that you also struggle with lack of motivation.  It isn't an easy thing to get around.  I find my lack of motivation might also stem from lack of desire.  Perhaps it is anhedonia. 

 

I like your suggestion of behaving my way to motivation.  I guess that is like fake it until you make it.  I will work on sculpting my motivation.  I know that will be easier said then down.  Some days it is just easier to sit and do nothing.  I will find myself just staring off into space without a care in the world. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 04 May 2017 - 05:06 AM

Frogie -

 

I am so glad that I can give you hope.  When I first started down this journey of withdrawal hell all I wanted was hope.  I am glad to know that I now can give someone hope.  I think that is what we all need during this healing journey.  Going through withdrawal can cause such despair. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 09 May 2017 - 12:49 PM

I think it is one thing to not be motivated, but I think it is something else to not have a desire to do anything.  I am assuming my lack of desire is a withdrawal symptom and I am praying it goes away.  No wonder I am not motivated.  It is frustrating with being perfectly content to sit in my living room and stare outside.  That isn't living.  That is existing and taking up space.  How do you find the desire to do things?  My poor house needs cleaned so bad and I don't have the desire or motivation to get it done.  I know it needs to be done, but I am allowing my lack of desire to rule my life. 

 

Any suggestions???  Thoughts would be greatly appreciated!!!


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My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

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#315 ShakeyJerr

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Posted 09 May 2017 - 03:51 PM

I believe that small accomplishments can spark motivation, O2. So my suggestion would be to pick a small, easy chore to do around the house. Do it. Bask in the accomplishment. Do it again.

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Prozac & Lithium from 1999 to 2003 (I don't remember the dosages). Went off but developed symptoms so put back on after 4 months.

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#316 MollyN

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Posted 09 May 2017 - 08:08 PM

Hi happy!

 

I really like your question because I'm in a situation where if I lose my job (I'm still in (NZ's) 90 day trial period) I'll be back home and this is likely to very quickly leave my mind with nothing much to occupy it, which leaves me WIDE open to depression and general blah. 

 

I have come up with a sort of plan if this does eventuate and I wonder if this might be useful for you too?

 

I'm going to take a full inventory of my life. What bits do I feel ok about, what bits would I love to add to, develop?

Then I'm going to ask: what would make me feel good to achieve/be doing?

When I lack ideas, it helps me to imagine what sort of things an imaginary person I admire would do with their time and life - what they might be involved in, enjoy doing - then kind of copy those things and integrate them into my own life.. lol well Happy, I don't know yet whether this starting point would be helpful or add anything to either you or I!

 

I was a SAHM for 14yrs or so, and one thing I quite enjoyed doing was decluttering and rearranging (I hate cleaning because it's continuous, but one-off 'big bang' sessions I enjoyed) until one day, I didn't. I just hit the wall and knew I needed to do something outside the home, it had become my prison rather than my refuge. 

 

I imagine  I'm return to study in the short term if I lose my job, just to save me from that sinking feeling I can imagine I'd get staring at the same four walls each day.

 

I'd love to know how you're getting on xxxmollyn


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  • Prescribed paroxetine 20mg (Paxil) in 2001 for 'prenatal depression' - and again in 2003 - withdrew just fine 2 mths later. 
  • Prescribed  paroxetine 20mg (Paxil) in 2008 for PTSD (domestic violence)
  • Went cold turkey - I didn't know better (disaster!!!!! - prescribed more terrible drugs to control first lot of terrible drugs (but luckily I threw them in the bin )
  • So I stayed on 20mg  out of fear! I don't want to be the mean crazy person I am when I stop it.
  • March 2014 started 'Willy-nilly Cut Sliver off the side' approach to withdrawal - thank goodness for this site - stopped that.
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Presently: One day I simply had enough and stopped taking it, after 8 years. Didn't get my usual horrid side effects, which was extraordinary.  Now about 8 mths (April 2017) off the drug altogether.  Mostly I notice my memory is extremely poor. 

 


#317 O2bhappy

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Posted 15 May 2017 - 01:51 PM

ShakeyJerr-

 

Thank you for the suggestion of doing something small.  I have noticed that when I do things around the house that I do feel better, just hard to get the motivation to even start.  I have so much to do I just don't know where to begin.  I do agree that starting small and basking in the accomplishment would be good for me.  I will try it over the next couple of days and let you know if I am successful!


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 15 May 2017 - 02:18 PM

MollyN -

 

I certainly hope that you do not lose your job.  When you do not have much to occupy your mind I believe it makes withdrawal worse.  I am in the position where I do not have enough to occupy my thoughts so I tend to focus on my withdrawal, which I know isn't helpful at all.  

 

I like the idea of doing an inventory of my life, but I think it might depress me because I might start focusing on what I have not achieved.  But I guess I could also focus on what I would like to achieve.  When I was younger I had a lot of hopes and dreams of the future, but I haven't had many of those lately.  Unfortunately, all I seem to dream about is the day I feel like my old self and I am not dealing with withdrawal.  

 

It would probably do me good if I had a hobby that I was interested in doing.  Something that might provide me with some enjoyment. Maybe that should be part of my inventory.  


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.






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