it all started when i had paranoia and panic attacks. they were getting so bad that i had to call the police for help sometimes. i was put in the psych ward and was given risperidone unwillingly, little did i know that this would change my life in a bad way. i was on risperidone for 3 weeks at 3mg a day doses and a couple injections of 7mg. the risperidone made me feel so uncomfortable that one time when they gave me the pill to swallow, i pretended i swallowed it and instead used my tongue to push it on the side of my mouth to spit out later (they had to watch me take it to make sure i took it). when i was out of the psych ward i kept taking the drug for a week, then i stopped because it was unbearable...thank god i stopped.
here are the effects of the risperidone that i have and that haven't disappeared still after almost 5 months of being off of it:
- destroyed libido, i even went 51 days without ejaculation...still no libido
- muscle weakness, i used to be a gym rat....goodbye to that i guess
- i gained 14 pounds and i never gain weight like that
- emotions are weakned. when i'm happy, i'm not as happy as i should be. when i'm sad, it feels artificial, but the emotion is still there (hard to explain). i just don't feel normal anymore, just blankness.
my incredible withdrawal after i stopped cold turkey: i was SHAKING so badly. it has so far been the worst experience of my life, the withdrawal lasted two weeks, after that, all that was left are the symptoms above. i feel extremely tense and tight and for some reason pain felt relieving. when i would walk out in the cold wind, it felt good...it was weird.
has anyone recovered fully from risperidone? i have yet to hear a full recovery story but it's nice to know people are going thru the same thing that i am. thanks for reading.