CharlieBrown

CharlieBrown's Long Road To Success!

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It has been years since I took medications, I was 16 when I took them in 2009, and went through a few different brands.

I have copied some of my introduction story to make things easier for me.

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/5232-%E2%98%BC-hello-charliebrown-script-free/#entry67166

 

Starting with Fluoxetine 10mg for 1 month.

Then Venlafaxine for 1 month at 75mg then, 3 months at 150mg.
1 month of Clonazepam 0.5mg as I was tapered off Venlafaxine and onto Sertraline 50mg.

Then I took Sertraline 100mg for 4 months.
 

Still experiencing panic attacks, agoraphobia and paranoia. I went to the hospital during a panic attack and was given Lorazepam 1mg for 1 week.

 

This is when my psychiatrist added Risperidone on top of the Sertraline.

 

Risperidone started at 0.25mg for 3 days, then 0.5mg for one week, raised to 1.0mg for one week. After two weeks I had a check-up I told the Dr. I wasn't feeling anything and I believe he may have misinterpreted that as "no effects" but when I said it I meant that I felt no emotions. My dose was raised to 1.5mg daily.
 

After 3 days of 1.5mg I began experiencing Akathisia with no relief of anxiety. With no options in perceived sight I took all of the remaining Risperidone. Approx forty 0.5mg pills. My Parents caught me and called 911.

 

At the hospital I was given charcoal and passed out, waking hours later. After being discharged I continued to take Sertraline as prescribed for 2 months.

 

With no reduction in my anxiety and my emotions being basically non existant I decided to "take the good with the bad" and feel some kind of emotion. Over the next month and a half I slowly weaned myself off Sertraline. Popping open the capsule and throwing away 3-5 tiny XR beads a day.

 

So that's my age, meds and taper strategy.
 

How long it took to regain all my emotions and bodily functions is a hard one to answer.

 

It took about 6 months before I felt much of anything. Then the bad emotions came back, sadness, anger.

 

Slowly over the next two years I had many days that were blank and void of anything, days full of sadness, but also days where a light would shine and I would be happy. Feelings were coming back in waves and leaving again.

 

I joined this website in late 2013 and at that point I had some emotional range, a libido but no sexual pleasure.

So i guess it took about 3 years off medications to regain a good emotional range and my youthful lust.

 

I'm finally writing this success story because in the past year the lack of sexual pleasure and anhedonia are not a problem for me anymore.

 

The feelings slowly came back in waves, sometimes weak, but getting stronger and stronger.

 

Now I feel great when I hug someone or see a friend smile. Sometimes the feelings can even be overwhelming.

Like my heart is ready to burst.

 

I don't know what else to add except, it's been almost 7 years since I took medications and I am a whole new person!

Don't give up hope! Things are constantly changing, even if you don't notice.

I didn't notice the change until it was right in my face! :D

Edited by Altostrata
changed at request of OP

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Thank you CharlieBrown for coming back and sharing how you're doing now! So glad you're feeling great!!

It's so comforting for all of us who are still in the battle to know there are people like you who have recovered!

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Thanks Charlie Brown. Great story, great courage. I don't know you but I'm so so happy for you. Wishing you years of happiness and good health.and thanks for coming back and sharing x

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Hey CharlieBrown Try as they might to outsmart you like Lucy and the football, you finally kicked the psych drugs but good and for good.  Awesome!

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Thanks CharlieBrown. Have a wonderful life ahead. :)

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Wonderful success story, CharlieBrown. Thank you for writing it. Wishing you a happy and healthy drug-free life. 

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i'm sure many people still recovering will find hope from your post. congratulations on your recovery  :) .

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Thanks you for sharing your story of success. It gives me hope!

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Thank you everyone for your well wishes! This website and its community have helped me when no one else could! Thank You!
It feels good to let others know they're not alone, and that things can change for the better!
 

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It is so so good to read you tonight, Charliebrown.

 

I´m very happy for you.

 

I passed the most bitter year last winter and after that on summer I had a window when i recovered a little of my libido and my feeling come back.

 

Now i´m again bad and my sexual pleasure and libido are 0. I´m worried about this improvement was a unique fact and stay like now forever.

 

reading you cheer me up. Thanks

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I've received a few personal messages asking about the severity of sexual dysfunction I experienced. I thought I would post a few more details here.


At my very worst I had no libido, no arousal, no erections and I could feel it when touched but it was just like touching my arm or leg. Not as sensitive as it should be.

In 2013 I had a libido, arousal, erections but was still suffering from lack of sensation in my genitals. Upon climax I would have no pleasure, only muscle movements.

I thought I would never get better, I didn't try much or do anything special. But in time everything returned to normal and I have sexual pleasure again.

 

Hopefully that clears up the more private questions people may be left with after reading my story. Good Luck to you all!

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On 7/5/2016 at 0:03 AM, CharlieBrown said:

It has been years since I took medications, I was 16 when I took them in 2009, and went through a few different brands.

I have copied some of my introduction story to make things easier for me.

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/5232-%E2%98%BC-hello-charliebrown-script-free/#entry67166

 

Starting with Fluoxetine 10mg for 1 month.

Then Venlafaxine for 1 month at 75mg then, 3 months at 150mg.
1 month of Clonazepam 0.5mg as I was tapered off Venlafaxine and onto Sertraline 50mg.

Then I took Sertraline 100mg for 4 months.
 

Still experiencing panic attacks, agoraphobia and paranoia. I went to the hospital during a panic attack and was given Lorazepam 1mg for 1 week.

 

This is when my psychiatrist added Risperidone on top of the Sertraline.

 

Risperidone started at 0.25mg for 3 days, then 0.5mg for one week, raised to 1.0mg for one week. After two weeks I had a check-up I told the Dr. I wasn't feeling anything and I believe he may have misinterpreted that as "no effects" but when I said it I meant that I felt no emotions. My dose was raised to 1.5mg daily.
 

After 3 days of 1.5mg I began experiencing Akathisia with no relief of anxiety. With no options in perceived sight I took all of the remaining Risperidone. Approx forty 0.5mg pills. My Parents caught me and called 911.

 

At the hospital I was given charcoal and passed out, waking hours later. After being discharged I continued to take Sertraline as prescribed for 2 months.

 

With no reduction in my anxiety and my emotions being basically non existant I decided to "take the good with the bad" and feel some kind of emotion. Over the next month and a half I slowly weaned myself off Sertraline. Popping open the capsule and throwing away 3-5 tiny XR beads a day.

 

So that's my age, meds and taper strategy.
 

How long it took to regain all my emotions and bodily functions is a hard one to answer.

 

It took about 6 months before I felt much of anything. Then the bad emotions came back, sadness, anger.

 

Slowly over the next two years I had many days that were blank and void of anything, days full of sadness, but also days where a light would shine and I would be happy. Feelings were coming back in waves and leaving again.

 

I joined this website in late 2013 and at that point I had some emotional range, a libido but no sexual pleasure.

So i guess it took about 3 years off medications to regain a good emotional range and my youthful lust.

 

I'm finally writing this success story because in the past year the lack of sexual pleasure and anhedonia are not a problem for me anymore.

 

The feelings slowly came back in waves, sometimes weak, but getting stronger and stronger.

 

Now I feel great when I hug someone or see a friend smile. Sometimes the feelings can even be overwhelming.

Like my heart is ready to burst.

 

I don't know what else to add except, it's been almost 7 years since I took medications and I am a whole new person!

Don't give up hope! Things are constantly changing, even if you don't notice.

I didn't notice the change until it was right in my face! :D

This gives me hope. I have faith :)
i can feel sadness ,anger now

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thanks for clearing up Charlie Brown. Appreciate it . 

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yeah!!! thanks for your story!!!!!❤️

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