My biggest concern is that I still have this terrible feeling and I do not know if I can feel this way for another few months. When did you start feeling the windows?
I know each individual is different and it is dependent on various factors but is it likely that in few weeks I would experience some sort of relief? Now being on 5 mg of lexapro my intense anxiety is gone, but I still have DP/DR, fatigue, brain fog, difficulty concentrating and forgetfulness.
It is very hard to recognize the little improvements when we are still feeling so awful.
You've only just increased the lexapro 4 days ago. I know, it probably feels like 4 YEARS when you are feeling bad, but it's not been very long at all.
the good news is, the intense anxiety is gone! that is awesome and gives me hope, as I plan to increase a tiny bit tonight myself to try to reduce my anxiety to a more tolerable level.
we both got started back on this drug at roughly the same time, I reinstated on the 26th, you did so on the 31st, a few days later.
You increased 4 days ago, I am about to increase. hmm, It almost seems like we're copying each other, alternately LOL
I honestly do not think you will feel as bad as you do for months, I would really think that in a few days, or as each day passes, you will feel better. I think it's probably only going to be a matter of a few weeks, if that, before you are at least feeling well enough to not feel desperate to try something else
I know, It is very VERY hard to resist going to another drug, or continuing to increase the one you are on. but please don't make any more changes, not yet ok?
You are stronger than you think, you can make it thru this. what are you doing for self care?
let me see, you said your symptoms are fatigue (If i were you, I'd sleep when you can, does that help?) I have no clue what helps with DP/DR to be honest, I think it's one of those things were you just keep up a dialogue with yourself, reminding yourself that while things feel and seem unreal, it's just the mixed up chemicals in your brain making it seem that way. Things are still as real as they ever were, and soon you will be able to experience that again.
hmm forgetfulness, I guess making notes to yourself and what have you...
honestly, since you work, when you are home, I would spend as much time being super kind to yourself, rest when you can, listen to something soothing, take an epsom salt bath if that helps, rest some more.
your brain fog will clear and you will get your memory back.
try not to stress about it, I know that is very hard to do but it makes things worse to worry about them.
I would not take another drug, you are just asking for trouble. But that's my humble opinion, what you do is totally up to you.
you are getting thru this, you have already made it over 2 weeks. You are going to get better, it's just gonna take a wee bit more time is all.
but don't think about that, just think about tonight. what are you going to do for yourself tonight, to help you feel better?
got a tv show you look forward to watching? having a relaxing meal? going to bed early?
I am going to do a little sewing and then watch some sit coms I think.
hang in there, hon, you're doing good, it just doens't feel like it yet.
1974-2002 many psych meds, all types; longest used drugs include lithium, seroquel, SSRI's zoloft & celexa; many CT's off drugs
2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs
June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015: found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs
Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.
Oct 26 2016 reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves
Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)
Jan 12,2017 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15
Jan 26,2017 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia
March 1,2017 insomnia worse, back down to 0.29 to 0.27, to 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24 April 7 0.21 May7 0.20
March 7, 2017 added low dose lamictal, adjusting dose based on response (currently ~12.5mgs)
Supplements: Magnesium taurate 250mg, chromium, pro-biotic, biotin, glycine