Welcome to SA.
I, too, had many failed attempts to come off my drugs (including multiple benzos and z-drugs), so I do know what you're dealing with, and I know that it's still possible to taper off and recover. I'm healing slowly after 30 years use of many psych drugs.
You may have already heard of the Ashton Manual from the other forum you belong to, but just in case, I'm going to place a link to it here. We also have a small, members-only benzo forum that has information you may find helpful.
Members only benzo forum
The Ashton Manual will give you more information on what to expect with benzo withdrawal:
The 2002 Ashton Manual is at http://www.benzo.org...anual/index.htm
The April, 7 2011 Ashton Manual Supplement is at http://www.benzo.org.uk/ashsupp11.htm
Please note that even though Dr. Ashton advocated using antidepressants to come off benzos, her manual was written before a lot was known about antidepressant withdrawal. We do not advocate the use of other drugs to help with symptoms, as it generally causes problems due your already destabilized central nervous system (CNS).
I noticed in your signature that you're also on Doxepin, which is an older tricyclic antidepressant. Please give us more information about your Doxepin use, including when you started on it and what dose you are on.
Although it's best to continue on with your Valium taper first, I'm going to give a link to coming off doxepin, as this thread gives a lot of information about this drug:
Tips for tapering doxepin (Sinequan, Zonalon)
We have some great non-drug coping skills that members find very effective:
Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms
Important topics about symptoms, including sleep problems
After you have a chance to read over these links, please let us know if you have any questions or any symptoms you would like help with.
This is your thread for listing symptoms and asking plenty of questions.
Locked up and forced onto drugs as a teenager - misdiagnosed manic depressive.
Developed dependency and stayed on cocktails of drugs for nearly 30 years.
My Intro: Shep's Journey
My List of Non-Drug Coping Skills - Non-Drug Coping Toolkit for DP/DR
Last drug cocktail: Seroquel, Halcion, Klonopin, Sonata, Vibrydd, and Dexetrine
After 30 years of polydrug use, completely med free May 22, 2015.
Remaining symptoms: dp/dr with memory problems and insomnia
I am not a medical professional, and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.