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#1 Moui

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Posted 09 December 2016 - 10:21 AM

I hope I can give some encouragement to someone with my small contribution. I have finally recovered 100%. No lingering symptoms, nothing. I'm back to who I was when I started this 7 year ssri journey back in 2009.

 

I used to hate when some people had a habit of saying something vague like we'll never be the same people and that everyone changes. That is to say that my original issues were never solved (mainly situational social anxiety), but they are unrelated to the SSRI madness I endured. The drugs never helped but they sure as hell threw my life into a mess. My original issues are a walk in the park compared to that hell you all know. And I am finally in the past two years making huge leaps in those with actual proper treatment (non-drug).

 

I've been a member since 2012 but I've never posted here. I used to be a regular at PP (PaxilProgress) until it shut down and also on IAWP (International Antidepressant Withdrawal Project). I see some familiar names post here, but most of you won't remember me. I stopped posting alltogether as I started improving. The downside of these forums is that as you get better, you REALLY want to put such a traumatic experience behind and move on so the forums tend to become an echo chamber of those still suffering and it can give a really negative vibe. BUT I would not have made it through without all the info here so a big thank you to Alto and everyone for still keeping at least this forum running.

 

This is going to be LONG, but it's my 7 years on ssris 4 of which I spent tapering condensed. It has a happy ending.

2009:

In 2009 I had a lot of school(high school in english?)&other stress and went to a doctor (cardiologist) for heart palpitations. I was quickly given a prescription for 20mg citalopram. I suffered a very harsh adverse reaction consisting of tacticle hallucinations - my limbs felt like they were stretching several meters, akathisia, anxiety and agitation ramped up to unnatural levels and complete insomnia for 3 days. I was a mess and my emotions were all over. Finally contacted the doctor who prescriped oxazepam (benzo) for "start up symptoms". Eventually it passed and I turned into a lazy but content dough boy, gained about 15kilos weight in a few months. I slept most of the time and remember once when I was out biking I fell asleep on a bench.

 

2010:

First attempt to discontinue ssri with doctors orders: half dose for a week, quarter for another and then off or something along those lines. Head zaps and a tic in my left eye were the initial symptoms. The late onset WD was only about to start later.

 

Main symptoms that only seemed to increase in the first 2 months (I'm not sure if I remember all of them):

Derealization: (felt like I was detached from the world, alone in some sort of purgatory looking the world through a glass)

Anhedonia&Dysphoria: I couldn't feel any pleasure but I also felt like there is normally a sort of endorphin cloud protecting us and with this missing everything

felt horrible. Like nerves being completely raw. Everything felt uncomfortable, clothes, air, light, sound.. just constant unreleting discomfort and pain.

Burning skin: Sort of addon to above. Awful suffering like every atom in my body was on fire.

Weird OCD thoughts: Normal things seemed scary/creepy/weird and I couldn't stop thinking about them. I remember looking at people and visualizing their intestines and skeletons and thinking how creepy this world is. Other times it was gravity.. these automatic ruminations seemed to pop up and then I just couldn't stop thinking about it.

Lack of concentration & Rumination: Ties to the above. Because I had these thoughts going on in my head ALL the time I couldn't concentrate at all. I couldn't read, I couldn't watch tv and on the worst days I remember I couldn't have proper conversations because I couldn't "hear" what the other person was saying as I was so busy inside my head.

All sorts of sexual dysfunction: Lack of any sensation&pleasure was the most noticeable.. but also libido issues - sometimes zero interest and capability and sometimes compulsive masturbation despite not ufeeling anything.

Mood: Insane&unnatural anxiety/agitation and depression beyond anything I could have imagined possible. Anger, irritability..

Insomnia: I think I slept every other night or so and waking up multiple times, a lot of nightmares and more creepy thoughts when lying in bed eyes closed.

Nausea

 

I managed to finish school before I "peaked" symptoms wise but not with as good grades as I would have. After that for about 6 months I saw NO windows. I dropped out of society and lived with my mom. I thought I had suffered some sort of a mental break down/early psychosis. If I left the house I had earplugs and sunglasses to avoid any extra stimulation. I quit our band and my days consisted of trying all kinds of self help remedies to find any respite and a lot of fetal position+relaxation tapes. I tried eating healthy, meditating, breathing, supplements all that but nothing seemed to make a change.

Eventually I saw brief windows... the first one I remember was when I was walking from the kitchen to my room and the carpet felt soft. It wasn't like a moment of AHHH how comfortable but I hadn't felt anything nice until then. Not even a tiniest bit of runners high from jogging or anything. These windows started appearing more and I could sort of start paying attention to tv shows especially stand up comedy which requires a short attention span. Next 6 months I improved more and found some coping ways and things that helped me but I was still unable to work, study etc.

 

2011

Remember that at this point I did not know that the ssri had done this. Any doctor I visited during the beginning stages completely dismissed that possibility like it was ridiculous. I made the critical error of re-instating the very same drug that caused this as after a year I felt like I had to do something, I couldn't just watch my life slip away and a year of torment felt like 10 years.

Again I had some start up symptoms followed by the idgaf-lazy attitude and drowsiness. I still had some lingering symptoms but I felt good and could start participating in the world. I finished the mandatory military service in my country.

 

2012

Second time trying to get off. Less zaps this time. But when the WD hit this time it hit HARD and sudden. There was the same calm before the storm. One evening I felt a little off and canceled meeting my friends and went to bed early. I jolted up early morning with all the same symptoms as before but to such extreme degree I jumped out of bed and ran out the door. I was so confused but sort of in that moment I realized what had happened. The SSRI. It was a few weeks - a month since I quit. I almost jumped under the metro as I knew that I could not tolerate this. Not again here in this hell. I ran around the running track of my home in this confused state sort of trying to put together what was going on. I eventually got home and took the ssri... I think I took some more and in a panic frenzied state crushed a pill rubbing it to my gums trying to get it to work. I don't remember much of this but I think it was a day or two when it started kicking in. During this time I was lying in bed constantly kicking with my feet to release the tension. I was googling on my phone and found the forums for the first time and my eyes finally opened.

 

This time the reinstatement didn't work fully but enough that I wasn't suicidal or in that bad of a shape. I didn't feel good but much better than the 2 times off in complete WD. My mood was unstable to say the least and I had these occasional headache/eye pain attacks when I felt like I was stabbed in my eyes/brain and had to lie in bed with the lights off. Also had some odd pressure sensations in my head.

 

This is when I joined PaxilProgress and started absorbing all the info I could. I was sort of functional but traumatized and so for a long time I just played video games and read/posted on the forums, occasionally going to the gym. I could have started working but I just couldn't believe this new world I had entered where the people I trusted were now completely against me (doctors, family) in the most horrible experience of my life.

This is when I started tapering properly, with the support of you amazing people. (Special thanks to brassmonkey's slide method)

 

2013-2014

Wow, time flies. I honestly don't remember much of this time. Part of it is because I was on the drug and in that hazy ssri state, part of it is because I didn't do much.. I was so afraid of what was going to happen as I got lower on the dose. I found a compassionate therapist but I'm not sure how much help that was overall. At a snail pace I tapered. And I read more, and more. I exercised and ... was a lazy ssri zombie.

 

The reinstatement stabilized at some point & the slow taper kept me ok. It wasn't anything like the previous attempts. I could have worked some simple job at least but.. well, I just didn't. I was scared I would crash eventually. I was one of those who wasn't going to recover, I could always think of some reason to think the damage would be permanent or at least I would forever be left with lingering issues. The recovery stories were inspiring but there was always the nagging doubt I wouldn't be one of those: my history was too messy, my symptoms too severe - my brain has to be fried and I'll forever be crippled, too many reinstatements, too many adverse effects, the recovered ones had different symptoms, I had started using the drugs when I was still developing.. etc etc.

 

But sure enough things got better. By the end of 2014 I applied for a few jobs and got one. It was simple manual labour. I had such a low self esteem for being an outcast for so long and having a CV with a hole so big you could drive a truck through. I felt a bit like an alien among normal people. So I overcompensated maybe a bit and I guess that got noticed and I got a few raises and ended up in a managerial position despite my social anxiety. My self esteem grew, I even met a girl through work that I had a short relationship with. I was still tapering, sloooooooooowly.

 

2015

 

While I was working I started studying again in my freetime and during lunch breaks. Basic math.. and I applied and went to study HVAC&electrical engineering. It had been 6 years since I had read any sort of a school book but I passed barely and got accepted.

It was a bit of a struggle at first considering most of my classmates came straight from high school but I did ok. It was a struggle keeping up and paying attention in lectures but I kept improving. My dose at this point was miniscule. I tapered down to the tiniest crumb my scale could weigh and then started carving it by eye.. it was eventually the size of a needle tip. When that got too hard I started halving a pill, scraping a tiniest amount with my nail and licking it. I was STILL deathly afraid of letting go. I'm pretty sure I was already off at that point, but I've always been a bit of a pessimist.. I started going out with friends and got drunk the first time in forever.

At this point I don't think I had any or at most barely noticeable WD effects.

 

2016

 

The summer of 2016 I worked at a construction site and by the end of the summer I realized I had forgotten my "lick the ssri" habit for a week or so. I was terrified but thought maybe I'd let it go. The first month or so whenever I felt anything odd I would get the thought "Oh no is it going to start, why did I stop that" etc. School had started again.

 

It's now 4+ months since I've touched the ssri. Nothing has happened - it's over! I survived. Not with style but I got through. Despite being negative, despite feeding myself with all kinds of bad thoughts I recovered COMPLETELY. And I'm getting pretty decent grades. Average to above average.

 

My taper was quite possibly way longer than it needed to be (4 years total) but it worked. And honestly if any of you have a semi stable taper just go slooow.. I know you know all this and there are much smarter and more knowledgeable people here but I want to emphasize that.

Because in the end there is no parade waiting. Nobody in the real world except my therapist and my roommate knows I finished. There was no great celebration. Nobody cares and life goes on.

 

BUT inside I have the biggest party ever. I can't believe I'm here on the other side. NEVER again am I going to be there in that living hell or touch any psych med.

Like I said at the beginning I recovered 100%. During my taper I of course adopted a very healthy lifestyle, but this is the greatest part (and it's very politically incorrect, but screw it):

 

I don't have to live like a patient anymore. I still try to eat healthy and exercise and whatnot but it's F-ing amazing to be able to not give a crap about every small decision of what to put in my body. I don't advocate any of the following to anyone but I can pull all nighters with coffee flowing in my veins like any other student to finish projects for deadlines. I can drink coffee (couldn't have imagined during WD - even tea or coke threw me for a loop for days).

I can get drunk with my friends and I'll have a hangover, like anyone else. But nothing more. While writing this I drank a cup of coffee and smoked 2 cigarettes (habit I picked up recently, should quit). And I'm sitting here in my comfy chair and I feel great, listening to good music, completely relaxed and feeling great despite being in the most stressful school period before Christmas vacation.

I'm not sure if I should mention this and I'm not proud of it but in the summer I went to a 3 day music festival and there were a lot of recreational drugs going around and well yep... My point being that I am OK. I'm not left with any sort of hypersensitivity or "scars". I can do stupid things and it won't send me back into a wave.

There's nothing special about me, I'm not a genious and I certainly didn't do things right or with the greatest attitude but I. Recovered. Completely.

 

I hope so badly that this gives at least a bit of respite to anyone in a bad place right now. Tears welled up a bit while typing this as I haven't thought about any of this in quite a while. I wish I had more to give. There were some things that helped alleviate my symptoms at times but I'm sure you have a wealth of knowledge beyond mine on this forum.

 

Thank you for having the patience to read through this, sorry for my english (non native) and stay strong guys! Or don't .. just stay in there. :P



#2 rowinghippy

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Posted 09 December 2016 - 11:09 AM

Moui, that's really great to hear you recovered completely. I for one can't imagine that for myself, so it's a little hopeful to hear your story. I'm curious if you've since lost the weight you gained on meds (it's done the same to me)?

 

But really, really happy for you. Wish you the best with life going forward, and thank you.


4/24/16: 20 mg citalopram

8/1/16: 15 mg

8/22/16: 10 mg

9/16/16: reinstated to 12 mg

12/1/16: 11 mg

2/20/17: 10 mg

 

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#3 brassmonkey

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Posted 09 December 2016 - 11:24 AM

Hi Moui-- I remember you well from Prior Place.  Welcome to SA. I wish more new members could write an introduction like that.  Congratulations on being drug free and returning to a full life.  You add quite an inspiration to the Success Story Forum.

 

Best wishes for a continued wonderful life.

 

Brass


20 years on Paxil starting at 20mg and working up to 40mg. Sept 2011 started 10% every 6 weeks taper (2.5% every week for 4 weeks then hold for 2 additional weeks), currently at 7.9mg. Oct 2011 CTed 15oz vodka a night, to only drinking 2 beers most nights, totally sober Feb 2013.

Since I wrote this I have continued to decrease my dose by 10% every 6 weeks (2.5% every week for 4 weeks and then hold for an additional 2 weeks). I added in an extra 6 week hold when I hit 10mg to let things settle out even more. When I hit 3mg it became hard to split the drop into 4 parts so I switched to dropping 1mgpw (pill weight) every week for 3 weeks and then holding for another 3 weeks.  The 3 + 3 schedule turned out to be too harsh so I cut back to dropping 1mgpw every 4 weeks which is working better.

Current dose 0.000mg 04-15-2016

 

"It's also important not to become angry, no matter how difficult life is, because you can loose all hope if you can't laugh at yourself and at life in general."  Stephen Hawking


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Posted 09 December 2016 - 11:26 AM

Moui, that's really great to hear you recovered completely. I for one can't imagine that for myself, so it's a little hopeful to hear your story. I'm curious if you've since lost the weight you gained on meds (it's done the same to me)?

 

But really, really happy for you. Wish you the best with life going forward, and thank you.

 

 

Yes, it's gone. Last year I was in the best physical shape of my life but I've been slacking off with the gym lately.

 

Best of luck!



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Posted 09 December 2016 - 11:37 AM

Hi Moui-- I remember you well from Prior Place.  Welcome to SA. I wish more new members could write an introduction like that.  Congratulations on being drug free and returning to a full life.  You add quite an inspiration to the Success Story Forum.

 

Best wishes for a continued wonderful life.

 

Brass

 

((((Big  hug)))))



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Posted 10 December 2016 - 09:59 AM

Moui,

 

Amazing story, just the type of thing I needed to read today, so thanks for coming back to write it.

 

All the best.

 

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<p>Dec 2012 - Some benzo's, some AD's for PTSD induced anxiety and insomnia

August 2013 - things go south with benzo (Klonipin), tolerance withdrawal, REALLY SICK, AD's (effexor/citalopram) added for "reset"!?!?, EVEN SICKER

Dec 2013 - RESEARCH begins…located Ashton manual (first breakthrough), my A-HA moment = benzo + too fast WD of other meds caused this mess...

Jan 2014 - convinced to take Mirtazapine 15-30 mg to help with Klonipin/ temazepam/ Citalopram taper, hit with wd symptoms but powered through

Feb 2014- stopped Klonopinipin (too quick taper but was destroying CNS) -, more wd symptoms but masked by Mirtazapine

March 2014 - silly ct attempt of 30mg Mirt , HORRIBLE hwd, no sleep, lasted 1 month, found this site (second breakthrough), armed with new knowledge, began proper slow taper of Mirtazapine and doing exponentially better, roughly 10% of each dose, and some long holds!

April 2014 - reinstate 7.5 mg Mirt, (30 day hold then slow taper for rest of year, took months to stabilize)

Jan 2015 - 3 mg (slow taper for rest of year)

Jan 2016 - 1.87 mg (slow taper for rest of year)

Jan 2017 - 0.37 mg (slow taper continues)


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Posted 11 December 2016 - 02:07 AM

Thanks for posting this success story.

 

I'm not sure why you said reinstating after a year was a "critical error" though. You mentioned that you had no improvements in 1 year and it seems like you eventually stabilized on the drug which allowed you to do a slow taper and recover.


December 2010: 10mg Citalopram

April 2011: 5mg for 2 weeks then cold turkey withdrawal - Extremely bad depression / no emotions

June 2011: Reinstated 10mg - After 3 weeks started getting impulsive suicidal thoughts

July 2011: Cold turkey - Withdrawal hell begins...


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Posted 11 December 2016 - 04:50 AM

Yay! another success story :)  Thank you Moui

 

Gotta keep havin faith......and reading your story helps.


<p>Feb 2014 -Cipralex/Escitalopram 10mg daily June 2015 - Started taper, 5mg every other day July 2015 - 5mg every 2 days August 2015 - 5mg every 3 days September 2015 - 5mg every 4 days Sept 14th - Completed tapering, but at 7 weeks "drug free" I suffered serious WD symptoms as a consequence of "incorrect" tapering. Nov 25 2015 - Re-instated Cipralex @ 2.5mg daily. WD symptoms disappeared over a few days. Have been on this dose ever since and am experiencing "windows" and "waves". Nov 15th 2016 Re-started Therapy Jan 19th 2017 Started CBT. Jan 2017 Homeopathic Treatment starts 4th Jan 2017. Mar 2017 Naturopathic Treatment starts - anti-Candida diet starts as diagnosis of Candida Related Complex (CRC). 24 March 2017 DETOX (3 weeks) started for anti-Candida to help "re-set" my gut. April 2017 "Genova Testing 3 day stool sampling" Comprehensive Analysis.  Gut Cleanse - 6 weeks.  Plan to re-start taper (liquid Cipralex/Escitalopram) when feel ready.


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Posted 11 December 2016 - 07:36 AM

Thank you so much for posting your recovery story.  It is inspirational because of your determination despite the horrible withdrawal symptoms.

 

You said you gained weight when you went on your medication.  I have as well and I wanted to know, did the weight come off when you came off your meds?  I seem to ask everyone and it's mostly for the encouragement that it can happen.  Having gained close to 30lbs, I am looking for inspiration!  Thanks. 


September 2013-April 2014: After the death of my mom in July 2012.-became very depressed in September of 2013. Given a series of antidepressants very quickly from about 4 different psychiatrists in a 6 month period. Each one was from 1 day to 10 days at the most. My body could not handle it-I had Zoloft 4 days, Lexapro-1 day, Nortriptyline-10 days, Liquid Prozac, 1 week, Cymbalta 1 week.

December 2013-September 2014: Put on Xanax after a reaction to the Lexapro, averaging .50-1mg per day. Switched to Clonazepam-midway averaging about 0.25-0.50 daily.

June 2014: Jan/Feb 2015: Put on 7.5 Remeron titrate up to 41.25mgs

September 2014-July 2015: Put on 25mgs of Lamictal titrate up to 200mgs daily. Also stopped the Clonzepam- never felt the wd I had experienced when I tried to stop it before (knowing nothing about withdrawal) because the Lamictal calmed me down.

 

Currently: Tapering both medications together using micro cuts. Started tapering Remeron in January 2015, Started tapering Lamictal July 2015 Main wd symptoms-sweating, nausea, headaches, deep crying, anxiety. 12/21/16 Remeron 1.6 Lamictal 22.50 mgs 1/19/17 Remeron 1.2mgs, Lamictal 22.50mg 2/12/17 Remeron 1.2 Lamictal 21.25 mgs 3/4/17 Remeron 0.85 Lamictal 21.25 3/14 Remeron 0.85 Lamictal 20mgs 3/22 Remeron 0.45 Lamictal 20mg 3/25 Remeron 0.45 Lamictal 18.75mgs 3/30 Remeron 0.025 4/7 Lamictal 18.75mgs Remeron 0.025

 

4/7/2017 Remeron Free stopped at 0.025mgs

 

Additional Support: Acupuncture with Reflexology, Alanon, L-Theanine for anxiety as needed, Estradial patch 0.025, Bio-indentical Progesterone cream 150-200 Armour Thyroid 90mgs.


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Posted 11 December 2016 - 01:37 PM

Thank you so much for posting your recovery story. It is inspirational because of your determination despite the horrible withdrawal symptoms.

You said you gained weight when you went on your medication. I have as well and I wanted to know, did the weight come off when you came off your meds? I seem to ask everyone and it's mostly for the encouragement that it can happen. Having gained close to 30lbs, I am looking for inspiration! Thanks.

I think his answer to your question is three posts down from his original post :D. Congrats to the OP, your story is a story of hope.

I wanted to add my experience about my weight gain. I noticed after I was completely off, half the weight was really easy to come off and the rest I had to work hard at. Healthy eating and working out. The half that easily came off was a strange water weight. There may have been a little muscle atrophy too. It was bizarre to see my whole person become unrecognizable in the mirror. In a good way because I no longer looked bloated. So be assured, with a little diligence, it comes off and you look better than ever!! Ive got some muscle definition back and i'm addicted to doing weights! Even if it's only the girly dumbbells :)
<p>10 years of ssri and finally tapered off in 2 years. Off Celexa by jan/28/2014 and off benzos by March/6th/2014 after only two months use and still experiencing withdrawal symptoms.

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Posted 11 December 2016 - 04:08 PM

Thankyou for sharing. I am so pleased you have recovered. I also read more on this forum than contribute. Wonderful helpful community
Currently on 50mg Fluvoxamine. Reading more before the next attempt at tapering.

Started Lexapro 04, have been mostly on med combinations since for 12 years.
May 2015 - zeldox 80 - 100mg, fluvoxamine 200mg, dexamphetamine 10mg
Lorazepam and clonazepam on and off for over a decade. Heavily sedated with antipsychotics - mostly Zyprexa and seroquel. Many hospitalisations. Many types of therapy, last being 7 years of psychodynamic that only figured out my pain was real.
Pain meds - Lyrica 150mg palexia 100mg - discontinued eary 2016
Done ok so far but cant drop the last antidepressant without physical illness.

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Posted 11 December 2016 - 05:20 PM

 

Thank you so much for posting your recovery story. It is inspirational because of your determination despite the horrible withdrawal symptoms.

You said you gained weight when you went on your medication. I have as well and I wanted to know, did the weight come off when you came off your meds? I seem to ask everyone and it's mostly for the encouragement that it can happen. Having gained close to 30lbs, I am looking for inspiration! Thanks.

I think his answer to your question is three posts down from his original post :D. Congrats to the OP, your story is a story of hope.

I wanted to add my experience about my weight gain. I noticed after I was completely off, half the weight was really easy to come off and the rest I had to work hard at. Healthy eating and working out. The half that easily came off was a strange water weight. There may have been a little muscle atrophy too. It was bizarre to see my whole person become unrecognizable in the mirror. In a good way because I no longer looked bloated. So be assured, with a little diligence, it comes off and you look better than ever!! Ive got some muscle definition back and i'm addicted to doing weights! Even if it's only the girly dumbbells :)

 

Thank you Tootsieroll, I missed that part of the post.  And thanks for posting your weight loss experience.  Yes, it definitely feels like a watery weight.  I tend to ask people who have come off weight the same weight loss question but it's comforting to me to do so.  I actually am looking forward to working out again.  :)


September 2013-April 2014: After the death of my mom in July 2012.-became very depressed in September of 2013. Given a series of antidepressants very quickly from about 4 different psychiatrists in a 6 month period. Each one was from 1 day to 10 days at the most. My body could not handle it-I had Zoloft 4 days, Lexapro-1 day, Nortriptyline-10 days, Liquid Prozac, 1 week, Cymbalta 1 week.

December 2013-September 2014: Put on Xanax after a reaction to the Lexapro, averaging .50-1mg per day. Switched to Clonazepam-midway averaging about 0.25-0.50 daily.

June 2014: Jan/Feb 2015: Put on 7.5 Remeron titrate up to 41.25mgs

September 2014-July 2015: Put on 25mgs of Lamictal titrate up to 200mgs daily. Also stopped the Clonzepam- never felt the wd I had experienced when I tried to stop it before (knowing nothing about withdrawal) because the Lamictal calmed me down.

 

Currently: Tapering both medications together using micro cuts. Started tapering Remeron in January 2015, Started tapering Lamictal July 2015 Main wd symptoms-sweating, nausea, headaches, deep crying, anxiety. 12/21/16 Remeron 1.6 Lamictal 22.50 mgs 1/19/17 Remeron 1.2mgs, Lamictal 22.50mg 2/12/17 Remeron 1.2 Lamictal 21.25 mgs 3/4/17 Remeron 0.85 Lamictal 21.25 3/14 Remeron 0.85 Lamictal 20mgs 3/22 Remeron 0.45 Lamictal 20mg 3/25 Remeron 0.45 Lamictal 18.75mgs 3/30 Remeron 0.025 4/7 Lamictal 18.75mgs Remeron 0.025

 

4/7/2017 Remeron Free stopped at 0.025mgs

 

Additional Support: Acupuncture with Reflexology, Alanon, L-Theanine for anxiety as needed, Estradial patch 0.025, Bio-indentical Progesterone cream 150-200 Armour Thyroid 90mgs.


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Posted 18 December 2016 - 11:00 AM

Hi Moui

Im so happy to hear someone recovered. What happened with your sexual dysfunction .When did that return ?