Ok I got off 40mg of Prozac in the fall of last year I think towards the end of October. I was ok until march of this year when I started having panic attacks again and in may I went back in after a trip to the ER and a panic attack where they gave me Xanax 16 .5 mg the first week of May.
About two weeks after that I was put back on 20mg of Prozac and took it for 9 days and it started giving me su/hm ideation so I went back in and she took me off of it and after 5 days switched me to lexapro. Started that at 10mg and after 4 days I just couldn't tolerate the drug and ended up in the ER with extreme nausea, very light headed and dizzy felt like I was gonna pass out and fall over!
So my dose was reduced to 5mg to see if I could tolerate that and I took it for about 2 1/2 weeks at that dose. The whole time I was even at 5mg I had horrible thoughts that scared me and all of the physical symptoms I listed before
So this whole time throughout the Prozac and lexapro I was taking on average between .5 to 1mg of the Xanax still to help till what I thought was gonna be getting regulated on the AD and I was told it was ok with the Xanax cause you didn't run into trouble with it unless you got up to 4-6 mg daily and of course that was wrong and I had no idea!
After the 2 1/2 weeks at 5mg of lexapro I was bumped up to the 10mg cause I was told the 5mg was just not enough and I needed to try and go back up. I was on the 10mg for about 3 weeks and again ended up in the ER several times and couldn't tolerate the drug all the same physical symptoms were intensified and the mental ones got worse too!
So after that I was told to drop back down to 5mg for a week then get off and they basically looked at me like I was crazy and said all the symptoms I was having was not the meds but anxiety and to not worry I wouldn't have any WD.
And of course that was not correct either cause after coming off the lexapro completely in July I had horrible flu like symptoms, headaches, nausea, light headed and dizzy, DP, and severe intrusive thoughts after just 6 1/2 weeks on that crap! And they lasted about 5-6 weeks before the improved from that.
I still took the Xanax on average of .75 to 1.25mg daily during this whole process and by the time I got through the lexapro nightmare in mid august I had already been on Xanax now 4 months and began to realize something wasn't right still and started doing some research and asking around found BenzoBuddies and realized that the Xanax was not helping me anymore and I had built and tolerance and was having tolerance WD from it! The symptoms were severe at this point. Heightened anxiety, severe pressure in my head and burning, evil intrusive thoughts and mad me feel like I was having a psycho breakdown it all got really bad and I tried to begin tapering immediately! Of course I don't know anything about these drugs before all this and until the damage was already done!
I tried to taper in mid august till mid October but could never get past .75mg on my own and with all the number of symptoms I was having in tolerance WD from Xanax the worst and the most scary was the evil intrusive thoughts and that's what put me in the hospital after the pressure burning and pain in combination with the thoughts got so bad I was sacred for my life and those around me!
So my family forced me into Detox and I went in on October 20 2016 for two weeks and they took me off CT [off xanax] after around 6 months of use and the first three days had me on a seizure protocol and gave me nothing to help with the WD and that was the scariest three days of my life!
After that they tried to shove all kinds of drugs in me and finally after a week in the hospital I agreed to take Zoloft 50mg only because it was something I had taking before and I would only take the lowest dose of resperdal at .5mg.
When I was trying to tell them about the severe pressure, burning and numbness in my head and the evil intrusive thoughts they looked at me like I was crazy and said that I should have been fine after 3 days and most of my symptoms were caused by OCD and anxiety but they were the crazy ones!
After 3 or 4 days they bumped me up to 75mg of Zoloft and their goal was to get me up to 150mg before I left the hospital because he said as he was looking it up on his phone which I thought was funny that o needed to be on that dose atleast to control my OCD and the resperdal would help too.
I've learned these doctors don't know half of anything about these drugs they prescribe or what they really to to people while they are on them and what happens in WD when they come off! I myself have had to learn first hand and the hard and it doesn't help when the people who are prescribing the drugs don't know jack and their answer is let's just throw more drugs at it and screw your brain up more!
Anyway so I got out after two weeks and went into outpatient treatment the first of November. Did that for a week and the wanted me to go up to 100mg of Zoloft then and go up on the resperdal and I said no way!
After I got out of outpatient I did some research of my own and cut the resperdal down to the lowest prescription dose of .25mg because everything I read said the thoughts I was having were from severe acute benzo WD and the resperdal sounded like a nightmare to get off and I don't have bi polar or hallucinations so I got off that crap two weeks later when I when's into my one month checkup with a new doctor they recommend me too. So I was on resperdal for about 4 weeks. Two weeks at .5mg and two at .25mg then off!
At my one month check up I was upped dose onthe Zoloft to 100mg. So I have now been on Zoloft 9 weeks and up to 100mg for 5 weeks.
I go back to the doctor Tuesday and it is a new doctor so I don't know how that's gonna go but I get a lot of different options about what I should do with it and I really don't know?
I'm still in acute WD from Xanax and that is just a nightmare so I can't tell what the Zoloft is doing? I have severe intense head pressure, burning and numbness that runs from my forehead all the way back to my ears and neck, severe confusion and DP/DR to the point I feel like I'm not even living in reality anymore and the horrible evil cloud and intrusive thoughts make me feel like I'm having a psycho breakdown and I'm losing my mind!
I can't hardly get up off the couch much less do anything else and this can't be WD it's pure punishment and the most horrible things I've ever been through I honestly feel like I'm dying! Sorry so long but that's the jest of it.
Edited by scallywag, 01 January 2017 - 07:52 AM.
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