So I got bored and lonely one month when the main person I hanged with when I moved to a different state went away for school for 5 months , n began drinking every other day for bout a month then had my first ever panic attack . ( before this happened I was not a very anxious person , a little social anxiety and no depression that was really that bad . I was a pretty laid back , humorous, very loving & caring , compassionate dude. )
So right off the bat doctor gave me Zoloft for panic attack. Took it for few months but had side effects I didn't care for that I can't remember what they were now . So they put me on lexapro which they told me was a new improved version of citalopram ( which I took briefly for bout 3 months in 2010 without any side effects and quit cold turkey when lost my job with only withdrawal being depressed for a week then it went away and I don't remember anything strange after that , just got back to normal )
So lexapro had bad side effects I didn't care for. Felt like I was constantly at war with myself. Could tell certain emotions and feelings were not natural to me . So I convinced doctor I just want an anti anxiety med , which was something non habit forming that took time to build up in system like antidepressant . So they said to just take 2 more 10mg doses of lexapro and stop . Well I took the new anti anxiety for maybe 3 days ( can't remember name of it ) and 2 more doses of 10 mg lexapro doses and quit .
First month don't recall any major withdrawals.
2nd month started having really bad head pressure , a lil nausea, little breathing issues, depersonalisation, anxiety , concentration problems , brief eye issues . But was still able to function and get out and drive and go places without debilitating anxiety .
But now a lil over 3 months out I feel completely debilitated. Woke up bout a week ago in a new " wave " I guess and it's the worst yet . Hard to think or remember, depression , derealisation, my true emotions almost seem non existent , or they come on very strong . Anxiety in my whole body is pretty high , feel pretty weak and achy , flu-ish, can still tell my minds not right , and difficulty breathing . Have anxiety about going anywhere and it's depressing .appetite pretty much gone , And it's very upsetting seeing my mom feel hopeless in helping me out of this .
I am just so exhausted n drained , this crap has robbed me of everything I was and pray still am, and I'm angry the docs did not try other natural solutions to deal with my panic attack issue cause all these symptoms are pure hell by comparison . Is there any way to lessen the severity of symptoms or I just got to ride it out , and I'm hoping there's no permanent damage going on and I'll get back to being my normal self, whom I miss very much .
By the way , also stopped smoking cigs after 11 long years and switched to vaping. And have no plans to ever drink again . And have not even had decaf coffee since this horrid wave started and have exercised walking and also we just moved back to my home state so got alot of exercise past 2 days . Any help would be greatly appreciated
Edited by scallywag, 07 January 2017 - 08:33 AM.