My last cut, only .5 mg went well. I had very few symptoms as opposed to all the other times I tried to taper. This time I did a very small dose, which is why it went so well. I still have many many more cuts to go but I will eventually get off. I don't want to go through any more pain. This ordeal started last summer and because I kept cutting, and cutting too fast I suffered. In November I went back up, stabilized and I am just now starting to get off.
You will be yourself again. Getting out is a good start. Hopefully, you will start to feel normal soon. Sometimes though we heal slowly and don't see it until a few months have gone by and then we realize say, hey I've been slowly feeling better, when did that happen?
I know you love your mom. Sometimes we do shut down a little when we are messed up with this medication. Hang in there, don't push it and the feelings will hopefully come back on there own.
Again, I'm so sorry this had to happen to you. It's not fair.