Hey Space -
really, like Karen, Shep, and Scally were saying - cognitive, memory, reading, comprehension - are all reasonable symptoms for the withdrawal.
I'm sorry you took such a big dose of Effexor on 3-Feb. Please make a note of that on your signature, as it may cause a bump down the road. Was it brand name effexor? When you open it up, is it tiny little beads, or is it something else (like "mini tablets")? Because normally, after you've come off of 37.5 effexor in 2016, we would suggest a reinstatement of only 5 beads. If you have "mini tabs" we'd have to think about something else.
37.5 is a huge reinstatement. We do things much tinier around here - to prevent those spacey, drugged out symptoms and various side effects.
I do believe that you could be helped by a tiny tiny reinstatement, but nothing so extreme as you took. Just 5 beads, and give it 4 full days to actually start working.
I would also call your doctor and get a copy of your blood panels. What doctors say is "okay" with thyroid is not always "okay" with patients! For example, Hashimotos antibodies show up sometimes 3 years before it affects the normal thyroid blood tests. And most doctors just use TSH. If you have exact numbers, then you know what the doctor has run - and you can decide for yourself if this is "okay" or not. Others here can help you: http://survivinganti...oid-hashimotos/
Two other things to consider: I'm a huge fan of fish oil. I do believe that it soothes an inflamed brain, lubricates nerve endings, and helps the whole system fire better. Also, magnesium is present in something like 200 biochemical cascades in the body. Learn more, here: Magnesium and Omega-3 fish oil
I was lucky, I tapered slowly, and as I tapered, my brain gradually started coming online - over about a year's time. Even better, my passion and caring for life came online; I had no idea how much that was dragging me down before. I still have some reading comprehension problems, but if I care, and persist, and re-read a lot (I'm much slower than I used to be), I can get through. We generally can get by on far less than we think we need. Also keep in mind, like Alto said - gentle exercise and sunlight will help immensely.
One last thing, healing happens in waves and windows. For me, the windows came more easily if I just learned to appreciate the tiny things. I started by reading young adult fiction - it was easy to get into, and very enjoyable. Maybe feeling the sun on my skin, or the grass under my feet is the best I can have that day. But that was 5 minutes of pleasure. If you appreciate tiny pleasures, they will string together like pearls on a strand, and the windows will open wider. But recovery is not linear, either - and a window may be followed by a wave, where things get harder. Learn what others have said about this process here: Waves and Windows
I'll leave you with a quote about road works, and the recovery process. Know that when you are struggling, you are healing. The more you let go, and let your body heal itself, the better it will be.
I really like Bubble's phrase: "Brain is closed down for repairs." I'd like to expand on that a bit - parts of your brain are closed down. Imagine very complicated road works with about 25 intersections coming together. This week, the traffic lights are shut down, and you need a cop to manage the intersection. When that is repaired, well, maybe they need to re-do the shoulders, so they can divert traffic onto them for later when the lanes are being repaired. Then there's the repairing of the lanes - it doesn't all happen at once. Sometimes they need to rip up the old tarmac, change all the drainage routes, relocate the services for electricity and plumbing, get down to the foundation, and re-grade it, lay new gravel, then steel rebar, pouring concrete foundation, then laying the asphalt. Sometimes you will go for 5 months, and the road is still closed, but you can't see what they are doing to it! Each phase requires time to set and dry. Then you can paint the lines on it, and go to another part of the intersection - perhaps one of the other incoming roads needs the same treatment. Perhaps there are exit ramps and roundabouts and flyover lanes that need repair. Each of which takes time.
Now imagine the millions of networks in your brain healing - they don't just, "heal" and be done. It's a construction process, like Bubble was saying. Road works for the brain.
Just my way of saying, be patient with yourself. It might be the tarmac this week - but the lines aren't on the road and you're disoriented. Maybe the signals are crossed at the intersections, or the signs are removed or there are detours. Be gentle with yourself, be patient with yourself. It's a complex process, and the gentler you are, the more easily you will heal. It does no good to shake your fist and yell at the construction guys while they are doing their work! So just wave (lol, wave!) at the worker, declare to yourself, "This is yet another symptom of withdrawal," and drive carefully past the obstacle.
I hope you see the sun today!
"Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna
Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again.
My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices.
A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made.
Currently Lithium Orotate 1.67 mg only. I will re-evaluate this supplement in 2017.
I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016!