Hey powerback - welcome to SA!
Do I understand that you are reducing beads on a daily basis?
This sounds too fast, still!
We have found that - in order to reduce symptoms and be successful in getting off the drugs - that 10% of prior dose - wait a month - is the best method.
As you go, sometimes you find you can speed it up, but also - you may have to slow it down. If you are having symptoms, it is a sign that you are going too fast. The goal is to sneak the drug out without your nervous system knowing about it, like playing Jenga. Once your nervous system knows, the tower collapses, and it's hard to put that genie back in the bottle. (sorry, mixed metaphors!)
Additionally, as you get closer to the lower ends of the dose, it is vitally important to slow down. Your docs may say, "oh, that's a very low dose, just drop off!" but we have learned that the lower ends of the dose occupy the receptors at a higher percentage, so that change in the dose makes a bigger difference. Here's a more scientific explanation than I could ever give: The importance of tapering on plasma concentration
That's terrific that you've got a mindfulness toolkit! You have done it like I recommend - if you do a regular practice, then the tools are available for you when you are in distress. (trying to learn the tools while you are in distress is next to impossible!). I love the daily sun-walk, too, but here in Australia, that's awfully hot sometimes, but I need it for my sleep cycles, too.
so - you will fully understand when I say what I always say:
I hope you see the sun today!
"Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna
Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again.
My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices.
A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made.
Currently Lithium Orotate 1.67 mg only. I will re-evaluate this supplement in 2017.
I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016!