Posted 21 March 2017 - 11:55 AM
I can understand these feelings. You have been through an unimaginable trauma. You have four years of damage to undo, but please trust that your body can do it! If you can find one thing to center around, whether some exercise, breathing, music, reading, nature, etc. you might be able to hang on to it while you go through the recovery. It is very hard talking to people and can feel like it is injuring you physically. If you need to stay away somehow, don't feel guilty. Come here and talk to us when you are lonely and frustrated.
Perhaps you can take part in one small part of the wedding, then find an excuse to leave? I know that parties, social gatherings, crowds, are the worst for my nervous system! Take care.
2001: prescribed Klonopin for anxiety related to IBS/weight loss
2007-2010: 3-4 different antidepressants for very short periods
2012: Diagnosed major depression: settled on Prozac 40 mg
2012: daily use of Klonopin 0.5 mg 2014: switched to Ativan 0.5 mg
2014-15: tapered down Prozac and Ativan, not successful withdrawing Ativan
2015: off Prozac, used Chinese herbs and acupuncture
2016: diagnosed major depression for second time, put back on Prozac 40 mg also various small attempts with Wellbutrin, trazodone, Rexulti, mirtazepine, but resistant to adding to my mixture
2016: Gabapentin 1800 mg for severe nerve pain in feet (believe related to meds) (B12 injections also helped)
Low mood, low energy, no motivation.Frequent anxiety between doses of Ativan. Diagnosed adrenal fatigue, supplements.
2017: 40 mg fluoxetine // 1.5 mg lorazepam // 1800 mg gabapentin // adrenal and vitamin supplements
Mar 2017: continuing 40 mg fluoxetine // 1.33 mg lorazepam // 1800 mg gabapentin // only fish oil supplementationhttp://survivinganti...apentin-enough/