Thank you so much for that! Sorry if I sounded negative, it's just been a tough past few days. I can't imagine what he must be feeling. I very well think it could be a trust issue at this point. We started out amazing as a couple, literally after about a month of being together we were inseparable, people would literally tell us we were relationship goals lol. We were that super cheesy annoying couple! We were basically always together, so I can most definitely understand why he is feeling the need to always know where I'm at if its without him to have reassurance that he won't lose me ya know? That's kinda how I feel he's thinking.
Hi Sadandconfused - every time I see you post on here you amaze me! Your clarity in posting your experiences, and sheer determination in recovering from this lack of feelings caused by the SSRI withdrawal is something which gives me hope.
Speaking as the spouse - I too can understand the need to know where you are or what you are doing etc. is important. In my case, my wife *did* cheat on me (though she still does not admit to what degree), and is *still* completely hung up on the guy to the detriment of our marriage and family, even though my contacting him directly in early March effectively made him block her from his life.
In my case, given that she said nothing was happening the whole time - that she was only going to meet her girlfriends, or out with her sister etc. - whilst in reality either this guy was tagging along, or she was with him specifically, this causes me to not entirely trust her still. She was in constant message and phone contact with him as well - none of which I was aware of at all.
Before this antidepressant chaos, we always said where we were going, with who, and a rough time estimate. You just don't know what might happen. But it is now me "spying" and "invading privacy" etc, even though I am simply asking for the same information that I still freely give in return.
In your boyfriend's case, I can also understand what he may be thinking: if she has admitted to not having any feelings for me for this length of time, is it because of someone else? Even if you have told him it is the withdrawal, it can be very hard to believe still, and sometimes when you feel stressed/down, you consider alternatives such as someone else being in the picture etc.
Perhaps there is a compromise that can be reached between you both? You can get your 'alone time' (this is a really common theme, by the way!), and your boyfriend can feel placated by you letting him know what you're going to be up to etc?
It likely not just because of mistrust - but because he truly cares about you and wants to know you're alright and most importantly safe.
My wife's medication and withdrawal process:
July-December 2015 (approx): Eleva (Zoloft) 50 mg
January-July 2016 (approx): Eleva (Zoloft) 100 mg
July 2016-January 2017: Pristiq (desvenlafaxine) 50 mg
January-April 2017: Tapered off Pristiq
April 2017-Present: No more Pristiq, dealing with withdrawal
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