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#1 alex

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Posted 23 February 2017 - 12:15 PM

I haven't post for a while here.

Waiting to have good news to share with you, and now I have them.

Recovery is happening very fast now.

I am definitely turning the corner.Feeling much much better.

I still have waves of dysphoria but they are short lived and most of the days are good or very good.

The most important thing is that I am sleeping!!

Some time ago I read here somebody saying "once you start sleeping you are on your way..." very true.

To those suffering and struggling with this terrible condition, let me tell you, that recovery does happen.

I tnink I was one severe case.But I am doing much better, and getting my life back.I am 63.

 

Don't loose hope,eat well, be strong and STAY AWAY from psy drugs.

 

Eternally grateful with SA and Altostrata.

 

Link to Alex's story 

 

http://survivinganti...wal-or-relapse/


Edited by mammaP, 25 February 2017 - 01:38 PM.
Added link to Alex story

4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months.

Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.
First 3 months off acute w/d
Protracted w/d ever since.
Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD

04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast.

3 years and 4 months off.

waves and windows.Very much recovered.

November 2015,health issue.Setback.
 

 


#2 rowinghippy

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Posted 23 February 2017 - 04:49 PM

Hi Alex,

 

This is great to hear, especially the sleep. I'm curious how your windows are, especially the anxiety and depression you mentioned in one of your intro thread updates a while back?

 

Many blessings


4/24/16: 20 mg citalopram

8/1/16: 15 mg

8/22/16: 10 mg

9/16/16: reinstated to 12 mg

12/1/16: 11 mg

2/20/17: 10 mg

 

Supplements: fish oil, multivitamin, digestive enzymes, probiotic, magnesium, glutamine, chinese herbs as needed


#3 LexAnger

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Posted 23 February 2017 - 05:01 PM

So happy for you! Alex. You have gone through so much and for so long, but eventually you are winning!
Even the severe case will turn its corner for good, very inspiring!

Enjoy every second of the new life!
<p>2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks.2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg, first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, slight improvement with pain2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks.2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR2016 Feb., started fast taper for the drug toxicity caused by the one dose of 4.2mg, dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg,8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg, 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, sliding Down to 0.13mg by 2/13, then 0.07mg since 2/18, 0.06mg 2/20-3/17, 0.13mg 3/18

#4 Hibari

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Posted 24 February 2017 - 11:22 AM

Thanks so much for sharing.  It's good to that you are doing so well and enjoying you life.

 

Wishing you the best going forward. 


September 2013-April 2014: After the death of my mom in July 2012.-became very depressed in September of 2013. Given a series of antidepressants very quickly from about 4 different psychiatrists in a 6 month period. Each one was from 1 day to 10 days at the most. My body could not handle it-I had Zoloft 4 days, Lexapro-1 day, Nortriptyline-10 days, Liquid Prozac, 1 week, Cymbalta 1 week.

December 2013-September 2014: Put on Xanax after a reaction to the Lexapro, averaging .50-1mg per day. Switched to Clonazepam-midway averaging about 0.25-0.50 daily.

June 2014: Jan/Feb 2015: Put on 7.5 Remeron titrate up to 41.25mgs 

September 2014-July 2015: Put on 25mgs of Lamictal titrate up to 200mgs daily. Also stopped the Clonzepam- never felt the wd I had experienced when I tried to stop it before (knowing nothing about withdrawal) because the Lamictal calmed me down.

 

Currently: Tapering both medications together using micro cuts. Started tapering Remeron in January 2015,  Started tapering Lamictal July 2015 Main wd symptoms-sweating, nausea, headaches, deep crying, anxiety. 12/21/16 Remeron 1.6 Lamictal 22.50 mgs 1/19/17 Remeron 1.2mgs, Lamictal 22.50mg 2/12/17 Remeron 1.2 Lamictal 21.25 mgs  3/4/17 Remeron 0.85  Lamictal 21.25 3/14 Remeron 0.85  Lamictal 20mgs

 

Additional Support: Acupuncture with Reflexology, Alanon, L-Theanine for anxiety as needed, Estradial patch 0.025, Bio-indentical Progesterone cream 150-200  Armour Thyroid 90mgs.


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Posted 24 February 2017 - 12:59 PM

I haven't post for a while here.

Waiting to have good news to share with you, and now I have them.

Recovery is happening very fast now.

I am definitely turning the corner.Feeling much much better.

I still have waves of dysphoria but they are short lived and most of the days are good or very good.

The most important thing is that I am sleeping!!

Some time ago I read here somebody saying "once you start sleeping you are on your way..." very true.

To those suffering and struggling with this terrible condition, let me tell you, that recovery does happen.

I tnink I was one severe case.But I am doing much better, and getting my life back.I am 63.

 

Don't loose hope,eat well, be strong and STAY AWAY from psy drugs.

 

Eternally grateful with SA and Altostrata.

 

 

thank you so much, alex, for posting, its always encouraging to hear that someone made it out the other side and that they got their life back

 

when you're in the thick of it, it's hard to believe it will ever end.

I am sorry to read that it was such a long hard journey for you, but happy for you that things are looking up now!


1974-2002 many psych meds, all types; longest used drugs include lithium, seroquel, SSRI's zoloft & celexa; many CT's off drugs

2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as  high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs

June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015:  found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs 

Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.

Oct 26 2016  reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves

Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)

Jan 12 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15

Jan 26 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia

March 1 insomnia got worse, back down to 0.29 for one day, then 0.27, then 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24

March 7 added low dose lamictal

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Posted 25 February 2017 - 04:11 AM

Congratulations Alex! Good to hear that you are doing well! Best wishes, Hopefull.

DRUG HISTORY:

 

November 2013- Zoloft, ( Bad reaction).

January 2014 - March 2014 Seroquel.( Quit Cold Turkey).

January2014- Mirtazapine, I was taking 15mg at one stage, reduced to 7.5mg, Pgad reactions to Mirtazapine. Doctor kept increasing it to 37.5mg, until July 2014. No improvement, experiencing panic attacks, on 37.5 mg. I had enough by October 2014. Began tapering.

October 2014- Started tapering Mirtazapine from 37.5mg.

September 2015- Down to 4mg of Mirtazapine. Crashed.

September 16th- Up dosed to 5mg. Held this dose for almost 5 months. Stabilised.

February 2016- Began tapering again. From 5mg to 4.5mg of Mirtazapine. (Rocking the boat, again)! Lol. :(


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Posted 25 February 2017 - 08:31 AM

I read all your posts no matter how terribly bad it made me feel for you I'm glad I did. Now to read how good you are feeling brings me happiness for you and hope for me. Thank you again!
Started Effexor August 2012 Sept'12-150mg=extreme anxiety Oct'12 cut half-75mg severe wds
Feb 2013 68.5mg. Mar'13- 65mg. Apr'13-59mg. May'13-57mg. June '13-52mg Aug'13 49.75mg.
Sep'13-48.75. Nov'13-47mg Dec'13-45..5mg
May 2014 42mg. Jun'14 40mg (depressive mood started). Aug'14 -40mg/ started brintellix 2.5mg
Oct '14 -39 Nov'14 36.89 Dec'14 34.45
Jan 2015- 31 Feb'15 29mg. Mar'15 26.72. Apr'15 24.48. May'15 22.31mg. Jun'15 20.30mg
Aug'15-18.89. Oct'15 16.96. Nov/16- 16.10. Dec/15- 15mg
Jan 2016-14.22. May'16 11.45. Aug'16-9.60. Sep/16- 8.88mg. Oct/16- 8.39mg. Nov/16- 8.13. Dec/16- 7.89

#8 theloneranger86

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Posted 25 February 2017 - 08:33 AM

hi alex

did the sexual dysfunction go away ?



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Posted 25 February 2017 - 08:48 AM

Alex, how did you do it?  A little exercise at a time?  Your med history, it doesn't seem complete.  Seroquel for how long, for example?


Abilify and Trazadone (Dropped from 15  mg to 3.75 mg, 50-200 mg, respectively for 10 years prior), Ambien, Lunesta, Sonata, etc (sleep meds, et. al.)

Celexa, Prozac, Zoloft,  Paxil,( and other anti-depressants interspersed though out this)

Zyprexa (5-10 mg, for 10 years prior to that)

Navane  (5-10  mg, for 6 years)

Halidol, Cogentin, Ativan  (5 then 10 mgs) (9 months total at least)

Stelizine, Thorizine (3 days)

Total about 29 years

(Many more I'm sure I don't recall, of course, all doped up, now hopefully 'reovering')


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Posted 25 February 2017 - 10:12 AM

hi alex

did the sexual dysfunction go away ?

I still have some lingering symptoms, and one of them is horrible premature ejeculation.

But I know that given time, it will go away also.

But at least I have good sexual drive and sensitivity, and compare with the horror of dysphoria, I can live with that and hope for the best outcome.

I can't forget that I am 63 either.


4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months.

Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.
First 3 months off acute w/d
Protracted w/d ever since.
Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD

04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast.

3 years and 4 months off.

waves and windows.Very much recovered.

November 2015,health issue.Setback.
 

 


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Posted 25 February 2017 - 10:20 AM

Hi Alex,

 

This is great to hear, especially the sleep. I'm curious how your windows are, especially the anxiety and depression you mentioned in one of your intro thread updates a while back?

 

Many blessings

My waves now are by far not as bad as they used to be.

I can do things now that were unthinkable just a few months ago.

I still have waves of dysphoria, but as I said, they are short lived and no so bad.

On the other hand, windows are very good and clear, some days,(many now) very good.

Ev en stressful situatio0ns don't triger the wave anymore.My CNS is getting more and more robust every day.

Now I have to slowly get my life back, and regain all that wd took away.


4 years aprox. on 150mgs.Effexor for situational major depression.No AD before.
Tapered 150-0mgs in 3 months.

Tapered Quetiapine,Xanax in the last 18 months.NO med of any kind anymore.
First 3 months off acute w/d
Protracted w/d ever since.
Symptoms:Anxiety,anhedonia,insomnia,tinnitus,PSSD

04/13/2014 Awful Relapse.Recovered fairly fast.

3 years and 4 months off.

waves and windows.Very much recovered.

November 2015,health issue.Setback.
 

 


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Posted 25 February 2017 - 01:35 PM

This is really good to read Alex and I am so happy for you. Thank you for posting your success story, it is good for those who are at the start of this awful journey to know that there is a light at the end of that tunnel.  :)


**I am not a medical professional, if in doubt please consult a doctor with withdrawal knowledge.

 

See how to create a signature here http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/12364-please-put-your-withdrawal-history-in-your-signature/

 

Many drugs for many years, prescribed diazepam first 1973, took occasionally. 3 or 4 tricyclics  for short periods.

1993 had a breakdown leading to 10 years of drug experiments with all classes of psych drugs.

2002  effexor. 

Tapered by counting beads from March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads.

Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013

Restarted taper  Nov 2013  

OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015    :D 

 

Also tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014

 

Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg -hold- Feb2016 46mg  March 8 2016 45 April 44mg  May 11  43mg June 14 42mg

Taking fish oil, magnesium, pro biotic.

 

My story http://survivinganti...king-in/page-33

 

Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible

 

Following every sunset is a brand new day


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Posted 26 February 2017 - 10:51 AM

Hi alex,
Great to hear and hopeful too seeing your story. I just read your 4 years skimming in 50 mins. Came to realize the wave that put me on meds that I had taken for 3 years.
I had both big fouls - paxil and effexor generic with other cocktail big party stuff added.

If I had known that I ws going through a stong triggered wave or only know about this pattern, I would be functional by not taking the stuff.
Past is gone, I try to avoid thinking. But its there and sticks.

Anyways, it gave a great push and I want to keep this asset in my memory with mine as it is short-circuited.
Wish you best.

08/13 - 01/14
Olanzapine, petril MD (Clonazepam ), Dicorate ER (divalproex). Soza 10 (Zolpidem)

02/14 - 05/14
Flunil ​20mg , Divaa OD 250 mg(divalproex), Amisulpride 50mg (1-0-2), zolfresh 5 mg , Quetiapine
05/14 - 08/14 Venlafaxine 75 xr ( 1-0-1), zapiz 0.25
10/14 Zaptra 12.5mg , Oxetol xr 150mg (0-0-1)
11/14 - 08/15
Paris CR 25 (paroxetine) , Oxetol xr 600 mg (0-0-1), nitrest 5mg , Quetiapine for a month.
09/15-11 Venlafaxine XR 75 ( 1-0-1), Mirtazipine 15, Respiredal 0.5, Lamitor 25, zillion 10.
12/15-02/16 Off Meds (C.T)

03/16-Mid April Sertraline, Aripropazole, Quetiapine, Etizolam.

After that : CT and on OTC supplements (Roadback), now on Ayurveda

#14 Petunia

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Posted 26 February 2017 - 11:20 PM

Thanks for coming back with your success story Alex, I'm so happy to hear you're feeling a lot better these days, for you, but also because it gives everyone hope. You offered me support when I first joined this site, being a bit further along in your recovery, so I often wonder how you are. I'm also a lot better, but still quite vulnerable to stress and very self protective. So hearing that you are getting more resistant to stress gives me hope.

 

Here's to one, long, clear permanently open window :)


I'm not a doctor.  My comments are not medical advise. These are my opinions based on my own experience and what I've learned. Please discuss your situation with a medical practitioner who has knowledge of tapering and withdrawal.

 

My Introduction Thread

 

Full Drug and Withdrawal History

 

Brief Summary

Several SSRIs for 13 years starting 1997 (for mild to moderate partly situational anxiety)

Xanax PRN

Various other drugs over the years for side effects

2 month 'taper' off Lexapro 2010

Short acute withdrawal, followed by 2 -3 months of improvement then delayed protracted withdrawal

DX ADHD followed by several years of stimulants and other drugs trying to manage increasing symptoms

Failed reinstatement of Lexapro and trial of Prozac (became suicidal)

May 2013 Found SA, learned about withdrawal, stopped taking drugs...healing begins.

Protracted withdrawal, with a very sensitized nervous system, slowly recovering as time passes animal25.gif

 

Supplements which seem to help:  High doses of Vitamin C, Magnesium, Garlic and Ginger.  Taurine, Vit D3, L-Theanine and Inositol. I'm one of the rare people who react badly to fish oil.

 

June 2016 - Started daily juicing, mostly vegetables and lots of greens.

 

VIDEO: Where did the chemical imbalance theory come from?



VIDEO: How are psychiatric diagnoses made?



VIDEO: Why do psychiatric drugs have withdrawal syndromes?



VIDEO: Can psychiatric drugs cause long-lasting negative effects?

VIDEO: Dr. Claire Weekes

 

 

 


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Posted 27 February 2017 - 08:11 AM

Thanks for posting Alex ....... glad to hear that you are finally on the mend ....... wishing you all the best for the future!



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Posted 27 February 2017 - 02:10 PM

Congrats Alex!! Thanks for coming back to post a success story!! This means so much to the people still struggling with WD. 


Took 10 mg of Lexapro for 15 years. Started to taper in October 2015. Took last 1mg dose in March 2016. Started having side effects end of March 2016. Symptoms include: anxiety, heart palpitations, shaky, chronic fatigue, body feels like lead(so heavy), brain fog and dizziness and really bad pain especially on right side of body. 

 

Symptoms as of 10/18/16- Burning skin, widespread body pain, some insomnia, some fatigue, some brain fog, anxiety upon waking up, numbing and tremor in pinky and ring finger on left hand, cracking/popping/stiff joints. 


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Posted 01 March 2017 - 04:34 PM

I just love success stories. Thanks for coming back to let us know how great you are doing. I really like when you say, "My CNS is getting more and more robust every day." I know we all heal eventually but I worried about my poor CNS and if it will get stronger. You've just answered that. Wonderful news!

 

Marie


10/13--10/14 Ambien   Done                                                                                  

3/14  7.5 Remeron  still taking this.                              

2/14         75 Trazodone   -    Tapered by dry cutting all the way down.

2/22/15    69 Traz

3/13/15    63 Traz

4/12/15    56 Traz

5/14/15    50 Traz

6/3/15      47 Traz

7/3/15      45 Traz

9/10/15    37 Traz

10/10/15  33 Traz, 10/24/15 30 mg 11/5/15 25 mg 11/20 12.5 mg 12/9/15 9 mg 12/22 6 mg 1/1/16 4 mg JUMPED.4/2/16 Rein 1 mg, 6/7/16 updose 2mg

8/13/16    1.1 Traz tapered from 2 mg, 10/26/16 1 mg Traz .92 mg CURRENT DOSE


#18 Purplestars22

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Posted 01 March 2017 - 09:42 PM

Congrats Alex, its great to read your success story. It's only going to get better for you from now on. Thanks for your post it brings me so much hope.
Celexa 20mg 2008-2012 for Social Anxiety
Failed attempt to stop reinstated
1 year taper skipping doses
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1/2014-5/2014 took 5 htp every other day
Failed Reinstatement 5mg of Celexa on 12/2014 for 5 days only