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Aeroman Haven't Logged in for awhile - I have recovered from Lexapro and Cipro

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I agree; its a big thing for someone to come back here and respond to everyone. Kudos to Aeroman

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That's it. Burn time, seriously. I tried all sorts of herbs, supplements, etc to help me sleep, lift mood but nothing worked for me. It may for you but it didn't with me.

 

NO ONE will fully understand all this. It's impossible - they are not you and do not live in your brain/state of mind.

 

I remember that mornings were particularly tough. By the evening, I was improved and even laughing. I didn't want the night to end. I dreamed going to bed bc I knew I wasn't going to sleep and that the morning was a reset of my mind. It all recovered. In fact, I am writing this in my garage as I work on my antique car!

Thank you Aeroman! I am in this stage right now. I have hope again!

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Also when did u notice windows starting, I've had glimpses of good times but I can't define a long window

I don't recall when exactly but I'd say between 12 to 18 months.

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Hi, Aeroman Thank you for sharing your success story. I would like to know somethings about the disease that why we see the doctor. The disease that we got like major depress, panic attack, social phobia and etc. They are still here with us or not after we quit the drug and if yes. Is it better that we should manage by our self than go back to the med? I know the problem of withdraw also I got anhedonia is the main problem that is why I don't want to take the drug anymore but after I quite I also got the problem like social anxiety is also come back to my main problem also. So I don't know that I should go back on med again or I will fight by myself without the drug. The drug is good to cure something but it make the other side effect to us. I am not sure what is the best way to choose sometime I feel confuse. Sorry for my bad English and Thank you ^^

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Hi, Aeroman Thank you for sharing your success story. I would like to know somethings about the disease that why we see the doctor. The disease that we got like major depress, panic attack, social phobia and etc. They are still here with us or not after we quit the drug and if yes. Is it better that we should manage by our self than go back to the med? I know the problem of withdraw also I got anhedonia is the main problem that is why I don't want to take the drug anymore but after I quite I also got the problem like social anxiety is also come back to my main problem also. So I don't know that I should go back on med again or I will fight by myself without the drug. The drug is good to cure something but it make the other side effect to us. I am not sure what is the best way to choose sometime I feel confuse. Sorry for my bad English and Thank you ^^

You're welcome.  No, the issues with major depression are gone.  However, I will get a panic attack maybe 2-3 times per year and they usually last only a few minutes.  I employ the Dr. Claire Weekes' Method.  The last thing I wanted to do was take medication again.  I should not have been on them in the first place.  They did help me when I took them but it was an artificial happiness.  For me, the best thing to do was to educate myself from SSRI use and SSRI withdrawal.  They are two different worlds - one will make you feel good (not for everyone) while you are taking them.  The other world is when you get off them: chemically induced anxiety and depression that is usually 100x worse than your original issue.  It's ok, I understand :)

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Just so you can see for yourself, the left image was when I was ON an SSRI and the one on the left was when I was off and ate better/exercised:

 

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Aeroman,

 

Very impressive.  You look like a different person.  Sounds like you feel like one too.

 

Congrats,

 

Andy

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Aeroman,

 

Very impressive. You look like a different person. Sounds like you feel like one too.

 

Congrats,

 

Andy

thanks. Yes, I feel so much better mentally and physically. And you will too.

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Aeroman,

 

Very impressive. You look like a different person. Sounds like you feel like one too.

 

Congrats,

 

Andy

thanks. Yes, I feel so much better mentally and physically. And you will too.

OMG Now that I see a face, I realize I followed your thread long ago. I remember just wishing I'd reach the place you have gotten to. In a way that is jarring, seeing that that day I first saw your thread feels like eons ago, and i'm still here. I think I was contemplating coming off and struggling with my weight and googled the words SSRI and weight. I'm just so happy to see you have crossed over to the bright side!

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Wow, Aeroman, you must be so proud of getting your life back on track.

 

Hi, Aeroman Thank you for sharing your success story. I would like to know somethings about the disease that why we see the doctor. The disease that we got like major depress, panic attack, social phobia and etc. They are still here with us or not after we quit the drug and if yes. Is it better that we should manage by our self than go back to the med? I know the problem of withdraw also I got anhedonia is the main problem that is why I don't want to take the drug anymore but after I quite I also got the problem like social anxiety is also come back to my main problem also. So I don't know that I should go back on med again or I will fight by myself without the drug. The drug is good to cure something but it make the other side effect to us. I am not sure what is the best way to choose sometime I feel confuse. Sorry for my bad English and Thank you ^^

 

Hello, aee. Please start a topic for yourself in the Introductions forum http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/forum/3-introductions-and-updates/. We can start to answer your questions there.
 

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Thank you for posting the pics.  I was overweight and lost a lot of weight after I CTed (citalopram I think).  I felt really good and made the decision that I wasn't going to let the weight get back on.  I ended up on Pristiq and put the weight back on (and maybe more).  This gives me hope that I might be able to get some of my weight off in the future, obviously with some effort from me as well.

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Congratulations Aeroman, very good. So happy for you. Giving us all kinds of encouragement!!! Thank you!!!!

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Nice meeting you in person Aeroman! You helped me and many others here. Really appreciate your taking so much time providing additional encouragement and support!

 

I remember you had back problem. Did you find out if it's related to Lexapro? How is it now?

Thanks!

Lex

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Nice meeting you in person Aeroman! You helped me and many others here. Really appreciate your taking so much time providing additional encouragement and support!

 

I remember you had back problem. Did you find out if it's related to Lexapro? How is it now?

Thanks!

Lex

hello! Back issues weren't Lexapro WD related. I have a bad disc. It's better, thanks

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Looking good Aeroman . What a transformation. You DO look like a different person. It's so great that you are sharing this and putting yourself out there. It means so much to everyone here. It gives light and hope. Thank you.

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Thanks for your update aero...I remember dialoging with you not long after you took Cipro...glad you are doing better. I too gained weight on these drugs...lucky for me I was underweight so I guess that is ONLY good side effect I ever got from these drugs.

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Thanks everyone.  You will all get through WD...take it slow and easy.  Its temporary. 

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Thanks everyone.  You will all get through WD...take it slow and easy.  Its temporary.

 

I hope so. I'm going to updose because of my nausea.

 

I feel like I'm starting over. :(

 

But I can't take this anymore. And ginger just makes me throw up.

 

I'm so happy for you, your pictures are awesome!

 

Take care,

Frogie xx

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Thanks for your update aero...I remember dialoging with you not long after you took Cipro...glad you are doing better. I too gained weight on these drugs...lucky for me I was underweight so I guess that is ONLY good side effect I ever got from these drugs.

Congrats on being drug free!

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Great pics aero good job looking great !

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Thanks Aeroman for answering my question!

I'm glad your back is better now and irrelevant with Lexapro,

 

Lex

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Aeroman not to annoy you ... but can you tell me when did sexual function get normal.. as in what stage of your recovery? Also if you could elaborate on how bad your PSSD was and how long did it last ?

Secondly .. do you mind if I post your answer on the pssdforum. I know it would spread a lot of positivity on that forum, and its badly needed

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Just so you can see for yourself, the left image was when I was ON an SSRI and the one on the left was when I was off and ate better/exercised:

 

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AWESOME Aeroman :) 

 

Looking (and feeling) good!!

 

Well done!

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Congrats! Great to see photos showing how well you are doing. Thanks for sharing

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Aeroman, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your encouragement and response to individual concerns here.

 

I was on 3mg of risperidone (an evil SSRI) for a mere 4 months. Here I am....8 months off....and I feel dark of soul.

 

I have little thought in my head. Starting conversation much less contributing to one is very difficult. Love and joy seems like something of the past. I only laugh when other people do, but inside I'm wishing desperately to know what people find funny. I lack desire and passion for just about everything.

 

I'm amazed at this experience. I want to experience life again rather than just exist. Oh to hit rewind and see myself flushing those drugs down the toilet!!!

 

I suppose to fake it till I make it is about all I can do....but my goodness, it sure does seem like this will never end!

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Hi, UnderPressure I feel the same way as you I was on floxtine 7 months and now I am drugs free for 11 months. Every symptom that occur in the early months of withdraw is go away including brain fog, window, headache and nausea. Except anhedonia it stay with me until now... I don't feel anything the emotion is so stable I don't dream and I don't think. In my mind I don't know it will go away in the future or not I feel like it will stay with me for a long time or permanently but I can feel it better months by months because I feel good every time when the time have passed. I just hope all of this will go away..

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Hi aero,

Have you recovered from both lexapro and cipro withdrawal now?

I'm one month past lexapro now but I still experience brain fog and my erections aren't fully hard. I often ejaculate without being fully erect. Have you experienced that during withdrawal?

Let me know

Thanks

I am fully recovered. You've asked me about sexual dysfunction before. As I have told you, I am fully recovered in ALL departments. Wife loves it. I'm speaking for myself here but the libido issues during WD was the LEAST of my concern. I wanted "me" back. I had thoughts of suicide that didn't go away. So, getting a boner was on the back burner. How about we put that to rest, OK?

 

I couldn't agree more.  I was so desperate to get better mentally/emotionally- sex was the LAST thing on my mind.  Like it didn't even cross my mind AT ALL for the first couple of years when I was in the thick of things.

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Hello All, it's been a long time since I have logged in here and posted.  My story is located here:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/7761-%E2%98%BC-aeroman-hello-from-aeroman/?st=0

 

I have been good, fully recovered from Lexapro and Cipro use.  I don't think about withdrawal anymore.  The answer was TIME and GOD in both cases.  For those that are new to withdrawal, don't fret, you will be OK.  I know the beginning months are scary but it won't last forever.  Feel free to ask me questions as I am sure you will have many..especially doubts within yourself.

 

Aeroman

 

I remember reading your story 5 years ago when I was just starting out in my w/d journey and I was in Puerto Rico on vacation!  LOL ahh- how time flies.  Rereading it now brings back all the older symptoms I used to have that I forgot I had.  Thank you for always coming back to check in and share your story/recovery.

 

One thing I can totally agree with that you said-which I think is stationary for ALL SSRI W/D- is that mornings were the ABSOLUTE WORST!  OMG- they were awful.  It has been so long since I've woken up in that state- it feels like a different lifetime.  That slowly but surely went away as the years went on.  So many phases of w/d- such a long journey.  We should all get together and write a book- to help people through this.  I've considered it.

 

I am 5.5 years out and I still have some physical symptoms (which I have accepted- as they are minor compared to all of the symptoms I had at the beginning of w/d) but ALL of my mental/emotional symptoms have disappeared.  I am only 31- so I am hoping with time maybe even my physical complaints with dissipate.  Only time will tell.  In the meantime- I am much happier than I ever was when I was on AD's.  Going through this harrowing experience somehow 'awakens' us.  Not to say we don't have bad days- but the appreciation and enjoyment I get from life now is 1000x more than I ever did before AD's or even when I was on them.  My perspective has totally changed.  I am a different person- a better person- whom I owe this pretty awful experience to.

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Hello All, it's been a long time since I have logged in here and posted.  My story is located here:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/7761-%E2%98%BC-aeroman-hello-from-aeroman/?st=0

 

I have been good, fully recovered from Lexapro and Cipro use.  I don't think about withdrawal anymore.  The answer was TIME and GOD in both cases.  For those that are new to withdrawal, don't fret, you will be OK.  I know the beginning months are scary but it won't last forever.  Feel free to ask me questions as I am sure you will have many..especially doubts within yourself.

 

Aeroman

 

I remember reading your story 5 years ago when I was just starting out in my w/d journey and I was in Puerto Rico on vacation!  LOL ahh- how time flies.  Rereading it now brings back all the older symptoms I used to have that I forgot I had.  Thank you for always coming back to check in and share your story/recovery.

 

One thing I can totally agree with that you said-which I think is stationary for ALL SSRI W/D- is that mornings were the ABSOLUTE WORST!  OMG- they were awful.  It has been so long since I've woken up in that state- it feels like a different lifetime.  That slowly but surely went away as the years went on.  So many phases of w/d- such a long journey.  We should all get together and write a book- to help people through this.  I've considered it.

 

I am 5.5 years out and I still have some physical symptoms (which I have accepted- as they are minor compared to all of the symptoms I had at the beginning of w/d) but ALL of my mental/emotional symptoms have disappeared.  I am only 31- so I am hoping with time maybe even my physical complaints with dissipate.  Only time will tell.  In the meantime- I am much happier than I ever was when I was on AD's.  Going through this harrowing experience somehow 'awakens' us.  Not to say we don't have bad days- but the appreciation and enjoyment I get from life now is 1000x more than I ever did before AD's or even when I was on them.  My perspective has totally changed.  I am a different person- a better person- whom I owe this pretty awful experience to.

 

 

You both give me so much hope. I'm 26, still in early withdrawal and sometimes find it hard to move forward in life. Those horrid thoughts pop in of "what if I'm one of the ones that don't get better?" Thank you so much for saying things just like this, to keep me hoping, to keep me moving forward. I'll keep moving forward no matter what!

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Aeroman, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your encouragement and response to individual concerns here.

 

I was on 3mg of risperidone (an evil SSRI) for a mere 4 months. Here I am....8 months off....and I feel dark of soul.

 

I have little thought in my head. Starting conversation much less contributing to one is very difficult. Love and joy seems like something of the past. I only laugh when other people do, but inside I'm wishing desperately to know what people find funny. I lack desire and passion for just about everything.

 

I'm amazed at this experience. I want to experience life again rather than just exist. Oh to hit rewind and see myself flushing those drugs down the toilet!!!

 

I suppose to fake it till I make it is about all I can do....but my goodness, it sure does seem like this will never end!

very well described! That's exactly how I felt. It's not forever, burn up time for now. Don't force to rush it. You'll get better

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Hello All, it's been a long time since I have logged in here and posted. My story is located here:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/7761-%E2%98%BC-aeroman-hello-from-aeroman/?st=0

 

I have been good, fully recovered from Lexapro and Cipro use. I don't think about withdrawal anymore. The answer was TIME and GOD in both cases. For those that are new to withdrawal, don't fret, you will be OK. I know the beginning months are scary but it won't last forever. Feel free to ask me questions as I am sure you will have many..especially doubts within yourself.

 

Aeroman

I remember reading your story 5 years ago when I was just starting out in my w/d journey and I was in Puerto Rico on vacation! LOL ahh- how time flies. Rereading it now brings back all the older symptoms I used to have that I forgot I had. Thank you for always coming back to check in and share your story/recovery.

 

One thing I can totally agree with that you said-which I think is stationary for ALL SSRI W/D- is that mornings were the ABSOLUTE WORST! OMG- they were awful. It has been so long since I've woken up in that state- it feels like a different lifetime. That slowly but surely went away as the years went on. So many phases of w/d- such a long journey. We should all get together and write a book- to help people through this. I've considered it.

 

I am 5.5 years out and I still have some physical symptoms (which I have accepted- as they are minor compared to all of the symptoms I had at the beginning of w/d) but ALL of my mental/emotional symptoms have disappeared. I am only 31- so I am hoping with time maybe even my physical complaints with dissipate. Only time will tell. In the meantime- I am much happier than I ever was when I was on AD's. Going through this harrowing experience somehow 'awakens' us. Not to say we don't have bad days- but the appreciation and enjoyment I get from life now is 1000x more than I ever did before AD's or even when I was on them. My perspective has totally changed. I am a different person- a better person- whom I owe this pretty awful experience to.

Thanks for coming back and sharing your story...very similar to mine. Since 2008, I've been left with low back pain (manageable) and out of the blue vertigo that hits me a few times a year. I'm OK overall...actually, pretty damn good. :)

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Hello All, it's been a long time since I have logged in here and posted. My story is located here:

 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/7761-%E2%98%BC-aeroman-hello-from-aeroman/?st=0

 

I have been good, fully recovered from Lexapro and Cipro use. I don't think about withdrawal anymore. The answer was TIME and GOD in both cases. For those that are new to withdrawal, don't fret, you will be OK. I know the beginning months are scary but it won't last forever. Feel free to ask me questions as I am sure you will have many..especially doubts within yourself.

 

Aeroman

I remember reading your story 5 years ago when I was just starting out in my w/d journey and I was in Puerto Rico on vacation! LOL ahh- how time flies. Rereading it now brings back all the older symptoms I used to have that I forgot I had. Thank you for always coming back to check in and share your story/recovery.

 

One thing I can totally agree with that you said-which I think is stationary for ALL SSRI W/D- is that mornings were the ABSOLUTE WORST! OMG- they were awful. It has been so long since I've woken up in that state- it feels like a different lifetime. That slowly but surely went away as the years went on. So many phases of w/d- such a long journey. We should all get together and write a book- to help people through this. I've considered it.

 

I am 5.5 years out and I still have some physical symptoms (which I have accepted- as they are minor compared to all of the symptoms I had at the beginning of w/d) but ALL of my mental/emotional symptoms have disappeared. I am only 31- so I am hoping with time maybe even my physical complaints with dissipate. Only time will tell. In the meantime- I am much happier than I ever was when I was on AD's. Going through this harrowing experience somehow 'awakens' us. Not to say we don't have bad days- but the appreciation and enjoyment I get from life now is 1000x more than I ever did before AD's or even when I was on them. My perspective has totally changed. I am a different person- a better person- whom I owe this pretty awful experience to.

You both give me so much hope. I'm 26, still in early withdrawal and sometimes find it hard to move forward in life. Those horrid thoughts pop in of "what if I'm one of the ones that don't get better?" Thank you so much for saying things just like this, to keep me hoping, to keep me moving forward. I'll keep moving forward no matter what!

hi! Oh yes, I remember those thoughts! "what if I'm the one not going to recover?" I convinced myself to think that regardless of what I thought, recovery was imminent. You'll get there!

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Aeroman, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your encouragement and response to individual concerns here.

 

I was on 3mg of risperidone (an evil SSRI) for a mere 4 months. Here I am....8 months off....and I feel dark of soul.

 

I have little thought in my head. Starting conversation much less contributing to one is very difficult. Love and joy seems like something of the past. I only laugh when other people do, but inside I'm wishing desperately to know what people find funny. I lack desire and passion for just about everything.

 

I'm amazed at this experience. I want to experience life again rather than just exist. Oh to hit rewind and see myself flushing those drugs down the toilet!!!

 

I suppose to fake it till I make it is about all I can do....but my goodness, it sure does seem like this will never end!

very well described! That's exactly how I felt. It's not forever, burn up time for now. Don't force to rush it. You'll get better
Thank you for this quote. Really needed this today. I'm trying to force life and getting disappointed, when I should really be going with the flow. Touched me deeply.

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Aeroman, I thank you from the bottom of my heart for your encouragement and response to individual concerns here.

 

I was on 3mg of risperidone (an evil SSRI) for a mere 4 months. Here I am....8 months off....and I feel dark of soul.

 

I have little thought in my head. Starting conversation much less contributing to one is very difficult. Love and joy seems like something of the past. I only laugh when other people do, but inside I'm wishing desperately to know what people find funny. I lack desire and passion for just about everything.

 

I'm amazed at this experience. I want to experience life again rather than just exist. Oh to hit rewind and see myself flushing those drugs down the toilet!!!

 

I suppose to fake it till I make it is about all I can do....but my goodness, it sure does seem like this will never end!

very well described! That's exactly how I felt. It's not forever, burn up time for now. Don't force to rush it. You'll get better
Thank you for this quote. Really needed this today. I'm trying to force life and getting disappointed, when I should really be going with the flow. Touched me deeply.

 

No problem.  I am telling you the truth (well, the way I saw it).  I remember going to the local market getting all sorts of supplements to help me sleep, improve mood, you name it...and for me, none of it helped.  I don't know how I did it in 2008 - I just did.  I cried.  I was on my knees begging for relief.  It wasn't physical pain.  it was torture inside me, burning me inside and out.  I got mad at God for leaving me alone but like that footsteps poem goes, he was carrying me along the whole time.  Depression is no joke.  It sucks the life out of you.  Its hard to tell your loved ones that you aren't yourself even though they think they did something wrong to you.  

 

All i can say is that if I can go through w/d, so can you.  Mine was no walk through the park.  i went to countless doctors and therapists in 2008 because I needed relief.  I had thoughts of suicide which was very weird and new for me.  The racing thoughts were horrible.  The brain fog and lack of concentration was really bad too.

 

I truly believe most of us don't need SSRIs.  If I would have resolved my original issue of depression with talk therapy and anxiety with the Dr. Claire Weekes Method, I wouldn't have gone through w/d.

 

If I recovered, YOU will too.  Burn time!  It's ok, nothing wrong with that!  

 

You will have inner peace!

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No problem.  I am telling you the truth (well, the way I saw it).  I remember going to the local market getting all sorts of supplements to help me sleep, improve mood, you name it...and for me, none of it helped.  I don't know how I did it in 2008 - I just did.  I cried.  I was on my knees begging for relief.  It wasn't physical pain.  it was torture inside me, burning me inside and out.  I got mad at God for leaving me alone but like that footsteps poem goes, he was carrying me along the whole time.  Depression is no joke.  It sucks the life out of you.  Its hard to tell your loved ones that you aren't yourself even though they think they did something wrong to you.  

 

All i can say is that if I can go through w/d, so can you.  Mine was no walk through the park.  i went to countless doctors and therapists in 2008 because I needed relief.  I had thoughts of suicide which was very weird and new for me.  The racing thoughts were horrible.  The brain fog and lack of concentration was really bad too.

 

I truly believe most of us don't need SSRIs.  If I would have resolved my original issue of depression with talk therapy and anxiety with the Dr. Claire Weekes Method, I wouldn't have gone through w/d.

 

If I recovered, YOU will too.  Burn time!  It's ok, nothing wrong with that!  

 

You will have inner peace!

I will hold these words close to me.  Thank you a gazillion times.  *hugs*

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