I have been reading these forums for a couple of months now but have been scared to post in case my partner (ex partner) sees it. Its probably unlikely but who knows.
I have been with my girlfriend for 10 years, never lived together but were both happy with the arrangement. We have never really had any significant fights or disagreements, at worst a few hours of the cold shoulder treatment after a minor tiff over something trivial.
October 2016 she seemed to be getting a little distant both with ehr text and email communication and in person. I questioned it but she said it was nothing. After a couple of weeks of me feeling this I again questioned her, she broke down in tears and said she had been having panic attacks and awful thoughts about me, her family and about harming herself etc. She said it wasn't me and she didnt want to lose me. So, she makes an appointment to see the GP, had to wait a couple of weeks, during which time she was very distant and clearly not herself. the doctor prescribed 50mg of Zoloft and sent her on her way. A couple of weeks later still feeling pretty down, she return to the doctor who increased the Zoloft to 100mg. After a week or so, things started improving, she came out her shell, her text messages to me were more loving and like her old self and she thanked me for being there for her and told me how much she loved me. I let her know that I will always be there for her and that I would be lost without her.
A few weeks later it was Christmas and we had a wonderful time together with family, hers and mine. It was like it always had been. I asked her how she was getting on with the medication and she said fine but she was having some side effects, particularly sleep problems and profuse sweating in bed. She went back to the doctor who gave her checklist of side effects and asked her to complete it and return it on her next visit. We did it together.
A few weeks later passed and again I asked how she was feeling on the meds and she said that she had no feelings at all and that she was happy that she wasn't having panic attacks and wasn't anxious, nor was she getting road rage or being short tempered with her family like she always was. She thought it was great. It was noticeable to me that she had lost feelings, even watching heartbreaking films wouldn't raise a tear whereas pre-meds she would cry at the slightest of things in movies. Thankfully that lack of feeling hadn't extended to me.........or had it.
Her next visit to the doctor, she told him of the side effects she was experiencing and gave the checklist back. So he reduced her dosage back down to 50mg and also prescribed Effexor, he told her that if the side effects had cleared in two weeks then to stop the Zoloft for a week and then go on to Effexor.
The next two weeks on the reduced dose I hardly heard from her, when I did, it was short and blunt. The more I asked questions, the more she seemed to distance herself.This resulted in her wanting a break the day before she was stopping the Zoloft for a week.
I havent seen or heard from her since. I know that she switched to Effexor around the end of February and took them for around 4 weeks. She then reduced her dose to half on her own authority and then a week later stopped them completely. I know this from her family who are obviously very concerned about her but don't really now what to do, they are afraid that the more they question her, the more she will isolate herself. her parents have said they dont believe there is anybody other men in her life and that she appears to be staying home alone most of the time.
Obviously there is a lot of history between us and there is probably a lot of details that I have missed out but I dont want to write a book.
Long story short, we were very very much in love, I know she loved me, even a few weeks before she wanted a break, she was talking about the future and planning vacations and buying me gifts and wanting to buy me more gifts etc and then WHAM! I do understand the change would have been gradual but it seems like it was overnight. Much like everybody else who has gone through this, I am totally heartbroken and confused. thank god for this forum.
She has now been cold turkey for just over two weeks. Is there any hope that she can come back, not just to me but to herself? she was such a lovely lady and now seems totally different.
Edited by ChessieCat, 21 April 2017 - 01:53 PM.
Removed GF's name