Posted 25 December 2015 - 04:07 PM
thank you Alto and all the mods and everyone here, I am so grateful to have found this place!
just a few weeks ago, I literally thought I was going mad/crazy, off the deep end and never coming back and now I know, I'm going to be just fine, in time.
It's "just" withdrawal from a med I probably should never have been taking in the first place
oh what a huge relief it is to know that I *can* get off of it, that I can recover from all it's done to my brain, and that while WD is tough, I will get thru it
I am so far ahead of where I was a month ago, and each day brings more hope for the future.
I don't like to look back, which is why I had such a hard time with my signature (which is still just a rough draft really lol)
I only want to look ahead
and to enjoy each and every new drug free* day to the fullest
I am sad and sorry that we are all in this boat, but very thankful to you all for sharing your journeys. advice, tips and encougagement
BLESS YOU ALL!
*ok, got ahead of myself there, I'm not drug free YET but am getting there, the safe way! slowlyyyyyyyyyyyyy
1974-2002 many psych meds, all types; longest used drugs include lithium, seroquel, SSRI's zoloft & celexa; many CT's off drugs
2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs
June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015: found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs
Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.
Oct 26 2016 reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves
Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)
Jan 12 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15
Jan 26 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia
March 1 insomnia got worse, back down to 0.29 for one day, then 0.27, then 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24
March 7 added low dose lamictal, titrated up to 25mgs March 25
vit D-3, Magnesium taurate 250mg, chromium, pro-biotic, biotin, valerian root, L-theanine