Posted 28 July 2012 - 10:55 PM
To all of you that have replied...
This is such comforting news to me.
If only I could get Skype to work on my computer. Grr! I don't exactly have the best one, but I'm going to have someone, who knows more about it than me, to take a look at it, as soon as I can, to see if they can remedy the situation. I think it probably has something to do with my virus protection software. I just don't know what to do about it.
I have a Magic Jack, which allows me to have unlimited local phone service, except to VOIP phone numbers. I'm supposed to be able to make unlimited international phone calls with it also, but I've yet to do so. I see no reason why it wouldn't work too though.
I realize, some of you may not be too comfortable exchanging phone numbers with me. I can promise you though that, whatever the situation may be, I would never abuse the privilege of having anyone's personal information here nor elsewhere. Despite how ill I am, I still consider myself a caring, considerate, empathetic, kind, and polite person. I'm far from a stalker and respectful enough that when, if ever, you would decide having me as a phone friend just isn't working out, I'd be understanding, without any hard feelings, just knowing how the nature of withdrawal can be to a person.
I live alone and am isolated from a lot of things, due to not feeling well a lot. The few people around me trying to help me recover really just cannot grasp the full extent of the difficulty withdrawal poses, like those of you going through it with me either. I also have such a hard time taking all the thoughts in my head and establishing meaningful posts. It's such a slow and huge task, at times. My symptoms are so full of ups and downs that I never know what the next hour is going to hold, both physically and mentally. Sometimes I can read posts and/or post my own topics on the forum here, but sometimes I just can't. It's the same with me talking on the phone too, among doing other things.
I just think having a few phone friends, where there is a helpful and mutual give and take relationship, would go a long way toward transitioning through the withdrawal process on both sides.
Let me know what you think...
Love, Light, & Health,
Jun-Jul '09 (approx 7 wks) - 5mg/day Lexapro (drug rep samples) given by family dr for long, unended, very stressful divorce
Each dose taken makes sicker, think it's just body adjusting, have no clue it's severe adverse reaction at time
Aug '09 - pharmacy gets dr rx for, insurance won't pay, I can't afford, dr changes to Celexa, decline to take, cold turkey, necessary blessing in disguise, in hindsight at least
Gradually feel some better over 1-2 wks, 3rd wk horrific withdrawal symptoms start & build, see doctor & start researching internet about what's happening, figure it out, 60-70+ severe, frightening, & debilitating symptoms emerge, realize nothing can do to feel better easily or quickly, feel like & think I'm dying, reach point where doctor gets home healthcare & have to call friend to stay with & take care of, friend abandons about 1 yr & lose home healthcare
1st yr symptoms extremely severe, 2nd yr just somewhat better, now into 3rd yr symptoms don't seem much better, still causing horrible suffering, wax & wane in severity, sometimes almost as severe as when started, practically homebound, mostly bedbound, very hard completing simple tasks, symptoms definitely much worse 7-10 days/mo around menstrual cycle
Have lost vehicle & home, plus loved cat & dog had for long time, was homeless several months last winter, lived out of car, living in undesirable gov't subsidized housing now causing many troubles, have no medical & very little rx insurance, disability check & food stamps aren't enough to provide basic needs, lack any reliable personal support anymore, very isolated & all alone, have many pressing stressful things must be done, can barely or unable to complete without help don't have, even ones to help situation some, don't even have finances to get urgent necessary needed help required to help situation & self, social services is frequently visiting now, fear being polydrugged, losing everything, put into nursing home, hope & pray someone will help to keep from happening, don't know what else to do, still way to sick to return to work & college, believe I will recover, in the meantime tho have no answers except to plead for help, hope & pray someone, anyone, who truly cares does soon
In 32nd mo now still very bad SSRI protracted withdrawal, have only seen few signs of healing since 2nd yr passed, somehow manage to keep fighting, afraid time is running out for best tho & situation only going to get worse trying to survive on own if don't get help from someone
This pretty much summarizes what 49 little round white pills (if I recall correctly) have done to my life & future for now, my before & after life are drastically opposite now, both my situation & self, if only I'd known their potential, a little bit too late now tho huh?.?.?...hindsight really is 20/20 isn't it?.?.?...
I pray God blesses and helps each and every one of us, here and elsewhere, going through this nightmare. Amen, amen, amen.