Posted 16 May 2017 - 08:13 AM
Hi guys! Mustangwoman, I remember you also, mainly from Brass's journal. Yes the hormonal aspect is major, esp for women I think.
So as I approach next month, which will be one year post taper, I will update a little.
I ended up taking an antibiotic, Amoxicillan/Clavanulate(sp?) for 10 days for sinus infection, it cleared up the infection but I still have lingering pressure/pain most days, but not tired, with discharge and chills any more. The great thing is that, despite what it likely did to my gut flora, I had no aggravated WD symptoms from it. I didnt crash or get thrown into a wave as I feared.
WD speaking, I am feeling strong in all but 2 ways. I still feel terrible at 5-6am. It is much MUCH milder than before, but I still don't wake up with positive feelings about the day, and ruminate on anxiety producing issues in my life. This passes once I get up and start the day. The other issue, the one that bothers me most, is anhedonia. I know this seems to be a very persistent symptom, long lived in terms of recovery. I would be lying if I said I wasn't concerned about it though. On one hand I feel that i'm technically 6 years off Effexor and therefore "should" be healed from that rapid horrific "taper", however, I was still on psych meds following that ordeal and despite a very slow taper, have not truly freed my CNS from the effects of AD's until last June, and so perhaps if I need to give myself a set point from which to count from, I should go with that. This would make me 11 months into my med free life and I realize that isn't very long in the world of WD. I guess i'm worried that I should have seen more improvement in the anhedonia at some point during my taper from Paxil over the last few years and I feel I've seen marginal improvements at best, over the past 2-3 years and I'm concerned. I do have breaks, where the colours and emotions and creative/motivation comes to me, where I can read fiction, feel the full 3 dimensional range of positive emotions, for a day, some hours ect. What confuses me is, this seems to tie in with being mid way through my menstrual cycle, which is still regular despite being almost 45. I guess I have questions still, and wonder if I need to allow time to be my healer as it's been for 95% of my other symptoms, or if there is something pro active I need to do. I am going to ask for some bloodwork again, maybe metabolic/sex hormones/vitamin panels, and anything else that can provide insight. Other than that, I find my stress tolerance has increased, my lows are less low and shorter lived and I have a lot more physical endurance and energy! We recently travelled for a week to Cuba and I tolerated late nights, heat and a fair amount of alcohol,lol! I had a low week or two on return, but it was manageable and I wouldnt even call it depression, but a recuperation period. These are all very positive signs of sturdy, reliable recovery for me I have to say. Just need to sort out this anhedonia connection and I will be one happy camper!
2 Timothy 1-7 For God hath not given us the spirit of fear; but of power, and of love, and of a sound mind.
Effexor 75mg to 262.5mg 2005-2010 for post partum depression
Started having poop out mid 2010, also switched generic brands, then crashed in Dec 2010 (anxiety/ "terror", intense DR, anhedonia, suicidal ideation, chills, insomnia, horrible intrusive thoughts, disorientation, ect)
Rapid "tapered" from 262.5mg Effexor in 3 months
Tried Celexa,Cipralex, then Paxil to deal with wd(this switching made things worse and added akathesia)
Found online support and started tapering Paxil 7 months after quitting Effexor (at this point was having small windows).
Paxil taper: dropped 10% every 4-8 weeks
Year 1 October 2011 to Nov 2012 20mg to 10mg
Year 2 March 2013 to Feb 2014 10mg to 4mg
Year 3 April 2014 to May 2015 4mg to 1.1mg
Year 4 June 2015 1.1mg , dropping by 10% until .5mg, after then dropped by 0.1mg every 5 weeks until 0.1mg.
Finished! Official last dose of 0.1mg on June 15/16