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#1 Zoe

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Posted 25 February 2014 - 09:38 AM

I was just thinking -one of the things that I hate so much about all of this is that at least I tend to become so introspective. It's hard to concentrate on others when you are trying so hard just to keep it together yourself. I had a thought that if anyone else has this issue and would like to try to change it a bit more that we could all pray, send positive healing energy, warm thoughts or love to each other on this site who are also having issues. With the large amount of us here I am sure we could help in this way to bring a positive change & healing to each others lives. Just a thought......


 

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2000 switched to Zoloft 

2011 Zoloft pooped out- Dr. switched me directly to Lexapro15mg -had a horrible 6mths

2013 upped Lexapro to 20 mgs-pooped out

June 2013 Dr. added 150 Wellbutrin to Lexapro.

July 2013 Switched back to Zoloft 100mgs.Was still taking Wellbutrin. Lots of anxiety from the Wellbutrin

July 2013 Started to wean Wellbutrin- off by Sept.

Oct. 2013 added 400 mgs of Neurotin to the Zoloft

Jan 2014 Tapered off of the Zoloft and onto Prozac 30 mgs. Also still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Feb 2014 Reduced Prozac to 13 mgs. Still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Aug. 2014 Prozac 13 mgs. Finished with Neurotin. .7 Risperadol

 


#2 ladybug

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Posted 26 February 2014 - 03:45 PM

I pray for everyone as a whole on both WD forums, and if I know someone is struggling I pray for them by name. I'll be praying for you, Zoe and I would love if you could pray for me as well. My name is Jessica. :)


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#3 Zoe

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Posted 26 February 2014 - 04:45 PM

 Thank you for your prayers for all of us! I certainly will remember you in mine!!


 

Jan. 1994 Pamelor

2000 switched to Zoloft 

2011 Zoloft pooped out- Dr. switched me directly to Lexapro15mg -had a horrible 6mths

2013 upped Lexapro to 20 mgs-pooped out

June 2013 Dr. added 150 Wellbutrin to Lexapro.

July 2013 Switched back to Zoloft 100mgs.Was still taking Wellbutrin. Lots of anxiety from the Wellbutrin

July 2013 Started to wean Wellbutrin- off by Sept.

Oct. 2013 added 400 mgs of Neurotin to the Zoloft

Jan 2014 Tapered off of the Zoloft and onto Prozac 30 mgs. Also still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Feb 2014 Reduced Prozac to 13 mgs. Still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Aug. 2014 Prozac 13 mgs. Finished with Neurotin. .7 Risperadol

 


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Posted 01 March 2014 - 07:30 PM

I pray for everyone as a whole on both WD forums, and if I know someone is struggling I pray for them by name. I'll be praying for you, Zoe and I would love if you could pray for me as well. My name is Jessica. :)


I do the same thing, ladybug and Zoe. I have since I first joined although, I admit (not proudly) I don't pray as much as I did when I was obsessed with dread and fear of never getting better.

I can't count how many times I prayed every day and night and I included everyone on SA and "Anyone that was in need of help and peace of mind". I still pray more than one time a day. It helps me.

Please include me in your prayers as well.
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#5 Zoe

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Posted 02 March 2014 - 06:01 AM

I sure will Tezza. I know - I almost feel like we are all family in a way. Certainly no one can understand the pain & suffering we are going through like we can. And I know that without God I couldn't survive a day.


 

Jan. 1994 Pamelor

2000 switched to Zoloft 

2011 Zoloft pooped out- Dr. switched me directly to Lexapro15mg -had a horrible 6mths

2013 upped Lexapro to 20 mgs-pooped out

June 2013 Dr. added 150 Wellbutrin to Lexapro.

July 2013 Switched back to Zoloft 100mgs.Was still taking Wellbutrin. Lots of anxiety from the Wellbutrin

July 2013 Started to wean Wellbutrin- off by Sept.

Oct. 2013 added 400 mgs of Neurotin to the Zoloft

Jan 2014 Tapered off of the Zoloft and onto Prozac 30 mgs. Also still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Feb 2014 Reduced Prozac to 13 mgs. Still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Aug. 2014 Prozac 13 mgs. Finished with Neurotin. .7 Risperadol

 


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Posted 02 March 2014 - 10:23 PM

I definitely will include you, Tezza. Hugs to you both.


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Posted 04 March 2014 - 04:31 AM

I do pray ~ it gives me a sense of looking for help and finding answers.   I do include everyone here, but sometimes I forget because I am so preoccupied with myself.

 

Sometimes while I am reading a post I stop and put my hand on the person's post and say a prayer directly for that member.

 

So here it goes....

 

God please help everyone on this site.  Help us achieve our goals and find peace, contentment and health.  Please keep us free from anxiety - depression and physical pain.

 

And thank you for leading me to this site where I have made many meaningful connections with friends.

 

Love all of you


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Posted 04 March 2014 - 05:01 AM

Thank you, Nikki.


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July 2016 I have decided to leave my story here at SA unfinished. I have left my contact information in my profile for anyone who wishes to talk to me. I have a posting history spanning nearly 4 years and 3000+ posts all over the site.

Thank you to all who participated in my recovery. I'll miss talking to you but know that I'll be cheering you on from the sidelines, suffering and rejoicing with you in spirit, as you go on in your journey.

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Posted 04 March 2014 - 05:18 AM

Beautiful Nikki - thanks.  :) What a great idea about putting your hand on the screen & praying- I'm going to do that too. This site has been such a blessing to me too. I would simply be lost without it & everyone here.

I keep thinking I wish we had a like button as on facebook. There are so many times when I agree with something & I go to hit the like button :D

Hugs & prayers to everyone


 

Jan. 1994 Pamelor

2000 switched to Zoloft 

2011 Zoloft pooped out- Dr. switched me directly to Lexapro15mg -had a horrible 6mths

2013 upped Lexapro to 20 mgs-pooped out

June 2013 Dr. added 150 Wellbutrin to Lexapro.

July 2013 Switched back to Zoloft 100mgs.Was still taking Wellbutrin. Lots of anxiety from the Wellbutrin

July 2013 Started to wean Wellbutrin- off by Sept.

Oct. 2013 added 400 mgs of Neurotin to the Zoloft

Jan 2014 Tapered off of the Zoloft and onto Prozac 30 mgs. Also still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Feb 2014 Reduced Prozac to 13 mgs. Still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Aug. 2014 Prozac 13 mgs. Finished with Neurotin. .7 Risperadol

 


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Posted 02 January 2015 - 10:55 AM

Beautiful Nikki - thanks.  :) What a great idea about putting your hand on the screen & praying- I'm going to do that too. This site has been such a blessing to me too. I would simply be lost without it & everyone here.

I keep thinking I wish we had a like button as on facebook. There are so many times when I agree with something & I go to hit the like button :D

Hugs & prayers to everyone

I agree--putting your hand on the post and praying seems just the thing to do and we can do it right as we're reading it.  I'm the same way, I keep looking for the like button too--wish there was something along those lines.

 

I too pray for people here---feel as though we are together here.  I would ask for prayer that I will be able endure whatever happens and be able to hold hope and faith until I see some healing.  Being in a state of decline keeps me fighting constant terror and I know that God does not want that for us.  Please post specific needs, ok?


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2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 02 January 2015 - 03:22 PM


Beautiful Nikki - thanks. :) What a great idea about putting your hand on the screen & praying- I'm going to do that too. This site has been such a blessing to me too. I would simply be lost without it & everyone here.
I keep thinking I wish we had a like button as on facebook. There are so many times when I agree with something & I go to hit the like button :D
Hugs & prayers to everyone

I agree--putting your hand on the post and praying seems just the thing to do and we can do it right as we're reading it. I'm the same way, I keep looking for the like button too--wish there was something along those lines.

I too pray for people here---feel as though we are together here. I would ask for prayer that I will be able endure whatever happens and be able to hold hope and faith until I see some healing. Being in a state of decline keeps me fighting constant terror and I know that God does not want that for us. Please post specific needs, ok?
Will do! :)
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Posted 02 January 2015 - 03:25 PM

I just need to keep hope for my future. I get very very scared. I'm only 30, have never been married and have no children. I'm afraid I will be too damaged. I have to keep believing that no matter how painful this is, God allowed it and will bring me through better.

But I cry a lot, and feel alone. I want to mature enough in my faith to not be led by my feelings. I am never alone, and that is the truth. Ii pray that truth trumps my feelings.
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Posted 02 January 2015 - 03:54 PM

Will praying specifically for God's peace and hope and assurance that He is bringing you to healing.


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2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 02 January 2015 - 04:37 PM

Will praying specifically for God's peace and hope and assurance that He is bringing you to healing.


Thank you.
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Posted 02 January 2015 - 05:20 PM

Do you guys believe that God cares , I ceased all praying

I am up to a point where I dont want nothing with God

He ruined my life


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Posted 02 January 2015 - 05:22 PM

I gave my life to Christ and all the worst ever happened to me

to the point that at a Christian retreat a stupid Christian man

convinced me to take medication for depression

so I dont trust Christians or God


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#17 SelmaLady

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Posted 03 January 2015 - 06:59 AM

Lord God.  We are struck down.  We don't understand why we have been called to suffering.  When we were not suffering and saw others suffering we could perhaps, understand that it is sin that brings suffering.  Sin that entered the world through Satan's temptation in the Garden.  We understand that concept.  Sin brings death.  We were born into sin and into death.  But You have provided a sacrifice for that sin, for all sin for all ages.  Your Son came in the flesh that He created and through His own incomprehensible suffering, bought us back from death.  And we who have received this sacrifice for our own sin, have entered into the Eternal Life that is in Your Son.  But then, after the joy of experiencing Your Holy Spirit within  us, of knowing that we are on our way to a Life where there will be nothing but joy, we were struck down.  And we can feel betrayed.  Especially if we have had human betrayal.  And we can be in a place of despair.  We know that we are to call out Abba Father, and we do.  But we do not understand why we have not been delivered from this agony.  Surely You must know that we are not those heroes in the Bible who remained faithful through terrible torture.  They were special people who knew how to trust You with suffering.  And we had anticipated some suffering.  But not this, God.  This goes beyond human endurance.  What good can come of this?  How are you honored in this?  Where can we go for comfort, for understanding and acceptance?  It has to come from You . 

 

So we have to find Your words to us.  And we find them in the Scriptures.  And when we go there we see that suffering is indeed, part of the human, Christian life.  We see Jeremiah.  We see David.  We see Job.  We see Paul.  We see Your Son.  But oh God, we are in deep need of the strength to walk through this time of suffering.  Your Word says that Your grace is sufficient.  And that we can do all things through the Lord, through His indwelling Presence.  Show us today Lord how to bring those promises into our lives, into our thoughts and to find what You have provided for us to walk through even this.  And to know that You know us completely and have a way for us even when we see no way.   Help us to look only to You and to Your power in us. Give us Your peace, Your hope and even Your joy as You have promised to give us.   We lay Your Word before You and in faith, hold onto it as truth.  Oh God of all Eternity, be very real to us today. 


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2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 03 January 2015 - 09:59 AM

Lord God. We are struck down. We don't understand why we have been called to suffering. When we were not suffering and saw others suffering we could perhaps, understand that it is sin that brings suffering. Sin that entered the world through Satan's temptation in the Garden. We understand that concept. Sin brings death. We were born into sin and into death. But You have provided a sacrifice for that sin, for all sin for all ages. Your Son came in the flesh that He created and through His own incomprehensible suffering, bought us back from death. And we who have received this sacrifice for our own sin, have entered into the Eternal Life that is in Your Son. But then, after the joy of experiencing Your Holy Spirit within us, of knowing that we are on our way to a Life where there will be nothing but joy, we were struck down. And we can feel betrayed. Especially if we have had human betrayal. And we can be in a place of despair. We know that we are to call out Abba Father, and we do. But we do not understand why we have not been delivered from this agony. Surely You must know that we are not those heroes in the Bible who remained faithful through terrible torture. They were special people who knew how to trust You with suffering. And we had anticipated some suffering. But not this, God. This goes beyond human endurance. What good can come of this? How are you honored in this? Where can we go for comfort, for understanding and acceptance? It has to come from You .

So we have to find Your words to us. And we find them in the Scriptures. And when we go there we see that suffering is indeed, part of the human, Christian life. We see Jeremiah. We see David. We see Job. We see Paul. We see Your Son. But oh God, we are in deep need of the strength to walk through this time of suffering. Your Word says that Your grace is sufficient. And that we can do all things through the Lord, through His indwelling Presence. Show us today Lord how to bring those promises into our lives, into our thoughts and to find what You have provided for us to walk through even this. And to know that You know us completely and have a way for us even when we see no way. Help us to look only to You and to Your power in us. Give us Your peace, Your hope and even Your joy as You have promised to give us. We lay Your Word before You and in faith, hold onto it as truth. Oh God of all Eternity, be very real to us today.


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5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 03 January 2015 - 07:46 PM

lionofJuda,

 

I read your post and it made me so sad, but I do respect the fact that religion, Christianity, or God are not right for everyone.  I don't know if this point of view helps at all, but the person who convinced you to take antidepressants was a man, and men are fallible.  It doesn't matter if the men are men of God, or men of medicine.

 

A man (woman, actually) of medicine is the one who has butchered me.  And, yes, it has profoundly shaken my trust in medicine, so that I do not know if I will ever even trust a doctor to take my temperature again.  But maybe if I look hard enough, I will be able to find a good doctor.  I just have to keep looking.

 

So I understand that your faith has been shaken.  But maybe if you look hard enough, you might find that God is still there for you, even when the people who claim to work in his name do not necessarily deserve your trust.

 

There are good and bad doctors, just like there are good and bad servants of God.  Of course, it makes it tricky for us, but look at the kind people we have found here on this website because we made the effort to look!  Maybe that means we still have hope to find good servants of medicine and good servants of God if we look hard enough.

 

If your faith has been shaken too profoundly, I do understand and hope that you find peace and recovery through the means that feel right to you.  I do not presume that what is right for me should be right for you.  I just want you to be well, in whatever way is best and healthiest for you!


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-Desipramine from Jan 2014 - October 2014. 60 mg reduced by 10 mg each month. Held 30 mg for 3 months. Rapid taper over 1 week from 30 mg down to 20, 10, 0

-Lorazepam 1 mg per night in 2011. In 2012, used 1 mg per month or less.  Lorazepam on & off Dec 2013 - Aug 2014, did not exceed 1.5 mg, did not exceed 3x a week

-On desipramine had muscle tremors & rigidity. Were they side effects or withdrawal effects as I reduced desip throughout 2014? Or was I in WD from nortrip as I was on desip? First muscle/dystonia side effects started on nortriptyline, but docs were too stupid to help me figure it out

-Last dosage desip 10 mg on Oct. 29, 2014. Last dose lzpam 1 mg, Nov. 2, 2014. Paradoxical reactions to benzos after quitting TCAs

-Tardive dystonia, dyskinesia, myoclonic jerks ALL over body, ribcage wiggles, facial tics, twitching tongue & fingers, tremors/twitches of arms, legs, cognitive impairment, throat muscles semi-paralyzed & unable to swallow solid food, brain zaps, ears ring, dizzy, everything looks too far away, insomnia, numbness & electric shocks everywhere when I try to fall asleep, jerk awake from sleep with big, gasping breaths, wake with terrors & tremors, severely depressed.  NO HISTORY OF DEPRESSION, EVER. Meds CREATED it.

-Month 7 off meds: hair falling out; no improvement in vision; still tardive dystonia; facial & tongue tics returned
-Month 8 off meds: thrown back to acute, including Grand Mal seizure-like episodes. New mental torment, PGAD, worse insomnia
-Month 9 off meds: tardive dystonia worsened, dyskinesia returned. Unable to breathe well due to dystonia in stomach, chest, throat.
-Month 13 off meds: Back to total acute, brain zaps back, plus developed eczema & stomach problems. Left leg no longer works right due to dystonia, meaning both legs are now damaged


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Posted 04 January 2015 - 04:06 PM

May I ask for prayer?  My brain has been in a constant spiral downwards since last February.  It continues to shrink visual space so that things continue to get closer and closer.  I don't know why it is doing this.  I am despondent and terrified of it.  I try to let God carry me through this but it becomes more than I can bear.  I am having a good window of NO akathisia and I know this is because of the prayers of others.  Will you please pray that God will also cause this bizarre process that my brain has locked itself into, to stop?  And would you please pray that I will be able to allow God to comfort me and assure me of His care for me?  It is so hard when you feel as though you are an aberration.  Thank you so much


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2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 04 January 2015 - 04:40 PM

Heavenly Father,

I come before you, and ask for your comfort and peace for Your child. She is suffering immensely. We are so very very grateful for the improvements we have seen, thank you. Your Word says that You never allow us to be tempted beyond what we can take. You tell us You will give us endurance or provide a way out. We are believing You in this. Please, help her to allow You to carry the load, to comfort and love her. Allow her to feel You with her. We thank you for the healing that has happened and is continuing to happen in her. We ask all of this, in the name of Your Son. Amen.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 04:55 PM

Thank you so very much.  Such a beautiful prayer.


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


#23 Wildflower0214

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 05:08 PM

Your very welcome. Anytime Selma.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 05:11 PM

Will you pray for me to sleep? I struggle with it. :(
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 05:44 PM

Holy Father,  You send sleep to your children.  We ask now that You will quiet JDM's mind Lord.  Give her the peace and quiet of Your Spirit.  Cause her to rest in You and Lord that You would give her sleep.  Help her to feel Your arms of love encircling her and cause her thoughts and feelings to be aware of Your presence with her.  Help her Father to rest completely in Your love.  We thank You God for Your constant awareness of all that we need and Your power to meet that need.    In the name of Your Son.  Amen


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


#26 Wildflower0214

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 06:04 PM

Thank you. Amen.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 07:51 PM

Selma and JDM,

Will be holding you both up in prayer.

Elgee
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#28 Wildflower0214

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 07:53 PM

Thank you Elgee.

Let us know how we can pray for you as well.


So grateful, thank you.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 04 January 2015 - 08:25 PM

Praying for you all tonight and tomorrow- please let me know if you have any requests.

Also, can someone pray for me? I'm feeling really, really low and the contamination obsession has taken a lot out of me. I want to give up because I have no fight and I've never experienced this before. Please pray for me to be brave, to allow peace in my spirit and that my therapist will help me create a successful treatment plan.

Diagnosed bi-pollar II in 2003 at age 15.

Lithium, lexapro and seroquel for the next 8 years, with occasional klonopin.

Quit seroquel cold turkey in 2011.

1st unsuccessful attempt to stop ALL meds cold turkey- 2012

Switched to lithium, citalopram and adderall (only on adderall for a few weeks).

Cold turkey off EVERYTHING Feb 2014.

 

Previous symptoms; crying spells, suicidal depression and hopelessness (3 months). Frequent urination and chocolate, allergy medicine and food sensitivities (3 months). Body pain radiating through my spine, legs, arms and butt followed by muscle stiffness, weakness and tingling/loss of feeling (7 months). Brain zaps, head aches and intense depersonalization. Fight or flight upon waking and difficulty sleeping (2 months). Difficulty regulating body temperature-incredibly cold hands and feet (8 months). Diarrhea and difficulty eating (lost over 30 pounds). Acute and itchy acne? on my forehead, cheeks and chest (7 months). 

 

Current symptoms: anxiety, obsessive compulsions, feeling stuck/unable to act/shocked, pain along my spine, hair loss, easily stressed and overwhelmed, difficulty with social situations, generally moody. 


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Posted 05 January 2015 - 01:59 AM

Praying for you all tonight and tomorrow- please let me know if you have any requests.

Also, can someone pray for me? I'm feeling really, really low and the contamination obsession has taken a lot out of me. I want to give up because I have no fight and I've never experienced this before. Please pray for me to be brave, to allow peace in my spirit and that my therapist will help me create a successful treatment plan.

Heavenly Father,

Please help your child. She is suffering with mental anguish that only You know. She is tired, weary, and broken. You know all of this. I ask you to lift the burden, to lighten the load, to give her some peace. Give her therapist wisdom as to how to help her heal. Give her spirit rest in You. Thank you that You are with her, healing her. Thank you for all that You have done to help her. Carry her through this trial by Your grace. I ask these things in the name of Your Son, Amen.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 05 January 2015 - 06:45 AM

Amen. Thank you for the prayer. I have my brave face on today.

Diagnosed bi-pollar II in 2003 at age 15.

Lithium, lexapro and seroquel for the next 8 years, with occasional klonopin.

Quit seroquel cold turkey in 2011.

1st unsuccessful attempt to stop ALL meds cold turkey- 2012

Switched to lithium, citalopram and adderall (only on adderall for a few weeks).

Cold turkey off EVERYTHING Feb 2014.

 

Previous symptoms; crying spells, suicidal depression and hopelessness (3 months). Frequent urination and chocolate, allergy medicine and food sensitivities (3 months). Body pain radiating through my spine, legs, arms and butt followed by muscle stiffness, weakness and tingling/loss of feeling (7 months). Brain zaps, head aches and intense depersonalization. Fight or flight upon waking and difficulty sleeping (2 months). Difficulty regulating body temperature-incredibly cold hands and feet (8 months). Diarrhea and difficulty eating (lost over 30 pounds). Acute and itchy acne? on my forehead, cheeks and chest (7 months). 

 

Current symptoms: anxiety, obsessive compulsions, feeling stuck/unable to act/shocked, pain along my spine, hair loss, easily stressed and overwhelmed, difficulty with social situations, generally moody. 


#32 Wildflower0214

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Posted 05 January 2015 - 07:48 AM

Amen. Thank you for the prayer. I have my brave face on today.


Anytime. :)
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 05 January 2015 - 08:22 AM

Thank you Elgee.

Let us know how we can pray for you as well.


So grateful, thank you.

Thanks for asking JDM. Please pray that I would find God in the midst of fear and anxiety. That no matter how difficult life gets that I would find peace in knowing that God is in control.


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#34 Wildflower0214

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Posted 05 January 2015 - 11:21 AM


Thank you Elgee.

Let us know how we can pray for you as well.


So grateful, thank you.

Thanks for asking JDM. Please pray that I would find God in the midst of fear and anxiety. That no matter how difficult life gets that I would find peace in knowing that God is in control.

Father,
Please help your daughter. She is filled with fear and worry about her suffering, about its meaning, anbout what the future holds. Please fill her with peace. Please give her the strength to turn to You in her moments of panic. Bring her rest, bring her comfort, bring her restoration.

In the name of Your Son, Amen.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 05 January 2015 - 11:25 AM

Yes, Lord


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 06 January 2015 - 06:28 PM

Please keep me and my mom in your prayers through our taper. My mom started her taper of trazadone tonight.


Prozac 1999-2009 quit semi cold turkey.

 

2012 Placed on Seroquel 25 mg, Tranxene (Clorezepate) 3.75 mg 3x a day, Remeron 30 mg for anxiety/akathesia.

 

Weaned off Seroquel and Tranxene .to Remeron 15 Mg.

In May 2014 tried quitting Remeron at its lowest dose. Had severe withdrawals.Reinstated Remeron at 30 mg by doctor. August 5 2014 entered hospital. Doctor pulled the Remeron and bridged it to Pamelor (Nortriptyline) 40mg and Zyprexa 2.5mg.After removing the Remeron all my bad symptoms went away and I am stable.

 

9/11/14 - 7.5 mg tranxene, 40mg Pamelor, Zyprexa 2.5mg

12/29/14 -  20mg Pamelor, 1/6/15,  7/31/15 3.5mg, 8/10/15 3.2 mg, 9/15/15 2.2mg, 10/15/15 1.8mg

(Feb 2016 - 1.4mg Pamelor only -  OFF OF TRANXENE AND ZYPREXA SINCE DEC 2014 BENZO FREE Since 2014. Nortrityline (Pamelor) .8mg Aug 2016

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