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#397 triplem15

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Posted 03 November 2016 - 06:20 AM

O2b, I can but imagine your sadness. I know what you mean about the endearing love of our pets. Several days ago as I held the face of my Mickey in my hands and I was talking to her, I asked her if she knew who she was like??? She just looked at me with her big black eyes and I told her she is as Jesus, with fur! I am so sorry for your loss. Big hugs to you from me. Be gentle one moment at a time ok.
I do take Flonase,also take Zyrtec on and off. Maybe twice per week. I am on Vit. C, B-complex, Vit. D, selenium, Vit E, fish oil, and l-lysine and thats it. No street drugs. No alcohol. 9/2006 Welbutrin XL 150mg, Began Weaning June 15, 2015, Alternating days, changed each mos. Oct 2015 switch to Immediate release 37.5mg. mid october 2015 down to 18.75, (9.37mg twice daily. stayed there one mos.) Dec 2015 down to 9.37mg in AM and 7mg in PM, January 2016 down to 7mg AM and 4.6mg in PM. 4/5/16 cut down what I thought was 2.5 to 3mg. From 4/16/16 until yesterday, was not doing well. 4/20/16, 37.5mg yesterday for first time. 4/21/16 Two days now on 37.5mg. 4/22/16 took monitors advise and dropped dose to 18.75, split dose ,twice daily, now holding.

#398 triplem15

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Posted 04 November 2016 - 01:10 PM

Hello to all. I am praying for us all. Oh2be Happy and Sheri, how are you doing??? Little wavey day for me. Neuro sadness/feeling blue. I have heard others on the site talk of the iatrogenic Neuro emotions. In the success stories I have read, all say it heals over time. Will be so glad when this happens. Please continue to share and pray. Thanks, Jamie.
I do take Flonase,also take Zyrtec on and off. Maybe twice per week. I am on Vit. C, B-complex, Vit. D, selenium, Vit E, fish oil, and l-lysine and thats it. No street drugs. No alcohol. 9/2006 Welbutrin XL 150mg, Began Weaning June 15, 2015, Alternating days, changed each mos. Oct 2015 switch to Immediate release 37.5mg. mid october 2015 down to 18.75, (9.37mg twice daily. stayed there one mos.) Dec 2015 down to 9.37mg in AM and 7mg in PM, January 2016 down to 7mg AM and 4.6mg in PM. 4/5/16 cut down what I thought was 2.5 to 3mg. From 4/16/16 until yesterday, was not doing well. 4/20/16, 37.5mg yesterday for first time. 4/21/16 Two days now on 37.5mg. 4/22/16 took monitors advise and dropped dose to 18.75, split dose ,twice daily, now holding.

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Posted 08 November 2016 - 01:41 PM

Triplem, thank you for praying. Please include me. I have terrible brain fog and pain and don't know up from down most days. I'm in a spiritual desert.


2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


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Posted 09 November 2016 - 02:15 PM

triplem -

 

Thank you for the prayers and checking in on me.  Tonight will be four weeks since my golden went to the rainbow bridge.  I continue to cry everyday.  The pain I feel from losing her is almost unbearable at times.  I do pray that the neuro emotions get better.  I struggle with them daily.  I will continue to pray for you triplem.


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Posted 09 November 2016 - 03:59 PM

O2, I'm so sorry about your loss.

 

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2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


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Posted 13 November 2016 - 07:54 AM

Please keep our members from New Zealand and all New Zealanders in your hearts and prayers:
 

Major quake (7.8 magnitude) has struck off Christchurch, NZ.

Tsunami waves expected (up to 16ft high in some places) along entire east coast.

Hope our SA friends are ok??


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Posted 13 November 2016 - 06:28 PM

Thank you for letting us know. I've been avoiding the news, but this is something we need to know about. Warm thoughts and prayers to all our NZ friends!


2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


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Posted 28 November 2016 - 08:39 AM

I could use some much needed prayers.  Today marks 15 months of being off Prozac.  Instead of celebrating this accomplishment all I want to do is hurt myself.  I don't know what is going on with me.  Any prayers would be greatly appreciated!


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

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Posted 28 November 2016 - 06:31 PM

First, 15 months is a great achievement and this is not easy!  I am glad you have made it this far, after all you did CT and that is always hellish.  May God be with you and strengthen and comfort you and give you His peace.  Please know that wanting to hurt yourself is the w/d and not from you, I had that lots.  Standing with you x


1995                20mg Aropax/Paxil for pain.  2000-2004 - Years of tapering and up-dosing (fast) (resultant suffering)

2004-2007       Daily 20mg

2008                Switching to Endep, Lexapro and then Esipram (hell!)

2009                20mg Aropax.  Tried skipping doses for a year (more hell!)

                        2010                10mg.  10% taper.  Lasted 4 months. Crashed again

2011                5% taper. 9mg-7mg (hell got even worse!)

2012                2.5% taper.  6.6mg – 5.6mg (worser still & unbearable)

2013                5% taper.  Big mistake.  5.5mg – 4.6mg  (even worserer)

2014                2.5% taper.  4.9mg – 4.5mg (worst year ever for w/d by far, plus gall surgery-developed arrythmia

2015                2.5% taper.  4.4mg - 4.0mg (gall surgery/anaesthetic continued to make things even worse)

2016                2.5% taper.  3.9mg  Feb 3.8   Mar 3.7  May 3.6   Jul 3.5 (finally imp. from gall surgery)

2017                2.5% taper.  Jan 3.4;   Mar 3.35;  Apr 3.3


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Posted 28 November 2016 - 07:43 PM

Dear God, please be with O2 .... please encourage 

 

Psalm 4:1  Answer me when I call to you, my righteous God. Give me relief from my distress; have mercy on me and hear my prayer.


THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD = NOW only on TRILEPTAL 450mg began w/900mg 7/16 -- off LITHIUM 600mg (sometimes 300mg 5/15 -11/16 took 2 months to taper) .... XANAX 2 mg for 2 weeks but addicted in 6/16 tapered 7/16-9/16 JUMPED 9/30 (believe have kindling from previous benzos)
6 meds nightly for INSOMNIA includes XANAX .. BELSOMRA 20mg c/t 8/20/16 off & on for a yr ZANAFLEX 8 mg /SILENOR 6mg/PROZASIN 15 mg/DOXEPIN 50 mg on all nightly 2 months 6/16 - 7/16 except for silenor (year) wd ALL 8/16-9/16 w/pdoc help
c/t KLONOPIN .5mg which began INSOMNIA end of 3/15 after on for 4 months also horrible sound& light sensitivity sometimes took 2 or 3 reinstated & then c/t@hospital 5/15 on TEMPAZEPAM/SEROQUEL/LITHIUM when left hospital tolerance to temazepam after 1 month given ATIVAN in hospital& later
SEROQUEL started @ 200 mg and overnight to 800 mg had horrible akathasisia & rash DEPAKOTE 1000 mg off after few wks ALL I COULD ENDURE
then AMBIEN side effects & tolerance on for few months 5/15 - 8/15 and then again 2 mos 5/16 LATUDA 3/16 on days BAD/GEODON 4/16 on less 2 weeks BAD AKATHASIA/ZYPREXA bad mouth shaking almost 24/7 off & on few months in 2015 & again in 2016
trazodon/remeron/gabapentin/sonata/lunesta did nothing to help INSOMNIA so got off after few days - also short time SAPHRIS BAD 
MEDICATION SENSITIVE & have paradoxical side effects -- CANNOT TAKE BENZOS, ATYPICAL-ANTIPSYCHOTICS, ANTI-DEPRESSANTS
PAST prior to 2 yrs on Prozac even1/4 pill caused BAD ANXIETY, CELEXA OK, Abilify, Pristiq, Lamictal, Paxil BAD - more but can't remember

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Posted 28 November 2016 - 08:36 PM

cannot take much noise music... forgot how much I love this

 


THE LORD IS MY SHEPHERD = NOW only on TRILEPTAL 450mg began w/900mg 7/16 -- off LITHIUM 600mg (sometimes 300mg 5/15 -11/16 took 2 months to taper) .... XANAX 2 mg for 2 weeks but addicted in 6/16 tapered 7/16-9/16 JUMPED 9/30 (believe have kindling from previous benzos)
6 meds nightly for INSOMNIA includes XANAX .. BELSOMRA 20mg c/t 8/20/16 off & on for a yr ZANAFLEX 8 mg /SILENOR 6mg/PROZASIN 15 mg/DOXEPIN 50 mg on all nightly 2 months 6/16 - 7/16 except for silenor (year) wd ALL 8/16-9/16 w/pdoc help
c/t KLONOPIN .5mg which began INSOMNIA end of 3/15 after on for 4 months also horrible sound& light sensitivity sometimes took 2 or 3 reinstated & then c/t@hospital 5/15 on TEMPAZEPAM/SEROQUEL/LITHIUM when left hospital tolerance to temazepam after 1 month given ATIVAN in hospital& later
SEROQUEL started @ 200 mg and overnight to 800 mg had horrible akathasisia & rash DEPAKOTE 1000 mg off after few wks ALL I COULD ENDURE
then AMBIEN side effects & tolerance on for few months 5/15 - 8/15 and then again 2 mos 5/16 LATUDA 3/16 on days BAD/GEODON 4/16 on less 2 weeks BAD AKATHASIA/ZYPREXA bad mouth shaking almost 24/7 off & on few months in 2015 & again in 2016
trazodon/remeron/gabapentin/sonata/lunesta did nothing to help INSOMNIA so got off after few days - also short time SAPHRIS BAD 
MEDICATION SENSITIVE & have paradoxical side effects -- CANNOT TAKE BENZOS, ATYPICAL-ANTIPSYCHOTICS, ANTI-DEPRESSANTS
PAST prior to 2 yrs on Prozac even1/4 pill caused BAD ANXIETY, CELEXA OK, Abilify, Pristiq, Lamictal, Paxil BAD - more but can't remember

#408 grandmaD

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Posted 29 November 2016 - 05:44 PM

Beautiful video!  Thanks


1995                20mg Aropax/Paxil for pain.  2000-2004 - Years of tapering and up-dosing (fast) (resultant suffering)

2004-2007       Daily 20mg

2008                Switching to Endep, Lexapro and then Esipram (hell!)

2009                20mg Aropax.  Tried skipping doses for a year (more hell!)

                        2010                10mg.  10% taper.  Lasted 4 months. Crashed again

2011                5% taper. 9mg-7mg (hell got even worse!)

2012                2.5% taper.  6.6mg – 5.6mg (worser still & unbearable)

2013                5% taper.  Big mistake.  5.5mg – 4.6mg  (even worserer)

2014                2.5% taper.  4.9mg – 4.5mg (worst year ever for w/d by far, plus gall surgery-developed arrythmia

2015                2.5% taper.  4.4mg - 4.0mg (gall surgery/anaesthetic continued to make things even worse)

2016                2.5% taper.  3.9mg  Feb 3.8   Mar 3.7  May 3.6   Jul 3.5 (finally imp. from gall surgery)

2017                2.5% taper.  Jan 3.4;   Mar 3.35;  Apr 3.3


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Posted 02 December 2016 - 05:24 PM

love the video :) 

 

Reminds me of a dark wd day I went to the beach in a freezing rain storm... the sea gulls sat on the ice ... naked... I whined in warm car in a coat... after some time it came to me that there were bigger things than me going on and if they could sit naked on ice I could get thru wd... or at least that day... 

 

I gave it to God once again cause he knows better then I what I can actually survive... pray for mankind we need it all prayers are heard... even from people in wd. 

wishing you all peace


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Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

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Posted 02 December 2016 - 05:26 PM

 

At times I wonder if I was meant to surrender why did he make me such a fighter well wd has taught me there are times to surrender... leave the frozen beach and go home to bed... God will watch the sea gulls...and us too

peace all


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 02 December 2016 - 05:43 PM


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 04 December 2016 - 08:32 PM

Thanks btdt for another beautiful video.  Yes, it all comes down to surrender and letting God do it.  Trust him.  Not easy, but the answers.

 

Thanks too for your little story.  It amazes me how if we look for the VERY LITTLE SIMPLE THINGS - He does show up like with you on the beach,but we have to be LOOKING.

 

One winter I didn't think I could possibly make it through .. and I noticed a flower on a plant that wouldn't normally be there in winter - the only one in a mass of groundcover.  I kept an eye on it, knowing that as it got colder it would die off.  It stayed there.  Then I knew it had to die when the icy cold winds came.  It stayed.  Well, it would be impossible for it to last through the frosts.  It stayed there!  This plant has NEVER had a flower/flowers on it through winter before this or since!  I knew then that if that flower could make it through winter, so could I!


1995                20mg Aropax/Paxil for pain.  2000-2004 - Years of tapering and up-dosing (fast) (resultant suffering)

2004-2007       Daily 20mg

2008                Switching to Endep, Lexapro and then Esipram (hell!)

2009                20mg Aropax.  Tried skipping doses for a year (more hell!)

                        2010                10mg.  10% taper.  Lasted 4 months. Crashed again

2011                5% taper. 9mg-7mg (hell got even worse!)

2012                2.5% taper.  6.6mg – 5.6mg (worser still & unbearable)

2013                5% taper.  Big mistake.  5.5mg – 4.6mg  (even worserer)

2014                2.5% taper.  4.9mg – 4.5mg (worst year ever for w/d by far, plus gall surgery-developed arrythmia

2015                2.5% taper.  4.4mg - 4.0mg (gall surgery/anaesthetic continued to make things even worse)

2016                2.5% taper.  3.9mg  Feb 3.8   Mar 3.7  May 3.6   Jul 3.5 (finally imp. from gall surgery)

2017                2.5% taper.  Jan 3.4;   Mar 3.35;  Apr 3.3


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Posted 05 December 2016 - 08:47 AM

Thank you all for the prayers.  I greatly appreciate them.  Thank you also for the beautiful videos.  I am grateful to have the wonderful support of this community. 


Discontinued Fluoxetine cold turkey after taking it for 12 years. Stopped taking Fluoxetine in August 2015.

My current withdrawal symptoms: DP/DR, internal shaking, crying, smell hallucination, hot flashes, night sweats, insomnia, anxiety, depression, and scared feelings.

Synthroid for hypothyroidism.


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Posted 10 February 2017 - 06:25 AM

For any who pray, I've been in unbearable neuropathy for almost 2 weeks.


2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


#415 O2bhappy

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Posted 10 February 2017 - 08:24 AM

MNgal1960 -

 

I am sorry to hear that you have been suffering.  I will add you to my prayers.

 

Hang in there!!!


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#416 MNgal1960

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Posted 10 February 2017 - 09:07 AM

Thank you, O2.


2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


#417 Madeleine

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Posted 10 February 2017 - 10:20 AM

MNgal1960: I will also keep you in my prayers.  (((Hugs)))

Zoe: Thank you for starting this thread. 


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200 zoloft. Tapering that next.


#418 SelmaLady

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Posted 10 February 2017 - 11:33 AM

For any who pray, I've been in unbearable neuropathy for almost 2 weeks.

Am praying for you.  So sorry that you're having to get through this.  God does give us HIS strength as we lean on Him. 


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zoloft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Micro Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 1.30mg

5/4/17  Doxepin 45mg  Zoloft 24mg  Clonidine 1.20mg   Micro taper of Doxepin, Clonidine

 

 


#419 MNgal1960

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Posted 10 February 2017 - 11:54 AM

Thank you, Selma.


2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


#420 Hosanna

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Lord God.  We are struck down.  We don't understand why we have been called to suffering.  When we were not suffering and saw others suffering we could perhaps, understand that it is sin that brings suffering.  Sin that entered the world through Satan's temptation in the Garden.  We understand that concept.  Sin brings death.  We were born into sin and into death.  But You have provided a sacrifice for that sin, for all sin for all ages.  Your Son came in the flesh that He created and through His own incomprehensible suffering, bought us back from death.  And we who have received this sacrifice for our own sin, have entered into the Eternal Life that is in Your Son.  But then, after the joy of experiencing Your Holy Spirit within  us, of knowing that we are on our way to a Life where there will be nothing but joy, we were struck down.  And we can feel betrayed.  Especially if we have had human betrayal.  And we can be in a place of despair.  We know that we are to call out Abba Father, and we do.  But we do not understand why we have not been delivered from this agony.  Surely You must know that we are not those heroes in the Bible who remained faithful through terrible torture.  They were special people who knew how to trust You with suffering.  And we had anticipated some suffering.  But not this, God.  This goes beyond human endurance.  What good can come of this?  How are you honored in this?  Where can we go for comfort, for understanding and acceptance?  It has to come from You . 
 
So we have to find Your words to us.  And we find them in the Scriptures.  And when we go there we see that suffering is indeed, part of the human, Christian life.  We see Jeremiah.  We see David.  We see Job.  We see Paul.  We see Your Son.  But oh God, we are in deep need of the strength to walk through this time of suffering.  Your Word says that Your grace is sufficient.  And that we can do all things through the Lord, through His indwelling Presence.  Show us today Lord how to bring those promises into our lives, into our thoughts and to find what You have provided for us to walk through even this.  And to know that You know us completely and have a way for us even when we see no way.   Help us to look only to You and to Your power in us. Give us Your peace, Your hope and even Your joy as You have promised to give us.   We lay Your Word before You and in faith, hold onto it as truth.  Oh God of all Eternity, be very real to us today.


Amen. Thank you

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12 years on increasing amounts of prozac, then 10 years on increasing amounts of effexor (to 300MG)along with 12 years on Enbrel or Humira and strong anti-inflammatory for arthritis || 2013 I did a 5 month taper off effexor from 300 to zero while adding prozac back and then tapering prozac (this was under a psychmd direction). this was way too fast... then real trouble...so psychMDs put me back on all kinds of new crazy stuff (Latuda (4 months), Trintellix(3 months), Depakote (a week), seroquel (a week), then a cocktail of Xoloft , wellbutrin, trazadone and elavil for 1.5 years) || then MS Diagnosis-extreme amount of brain lesions. told the cause is probably the Humira so taken off that (yes after some law suits there is now some fine print Humira warnings about it causing neurological disease) || 5 month taper off xoloft, wellbutrin, elavil, Trazadone (way too fast) || currently on zero meds since January 2016 including anti-inflammatories || anguishing for so long, just now realizing the root cause is protracted Rx withdraw because of the damage and ptsd of the chemical assault and too fast of a taper twice (I think the first effexor stuff is most significant).This is awful!!! I can't even put into words the waves that hit after not taking any of These so-called medicines at 3 months and 6 months and 9 months and a year . Its like it is getting worse not better || Diet: no sugar, no grains, nothing that can be GMO (corn, soy, etc.), limited potatoes, lots of vegetables, good fats, proteins. whole food natural supplements, herbal and homeopathic remedies...give my body what it needs to build new healthy cells/tissues/organs/systems and detox the toxic load.

***through all the pain, misery, insanity, loss (health, daily life, marriage, family, career possibility etc. )...God has taken care of me. My faith in God and in Jesus Christ my lord and savior is not lost. God is good, His word is true, He is who he says he is and I am who he says I am.  His grace has kept me alive and sustained me...just hasn't totally healed me yet... I will focus on and trust in God and his promises...not my circumstances***

 

 


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Posted 03 April 2017 - 12:06 PM

Beautiful! In Jesus Name I pray, Amen
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Clonazepam, 1.0 mg. am, .5 mg pm. - 15 yrs, 7-17-16- Began .5 three times a day
Vyvanse 60 mg, - 2 yrs, Cut to 50 mg for 6 mths, Cut to 30 mg. on 4-1-16. Tapering.
Approx. 4-1-15 began Effexor XR 300 taper, very slowly for a year. Held at 37.5 for about 3 mths. Cut to 18 mg for 2 wks to 0. WD began 2 wks later. Depression, anxiety, paranoia, low appetite, nausea.
7-14-16-Reinstated 5 beads Effx after 4 mths misery.Pooped out 10 days.
9-12-16-to present- Wide eyed terror, bedridden fear, no appetite/feeling of being full.
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11-13-16- Liquid Vyvanse 22 mg,11-27-16- Liquid 15 mg, 12-12-16- Vyvanse 12.5 for 5 days. 12-16 - 12-29, 15 mg.
11-20-16- Switched back to 1.0 clonazepam am & .5 bedtime
12-30-16- Moved to 15 mg COMPOUNDED Vyvanse.Current 4/11-4/25 7.5 mg.(10% ev 2 wks)
Current meds:Effexor XR- 5 Beads, Clonazepam-1.0 mg am, .5 mg bedtime,Vyvanse-(tapering) Estradiol- 2
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#422 Frogie

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Posted 05 April 2017 - 12:04 PM

For anyone that prays, can you please pray for me. I have been nauseous since June, 2016 tapering off Lexapro.
I need many prayers that my nausea goes away, and I'm able to taper off. I'm currently updosing because of my nausea.

Thank you, I pray every night for everyone on this site, and hope you will pray for me.

Take care,
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PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Zoloft, 1997-1999; switch to Paxil, 1999-2002 ___2009 - 2015: Gabapentin, 900mg, 2010-2015: tapered of 9 weeks, last dose Sept. 2015, no symptoms ___ Lamictal, 300mg, 2009-2015, taper of 6 weeks, last dose Oct 2015,no symptoms ___ Valium, 40mg, 2008-2015, 8 week taper, last dose Dec 2015, no symptoms ___ 2016: Carafate 1mg (anti-ulcer med) 4x a day as needed. Prescribed but not taking it. ___ Prilosec 40mg; 28-Aug started 25% taper; 1-Oct 20mg a.m. + 15mg p.m. Stopped Nov 26, 2016 w/rebound acid but not too bad.---CURRENT MEDICATIONS---Supplements: 150 mg Mag chloride, 350mg Krill Oil, Milk Thistle, ProbioticFor nausea as needed: Zantac, 300mg only "as needed". Zofran 4mg for nausea; only take it when nausea is unbearable or phenegran.Xanax, 3 mg in 4 split doses, 2008-present Lexpro: 2002 - March 2016: 20 mg; Mar-Apr 2016: 8 week taper 20 mg - 10 mg; 8-June 9mg; 13-June 10 mg; 11-Sep 7.5 mg; 25-Sep 5 mg; 5-Oct 10mg; started taking Liquid Lexapro in Nov 2016; started taper with liquid 1-Jan-17 9mg; 22-Jan 8.1mg; 22-Feb 7.3 mg, (horrible nausea); 30-Mar, updosed to 7.6 (1st morning, not as much nausea, hopefully it will get better); nausea was brutal; 6-April, updosed to 7.9mg, hoping nausea will let up; nausea stopped on 14-April for 2 days so far; 17-April nausea started back up :( stopped supplements on 10-April

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50mcg 18-April for hypothydroidism Stopped by dr. on 20-April too many side effects, going to try again in 6 months

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Posted 05 April 2017 - 12:28 PM

For anyone that prays, can you please pray for me. I have been nauseous since June, 2016 tapering off Lexapro.
I need many prayers that my nausea goes away, and I'm able to taper off. I'm currently updosing because of my nausea.

Thank you, I pray every night for everyone on this site, and hope you will pray for me.

Take care,
Frogie xx

Prying for every one and I said a prayer for you Frogie  :) May you find peace and comfort and the strength to rise above . I'm certain things will get better in time :)   


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3/11/15 cut of 5% 5/3/15 cut of 5% 6/3/15 cut of 5% 7/19/15 cut of 5%. Continued small cuts of 5% every six weeks or so untill October 8th 2016 ,last dose . Last dose was 0.8mg. Currently taking 10 mg propranolol in the afternoon. 1400mg fish oil. 250 mg magnesium, 250 mg L-Taurine, 500 mg Tumeric. 40 mg Zocore simvistatin.

#424 Frogie

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Posted 05 April 2017 - 02:21 PM

For anyone that prays, can you please pray for me. I have been nauseous since June, 2016 tapering off Lexapro.
I need many prayers that my nausea goes away, and I'm able to taper off. I'm currently updosing because of my nausea.
Thank you, I pray every night for everyone on this site, and hope you will pray for me.
Take care,
Frogie xx

Prying for every one and I said a prayer for you Frogie  :) May you find peace and comfort and the strength to rise above . I'm certain things will get better in time :)

And to you too. I will say a prayer for you. :)
PREVIOUS medications and discontinuations: Zoloft, 1997-1999; switch to Paxil, 1999-2002 ___2009 - 2015: Gabapentin, 900mg, 2010-2015: tapered of 9 weeks, last dose Sept. 2015, no symptoms ___ Lamictal, 300mg, 2009-2015, taper of 6 weeks, last dose Oct 2015,no symptoms ___ Valium, 40mg, 2008-2015, 8 week taper, last dose Dec 2015, no symptoms ___ 2016: Carafate 1mg (anti-ulcer med) 4x a day as needed. Prescribed but not taking it. ___ Prilosec 40mg; 28-Aug started 25% taper; 1-Oct 20mg a.m. + 15mg p.m. Stopped Nov 26, 2016 w/rebound acid but not too bad.---CURRENT MEDICATIONS---Supplements: 150 mg Mag chloride, 350mg Krill Oil, Milk Thistle, ProbioticFor nausea as needed: Zantac, 300mg only "as needed". Zofran 4mg for nausea; only take it when nausea is unbearable or phenegran.Xanax, 3 mg in 4 split doses, 2008-present Lexpro: 2002 - March 2016: 20 mg; Mar-Apr 2016: 8 week taper 20 mg - 10 mg; 8-June 9mg; 13-June 10 mg; 11-Sep 7.5 mg; 25-Sep 5 mg; 5-Oct 10mg; started taking Liquid Lexapro in Nov 2016; started taper with liquid 1-Jan-17 9mg; 22-Jan 8.1mg; 22-Feb 7.3 mg, (horrible nausea); 30-Mar, updosed to 7.6 (1st morning, not as much nausea, hopefully it will get better); nausea was brutal; 6-April, updosed to 7.9mg, hoping nausea will let up; nausea stopped on 14-April for 2 days so far; 17-April nausea started back up :( stopped supplements on 10-April

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#425 MNgal1960

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Posted 06 April 2017 - 04:07 AM

Selma, I meant to tell you the neuropathy has become more tolerable lately. Thank you for praying.


2005-2006 Rapid taper off of Zoloft. Horrible but survived. Adverse drug reaction to Prozac.

2010-2013 Night panics. All typical sleep aids failed. Diagnosed with complex PTSD.

2013-present: Valium (5mg x 3) prescribed by pro-benzo doctor. Helped me sleep for awhile. Then sleep began to get worse again.

Nov. 2014 Switched doctors. New doctor was anti-benzo but thought a 3-month taper was a slow taper. Failed and reinstated. Added 25mg Seroquel for sleep.

March 2016 Reduced gabapentin by 20% by accident and backed up again. (Was trying to feel less sedated.) Reduced again more slowly to 200+200+300.

October 2016 Liquefied one V tablet. Neuropathy back immediately. Waiting to liquefy another.

November 2016 All 3 tablets now dissolved. I think the windows are getting a little more frequent but they don't last long. Sleep poor.

January 2017 Felt stable enough to try daily microtaper. Started at 3% and inched up to almost 10%. Became very unstable. Terrors back. Neuropathy back.

February 2017 Holding again. Slow improvements.

March 2017 Neuropathy back to tolerable. Making very tiny cuts, about 3%/month.

April 2017 Hold. Lot of stress. Anxiety high and sleep terrible.

May 2017 Trying 1% cuts once/week of the V.


#426 SelmaLady

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Posted 06 April 2017 - 10:40 AM

Selma, I meant to tell you the neuropathy has become more tolerable lately. Thank you for praying.

 

Thank you Lord!  We'll pray that things will continue to improve. 


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zoloft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Micro Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 1.30mg

5/4/17  Doxepin 45mg  Zoloft 24mg  Clonidine 1.20mg   Micro taper of Doxepin, Clonidine

 

 


#427 ShakeyJerr

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Posted 11 April 2017 - 02:15 PM

Hi all! I am always up for being prayed for, and for praying for others! May the Lord bless us all who are suffering through discontinuation/withdrawal/tapering/currently on meds. May He bless us with peace and joy, and a close knot group of supportive, caring, loving, and patient people.

 

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Med History
Dates are tentative (my memory is shot)...

Prozac & Lithium from 1999 to 2003 (I don't remember the dosages). Went off but developed symptoms so put back on after 4 months.

Switched to Effexor (75mg 3/day) and Seroquel (50mg 3/day) some time in 2010 (I think). Did a self-taper during 2016 after losing insurance. Been off since around the beginning of 2017.

Developed Discontinuation Syndrome beginning with uncontrolled/unexplained crying in 02/17.

Moved on to full-blow symptoms from there. Been really bad since late 03/17.


#428 greenrobin

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Posted 20 April 2017 - 01:50 PM

I think prayer and positive thoughts are an awesome idea.  I send my loving, positive, light filled thoughts to EACH and EVERY one of you who are surviving depression.  You are all so brave and so amazing.  We can all help each other through this.


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most recent was Effexor 37.5 mg to 150mg depending on need

went off Effexor in June 2016 by tapering down to 37.5, then every other day for a week or two, then no meds

occasionally take Ativan for relief (2-3 times per month)

take L-tryptophan, TMG, DLPA, and GABA (aminos)

Take fish oil, B complex, vitamin C, D, multi vitamin, zinc, magnesium, calcium

recently started curcumin as an herbal supplement

Prayer and positive thinking (when possible) have kept me alive

 


#429 ShakeyJerr

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Posted 21 April 2017 - 09:54 AM

My prayer today is that God gives each one of us relief from our symptoms - a relief that takes hold and never lets go!

 

SJ


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Med History
Dates are tentative (my memory is shot)...

Prozac & Lithium from 1999 to 2003 (I don't remember the dosages). Went off but developed symptoms so put back on after 4 months.

Switched to Effexor (75mg 3/day) and Seroquel (50mg 3/day) some time in 2010 (I think). Did a self-taper during 2016 after losing insurance. Been off since around the beginning of 2017.

Developed Discontinuation Syndrome beginning with uncontrolled/unexplained crying in 02/17.

Moved on to full-blow symptoms from there. Been really bad since late 03/17.


#430 Sheri755

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Posted 21 April 2017 - 02:03 PM

Let's continue to pray for each other. There is power in prayer!! I'm bedridden and when I have to get up, filled with fear, I sing hymns out loud...Because He Lives, Jesus is the Sweetest Name I Know, What a Friend We Have in Jesus and several others. My prayer is for swift healing for all of us. 🙏🏼❤️🙏🏼

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Clonazepam, 1.0 mg. am, .5 mg pm. - 15 yrs, 7-17-16- Began .5 three times a day
Vyvanse 60 mg, - 2 yrs, Cut to 50 mg for 6 mths, Cut to 30 mg. on 4-1-16. Tapering.
Approx. 4-1-15 began Effexor XR 300 taper, very slowly for a year. Held at 37.5 for about 3 mths. Cut to 18 mg for 2 wks to 0. WD began 2 wks later. Depression, anxiety, paranoia, low appetite, nausea.
7-14-16-Reinstated 5 beads Effx after 4 mths misery.Pooped out 10 days.
9-12-16-to present- Wide eyed terror, bedridden fear, no appetite/feeling of being full.
10-30-16- Began 15% liquid tapering of 30 mg Vyvanse. (25 mg)
11-13-16- Liquid Vyvanse 22 mg,11-27-16- Liquid 15 mg, 12-12-16- Vyvanse 12.5 for 5 days. 12-16 - 12-29, 15 mg.
11-20-16- Switched back to 1.0 clonazepam am & .5 bedtime
12-30-16- Moved to 15 mg COMPOUNDED Vyvanse.Current 4/11-4/25 7.5 mg.(10% ev 2 wks)
Current meds:Effexor XR- 5 Beads, Clonazepam-1.0 mg am, .5 mg bedtime,Vyvanse-(tapering) Estradiol- 2
mg,Progesterone 200 mg,Testosterone 30 mg/ml,Nature Throid- 48.75 mg.(12-21-16-65 mg.) (4-18-17-81.25 mg) Current supplements: Fish Oil-1360 mg, Curamin- 2706 mg.

#431 ShakeyJerr

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Posted 24 April 2017 - 08:42 AM

In need of prayer. I was on a 4 day super-high anxiety wave (which was part of a 2 week anxiety wave).

 

Now suddenly my symptoms have morphed. My anxiety is waning, and I am slipping immediately into depression!

 
Why can't I catch a break?
 
SJ

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Dates are tentative (my memory is shot)...

Prozac & Lithium from 1999 to 2003 (I don't remember the dosages). Went off but developed symptoms so put back on after 4 months.

Switched to Effexor (75mg 3/day) and Seroquel (50mg 3/day) some time in 2010 (I think). Did a self-taper during 2016 after losing insurance. Been off since around the beginning of 2017.

Developed Discontinuation Syndrome beginning with uncontrolled/unexplained crying in 02/17.

Moved on to full-blow symptoms from there. Been really bad since late 03/17.


#432 BlazeMan

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Posted 30 April 2017 - 10:35 AM

Yeah include me in these prayers as well as I go through withdrawal off being on Olanzapine started on 10mg then had to reduce to 7.5mg as the 10mg literally turned me into a walking Zombie..literally I was breathing but I was not all there...got reduced to 7.5mg I did get  a bit better...but the lethargic feeling did not go away the depression did not go away the severe lack of motivation was depressing therefore I could not motivate myself at all and the excess eating was horrible and the massive weight gain added was even more depressing the feeling of constant defeat etc...Some aspects of my life did improve however only because I made descions at the right time when it felt right to do so....I was not eating as much fast food like Burger King etc reduced my drinking and well i was still sick but not as much....Although on November December time I hit a really big low I mean my Self Esteem hit rock bottom..so I talked to my support officer about it and she was like maybe you should seek help and get some counselling and I was like yeah and she arranged it for me and I did not have to pay for it it lasted over a 4 week period although it lasted into early January as  had to skip one week..Aghh can't recall why but I got more empowerment out of those 4 weeks tha I did from the therapist who prescribed this Olanzapine.  

 

I should not have been on Olanzapine in the 1st place.  The first Therapist I had was lovely and all that and she went and talked to a senior therapist who then came in and well he suggested I had Psychosis a small case of it by the way and this is obviously after she had asked me a bunch of questions and all that and they gave me 25mg sereoquel so went with it as much as I was reluctant to take it as my beliefs on who runs this world and how they control people etc but went with it and it was great it helped me sleep something in which I was unable to do for a long period  of time so that was a blessing and and as a result I got some much needed time off work which was great..I had a second session were me and the same therapist had a conversation very productive I was more chilled out and less stressed out than  before I even told her I was going to join the Gym which I did and I lost a lot of body fat etc...then like a month or two later I got another letter out for a new therapist dunno why I just did and the session started with a trainee therapist and that went pretty well although she did sort of ask my what my dream was and I said to become a billionaire and she was like a small laugh and said be more realistic..then she went in to my current therapist and talked to her and then she talked to me and give me this crap about my thoughts being all over the place etc which by the way none of my thoughts involved hurting others are causing any self harm.  So she suggested I up my dosage to 50mg which was something I was never going to  do anyway so she gave me a prescription and told me if I was going to take it to hand the prescription in and if not  I would continue to get my 25 mg..so I did stick with the 25mg...The next session I had with my therapist not sure it was like the session after the 50mg because I remember that same year I had a one on one session with just the trainee therapist it went well okay all good.  But the next session I had with my assigned therapist she asked me the a bunch of questions a friendly conversation she was all smiles and seemed peaceful and she was like a very pleased with your progress and all that and give me this friendly speech about on how she would not prescribe the drugs unless she had to..but she was happy with my progress therefore she suggested I take Zyprexa otherwise known as Olanzapine here in the UK and well the rest off the story has been Hell....But there has been many blessings out of this aswell.

 

Withdrawals are happening but I Educated myself on the withdrawal symptoms so when they do occur I know not to respond in panic.

 

Like for example the other week I had a strange dream were I guy in a suit was talking to me and he said something to me then I woke up kind of with a blank mind but I immediately snapped out of it and kind of laughed it off..then when my alarm went off I looked at my phone in a panic screen shot my home screen off my alarm twice then calmed down then chilled then got up and got on with my day like it never bothered me so it was all good.  So I know how to respond to these things....Everything is going to be Okay....God is with me...God is with us...and if God be for us who in this God green earth can stand against us.  Don't get fearful guys because at the end of the day you pput faith into your fears guess what....According to your faith it will be done unto you.  Also keep these encouraging verses and for thos who are not Christian but believe in God these scriptures are not exclusive to Christians there universal principles 

 

Job 3:25 - What I feared has come upon me;
    what I dreaded has happened to me.

 

 

Psalm 23:4

Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear NO evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.