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#37 btdt

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Posted 06 January 2015 - 10:00 PM

Lord God.  We are struck down.  We don't understand why we have been called to suffering.  When we were not suffering and saw others suffering we could perhaps, understand that it is sin that brings suffering.  Sin that entered the world through Satan's temptation in the Garden.  We understand that concept.  Sin brings death.  We were born into sin and into death.  But You have provided a sacrifice for that sin, for all sin for all ages.  Your Son came in the flesh that He created and through His own incomprehensible suffering, bought us back from death.  And we who have received this sacrifice for our own sin, have entered into the Eternal Life that is in Your Son.  But then, after the joy of experiencing Your Holy Spirit within  us, of knowing that we are on our way to a Life where there will be nothing but joy, we were struck down.  And we can feel betrayed.  Especially if we have had human betrayal.  And we can be in a place of despair.  We know that we are to call out Abba Father, and we do.  But we do not understand why we have not been delivered from this agony.  Surely You must know that we are not those heroes in the Bible who remained faithful through terrible torture.  They were special people who knew how to trust You with suffering.  And we had anticipated some suffering.  But not this, God.  This goes beyond human endurance.  What good can come of this?  How are you honored in this?  Where can we go for comfort, for understanding and acceptance?  It has to come from You . 

 

So we have to find Your words to us.  And we find them in the Scriptures.  And when we go there we see that suffering is indeed, part of the human, Christian life.  We see Jeremiah.  We see David.  We see Job.  We see Paul.  We see Your Son.  But oh God, we are in deep need of the strength to walk through this time of suffering.  Your Word says that Your grace is sufficient.  And that we can do all things through the Lord, through His indwelling Presence.  Show us today Lord how to bring those promises into our lives, into our thoughts and to find what You have provided for us to walk through even this.  And to know that You know us completely and have a way for us even when we see no way.   Help us to look only to You and to Your power in us. Give us Your peace, Your hope and even Your joy as You have promised to give us.   We lay Your Word before You and in faith, hold onto it as truth.  Oh God of all Eternity, be very real to us today. 

"How are you honored in this? "

 

Good question... I pray sometimes a lot sometimes a little... but I also wonder the answer to this question. 

Perhaps we need to honor God in this as I am not sure about the rest of you or how far you are into this process but i would not have made it without God and without prayer... I would not have even started the process without God.  

 

I will keep you all in my prayers... always have... with a special prayer here and there for some who's stories I read.. I prefer to do it by myself as it is pattern to me already please know there has not be a request for prayer by any on this thread I have not prayed about.  I like to keep this simple as I do not want to argue about God with anyone I will pray and let that sit for now....

 

wishing you all peace :)


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 07 January 2015 - 10:51 AM


Lord God. We are struck down. We don't understand why we have been called to suffering. When we were not suffering and saw others suffering we could perhaps, understand that it is sin that brings suffering. Sin that entered the world through Satan's temptation in the Garden. We understand that concept. Sin brings death. We were born into sin and into death. But You have provided a sacrifice for that sin, for all sin for all ages. Your Son came in the flesh that He created and through His own incomprehensible suffering, bought us back from death. And we who have received this sacrifice for our own sin, have entered into the Eternal Life that is in Your Son. But then, after the joy of experiencing Your Holy Spirit within us, of knowing that we are on our way to a Life where there will be nothing but joy, we were struck down. And we can feel betrayed. Especially if we have had human betrayal. And we can be in a place of despair. We know that we are to call out Abba Father, and we do. But we do not understand why we have not been delivered from this agony. Surely You must know that we are not those heroes in the Bible who remained faithful through terrible torture. They were special people who knew how to trust You with suffering. And we had anticipated some suffering. But not this, God. This goes beyond human endurance. What good can come of this? How are you honored in this? Where can we go for comfort, for understanding and acceptance? It has to come from You .

So we have to find Your words to us. And we find them in the Scriptures. And when we go there we see that suffering is indeed, part of the human, Christian life. We see Jeremiah. We see David. We see Job. We see Paul. We see Your Son. But oh God, we are in deep need of the strength to walk through this time of suffering. Your Word says that Your grace is sufficient. And that we can do all things through the Lord, through His indwelling Presence. Show us today Lord how to bring those promises into our lives, into our thoughts and to find what You have provided for us to walk through even this. And to know that You know us completely and have a way for us even when we see no way. Help us to look only to You and to Your power in us. Give us Your peace, Your hope and even Your joy as You have promised to give us. We lay Your Word before You and in faith, hold onto it as truth. Oh God of all Eternity, be very real to us today.

"How are you honored in this? "

Good question... I pray sometimes a lot sometimes a little... but I also wonder the answer to this question.
Perhaps we need to honor God in this as I am not sure about the rest of you or how far you are into this process but i would not have made it without God and without prayer... I would not have even started the process without God.

I will keep you all in my prayers... always have... with a special prayer here and there for some who's stories I read.. I prefer to do it by myself as it is pattern to me already please know there has not be a request for prayer by any on this thread I have not prayed about. I like to keep this simple as I do not want to argue about God with anyone I will pray and let that sit for now....

wishing you all peace :)


I have no answers really, but I do know that there is nothing that brings honor to God more than someone who has literally walked through the valley of the shadow of death, and held their faith, and come through it. Nothing seems to draw people to God like those stories. But, that isn't that much comfort to me most of the time.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 07 January 2015 - 04:31 PM

"I have no answers really, but I do know that there is nothing that brings honor to God more than someone who has literally walked through the valley of the shadow of death, and held their faith, and come through it. Nothing seems to draw people to God like those stories. But, that isn't that much comfort to me most of the time." 

 

It is always the Job story of "though He slay me, yet will I trust Him".  But even Job questioned when Satan was allowed to strike his body with agonizing sores.  It's the highest form of worship, to worship when in suffering.  God give us the grace to run with endurance the race that is set before us. 

 

Praying for you btdt and JDM. 


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2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

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3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

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11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 07 January 2015 - 04:59 PM

Please keep me and my mom in your prayers through our taper. My mom started her taper of trazadone tonight.


Lord,
Please be with your daughter and her mother. Give them both strength and wisdom, peace, rest, and let them know Your comfort. Help them through this very difficult process. God, help them not to give in to fear. Help them know they are never ever alone. Never will you leave them, never will you forsake them. Thank you for your constant love. In the name of Jesus, I ask all of these things. Amen.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 07 January 2015 - 07:26 PM

Thank you....

help them to know the truth as the truth will set them free...

the truth is nothing has hit you but what is common to man and God is faithful... he will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can endure ...he will show you a way out... 

fear in the mind brought on by these drugs in an illusion caused by the drug affects on your brain that is the truth it is not real... 

With the authority of the name of Jesus Christ with the living blood of Jesus Christ lies leave these people take the clouds from their eyes that they see the truth send the Holly Spirit to comfort them and let them stand soundly on your word.;... 

With the authority of the name of Jesus Christ fear and lies I command you to leave in the living blood of Jesus. 

Amen.  

 

that has seen me thru all sort of calamity I give it as a gift to you all

peace.


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 07 January 2015 - 07:28 PM

I have had days where i did not much else but pray call it OCD if you like a rose is by any other name is still a rose...

prayer works I pray too that you have somebody in the flesh who can agree with you in prayer Amen.  

peace all


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 08 January 2015 - 07:22 AM

Thank you....
help them to know the truth as the truth will set them free...
the truth is nothing has hit you but what is common to man and God is faithful... he will not allow you to be tempted beyond what you can endure ...he will show you a way out...
fear in the mind brought on by these drugs in an illusion caused by the drug affects on your brain that is the truth it is not real...
With the authority of the name of Jesus Christ with the living blood of Jesus Christ lies leave these people take the clouds from their eyes that they see the truth send the Holly Spirit to comfort them and let them stand soundly on your word.;...
With the authority of the name of Jesus Christ fear and lies I command you to leave in the living blood of Jesus.
Amen.

that has seen me thru all sort of calamity I give it as a gift to you all
peace.


Thx you Btdt, you are a sweet sweet soul. :) so happy to "know" you.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 08 January 2015 - 07:24 AM

I have had days where i did not much else but pray call it OCD if you like a rose is by any other name is still a rose...
prayer works I pray too that you have somebody in the flesh who can agree with you in prayer Amen.
peace all



I do this too, praying over and over, I don't care if it is OCD, like you it has gotten me through rough rough times. Thx for your kindness and sharing.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 08 January 2015 - 05:07 PM

Anytime JDM anytime. 

 

I think it is freeing to say hey I do this and I like it... :) 

people can think what they want give a label add my name to the naughty list do as they like 

but I will do what I do and they can do what they do ... 

here is to you :) with your great support and kindness keep on praying it works... 

peace to you :)


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 08 January 2015 - 05:18 PM

Anytime JDM anytime.

I think it is freeing to say hey I do this and I like it... :)
people can think what they want give a label add my name to the naughty list do as they like
but I will do what I do and they can do what they do ...
here is to you :) with your great support and kindness keep on praying it works...
peace to you :)

I just luv ya btdt!! I really do. :)
You just make my heart smile.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 08 January 2015 - 05:26 PM

Aww thank you.... smiles are good :) we have to feed each others hearts there is not enough of that these days to once your heart is smiling you can smile at somebody else then say sweet things like this to me I smile and pass it on... that may be the secret of these sites too.. pass it one :) 

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WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 08 January 2015 - 06:37 PM

Aww thank you.... smiles are good :) we have to feed each others hearts there is not enough of that these days to once your heart is smiling you can smile at somebody else then say sweet things like this to me I smile and pass it on... that may be the secret of these sites too.. pass it one :)
peace


Exactly!!! having people like you helps me a great deal. :)
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 08 January 2015 - 08:45 PM

It is important to know there are good people in the world...always but especially when thing are rough.  I forgot when I was in withdrawal more than once and had to be reminded again and again. 

Thanks and peace 


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

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Posted 09 January 2015 - 05:36 AM

You all are such inspiration to me.  Your gift of words and prayer makes my heart happy! 

 

This journey certainly has brought me closer to the Lord.  He definitely provides!

 

A friend gave me a little blue book, Jesus Today, when I first started experiencing withdrawal (but I didn't know it yet).  It really brought me some peace during a really horrible time for me.

 

I will be lifting you all up in prayer!


Started Pristiq in 2009

Weaned off in Fall of 2013 using skipping dose method advised by doctor

Intense anxiety, insomnia, weightloss in early 2014

Prescribed multiple meds including klonopin, trazodone and 50 mg Pristiq

Finally found a psychiatrist to help me withdraw

Reduced to larger half of 50mg on July 19

Reinstated to larger half and large 1/4 of 50mg on Aug 6

Reduced to larger half of 50 mg around Aug 30

Reduced to large quarter end of November

Slowly reducing with help of a scale

 


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Posted 09 January 2015 - 06:31 AM

I was praying for both you and your mom last night.  Will continue praying....


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 10 January 2015 - 06:58 PM

You all are such inspiration to me. Your gift of words and prayer makes my heart happy!

This journey certainly has brought me closer to the Lord. He definitely provides!

A friend gave me a little blue book, Jesus Today, when I first started experiencing withdrawal (but I didn't know it yet). It really brought me some peace during a really horrible time for me.

I will be lifting you all up in prayer!


Thx you!! So glad this thread has helped and encouraged you. Let us know how we can pray for you. :)

I will look at the book you mentioned. :)
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 11 January 2015 - 05:16 AM

 

You all are such inspiration to me. Your gift of words and prayer makes my heart happy!

This journey certainly has brought me closer to the Lord. He definitely provides!

A friend gave me a little blue book, Jesus Today, when I first started experiencing withdrawal (but I didn't know it yet). It really brought me some peace during a really horrible time for me.

I will be lifting you all up in prayer!


Thx you!! So glad this thread has helped and encouraged you. Let us know how we can pray for you. :)

I will look at the book you mentioned. :)

 

Here's another book by Sarah Young that is directed as those who are suffering---she has residual effects of Lyme.  This book is so comforting.

 

http://www.amazon.co...day sarah young


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 11 January 2015 - 07:58 AM

Please pray for me.  I am getting worse and worse in feeling more and more loss of reality.  I don't know how to survive this.  I feel as though I am disappearing  into a dream and will not be able to come out. 


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 11 January 2015 - 08:58 AM

I prayed that is you can't come out of this right now that comfort go in to you... 

I know what this is like and I hate it too there are things to be suffered and endured in withdrawal Things that we would have no knowledge of without being introduced to these drugs. 

This is the hard part ... it will pass...it will. 

Tho it is disorienting and confusing you will not disappear in reality and even if your personal self slips a gear or two you will still be there at the end of this and will see it later.  It felt a bit to me like being in a dream at times there are some grounding exercises that sometimes help. I know I put on in the self care part of this website but I have no clue what the title would be. 

 

I will go thru it with you here as that is easier for both of us...or I think it is. 

 

Close your eyes...feel one part of your body... where your bottom hits the chair or some place that feels most real to you focus on this area try to feel it more... make it real. 

 

After you have that first contact established pick a second spot while holding the intensity of the first it takes no effort to hold the first it just happens but stay aware of it... next spot picked focus your energy there.. sometimes the feet are good to use... as they keep you attached to the floor or ground but pick any... establish the contact... find one more place and do the same there should be three places in total. 

 

Next pick one sound do the same thing with three different sounds sit with it... connect to the sounds. 

 

Once those areas are established open your eyes find one thing to look at... focus keep looking at ti till you see it clearly ... you may think you see it clearly right off but the truth is you will see it differently after a few moments focusing on it so try it... pick two other things in the room and do the same thing with your focus  connect see it clearly take your time. 

 

Now your done how do you feel different from when you started this exercise... you don't have to tell me but make a note on how it helped or if it helped so you know how and when to use it next time if there is a next time.  I find it helps me more at some times than others...no idea why. 

I only like things that work and would never suggest it if I did not find it helpful.

peace to you today.


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 11 January 2015 - 09:34 AM

Please pray for me. I am getting worse and worse in feeling more and more loss of reality. I don't know how to survive this. I feel as though I am disappearing into a dream and will not be able to come out.


God,
Please be with her. Ground her in sanity and reality. Keep her safe. Give her peace. Let her feel Your presence. Lighten the load. Lord, she needs You. I know You are with her. Thank You for never ever leaving her. In the name of Your Son, Amen.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 11 January 2015 - 09:56 AM

I want to write that praying does not always stop the thing your praying to stop...but it helps you to deal with what doesn't stop...peace 


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 11 January 2015 - 10:09 AM

Thank you so much btdt for your prayers and for the exercise.  I can't do it right now because I can't concentrate enough and things look so surreal and blotchy that it is nearly impossible to focus on them  It was so kind of you to share this with me.  xoxo


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 11 January 2015 - 10:10 AM

 

Please pray for me. I am getting worse and worse in feeling more and more loss of reality. I don't know how to survive this. I feel as though I am disappearing into a dream and will not be able to come out.


God,
Please be with her. Ground her in sanity and reality. Keep her safe. Give her peace. Let her feel Your presence. Lighten the load. Lord, she needs You. I know You are with her. Thank You for never ever leaving her. In the name of Your Son, Amen.

 

Amen.  All that I need right now -- thank you.  xoxo


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 11 January 2015 - 10:11 AM

I want to write that praying does not always stop the thing your praying to stop...but it helps you to deal with what doesn't stop...peace


Agreed. Endurance is what I pray for the most.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 11 January 2015 - 10:12 AM


Please pray for me. I am getting worse and worse in feeling more and more loss of reality. I don't know how to survive this. I feel as though I am disappearing into a dream and will not be able to come out.

God,
Please be with her. Ground her in sanity and reality. Keep her safe. Give her peace. Let her feel Your presence. Lighten the load. Lord, she needs You. I know You are with her. Thank You for never ever leaving her. In the name of Your Son, Amen.
Amen. All that I need right now -- thank you. xoxo

Xo
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 12 January 2015 - 02:53 PM

I am back here reading these prayers.  So grateful for them and for you.  God will have to show the way, I have nothing in myself to go through this agony.  I have come to the unclimbable mountain again...


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 12 January 2015 - 03:43 PM

I am back here reading these prayers. So grateful for them and for you. God will have to show the way, I have nothing in myself to go through this agony. I have come to the unclimbable mountain again...

I'm in a hole myself. :(

I just got back from a ride in the country, I prayed for you and others and myslef. Just hold on to Him, that's all I know.

I'm exhausted. I know you are too.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 20 January 2015 - 05:18 PM

I want a faith like this warrior let him pray for you

 


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Posted 20 January 2015 - 05:23 PM

Testimony and prayer

let him pray for you


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Posted 21 January 2015 - 02:04 AM

I don't know how I will survive this
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 21 January 2015 - 07:48 AM

I don't know how I will survive this

JDM,

Words fail me when I read stories of incredible suffering like yours and others on this forum. All I have to offer you are my prayers.


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Posted 21 January 2015 - 02:49 PM


I don't know how I will survive this

JDM,
Words fail me when I read stories of incredible suffering like yours and others on this forum. All I have to offer you are my prayers.

Thank you. Prayer is the best thing you could do for me and for us all.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 21 January 2015 - 09:13 PM

I don't know how I will survive this

You don't need to know as God knows let it go and trust best advice I have. 

Peace


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 22 January 2015 - 06:47 AM

 

I don't know how I will survive this

You don't need to know as God knows let it go and trust best advice I have. 

Peace

 

It is so comforting that God knows.  God who keeps the Universe knows how to keep us in this and through this.  Thank you for that .


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 22 January 2015 - 06:44 PM

Your welcome. 


WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)


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Posted 22 January 2015 - 06:45 PM

That does not mean we don't go our part in seeking healing and being as good to ourselves as we know how to be.. and learning how to be good to ourselves with decent food exercise when we can ect.  

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WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivinganti...ng-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)