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#1 Bellisimo

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Posted 23 April 2014 - 06:50 AM

Has anyone become religious during WD or after WD

 


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 

 

 

 


#2 alexjuice

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Posted 23 April 2014 - 09:15 AM

More than ever.


"Well my ship's been split to splinters and it's sinking fast
I'm drowning in the poison, got no future, got no past
But my heart is not weary, it's light and it's free
I've got nothing but affection for all those who sailed with me.

Everybody's moving, if they ain't already there
Everybody's got to move somewhere
Stick with me baby, stick with me anyhow
Things should start to get interesting right about now."

- Zimmerman


#3 Zoe

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Posted 23 April 2014 - 02:54 PM

I'm with Alex.


 

Jan. 1994 Pamelor

2000 switched to Zoloft 

2011 Zoloft pooped out- Dr. switched me directly to Lexapro15mg -had a horrible 6mths

2013 upped Lexapro to 20 mgs-pooped out

June 2013 Dr. added 150 Wellbutrin to Lexapro.

July 2013 Switched back to Zoloft 100mgs.Was still taking Wellbutrin. Lots of anxiety from the Wellbutrin

July 2013 Started to wean Wellbutrin- off by Sept.

Oct. 2013 added 400 mgs of Neurotin to the Zoloft

Jan 2014 Tapered off of the Zoloft and onto Prozac 30 mgs. Also still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Feb 2014 Reduced Prozac to 13 mgs. Still taking 400 mgs Neurotin

Aug. 2014 Prozac 13 mgs. Finished with Neurotin. .7 Risperadol

 


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Posted 24 April 2014 - 03:17 AM

was before due to 12 step program and seeing other people turn their lives around from a belief in a power greater than themselves.

 

Daily practice of prayer.  So many time my prayers have been "Fox Hole Prayers" due to WD and anxiety/depression.

 

You know "God please help."  Urgency.

 

I don't know necessarily what "God" or Higher Power" is but I choose to believe.

 

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Posted 24 April 2014 - 06:29 AM

Absolutely. Am lifelong in my faith tradition and also participate in Al-Anon. I love it.


Prozac 20 mg/daily since 1995

July 19, 2013, initial cut to 15 mg; Aug. 2 updosed to 18 mg; Aug. 19, to 16.2 mg
Held at 2.52 ml/day Jan. 11-April 16, 2014
April 16, 2014, cut to 2.40 ml/day
Dec. 29, 2014, 1.84 ml/day, and held there almost six months
June 23, 2015, 1.75ml/day; July 21, 2015, 1.70 ml/day
Aug. 13, 2015, 1.60 ml/day

Feb. 7, 2016, .7 ml/day; April 26, 2016, .6 ml/day

 

Taking anastrozole (estrogen blocker)
 
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#6 Bellisimo

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Posted 24 April 2014 - 02:12 PM

I think its quite common that people who have not been religious before some trauma, turn then out religious lol.. myself i had never ever consider god or any religion before i went thru this trauma, and during it and still never consider it as much as now


2007 - 2013: was on citalopram (tried to quit a few times, never worked, always went back on. max dose 40mg)

2012-2013: was tapering my citalopram all down to 2,5 mg then quit.
2013/aug: Took  my last pill 

W/D hit me bad after a few weeks off my medicine.

2014/August: 12 months off (much improved)

2015/April: 20months off. ( much improved, still some symtoms comes in waves, but not so intense.)

2015/june: 22months off. FELT different than before, all shakings suddenly stopped, feel much better. a fantastic feeling!

2016/Feb : 2 years and 6 months off, END of my suffering. I feel perfectly fine and back to normal. 

 

 

 


#7 used2be

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Posted 09 May 2014 - 12:40 PM

Has anyone become religious during WD or after WD



I have always had my faith. It is my only strength right now.
Been on many and various AD's since 92. Began Lexapro, a life saver, in 08. Began taper Aug 13 - Oct 13. Terrible time with the withdrawal.

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Posted 30 December 2014 - 04:24 PM

Yes, this process has made me depend on God more than I ever have been in all my life.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Posted 02 January 2015 - 09:46 AM

During my 13 years on Paxil, and 4 years on Lamictal, I was an Oblate in St. Benedict's order  for 22 years and frequently lived at Saint Paul's Abbey monastery in Newton, New Jersey. My main function with my order was to maintain our 700 acre Christmas tree farm and help facilitate our Christmas tree sales & public relations operation in December and at one time to help maintain our honey bee farm. Once I stopped Paxil in 2008 after almost going insane from this horrid drug, all outside activity stopped and 1 year into w/d my wife of 27 years developed terminal cancer, and 13 months later died. It was truly thru the grace of God that somehow as sick as I was I was able to take care of her at home with the help of hospice and after her death focused my full attention on my Lord Jesus and my faith. Otherwise I doubt I would have had the strength to accomplish all this. In my 7th year now of w/d I still have some issues, but through the grace of God I hope to resume a somewhat normal lifestyle, and again devote myself to some form of ministry. I am so grateful to PaxilProgress and the kind supportive people there for the support I received during those first hellish years Of grief & w/d.   



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Posted 02 January 2015 - 09:50 AM

During my 13 years on Paxil, and 4 years on Lamictal, I was an Oblate in St. Benedict's order for 22 years and frequently lived at Saint Paul's Abbey monastery in Newton, New Jersey. My main function with my order was to maintain our 700 acre Christmas tree farm and help facilitate our Christmas tree sales & public relations operation in December and at one time to help maintain our honey bee farm. Once I stopped Paxil in 2008 after almost going insane from this horrid drug, all outside activity stopped and 1 year into w/d my wife of 27 years developed terminal cancer, and 13 months later died. It was truly thru the grace of God that somehow as sick as I was I was able to take care of her at home with the help of hospice and after her death focused my full attention on my Lord Jesus and my faith. Otherwise I doubt I would have had the strength to accomplish all this. In my 7th year now of w/d I still have some issues, but through the grace of God I hope to resume a somewhat normal lifestyle, and again devote myself to some form of ministry. I am so grateful to PaxilProgress and the kind supportive people there for the support I received during those first hellish years Of grief & w/d.

I am so very very sorry to hear of your loss of your wife at such an emotionally vulnerable time for you.

I have never realized how important faith really is until now. And, I don't think I ever would have known if this had not happened. I grew up Catholic. :) I often said I wanted to go on a retreat to a monastery. But, I never got around to it. Didn't have "time". Well, maybe now, I do.
2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....
5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

#11 Faithbarelysurviving

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Posted 18 May 2015 - 07:32 AM

I would not be alive without my faith. I try to pray. I want to believe that I have all the saints and Virgin Mary watching over me and my family. I also have confession and communion as often possible and it does help. Even when I was hosp. I got my priest in
Please have patience and read : a great Mental Health Care System indeed/Never been hospitalized prior to starting meds
-Not sure all is accurate:2005 Diag. with major depression and anxiety after second birth
-switched AD,getting worse (maybe:Celexa, Effexor, Wellbutrin-diagnosed with bp
-Zyprexa, stopped it fast, got hosp.,Seroquel incr. at 300mg, wors. depr, akathisia bad,
-changed dr.,dropped Seroquel 300mg to 100mg !!!-
-new dr.got me off Seroquel in 1 mth at home!!Lamictal to help...getting worse,was also taking Clonazepam
-severe muscle twiches, dp/dr,neck and shoulder muscles tight straight like cement, psychotic, bedridden for 1yr
-Got put on Zoloft in the hosp.,and 3 mg of Clonazepam, "Stabilized" some after some months, 5-6,
-Came off Zoloft by dropping some weekly, not knowing better!debilitating symptoms, got back on, tried to reduce Clonazepam after research.Prof. Ashton; hosp., asked dr. to follow Dr Ashton, he dropped 3 mg Clon. in One day!put on much less Valium...hysterical,pain,rage,couldn t breathe,akathisia etc etc
-Zoloft up to 200mg!, hyperv. muscles tight like cement...my dr., on vacation!!Other dr red.zoloft, gave me Remeron
Current meds:Buspirone 20mg,Tegretol200mg,Trazadone 50 mg,Clonaz. 3mg,Escital.15mg,Propran.20mg,Bupropr.150mg,Baclofen30mg,Gabapentin200mg, taken 4 times/day in various comb.
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Posted 18 May 2015 - 07:38 AM

Wildflower, this is my hope, to retreat to a monastery but i am too sick to travel or to plan... I wish I had a really close one where I could go! I wish so much!
Please have patience and read : a great Mental Health Care System indeed/Never been hospitalized prior to starting meds
-Not sure all is accurate:2005 Diag. with major depression and anxiety after second birth
-switched AD,getting worse (maybe:Celexa, Effexor, Wellbutrin-diagnosed with bp
-Zyprexa, stopped it fast, got hosp.,Seroquel incr. at 300mg, wors. depr, akathisia bad,
-changed dr.,dropped Seroquel 300mg to 100mg !!!-
-new dr.got me off Seroquel in 1 mth at home!!Lamictal to help...getting worse,was also taking Clonazepam
-severe muscle twiches, dp/dr,neck and shoulder muscles tight straight like cement, psychotic, bedridden for 1yr
-Got put on Zoloft in the hosp.,and 3 mg of Clonazepam, "Stabilized" some after some months, 5-6,
-Came off Zoloft by dropping some weekly, not knowing better!debilitating symptoms, got back on, tried to reduce Clonazepam after research.Prof. Ashton; hosp., asked dr. to follow Dr Ashton, he dropped 3 mg Clon. in One day!put on much less Valium...hysterical,pain,rage,couldn t breathe,akathisia etc etc
-Zoloft up to 200mg!, hyperv. muscles tight like cement...my dr., on vacation!!Other dr red.zoloft, gave me Remeron
Current meds:Buspirone 20mg,Tegretol200mg,Trazadone 50 mg,Clonaz. 3mg,Escital.15mg,Propran.20mg,Bupropr.150mg,Baclofen30mg,Gabapentin200mg, taken 4 times/day in various comb.
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Posted 07 September 2015 - 10:24 PM

No, i talk to my body to heal it self not wish/hope to a make believe person.


Summer 2013: started on Prozac for OCD

Fall 2013: started Lexapro due to Prozac zombie effects

 

Stopped Lexapro because of lack of empathy/emotion,anxiety,lack of concentration etc.

Fall 2014: switched to zoloft 

 

February 2015: started effexor quit C/D after 2 weeks.

April 2015: was on zoloft for a month again to try and wean a bit more slowly. DID not work.

May 2015: dumped all of my medications

July 2015: Struggling day to day with withdrawal symptoms but hopeful that I'll be better at the end of august for the next school year.


#14 manymoretodays

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Posted 08 September 2015 - 07:00 AM

Yes.  Both while in withdrawal and under the effect of prescribed psychoactives.

 

Not sure, for me, if it is all defined as becoming more religious, in my case........well sure, sometimes...........hopefully more spiritual?  In the sense of having a guide which is well outside of myself.


Started with psycho meds circa 1988 I think 27 or 28 total.

AD's, antpsychotics, antiseizure mood stabilizers. Lithium, lamictal,benzos, and stimulants. Some med. for narcolepsy once?, Gabapentin........probably more.  Ask me?......I probably was on it.  Haphazard W/D's by Dr. recommend or uneducated self.

10/2014- off Lexapro--had been on highest dose 10 mg. then 5 mg. for a couple of years, went from 5 mg. to 3 mg. liquid and then CT in hospital(voluntary).  I got out of the hospital on a combination of low dose adderal salts x1/day and trileptal 150mg. x2/day.

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!

 

3/21/2016---I did some unwise updosing of trileptal/oxcarbazepine with some stressful stuff......doubled the above dose x2 during this last wave but began liquifying again and on approximately 68mg. starting today.  11/12//2016 24 mg. oxcarbazepine  12/9/2016 off oxcarbazepine/trileptal!!!! :) optimistic

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Posted 08 September 2015 - 07:44 PM

I have become extremely determined to find proof of god and questining my own beliefs e.g. is god a dieistic god, a personal god (involved in human affairs) is god in nature? Is there a god or do we live in a naturalistic closed system?? When I accepted Jesus christ as my personal savior did I do so under the auspices and sure influence of ssris? I became determined to find god because when you're at death's door you question the meaning of life and a possible afterlife. Plus I was always philosophical
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Posted 08 September 2015 - 07:47 PM

Why do I believe Jesus christ was the son of god other THan through a book writtend decades after his death? Why was there little to no writte history recording Jesus meanderings and recording miracles?
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Posted 10 September 2015 - 03:33 AM

Good question....since I am an atheist I always see christians (or other) admit that if you choose to belive you should not question too much baout god...if you choose to belive, you have to belive!

 

I think (just my oopinion no intend to offend) this is a lack of respect in everyone own spirituality.

(my spirituality is 99% abstent btw :-P )


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Posted 11 September 2015 - 12:05 AM

I've been a christian for many years but have definitely found my faith a source of comfort these past few years. I actually find that doing my daily Bible Study really helps me to calm down.  The book of Psalms is a constant reminder that I am not alone in my anxious state!



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Posted 02 July 2016 - 05:01 AM

Before the drugs, I was ripped away from all my former beliefs by a narcissist yogi, who wanted me to believe only in him, his teachings, his yoga, his practice.  

 

The practice was good, the teachings were good,also - but the ripping away of belief was quite traumatic.  

 

After that, I was drugged and numbed for about 15 years.  So I went from being passionate about my spirituality - to afraid of it - to nothing.

 

Coming off the lithium has been like having a veil removed from my brain.  Only it's more of a cold, wet dishtowel covered in tar.    Gradually, slowly, as the tar and the wet towel are removed, I gain interest in Sacred things.

 

They are different from before, but they are Sacred, and I Gnosis them as such.  Now it is like the sacred connection between people, or the interconnectedness of nature, the cycles of water, earth, sky, the moments of fire.  The connection to Vision, and the ability to feel the visions and be blessed by them and grateful for them.

 

I will never be able to follow a flock again.  Is this a gift, or is it a hardship?  I envy those who can completely surrender their pain and suffering to another - whether that is a church or God or - ?  This surrender enables a person to achieve greater optimism, happiness, sense of belonging and tribe, and worthiness.  And this optimism can be reinforced by scripture, by congregation.

 

It's a known fact that a person with faith has better health, better well-being than a person without faith (even if that second person still considers themselves "spiritual").  That may be an impossibility for me now - not that I need proof of the senses or even of science, but that - so tentatively I approach that which was ripped away from me before.

 

It's like trusting a drunk not to do it again.


"Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna

 

Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again.

 

My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices.

 

A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia.   CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013.   Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine).     Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 -  Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years  on Lithium).  Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made.

 

Currently Lithium Orotate 1.67 mg only.  I will re-evaluate this supplement in 2017.

 

I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016!


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Posted 13 July 2016 - 06:38 AM

We all have a soul and everything in the universe is connected through energy, whether Jesus Christ was the son of god I dont know for sure, but I am certain humans do not know it all, and sceince has not all the answers , as is illustrated with anti depressants drugs. I looked for answers from the medics they pointed me to mindfulness, which I thought was ironic.That is my opinion, plenty of others are available.


I am off all meds 16 months I had been on olanzapine, Effexor zanex and assorted sleeping meds for approx 2 years.
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Posted 14 July 2016 - 11:35 AM

My faith journey began while on Zoloft, and it is my faith that got me to take the risk of getting off it.  I feel more grounded, centered, peaceful, than I can ever remember since I began my walk with God.  I read Psalms each day, listen to podcasts of sermons, do Bible studies at my church, listen to faith-based music, and pray. 

 

The benefits are that I am totally convinced that God is with me on the withdrawal journey.  He will support me like no other person or source could ever do.  I will make it, not through my intelligence or work but instead by his power. 

 

I am faithful that he will also keep me from needing the meds in the future.  I will use my faith to keep the anxiety away.  I trust Him above all. 


Began Paxil for situational panic attacks in 2000. Then psych put me on Prozac to transition me to Lexapro in 2008. I forget the dosage of Paxil and Lexapro. Switched to100mg Sertraline since 2011.

 

75Mg taper began 06/21/2016. 67.5 mg taper began 07/10/2016. 61mg taper began 08/01/2016. 54mg taper began 08/24/2016. 48mg taper began 09/06/2016. 44mg taper began 09/20/2016. 40mg taper began 10/11/2016. 35mg began 10/25/2016. 25 mg began 11/15/2016.  20 mg began 12/03/2016.  12.5 mg began 12/22/2016.  DRUG FREE JANUARY 16, 2017!!

 

Began daily meditation 12/01/2016.  Very helpful!!

 

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Posted 15 July 2016 - 01:18 PM

I replace repetitive intrusive thoughts with prayers and mantras. It has been a life saver. especially at work.

retraining the brain is slow but the more i do it the better it gets!


7 yrs Lexapro 10 mg. Mar/2011 - 1 month taper. Severe W/D. Multiple symptoms.Gallbladder and parathyroid surgery in Aug and Oct. Disability 3 months.  Dec/2011 reinstated 5mg Lex and went back to work. very bad shape.

By Aug/2012 - self tapered to 1.25 mg cutting pills. -very bad shape. Nov/2012  Dr. Hinz neuro-replete. up and down. Aug/2013 at aprox 1.0 mg Lex stopped neuro-replete

~Oct 2013 Found this site :) ~ began using compounded Lexapro and have been tapering since then as below.

 

11/6/13: .6,  12/20/13: .55,   02/6/14:.5,  05/15/14:.485, 10/10/14:.48

10/31/14:.475,  03/25/15:.470,  05/15/15:.465,  06/13/15:.46,  07/30/15:.455,  9/18/15: 0.450,  10/23/15: 0.445,  11/14/15: .44,

12/6/15: .435,  12/22/15: .43,  1/08/16: .425,  1/18/16:.42,  1/31/16:.415,  2/18/16:.41,  3/15/16:.405,  6/18/16: .36,  10/10/16:.355

11/12/16:.350,  12/3/16:.34,  12/22/16:.33,  1/01/17: .32,  1/29/17:.31,  2/24/17:.3,  3/10/17:.29,  3/20/17: .28,  4/4/17:.27,  4/14/17:.26, 4/23/17:.25,  5/9/17:.24,

 

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Posted 30 July 2016 - 03:45 AM

Unfortunately I'm not a believer but I went to church 3 times in the last 2 months.

It is difficult for me to believe when there is a God when so many innocent children suffer.
Was on Paxil 20 mg between 2007-2016 for social anxiety.

Off Paxil since 29 february 2016, after 9 years on the drug.
Tried to reinstate 6 weeks later with no results, tried then Prozac and Zoloft on advice of psychiatrist with bad results. Meds free since 1 of june and in withdrawal which I don't know any more what it is caused by. ( Paxil, Prozac or Zoloft).

Withdrawal symptoms: severe insomnia, nausea, weight loss, anxiety, brain zaps sometimes, strange pains in different places on my body (could be caused by the anxiety though),gastrointestinal issues, jaw pain (gone now), poor memory (could be the lack of sleep), poor concentration, irritability, depression, hopelessness, rumination, tinnitus (gone)

#24 nick1990

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Posted 30 July 2016 - 10:09 PM

If anything - this process has pushed me further away from "faith" .  It has made me think more critically and logically about things.  I am a strongly agnostic. I don't know the answers - however i do believe religion is the downfall of our society. In saying that though i fully understand how people in WD turn to religion :)


Started Citalopram in 2004 or 2005 (aged 14 or 15) for apparent "OCD" - 60mg -

Cold switch Mirtazapine 2011 - Crash - Back to Citalopram 60mg. Recover within few weeks.

Slowly over couple years drop to 50mg. No real WD.

June 2015 drop to 45mg . Tiny hiccup about a week later - recover within a day. July 2015 drop to 40mg. 1 week later MASSIVE Anxiety/Panic/Confusion/Irritation. Try to ride it out for nearly 3 months. Does improve very slightly , windows longer but still not pleasant. Intense Anxiety though. Back to 45mg October 2015- immediately tired, drowsy, fuzzy and cloudy. Anxiety improves but still there 1 week on. November 2016 - Resumed taper. 1% decrease weekly approx.  44.5mg November 2016. Jan 2017 42.5 mg. March 2017 40 mg.


#25 blazesboylan

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Posted 31 July 2016 - 02:00 AM

was before due to 12 step program and seeing other people turn their lives around from a belief in a power greater than themselves.

 

Daily practice of prayer.  So many time my prayers have been "Fox Hole Prayers" due to WD and anxiety/depression.

 

You know "God please help."  Urgency.

 

I don't know necessarily what "God" or Higher Power" is but I choose to believe.

 

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Hi Nikki,

 

I have started praying to a Higher Power in the mornings and at night since I started going to AA meetings over a year ago. Prior to that I wasn't particularly religious. I would even have been quite cynical about religion. There are times also when I have my doubts still of course. However, I think that a belief in a Higher Power, whatever that happens to be for the individual, is really helpful.

 

I have always been attracted to Buddhism I suppose. I meditate frequently also. I am actually going on a meditation retreat soon! I was raised a Catholic by the way although I don't Catholicism now.

 

I hope that you are having a good weeekend!

 

Blazes.


Previously - zopiclone, risperidone, lyrica (pregabalin), ativan (lorezapam)
 
25/Jun/2016 -  80mg effexor, 4.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
04/Jul/2016 -  72mg effexor, 4.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
01/Aug/2016 -  65mg effexor, 4.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
12/Aug/2016 -  75mg effexor, 4.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
03/Oct/2016 -  70mg effexor, 4.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
29/Oct/2016 -  65mg effexor, 4.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
25/Nov/2016 -  65mg effexor, 4mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
25/Dec/2016 -  60mg effexor, 3.6mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
18/Jan/2017 -  60mg effexor, 5.25mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
27/Mar/2017 -  54mg effexor, 5.25mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
23/Apr/2017 -  54mg effexor, 7.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
09/May/2017 -  75mg effexor, 7.5mg olanzapine, 15mg mirtazpine
 
Xanax as needed. Sometimes valium. Not daily.
 
Supplements - Magnesium, Omega-3, L-Theanine, Sterol and Stanols.
 
Note : I would really hope that nobody uses my tapering history as a guideline. It might not work well for somebody else tapering similar medications.

 


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Posted 10 October 2016 - 06:04 PM

yeah actually haha, i remember to this day, during my first withdrawal from effexor, i was just going insane, i walked into a church and i felt like i was not welcome there, then this lady right on my side starts having a seizure, i totally freaked out. i thought there was something wrong with my soul or something haha. today all i do is praying. it does brings some hope to me


(i'm brazlian so please, ignore spelling mistakes) 2015 the beggining of the year started with effexor xr 37,5

went up to 300mgs

in october of 2015 quitted COLD TURKEY/took olanzapine 5mgs for 2 weeks around november/ reinstated effexor in january of 2016

in march of 2016 was at 300mg again

in may tappered effexor xr and added trazodone 150mgs, seroquel 50mgs and abilify 10 mgs/in july cold turkey from abilify (no big deal)

in september tried reducing trazadone to 50mg

after 2 weeks went back to 150mgs of trazadone and 50 mgs of seroquel and added 2 mgs of klonopin to use WHEN NEEDEED

currently taking 150mgs of trazadone and 50 mgs of seroquel at night

 


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Posted 11 October 2016 - 05:40 AM

 In the sense of having a guide which is well outside of myself.

 

That guide which is well outside myself, is inside myself, too.  And inside every living thing.  The yin inside the yang; the yang inside the yin.

 

Humbly, I am open to that guide outside myself - and I access "That" by going Inside my Self.  "That" accesses me by surrounding me in Experience.

 

In Witnessing (the meditation, not the proselytization) That which is greater than me, sees through me, sees what I see, feels what I feel.  In really open moments, that Witnessing can empathize with what others see, hear, and feel, too.  I am in awe of That which Creates me and the world around me in every moment I am Present.  

 

The hard part is Staying Present!  However, one of the games the Soul plays with the Bodymind - is hide and seek.  Soul hides, Bodymind seeks.  Joy!  We found each other again!  Joy!  Then Soul hides again.  When Bodymind survives the grief of this abandonment and remembers to look again - Joy of Union can be found again.

 

Life comes in Windows and Waves.  Connection comes in Windows and Waves.  Belonging, Union, Presence, all in Windows and Waves.

 

It's a mystery.

 

But I still cannot use the word "faith" other than the scientific belief in the repetition of fractals:  any cycle will repeat again, and beauty will be found not in this cycle, nor the next - but in the Whole of them all.


"Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna

 

Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again.

 

My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices.

 

A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia.   CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013.   Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine).     Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 -  Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years  on Lithium).  Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made.

 

Currently Lithium Orotate 1.67 mg only.  I will re-evaluate this supplement in 2017.

 

I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016!


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Posted 11 October 2016 - 07:58 AM

My parents are devoutly Catholic, my mother goes to Mass ever day for example but it never exactly rubbed off on me no matter how much I was indoctrinated with the dogmatic teachings of the Church. I'm a big fence sitter when it comes to religion - on one hand I hear studies of how religious people have better mental health than non believers, on the other hand I hear stories that say precisely the opposite. If you have come across the term "locus of control", belief in an omnipresent, omnipotent God means you have an external locus of control meaning you don't belief you have power or control over your own life/destiny and thus will suffer power mental health as a consequence.
May 2007 - October 2007 Citalopram 20 mg od. 1st Antidepressant ever taken. No problem with fast taper and no withdrawal effects. No antidepressants for over 5 years.

January 2013 started Citalopram 20mg.
March 2014 Switched to Sertraline 50 mg od.
23rd June 2016 started taper 45mg
23rd July 2016 40.5 mg of Sertraline
23rd August 36.45 mg of Sertraline
27th September 34.65 mg
24th October 32.90 mg
28th November 31.26 mg
4th January 32mg
25th Feb 31 mg 22nd March 30mg 14th April 29mg 9th May 28mg

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Posted 11 October 2016 - 03:46 PM

 

 In the sense of having a guide which is well outside of myself.

 

That guide which is well outside myself, is inside myself, too.  And inside every living thing.  The yin inside the yang; the yang inside the yin.

 

Humbly, I am open to that guide outside myself - and I access "That" by going Inside my Self.  "That" accesses me by surrounding me in Experience.

 

In Witnessing (the meditation, not the proselytization) That which is greater than me, sees through me, sees what I see, feels what I feel.  In really open moments, that Witnessing can empathize with what others see, hear, and feel, too.  I am in awe of That which Creates me and the world around me in every moment I am Present.  

 

The hard part is Staying Present!  However, one of the games the Soul plays with the Bodymind - is hide and seek.  Soul hides, Bodymind seeks.  Joy!  We found each other again!  Joy!  Then Soul hides again.  When Bodymind survives the grief of this abandonment and remembers to look again - Joy of Union can be found again.

 

Life comes in Windows and Waves.  Connection comes in Windows and Waves.  Belonging, Union, Presence, all in Windows and Waves.

 

It's a mystery.

 

But I still cannot use the word "faith" other than the scientific belief in the repetition of fractals:  any cycle will repeat again, and beauty will be found not in this cycle, nor the next - but in the Whole of them all.

 

 

Nicely put JanCarol.  Inside/outside.  Waves and windows........

 

I have trouble with the word religion lately.  And all the guilt and shame I felt with various interpetations presented to me within religious/church settings.  Although....I felt the spirit from time to time in a church.  So......I don't know.......don't know much at all but yah........inner spirit......outer spirit.........feel more one and whole.......or maybe many.  Lol.  Many more??

 

"Beauty in the Whole of them all" .......... :)


Started with psycho meds circa 1988 I think 27 or 28 total.

AD's, antpsychotics, antiseizure mood stabilizers. Lithium, lamictal,benzos, and stimulants. Some med. for narcolepsy once?, Gabapentin........probably more.  Ask me?......I probably was on it.  Haphazard W/D's by Dr. recommend or uneducated self.

10/2014- off Lexapro--had been on highest dose 10 mg. then 5 mg. for a couple of years, went from 5 mg. to 3 mg. liquid and then CT in hospital(voluntary).  I got out of the hospital on a combination of low dose adderal salts x1/day and trileptal 150mg. x2/day.

5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)

12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs.  My last psycho med ever!

 

3/21/2016---I did some unwise updosing of trileptal/oxcarbazepine with some stressful stuff......doubled the above dose x2 during this last wave but began liquifying again and on approximately 68mg. starting today.  11/12//2016 24 mg. oxcarbazepine  12/9/2016 off oxcarbazepine/trileptal!!!! :) optimistic

Omega3's,EPA +DHA= approx. 1200/day. Magnesium citrate orally,diluted in a liter of H2O(that I can shake up.....it usually dissolves more completely as the water gets down to room temperature) and/or Epsom salt baths prn.   Vit. C and E.  B12, melatonin 3mcg., and bioidentical hormones sublingually.  Trace mineral drops.  L-lysine.  L-methylfolate=300 mcg. Totally ready for a good long window to hit soon and getting better strings of full days and partial days along the way.  Definite improvement overall since I first arrived on the SA survivor ship.  Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.