Posted 23 October 2014 - 10:28 AM
Joy, you have jumped around so much on dosages just since August, especially recently with all the jumps around 20, 10, 15--that is a LOT of constant change to your CNS which has to constantly adapt. I suspect you are going to have waves and windows of symptoms for a number of months to come still just from all the stuff you have changed lately. Plus coming off the lithium. Plus that rapid taper from the citalopram down to 2.5 over the summer.
Your CNS has been through the wringer and has definitely not had time to recover. I think it's way too soon to start another taper. I think you should hold six months at the very least. During that time you will continue to have withdrawal symptoms and ups and downs due to the instability caused by all the changes you have already made.
Of course this is just my opinion, but I've seen a LOT of people go through this stuff. The path you're on generally leads to people ending up on more drugs than they were on to begin with. Please think about this and be more cautious.
You yourself admit that you are not cognitively where you would like to be. Please consider the possibility that you might not be making the best decisions for yourself.
Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease" as I was told. Long and tragic story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything.
Now tapering, ironically (but not surprisingly) healthier and more functional than I ever was during the years on the "meds," even with withdrawal (usually fairly mild at this slow pace).
Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010. Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea.
Feb 15 2010: 300 mg Neurontin 200 Lamictal 10 Celexa 0.65 Xanax and 5 mg Ambien
Feb 14 2011: 86 mg Neurontin 144 Lamictal, 5.5 Celexa 0.42 Xanax 1.9 mg Valium
Feb 16 2012: 10 mg Neurontin 115 Lamictal 3.7 Celexa 0.285 Xanax 2.0 Valium
Feb 22 2013: 86 Lamictal 2.05 Celexa 0.23 Xanax 1.8 Valium
Feb 10 2014: 62 Lamictal 1.1 Celexa 0.135 Xanax 1.8 Valium
Feb 10 2015: 50 Lamictal 0.875 Celexa 0.11 Xanax 1.5 Valium
Feb 15 2016: 47.5 Lamictal 0.75 Celexa 0.0875 Xanax 1.42 Valium
Now: 43 0.625 0.0775 1.3
I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion.