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#37 marie123

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Posted 23 May 2016 - 09:03 AM

Hi camel. I know what you're saying, you're sick of tapering just like me. I recently reinstated. I want to be med free but it sure is a lot of work and at times traumatizing.

 

I thought I was done with Trazodone and then I could now tackle Remeron. But not so fast, I crashed and burned. Hopefully getting stable and then I will hold for a long, long time. I thought about just staying on these low dose meds, thinking it's just not worth it. For instance, my sister tapered fast Lexapro and got hit with late withdrawal just like me. She took the same amount of Lexapro as a reinstatement and felt better right away. She says she will never go off it, it was too awful when she quit.

 

I worry that they will change the manufacturer on me. I had that happen before and it was not good. I'm very sensitive med wise. Also, I know me, and given enough time I will resume my taper. I am just stubborn that way. It will be a lot of time later and will be at a very, very slow turtle's pace.

 

Maybe take a long break might help. Good Luck!

 

Marie


10/13--10/14 Ambien   Done                                                                                  

3/14  7.5 Remeron  still taking this.                              

2/14         75 Trazodone   -    Tapered by dry cutting all the way down.

2/22/15    69 Traz

3/13/15    63 Traz

4/12/15    56 Traz

5/14/15    50 Traz

6/3/15      47 Traz

7/3/15      45 Traz

9/10/15    37 Traz

10/10/15  33 Traz, 10/24/15 30 mg 11/5/15 25 mg 11/20 12.5 mg 12/9/15 9 mg 12/22 6 mg 1/1/16 4 mg JUMPED.4/2/16 Rein 1 mg, 6/7/16 updose 2mg

8/13/16    1.1 Traz tapered from 2 mg, 10/26/16 1 mg Traz .92 mg CURRENT DOSE


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Posted 23 May 2016 - 12:26 PM

 

If you wish to remain on any dosage, that decision is up to you. If your symptoms are currently minimal, why not take a vacation from worrying about them?

 

A withdrawal vacation is tempting, but since i'm on such a low dosage, i really wanted to finish it. But this seems much more difficult then i thought it would be...

 

Maybe it's time to see things in perspective. What would be more harmfull. Smoking or a low dose of SSRI? What do you think?

 

 

Hard to say. Smoking is definitely bad for you. My brother just lost a lung. The dangers of SSRIs are largely unknown.


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Posted 23 May 2016 - 02:48 PM

hi,

 

can we stay on a low dose forever?

 

my original was bearable anxiety, so not a hard problem

 

my experience

paxil classic dose has to be 20 mg, i took 2 years 20 mg , then 10 mg (half pill) 10 years

 

i notice first 6 years were "ok", then next years i had side effects more and more, a kind of slow increasing tolerance pop-out

 

so i think we cannot stay for life on a low dose, after a few years, side effects are here

 

so i had to take more paxil, or add several drugs, switch etc, i choose to taper

 

and today i am in discontinuation syndrome or protracted withdrawal after more than 7 years off any med

 

i know other people who took 10 years a half dose and had also problems

 

so i think we cannot stay on a low dose forever, problems will come slowly


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12 years paxil - cold turkey 1,5 month - switch celexa 1 year taper; total 13 years on brain meds 

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muscles pain..fatigue...off balance and dizzy...sleep very bad...dryness syndrĂ´me...prostate...derealization...itching psoriasis...unable to be quiet inside... to rest though improvements akathisia...dilate bronchitis ...auto-immune disorder...conversion disorder...strong back pains...permanent stress...emotions no control...my senses are false... many feelings are false since beginning...locomotor disorder ...

 


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Posted 23 May 2016 - 05:36 PM

I worry that they will change the manufacturer on me. I had that happen before and it was not good. I'm very sensitive med wise. Also, I know me, and given enough time I will resume my taper. I am just stubborn that way. It will be a lot of time later and will be at a very, very slow turtle's pace.

Marie, you can ask your pharmacy to give you the same generic manufacturer. Another member on the board posted that s/he had the pharmacy put a note on her file about the manufacturer, that s/he renews prescriptions a week before they're needed and reminds the pharmacy again at that time about needing a specific manufacturer.


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Posted 24 May 2016 - 03:54 AM

Yes, I did that once for Trazodone and once for Mirtazapine. What I mean to say was I am afraid that the manufacturer will no longer make the med. I'll have to use another manufacturer and I'll get sick for a while until I get used to the new pill. Not fun at all!

 

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10/13--10/14 Ambien   Done                                                                                  

3/14  7.5 Remeron  still taking this.                              

2/14         75 Trazodone   -    Tapered by dry cutting all the way down.

2/22/15    69 Traz

3/13/15    63 Traz

4/12/15    56 Traz

5/14/15    50 Traz

6/3/15      47 Traz

7/3/15      45 Traz

9/10/15    37 Traz

10/10/15  33 Traz, 10/24/15 30 mg 11/5/15 25 mg 11/20 12.5 mg 12/9/15 9 mg 12/22 6 mg 1/1/16 4 mg JUMPED.4/2/16 Rein 1 mg, 6/7/16 updose 2mg

8/13/16    1.1 Traz tapered from 2 mg, 10/26/16 1 mg Traz .92 mg CURRENT DOSE


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Posted 24 May 2016 - 04:09 AM

Thx for the responses AmyK and Peggy

 

Hi Camel.

I am so sorry you had to updose. When did you do that?

Have you tried smaller drops, like 2-5 %?

That could be easier.

 

(I am tapering zoloft too.)

 

I just recently updosed a few days ago. I was doing OK, but have trouble sleeping again the last month (average of 5hours a night) and feel anxious about it, like i will never been able to sleep again, never function normally again, fail my life etc... So i updosed a bit... I'm looking for a job right now and these interviews and the prospect of having a job with responsibility again make me  nervous and hinder my sleep. Sometimes I think I subconsious sabotage myself by not sleeping, that i'm not worthy of having a normal life...a sort of self harm. At this moment i feel like i'm lacking the self confidence of coping with a new job etc. I just miss the selfconfidence and maybe bad sleeping is my way to express this...And there is the vicious circle, cause not enough sleep makes me depressed and anxious... It's really bizarre, cause when i feel good, i'm a really confident, capable and happy person...

 

I tried the smallest drops i could: 1mg less of the pill than the previous dosage (i'm now on 16mg of the pill, so there are 16 drops ahead), so it was like 7%. I don't want to mess with liquids, tried it in the begin of my taper but couldn't measure exact dosages. I don't understand how you can define such small dosages exactly...

 

Any other ideas about long term (negative) side effects of a small dosage? 

 

Camel, you do know about digital scale, do you?

 

Many of us use the  "GEMINI-20 Portable MilliGram Scale" that weighs down to 0.001 g. Its available in many web shops. (And as a I wrote in a PM I also use a dilution to make the tiny, tiny cuts. But thats because I am super sensitive. Hopefully you don't have to do that.)

 

More info here on tapering with a digital scale: http://survivinganti...e-doses/?p=6765

 

Best of luck!


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0,019 mg 22 March 0,039 mg 18 March? 0,052 mg 16 March 0,079 mg 4 March 0,086 1 March 0,099 mg 22 February 0,11 mg 15 February 0,13 mg 6 February 0,145 mg 24 January 0,15 mg 19 January 0,19 mg 10 January 0,20 mg 3 January

 

2016: 0,98 to 0,22 mg

2015: 2,35 to 1,01 mg

2014: 4,9 to 2,5 mg

2013: 9,1 to 5,1 mg

2012: 15,7 to 9,7 mg

2011: Started on 25 mg - then 50 mg- dropped to 25- to 12.5 mg - back to 25 mg - after 18.75 mg started tiny tapering to 16.6 mg

 

Started on 25 mg Zoloft in March 2011 due to stressrelated tinnitus that gave me panicattacks, then after two weeks up to 50 mg, which dose I was only on for five weeks. Had a terrible reaction to Zoloft from start, but was told to "hold on". After four months on 25 mg/12 mg/18,75 mg I was stuck. Therefore the long taper. Crazy, I know... Super sensitive to drops and have dropped by 4-6 % from the prevoius dose all the way from 17,5 mg.


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Posted 24 May 2016 - 09:03 AM

 i recently updosed to 5,2mg of zoloft. 3.9mg was the lowest i've ever been. During those 2 years i've really taken it slowly with drops <10% for severel months. This is the second time i have to updose and waste my tapering...

 

I'm really considering to end my taper and stay on this 5,2mg.

 

I always hit a hump around about 18mg effexor - at the moment i have decided to stop tapering again, have updosed and will sit for a while - i may have to pay the piper one day, but no one knows what the future holds. I am really sad about it, but have to do what i have to do to keep me functioning.

 


It could be that, after a long time at 5.2mg, you could resume tapering.

 

peggy & camel:

I really hope that you'll consider what Alto said as a potential outcome of holding at current levels for a while.  The fact that it's too difficult to go below a specific drug amount may simply be  that your central nervous system needs time to fully integrate the dosage changes you've already made. 

 

We all want our minimum effective dose to be 0.000. For me -- if it's 5 mg or 10 mg or 2.3, I'll make my peace with that. And after a looonng hold, I'll try a tiny cut.  It's much better than 30 mg or 60 mg per day.

 

Let's have a look at the current scores:

  • camel-44.8, zoloft-5.2 >>> camel stomps sertraline!
  • peggy-132,  effexor-18 >>> peggy trounces effexor!

Each of you is a champ for making it this far with your taper and finding your **CURRENT** minimum effective dose (MED)!

 

Yes, I did that once for Trazodone and once for Mirtazapine. What I mean to say was I am afraid that the manufacturer will no longer make the med. I'll have to use another manufacturer and I'll get sick for a while until I get used to the new pill. Not fun at all!

 

Marie, Unless there's a series of catastrophic events within a short period of time involving people taking that drug and those events get national and international media coverage forcing governments to withdraw approvals, rest assured that your drug will be available. Its "popularity" with pDocs may decrease because of some new "latest and greatest" innovation but someone will make it as long as it's still approved by federal health authorities.


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Posted 09 June 2016 - 08:19 PM

I can't taper all the way off either. I can stabilize on a low dose. Remember to stabilize at least 14 days before a decrease. Decreases are aweful

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Posted 09 June 2016 - 08:21 PM

Maybe I should just chill out on a low dose a little longer. Is it a placebo effect?

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Posted 10 June 2016 - 02:59 PM

Staying on low dose..I.e. Sertraline the lowest possible dose provided is 25mg and the pill could be split..but 3.9 mg are you gonna weigh or dilute the dose and all that performance the rest of life? I'm just wondering cos I'm wondering the same..I can not imagine having to accurate weigh or dose out each tiny dose..the. Rest. Of. Life!
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On/off sertraline severe withdrawals every time. 2014 - felt better as reduced dose of sertraline no more inner restlessness. Doctor rushed off again. Hit severe withdrawal. Lost the little I had in life. Couldn't get stable again on 12.5mg. Was switched to prozac. Had severe reaction to prozac..came off in November 2015 at 6mg as felt more confused and damaged on it..Even more withdrawal ..rage, depression, dyphoria, near constant suicidal ideation, self harm impulses, doom, concrete block in head, unable to do much of anything with this feeling in head..went back on 6mg of sertraline to see if would alleviate anything. It didn't..reduced from December to June 2016 came off at 2.5mg sertraline as was hospitalised for the severe rage, suicidal impulses, and put on 50mg lofepramine which in 2nd week reduced all symptoms but gave insomnia which still have..psych stopped lofepramine cold turkey..no increased withdrawal symptoms new symptoms from lofepramine except persistant insomnia which has as side effect.

Taking Ativan for 8 months for the severe rage self harm impulses 1-3 times a week (mostly 2 times a week) at .5mg. Two months (I'm unsure exactly when the interdose started to happen) ago interdose withdrawal seemed to happen..2 days I think after the Ativan.


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Posted 10 June 2016 - 05:49 PM

Loveandlight - If it turns out that the best dose for me is some amount that isn't commercially available, I'll dig into my wallet/bank-account and pay for custom doses from a compounding pharmacy.

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Posted 11 June 2016 - 12:35 AM

 

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I tried the smallest drops i could: 1mg less of the pill than the previous dosage (i'm now on 16mg of the pill, so there are 16 drops ahead), so it was like 7%. I don't want to mess with liquids, tried it in the begin of my taper but couldn't measure exact dosages. I don't understand how you can define such small dosages exactly...

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camel, when looking for something else I happened to read this thread. I'm confused about how you've been tapering on the last part of your slow taper.

 

First of all, are you tapering by 1 mg. of medication? If so, how are you measuring it?

 

Or are you tapering by 1% of the weight of the pill? (I assume it's a tablet since you said you don't want to mess with liquids.) I'm confused because you wrote:

 

 

I tried the smallest drops i could: 1mg less of the pill than the previous dosage (i'm now on 16mg of the pill, so there are 16 drops ahead)

 

I don't understand how 1 mg. 10% or less of your previous (most recent) dose at the low doses you've been at for a while, unless I'm misunderstanding something about how you're tapering.

 

Also, it is very common for people to need to do smaller drops than previously at the very end of their tapers. I believe there is an excellent thread about this on SA, but I'd have to find it.

 

If insomnia is your only significant symptom, it sounds like you've done an excellent slow taper. But depending on how you're measuring your dose, it may be that as you've gotten to the lower doses your taper has no longer been slow. Possibly now much too large drops in dose. That would particularly be a problem at the lower doses of the end of a taper, and possibly might be why you're apparently having more problems now.

 

Apologies if I'm misunderstanding your taper method and schedule. It might help us if you could explain them in more detail. (Or if I were better at math lol.) And please know that measuring very tiny and precise small doses is very easy with liquid if you use the right kind of oral syringe, if that might help your tapering.


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Posted 11 June 2016 - 06:07 AM

There are some interesting comments on your question of long term effects.. and comments like Stans can it keep working long term?  both interesting... 

 

There may be something to what Stan says in long term tolerance  as I was drugged a long time 18 years and hit a wall too where my body started showing signs that caused a neurologist to take me off effexor cold turkey... from then on i have had reactions to drugs and have never been able to tolerate another psych drug.. my body quickly rejects in the form of spitting them out immediately or in the case of benzos I get the opposite effect from a them as what is expected called paradoxical.  

 

It is possible that after long term use some bodies just say no... and start acting up. We don't know the effects and if anybody does... for example pharma they are not telling us.  So it is a crap shoot really.  We take our chances in life and like anything else this is a chance I think your odds are better at low dose being more safe than a high dose but I could be wrong much of it may depend on your personal make up as some people don't have problems with these drugs or so I hear. 

 

In my mind when I take stock of the situation you have made a serious effort to get off and your body has repeatedly told you no... so now it is time to let go of the expectation and the imagined reward of being drug free and listen to your body. The real question here is how is your life going can you sleep eat work love people are physically and mentaly well enough to have a life while on a low dose if the answer is yes... this is a no brainer Stick with low dose and live your life. 

 

There may come a time where this low dose bites you but so what you will have had all this time to live a good life.. and deal with that when it comes if it comes.  After you have been on the low dose for an extended amount of time it may well be that it can be tapered smoothly once you reach the new normal.  

 

By showing you effects of reduction now your body is saying it has done all the adjusting it can do right this moment... our bodies adjust very slowly and it may not be saying no you can't ever quit this drug.. it may well be saying you can't quit this drug right now... so live enjoy your life try not to worry about it.  

 

It is an easy decision if you believe what other people on here have been thru by trying to force their bodies off drugs... there are many good examples here... the fallout is misery .. and just now you sound ok better than ok you sound good... so if you are stick there and revisit it in a year... enjoy your life and be grateful to those who came before you to us learn all this... if not for them and their pain we would not know this much... 

 

enjoy yourself NOW nobody knows if there is a bad day coming a car accident or any of life's bad turns your here now your ok now... enjoy your life that is my suggestion. 

 

It may be a matter of adjusting your perspective more than anything... think of it this way taking a small dose allows you to win.. now and maybe win later when your body says it is time to taper.. the idea of being off the drug is not gone it is delayed the real win is enjoying your life being well with or without a drug.. it is the bigger prize in this war.. to win by getting off and being disabled long term is not a win... it is a mistake and I am living it .. so go win win. 

 

I wish you peace


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Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

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Posted 11 June 2016 - 06:38 AM

bit of history ... I had several drug changes in my history and I did not go off of effexor willingly I was taken off by a neurologist after developing head drops and foot dragging ... he did not know about cross taper I guess and tried to switch me to cymbalta it was a disaster many other drugs were tried none worked since then.  If taking a low dose of anything would have made my life ok I would be taking it.  Taking it forever would not rattle me as I had expected to take effexor forever as I was told I would be... sometimes looking back I was weighing taking E forever against the craziness of previous cold turkey drug changes and sar... I thought without a drug that would be my normal state.. I was wrong.  We know more now "we" those of us here do better the more we know.  You too will make different choices and change your mind on things the more you know.  That is how this all works with any luck the right people will chime in at the right time to help you along. 

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WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

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Posted 11 June 2016 - 06:46 AM

Wise words indeed and how I wish I had read them over 2 years ago.  I fast tapered after 12 yrs seroxat, I was clueless what I was doing and thought I would be ok in a few weeks.   After 3 months without meds I discovered Paxil progress and then this site and realised that recovery might be a long way off.   By that time, I had thrown my seroxat away and did not want to return to the doctor for more.  I always wonder if I had tapered really slowly, if things might not have been so bad as they have been the last 2 years.


Prescribed 20mg a day of Seroxat on 2001

August 2013 decided to taper.

Reduced by 10mg a week (adjusted over the week small amounts)

Stopped completely in April 2014

Brain and body went haywire.  

Didn't realise it was withdrawal at first.

Have not returned to ad's but can't get my life back.


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Posted 13 June 2016 - 07:12 PM

I'm also on a very low dose (6 and a half)...dealing with similar dilemmas you have. Its quite frustrating

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Posted 13 June 2016 - 08:04 PM

Your not alone Alexander I did it too and so did many other when we know better we do better it is all about quality of life .. isn't it... if not what is it about?  People that have not done a ct or too fast taper need to read about it and believe every word.. cause the words can only go so far in describing how bad it is..I would not wish ct on pharma .. well unless I was in a wave then I do it hourly. 

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Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

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Posted 16 June 2016 - 11:56 PM

Hi Camel, I've been on Lexapro for 6 years and sometimes wondered if it was healthy for my body. I searched with Google and most sources said that there's not much we know about the long term effects.
I myself didn't experience much side effects and my OCD wasn't coming back when I was on the lowest dosage of Lexapro (which is 5 mg available here in The Netherlands). So I was prepared to take 5 mg every day and didn't think about the long term effects all too much. I mean, every day in life can by your last day. I'm not advising a hedonistic life style but not worry too much and just wait and see what the future may bring. Well that worked for me for a few years.

Now I just want to quit with the drug because it's not improving my OCD. I'm depressed, but that's more because the Lexapro isn't doing the tric anymore. I wish it would help me, but I rather do it on my own than risking another poop-out or health problems on the long term.

I wish you all the best and maybe we can talk in Dutch some time ;-)


All my life: Occasional panic attacks. 2003: Burnout  2004: intrusion (OCD'ish) / anxiety. Therapies: acupuncture, Chinese herbs, hypnotherapy --> symptoms were manageable (did return once in a while), depression lifted.
2007 - Relapse, started with Cognitive Behavioral Therapy. Therapist recommended Fevarin (fluvoxamine) 150 mg. Recovery after 3 months and remained stable. Mild side effects.
2009 - Tapered fluvoxamine. No withdrawal symptoms. 2010 - Relapse, same Pure O thought and anxiety.  Started taking 100 mg of fluvoxamine but after 9 weeks no change in symptoms. Did not have any effect on Pure O thought. Switched to Lexapro (escitalopram) 20 mg.  Drug started working within 3 weeks. Mild side effects. Slowly over the years tapered to 5 mg.
2015: Lots of personal issues and setbacks, occasional panic attack. 2016: April started skipping doses; 5mg escitalopram every other day (in hindsight a bad idea)
May: Major relapse, anxiety and intrusion returned. Depression. Increased from 2,5 mg 15 mg in two weeks. Side effects: neuro-emotions
June: Escitalopram has no effect on the frequency of the intrusion...after 4 weeks my general doctor advised me to do a fast taper to 5mg. Withdrawal effects (2/3 weeks): neuro-emotions, lack of focus, crying spells, fatigue, muscle twitches in legs, cortisol spikes just before waking up July: Stable on 5 mg. Depression and intrusion lifted during holiday (lots of sunshine, long walks and relaxing) August: Drop down to 2,5 mg. Withdrawal effects (tinnitus, headagues) are noticeable, but still mild in comparison to the big drop earlier.
22th August: stopped escitalopram completely. Cortisol spikes just before waking up, still OCD (only temporary improvements), WD-depression and WD-neuro emotions.
Update 6 dec: no medication, any withdrawal symptoms not noticable. Taking supplements for intrusive thoughts and overall well being: N-Acetyl Cysteine (NAC) omega 3 fish oils, zinc, vitamin d, magnesium l-threonate, ginko biloba

 


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Posted 17 June 2016 - 10:04 AM

 

I worry that they will change the manufacturer on me. I had that happen before and it was not good. I'm very sensitive med wise. Also, I know me, and given enough time I will resume my taper. I am just stubborn that way. It will be a lot of time later and will be at a very, very slow turtle's pace.

Marie, you can ask your pharmacy to give you the same generic manufacturer. Another member on the board posted that s/he had the pharmacy put a note on her file about the manufacturer, that s/he renews prescriptions a week before they're needed and reminds the pharmacy again at that time about needing a specific manufacturer.

 

Yes, I only get Qualitest Trazodone and specify that at the pharmacy. I am just concerned that Qualitest one day will decide they will no longer manufacture this med. I can't stay on this low dose of Trazodone anyways. it's giving me shoulder pain. I know it's the Traz because in the 3 months I was off it, the shoulder pain diminished almost completely. Now it aches a lot more.

 

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10/13--10/14 Ambien   Done                                                                                  

3/14  7.5 Remeron  still taking this.                              

2/14         75 Trazodone   -    Tapered by dry cutting all the way down.

2/22/15    69 Traz

3/13/15    63 Traz

4/12/15    56 Traz

5/14/15    50 Traz

6/3/15      47 Traz

7/3/15      45 Traz

9/10/15    37 Traz

10/10/15  33 Traz, 10/24/15 30 mg 11/5/15 25 mg 11/20 12.5 mg 12/9/15 9 mg 12/22 6 mg 1/1/16 4 mg JUMPED.4/2/16 Rein 1 mg, 6/7/16 updose 2mg

8/13/16    1.1 Traz tapered from 2 mg, 10/26/16 1 mg Traz .92 mg CURRENT DOSE


#56 savinggrace

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Posted 17 June 2016 - 10:23 AM

Yes, btdt...I have often said that all psychiatrists, pharmacists, or anyone who prescribes these things, should be required to spend a couple of hours to read SA before they write a script...or your suggestion would probably be more powerful....live in " a wave" for hmmm day, two days,...how many?   Maybe then they would believe us and stop the madness!

 

The thing is, I don't even think pharmacists realize what they are doing.  IF they did, they would not dispense some of these drugs, especially in a poly-drugging situation, as they would realize how dangerous these drug interactions are.  I have tried to have a conversation about CYP450 drug interactions with pharmacists who are CLUELESS!  I only hope they learn something from me and counsel their customers (in my dreams, right?)  Get 'em in, and get 'em out...

 

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Posted 17 June 2016 - 07:26 PM

Hi Marie,

 

I am so sensitive that I take name brands of all my drugs.  They cost $600/month and we have a huge co-pay.  In not too long, we will be on Medicare who doesn't cover Valium at all, and name brands are very expensive.  I understand your fear about changing manufacturers.  The reason I switched to name brand (fortunately our insurance continues to cover it) is that, though it took me years to realize it, I was feeling very unstable at the beginning of all my refills. I worry about the future as we won't be able to afford to pay out-of-pocket for the full price of name brand.  My plan is to find a smaller pharmacy that will make a commitment to me to get the drugs from the same manufacturer every month, even if it costs me more.  When I switched from generic to name brand klonopin years ago, I was able to reduce my dose by 30%....a huge variation....I guess to many it doesn't make a difference, but changing anything, fillers or inactive ingredients or method of dosing, puts me into very acute w/d very quickly.  i now feel no difference from one refill to the next, unless I change my dose, of course.

 

Best to think not too far ahead of ourselves...

 

Grace

 

Take care.


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Posted 18 June 2016 - 03:06 PM

I was tapering for two years from 20mg of Prozac down to 3.8mg. Each 1% micro drop = two months of misery. 

so I took a seven month vacation from drops and began to feel really stable and happy.

Last week did another 1% drop and I'm already a sobbing, hyper sensitive wreck again.

I also would stay at this tiny dose forever if I could find an absolutely totally reliable compounding pharmacy

to make up tablets of exactly dose. Has anyone had satifying experience with online pharmacy

doing this? 


On 20 mg of Prozac for about ten years. Sept 2012 started reducing 10% a drop using gram scale, with average of one month holds.

When I'd reached the half way mark, taking 10 mg  powder out of the 20 mg capsules, I switched over to 10 mg capsules and cutting

down from those. Withdrawals got harder the lower I dropped.  May 2013 changed to 5% drops, holding until all withdrawal symptoms gone.

January 2015 changed to liquid prozac (concentration of 20MG per 5 mL) using a 1mL oral syringe.

Current dose of fluoxetine solution equivalent 3.4 mg. Any effort to drop below this has been disastrous so for the time being I'm staying at this level.
Adding 200 mg Tryptophan and 200 GABA a day has helped with anxiety.
Also take 1,300mg Omega- 3,  875mg  Magnesium, 1800mg Curcumin, 1000mg Vit C, 5000 Vit D.
 

 


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Posted 18 June 2016 - 04:04 PM

Hi Marie,

 

I am so sensitive that I take name brands of all my drugs.  They cost $600/month and we have a huge co-pay.  In not too long, we will be on Medicare who doesn't cover Valium at all, and name brands are very expensive.  I understand your fear about changing manufacturers.  The reason I switched to name brand (fortunately our insurance continues to cover it) is that, though it took me years to realize it, I was feeling very unstable at the beginning of all my refills. I worry about the future as we won't be able to afford to pay out-of-pocket for the full price of name brand.  My plan is to find a smaller pharmacy that will make a commitment to me to get the drugs from the same manufacturer every month, even if it costs me more.  When I switched from generic to name brand klonopin years ago, I was able to reduce my dose by 30%....a huge variation....I guess to many it doesn't make a difference, but changing anything, fillers or inactive ingredients or method of dosing, puts me into very acute w/d very quickly.  i now feel no difference from one refill to the next, unless I change my dose, of course.

 

Best to think not too far ahead of ourselves...

 

Grace

 

Take care.

Hi Grace. Just like you I can't change a thing with my meds. I'm so sensitive too. I am still using the 100 mg pill to get my 2 mg. I won't ask the doc for the 50 mg because I'm afraid of the same issues, fillers, potency, etc.

 

I'll try not to worry about it and just keep going on with my taper plan. Traz has been a bear to come off of. Just trying to get nice and stable now. How are you doing?

 

Marie


10/13--10/14 Ambien   Done                                                                                  

3/14  7.5 Remeron  still taking this.                              

2/14         75 Trazodone   -    Tapered by dry cutting all the way down.

2/22/15    69 Traz

3/13/15    63 Traz

4/12/15    56 Traz

5/14/15    50 Traz

6/3/15      47 Traz

7/3/15      45 Traz

9/10/15    37 Traz

10/10/15  33 Traz, 10/24/15 30 mg 11/5/15 25 mg 11/20 12.5 mg 12/9/15 9 mg 12/22 6 mg 1/1/16 4 mg JUMPED.4/2/16 Rein 1 mg, 6/7/16 updose 2mg

8/13/16    1.1 Traz tapered from 2 mg, 10/26/16 1 mg Traz .92 mg CURRENT DOSE


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Posted 18 June 2016 - 06:54 PM

I was tapering for two years from 20mg of Prozac down to 3.8mg. Each 1% micro drop = two months of misery. 

so I took a seven month vacation from drops and began to feel really stable and happy.

Last week did another 1% drop and I'm already a sobbing, hyper sensitive wreck again.

I also would stay at this tiny dose forever if I could find an absolutely totally reliable compounding pharmacy

to make up tablets of exactly dose. Has anyone had satifying experience with online pharmacy

doing this? 

indigo, you may want to read and post in the compounding pharmacy thread. There may be someone who's identified an online CP, or a local CP not that far from you.


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Posted 18 June 2016 - 11:36 PM

Thanks Scallywag. Very helpful thead.


On 20 mg of Prozac for about ten years. Sept 2012 started reducing 10% a drop using gram scale, with average of one month holds.

When I'd reached the half way mark, taking 10 mg  powder out of the 20 mg capsules, I switched over to 10 mg capsules and cutting

down from those. Withdrawals got harder the lower I dropped.  May 2013 changed to 5% drops, holding until all withdrawal symptoms gone.

January 2015 changed to liquid prozac (concentration of 20MG per 5 mL) using a 1mL oral syringe.

Current dose of fluoxetine solution equivalent 3.4 mg. Any effort to drop below this has been disastrous so for the time being I'm staying at this level.
Adding 200 mg Tryptophan and 200 GABA a day has helped with anxiety.
Also take 1,300mg Omega- 3,  875mg  Magnesium, 1800mg Curcumin, 1000mg Vit C, 5000 Vit D.
 

 


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Posted 20 June 2016 - 09:35 AM

Hi Marie,

 

I am not doing well, but I am doing better than I was forcing my taper when my body was giving me very loud signals to stop, at least for a while.

 

Do not beat yourself up, or imagine yourself a hypochondriac over this sensitivity we share.

 

The last time I tried to change my valium dose from  a ten, half of a five, and half of a two (13 mg.) to a ten, a two and part of a two (very small cut and I had no 5's left) I felt like I was in acute withdrawal overnight...woke up drenched in sweat, rigid, depressed and sleepless.  This is happened repeatedly with change of administration, tablet size, manufacturers, etc.  I now aim to get the most active ingredient in the smallest pill I can cut.

 

The only conclusion I have been able to come to is that since the 2's, the 5's and the 10's weigh essentially the same (I use a scale) there is so much more filler in the lower doses that my body freaks out because it is absorbing differently.  I dug my feet in though, and we now make 12.84 mg. dose out of 10's...more active ingredient and a lot less filler!  It even took a bit to adjust to this change but I think I did.

 

Thanks for asking how I am.  I am a bit resigned to a very long hold, for now.

 

Grace


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Posted 22 November 2016 - 03:14 AM

Hi camel. I know what you're saying, you're sick of tapering just like me. I recently reinstated. I want to be med free but it sure is a lot of work and at times traumatizing.

I thought I was done with Trazodone and then I could now tackle Remeron. But not so fast, I crashed and burned. Hopefully getting stable and then I will hold for a long, long time. I thought about just staying on these low dose meds, thinking it's just not worth it. For instance, my sister tapered fast Lexapro and got hit with late withdrawal just like me. She took the same amount of Lexapro as a reinstatement and felt better right away. She says she will never go off it, it was too awful when she quit.

I worry that they will change the manufacturer on me. I had that happen before and it was not good. I'm very sensitive med wise. Also, I know me, and given enough time I will resume my taper. I am just stubborn that way. It will be a lot of time later and will be at a very, very slow turtle's pace.

Maybe take a long break might help. Good Luck!

Marie

Hello, would you consider PMing me about your sister's details with going off and back on Lexapro?
How long was she on it? How long was she off before going back on? Thank you

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In January 2016, "doctor" added 2mg of Abilify

I had been taking .5 Xanax in AM and PM for a few years

recently weaned down to .125 Xanax 11:00AM and .125 Xanax 11:00PM

Updosed Xanax November 10, 2016    .25   4 times per day

Updosed Xanax November 23rd, 2016 .25   5 times per day

Took .5 Ativan in AM and .5 Ativan in PM 10 hours apart for 2 weeks and 2 days. I stopped Ativan on Nov 4th 2016

I cold turkeyed off escitalopram and Abilify on September 4, 2016

Since withdrawal, I have occasionally taken 10mg or 20mg propranolol when my heart was pounding uncontrollably

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Godiswithme: I'm very scared   Godiswithme: Xanax taper after cold-turkey of Lexapro and Abilify


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Posted 16 February 2017 - 12:36 PM

Anyone ever decide maybe its just not worth trying to get off ssri? Its so hard and debilitating yet impossible to get support because its stigmatized and not taken seriously. I started doing the math and even now it will still be years before i can finally be clean off the stuff. Im considering whether to just admit defeat and take my current dose for good
2011 on paxil 10mg
2013 switched to oral suspension, 10mg
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2016 after enduring extreme depression for 6 months, psychiatrist suggested returning to previous dose. Back up to 5.2 mg
2017 4.8 mg  

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Posted 16 February 2017 - 12:55 PM

I've estimated (using a spreadsheet) it will take 2 years (with 6 week holds between each drop), and I haven't even started my taper yet.

Can't decide whether to use liquid Lexapro and dilute with water (excellent titration skills required), or dissolve a some of the pill in water and also use a syringe.

Yup, it is both demoralizing and daunting.

Feb 2014 -Cipralex/Escitalopram 10mg daily June 2015 - Started taper, 5mg every other day July 2015 - 5mg every 2 days August 2015 - 5mg every 3 days September 2015 - 5mg every 4 days Sept 14th - Completed tapering, but at 7 weeks "drug free" I suffered serious WD symptoms as a consequence of "incorrect" tapering. Nov 25 2015 - Re-instated Cipralex @ 2.5mg daily. WD symptoms disappeared over a few days. Have been on this dose ever since and am experiencing "windows" and "waves". Nov 15th 2016 Re-started Therapy Jan 19th 2017 Started CBT. Jan 2017 Homeopathic Treatment starts 4th Jan 2017. Mar 2017 Naturopathic Treatment starts - anti-Candida diet starts as diagnosis of Systemic Candida. 24 March 2017 DETOX started for anti-Candida to help "re-set" my gut. April 2017 Gut Cleanse - 6 weeks.
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Posted 16 February 2017 - 03:07 PM

Anyone ever decide maybe its just not worth trying to get off ssri? Its so hard and debilitating yet impossible to get support because its stigmatized and not taken seriously. I started doing the math and even now it will still be years before i can finally be clean off the stuff. Im considering whether to just admit defeat and take my current dose for good

 

 

I have had this thought so many times, it's not even funny. I keep thinking I'd be better off if I just stayed where I was in May at 2.5mgs

 

and even now, after reinstating about 4-5mos later at a tiny dose, I am thinking I may need to updose to get thru this, and then that thought pops up again: why not go back to 2.5mgs and just stay there "forever".

 

but there's no way to know if I"m going to feel better when/if I do that.

 

I feel like I'm between a rock and a hard place. I so much want some decent sleep, is that too much to ask?

:/


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2002-2015 on varying doses of lexapro, as  high as 40 mgs, but usually 20mgs

June 2015: tapered too fast to 2.5mgs, then to 2.5mgs every other day Dec 2015:  found SA forum; holding at 2.5mgs 

Early May 2016: jumped off at 2.5mgs, not smart- crashed in late Sept.

Oct 26 2016  reinstated liquid lexapro 0.05ml/day at night, dose +/- til settling on 0.15BID (0.3/day)= windows and waves

Jan 8, 2017 too quick switch to single dose in the morning, 0.3mgs (bad mistake, led to a crash)

Jan 12 added low dose zyprexa for SI, took infrequently as rescue med, last dose Feb.15

Jan 26 lexapro 0.27mg Feb 25 lexapro updose back to 0.3mg due to unrelenting severe insomnia

March 1 insomnia got worse, back down to 0.29 for one day, then 0.27, then 0.25- improving!! March 17 0.24

March 7 added low dose lamictal, titrated up to 25mgs March 25

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Posted 25 February 2017 - 11:35 AM

There is no rule that says you have to get all the way off, often the smaller doses are the hardest, and people do a very long hold while functioning well, then deciding whether to restart a taper or stay on the low dose.

 

And there is no shame in updosing slightly when a reinstatement has been given some time and isn't helping much. It is best to increase a very tiny amount in case of reaction and then a hold.  What was ok months ago could be too much now. 


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1993 had a breakdown leading to 10 years of drug experiments with all classes of psych drugs.

2002  effexor. 

Tapered by counting beads from March 2012 to March 2013, ending with 5 beads.

Withdrawal April 2013 . Reinstated 5 beads reduced to 4 beads May 2013

Restarted taper  Nov 2013  

OFF EFFEXOR Feb 2015    :D 

 

Also tapered atenolol and omeprazole Dec 2013 - May 2014

 

Tapering tramadol, Feb 2015 100mg , March 2015 50mg -hold- Feb2016 46mg  March 8 2016 45 April 44mg  May 11  43mg June 14 42mg

Taking fish oil, magnesium, pro biotic.

 

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Lesson learned, slow down taper at lower doses. Taper no more than 10% of CURRENT dose if possible

 

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