Did you come off the AD cold turkey?
Yes, the last AD was a cold turkey. It was Viibryd and even though it was diagnosed as a mixed episode, I really think it was a reaction to the medication.
Sorry, this is way more than you asked, LoveandLight, but while I'm in a cog fog window, I'm going to write this out.
My first AD in 1985 was Tofranil (the old Imipromine tricyclic) which sent me a very mild state of mania at 17. I was an abused kid, but I was told that trauma causes a chemical imbalance, and they told me I had manic depression. Prozac came out a couple of years later, and when I took it at 19, I entered into a state of psychosis, homelessness, and horrific dp/dr which landed me in a state institution for several months. Lots and lots of drugs, particularly antipsychotics.
I was then switched back to the older tricyclics, lithium, low-dose antipsychotics, and benzos. Sorry, I'm being repetitive - my drug history is already here: http://survivinganti...urney/?p=113897
I stabilized with a few changes and tries with stimulants and various moodstabilizers for a really long time. Went back to college and received a couple of degrees.
But when I hit my early 40's, I started to crash into depression. Or so I thought. I think I hit tolerance on Wellbutrin back in 2008.
My imbecile psychiatrist convinced me to try a slew of SSRI's and switched up the Trileptal, a mood stabilizer, for Seroquel, an antipsychotic. I didn't know at the time, but my psychiatrist was being paid by Eli Lilly as a speaker but after researching this on Propublica, I now know. Just a FYI, always check your doc on this website - https://projects.pro...org/docdollars/
After just a few days on Vibrydd, the dp/dr was so bad, I didn't recognize myself or my world. I was experiencing severe akthisthia (I now know that was misdiagnosed as mania). I quit a very well-paying job as a technical writer in the accounting field, followed by unemployment for close to a year (wiped out my savings and I still have student loan debt), and I landed a bookkeeping job.
I knew I couldn't take AD's at that point and I switched to (evidently) another imbecile psychiatrist who tried to up my Seroquel to the schizophrenia range and told me that the 2 mg of Klonopin weren't causing my depression, dp/dr, or severe memory problems. But my gut reactions were starting to come through and I knew something was horrifically wrong with these drugs.
A few months later, I saw this online - Klonopin has connections to Alzheimer's - http://www.health.ha...se-201409107397
And I read Robert Whitaker's "Anatomy of an Epidemic". Even through the cog fog, I understood the implications of staying on these medications long term - cognitive decline, decompensation, and early death.
At that point, I'm thinking, WTF??? Why aren't doctors noticing they're killing their patients?
I'd already been off the Vibrydd cold turkey for a little over a year. And then I made very rash and dangerous 50% cuts to come off the Klonopin. This made the memory problems and dp/dr much, much worse, but in the haze, I honestly didn't realize what I was doing.
And neither did my doctor.
I cannot over state how dangerous this is for patients and how angry I am at psychiatry for effing up their profession this badly.
At the age of 47, I feel like I'm just starting to come out of a long, confusing journey through hell made much, much worse by psychiatry.
And that's my story of surviving psychiatry.
Locked up and forced onto drugs as a teenager - misdiagnosed manic depressive.
Developed dependency and stayed on cocktails of drugs for nearly 30 years.
My Intro: Shep's Journey
Last drug cocktail: Seroquel, Halcion, Klonopin, Sonata, Vibrydd, and Dexetrine
After 30 years of polydrug use, completely med free May 22, 2015.
Remaining symptoms: dp/dr with memory problems and insomnia
I am not a medical professional, and this is not medical advice, but simply information based on my own experience, as well as other members who have survived these drugs.