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#1 Rhiannon

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Posted 27 December 2014 - 01:10 PM

Hi! I've been wanting to start a thread for those of us in the PNW, seems I've met quite a few over the years.

 

Check in here and let's connect, maybe we can meet up.

 

I'm in the Columbia Gorge area.


Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease" as I was told. Long and tragic story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything.

 

Now tapering, ironically (but not surprisingly) healthier and more functional than I ever was during the years on the "meds," even with withdrawal (usually fairly mild at this slow pace).

 

Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010.  Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea.

 

Feb 15 2010:  300 mg Neurontin  200 Lamictal   10 Celexa      0.65 Xanax   and 5 mg Ambien 

Feb 14 2011:   86 mg Neurontin   144 Lamictal,    5.5 Celexa   0.42 Xanax      1.9 mg Valium

Feb 16 2012:   10 mg Neurontin   115 Lamictal     3.7 Celexa   0.285 Xanax     2.0 Valium

Feb 22 2013:   86 Lamictal    2.05 Celexa       0.23 Xanax      1.8 Valium

Feb 10 2014:   62 Lamictal    1.1 Celexa         0.135 Xanax    1.8 Valium

Feb 10 2015:   50 Lamictal      0.875 Celexa    0.11 Xanax      1.5 Valium

Feb 15 2016:   47.5 Lamictal   0.75 Celexa      0.0875 Xanax    1.42 Valium    

Now:                43                    0.625                 0.0775            1.3

 

I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion.


#2 wantrelief

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Posted 27 December 2014 - 01:19 PM

Hello!  I am in Seattle and have looked for in-person support groups for coming off of psych meds but have not had any success.  It would be neat to meet up in person someday.  :)


-2006 Rx'd Cymbalta. Was on Cymbalta for a little over 1 year; fast taper; withdrawal symptoms after 4 mos - didn't realize was WD; took Zoloft and Klonopin; eventually tapered Klonopin and was on 100 mg Zoloft.
-Tried several times to slowly taper Zoloft, never could get below approx. 40 mg - spring 2012 experienced major WD symptoms; tried to updose but no relief, back on Klonopin 1 mg.
-Switched over 5-6 mos from Zoloft to Citalopram. Finished Zoloft 1/13; now on Citalopram 35 mg and 1 mg Klonopin.
-Started to experience withdrawal symptoms from switch (?) approx. 3 months after finished Zoloft (4/13). Holding for now at 35 mg in hopes of stabilizing and trying to slowly taper Citalopram.

-8/13: 27 mg Citalopram; 1 mg Klonopin

-11/14: had slowly tapered Citalopram down to 12.6 - began to have very bad anxiety, sleep problems, loss of appetite, SI - have been slowly increasing dose. Out of desperation increased to 1.25 mg Klonopin somewhere around beginning of December.  12/13/14 16 mg Citalopram - going to stay here to try to stabilize

-stabilized on 16 mg Citalopram after 4-5 months

-7/15 - 3/16: reduced to 15 mg; ~ 2 months later w/d hit hard (probably r/t stress); 6/16 updosed to 20 mg. Citalopram and trying to stabilize. Updosed to 1.5 Klonopin as well.


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Posted 27 December 2014 - 02:00 PM

Im in Portland, recently transplanted from New England.when I first arrived I went to Cascadia mental health services for a consult. The social worker told me, quite frankly, but if I was taking klonopin I should not have left the state, its a red herring around my neck, is what he told me. This was, to say the least, discouraging.

what I have found here is a city that has rightfully pathologized and stigmatized a very dirty drug before putting into place any valid means of treating patients who have be become addicted to these drugs.

Clonazepam 3mg for 7 yrs, down to 1.5 mgs

Gabapentin 300 mg tid

 

prozac 10 mg d/c'd 2 mo. ago

 


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Posted 27 December 2014 - 03:26 PM

Would it be okay to move this to the public Events forum? Off-Topic is members-only.


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Posted 27 December 2014 - 05:47 PM

Hey north westerners! Here we are!
Dear Unstuck, what did he mean Klonopin was a red herring around your neck? And why is that statement ticking me off?

These people just don't understand! And they helped to create body of addicts and then put us down, treat us as stupid, like it is our fault? I get this a lot from the medical profession, from shrinks to neurologists to any kind of doctor. Not all, but most that I have seen including naturopaths, have proved themselves ignorant and completely unhelpful. The best I got is from my doc who occasionally checks in but does not mess with me and does not really understand how I could be so addicted!

I want to start turning that around so we are the brave and very intelligent pioneers, figuring this stuff out. We should be listened to and sought after for correct information. But their training and egos won't let that happen! We could help them understand the mistake, who and why they are being lied to, and how to help people withdraw. WE know more about this than they do!
Took 11 months to kick Benzo? On Paxil for ten years 20mg? Got down to 7.5mg easily but hit a wall.Tried to lower it but kept hitting walls and updosing until..Now liquid Paxil4/3/2013 Took over 6 months to reach 7.2mg =3.6mL5/3/13 7.0 mg = 3.5 mL8/13. 3 mL or 6.6 mg7/5/2014 took a year to get to 6.1 but am stable there and still going.<p>12/2014 now at 6.05mL The good news, no or almost no withdrawal symptoms.
Have MS now so every little drop is difficult with symptoms. Not fun!
Stopped withdrawing at 6mg.
Got too hard with MS and is taking way too long...years, over 10. I may not be here that long and didn't want to spend my entire life in withdrawal so gave up at 6mg. Got a compound pharmacy to make the exact amount.
I have to squelch the feeling that "they" won! Really sucks but oh well, I have my life back.

#6 Rhiannon

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Posted 29 December 2014 - 12:08 PM

Would it be okay to move this to the public Events forum? Off-Topic is members-only.

 

Sure! Can somebody do that for me or do I need to figure out how?


Started on Prozac and Xanax in 1992 for PTSD after an assault. One drug led to more, the usual story. Got sicker and sicker, but believed I needed the drugs for my "underlying disease" as I was told. Long and tragic story...lost everything. Life savings, home, physical and mental health, relationships, friendships, ability to work, everything.

 

Now tapering, ironically (but not surprisingly) healthier and more functional than I ever was during the years on the "meds," even with withdrawal (usually fairly mild at this slow pace).

 

Started multidrug taper in Feb 2010.  Doing a very slow microtaper, down to low doses now and feeling SO much better, getting my old personality and my brain back! Able to work full time, have a full social life, and cope with stress better than ever. Not perfect, but much better. After 23 lost years. Big Pharma has a lot to answer for. And "medicine for profit" is just not a great idea.

 

Feb 15 2010:  300 mg Neurontin  200 Lamictal   10 Celexa      0.65 Xanax   and 5 mg Ambien 

Feb 14 2011:   86 mg Neurontin   144 Lamictal,    5.5 Celexa   0.42 Xanax      1.9 mg Valium

Feb 16 2012:   10 mg Neurontin   115 Lamictal     3.7 Celexa   0.285 Xanax     2.0 Valium

Feb 22 2013:   86 Lamictal    2.05 Celexa       0.23 Xanax      1.8 Valium

Feb 10 2014:   62 Lamictal    1.1 Celexa         0.135 Xanax    1.8 Valium

Feb 10 2015:   50 Lamictal      0.875 Celexa    0.11 Xanax      1.5 Valium

Feb 15 2016:   47.5 Lamictal   0.75 Celexa      0.0875 Xanax    1.42 Valium    

Now:                43                    0.625                 0.0775            1.3

 

I'm not a doctor. Any advice I give is just my civilian opinion.


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Posted 12 October 2015 - 07:29 PM

I'm in Portland

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Posted 14 October 2015 - 11:32 AM

I'm in Selma, near Medford.


1971-81  Valium 5mg c/t PAWS     1988- through now Zoloft 25mg    2003-05 Valium 12mg Slow Taper Off

2013 Afrin Exposure to CNS    2013 O/D Val 230mg    2013 Doxepin 50mg Clonidine 2mg Zolft 25mg

3/15/16  Doxepin 49mg Mico Tapering  Zoloft 24.3mg Holding taper

3/15/16 Clonidine mg 0.1 1/2 -    Decreasing incrementally. 

10/9/16  Doxepin 48.9  Zoloft 24.3  Clonidine  01.10  Continuing micro taper on Doxepin.

11/16/16 Doxepin 48mg  Zoloft 24.3mg  Clonidine 01.10

 

 


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Posted 30 December 2015 - 10:57 AM

Near Eugene Oregon.


1)Zoloft- 6/99 to 8/04 2)Escitalopram- 8/04 to 8/10 3)Citalopram 8/10 to 4/14 (C/T), 4)Paxil a week or so, 5)Wellbutrin a week or so, 6)Reinstated Citalopram- 9/14 to 7/15

Before Taper- Celexa/20 mg....Taper Start- 04/21/15- 15mg....05/26/15- 10 mg...06/22/15- 5 mg...07/18/15- 0mg. http://tinyurl.com/qjfoqe9 Ativan/Lorazepam use/taper 10/14 to 2/15- http://tinyurl.com/ljebp84

Baclofen- Intermittent use of from 2008 till 2014. Some use of Promethazine. Some use of Zofran. Clobetasol Propionate- for Lichen Planus. Some Flexeril use. 

Ativan- GABA,A receptor Agonist., Baclofen- GABA,B receptor Agonist., Celexa/Lexapro- Serotonin 5-HT1A Receptor Agonist., Zofran- Serotonin 5-HT3 Receptor Agonist..Promethazine- Histamine H1-Receptor Antagonist. Flexeril- Serotonin 5HT2a Antagonist.

 

My self imposed Amino Acid Therapy: Tyrosine 500mg 1xday, Theanine 200 mg 1xday, & Taurine 500 mg 2x day. (All neurotransitter pre-cursors)- seems to have helped me immensely. And of course- eating healthy, including Black Beans for the oligosaccharides for gut health.

 

The attempt to develop a sense of humor and to see things in a humorous light is some kind of trick learned while mastering the Art of Living. - Viktor Frankl, Man's Search for Meaning.

 

 

 


#10 ingridphoenix

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Posted 07 April 2016 - 10:39 PM

Tigard/Portland :)


Getting off Amitriptyline 25 mg, on 12.5 mg now. 50 mg to 25 mg; Cymbalta 60 mg, currently 30 mg/day for 15 days. Decided to cut open remaining 60 mg capsules and take the little tablets inside. 6 = 30 mg. If need be, I can up the dosage, but aside from a bit of toe pain I am ok.UPDATE: >>>>> Amitriptyline 25 mg 1992- ??? ----- 50 mg until March 21, 2016. 2016 - then 25 mg <<<<<went to 20 mg of Amitriptyline, and down 5 tiny tabs of Cymbalta. (less than 30 mg now. cut Klonopin to 1/4 mg now. Trazadone 50 mg 4/14/16Variety of ADs, Buspar, Effexor, Celexa, Zoloft, Wellbutrin (to quit smoking. Success!) Cymbalta, Klonopin from '95 to present.Norco (Vicodin or Hydrocodone) '92 to 2014 - cold turkey - minor issuesHad 1 day with withdrawal symptoms - dealing mostly with Side Effects. April 7, 2016: now taking Ami 12.5 and Cymbalta 30 mg. (in bead form) still 1/2 mg Klonopin. Melatonin 10 mg (have been for years). 1 Trazadone 50 mg for sleep. Amino Acids, Omega 3,6 and 9 w/DHA. Turmeric and Ibuprofen for pain,Tramadol, 50 mg, as needed (PRN) - take maybe 1 per day for Fibro pain. Had one day of very swollen calves and ankles, one day of lumps on calves, all better. Today the toes, lasted 2 hrs, now gone. Important to note I am getting off these drugs BECAUSE of multiple side effects. BM much better, I have an appetite and crave healthy foods again. More energy, but not nervous. Sleeping great, much easier to rise, ok with 7 hrs/sleep, used to need 9 or 10.No burning toes 2nd day. Doing well so far. 4/14/16. legs, ankles still an issue, but less so. <p>
4/21/16.>>>> went to 4 tablets Cymbalta and 15 mg Ami and cut Klonpin to 1/8.
UPDATE: 5/5/16 - 15 mg Amitriptyline, 3 tablet Cymbalta (there are 12 in a 60 mg capsule,) very little Klonopin, 50 mg Trazadone, 10 mg Melatonin, Inositol and Ashwagandha. Tramadol PRN.
---- feeling great - no addl. symptoms , only 3 times something like you all list here. leg/ankle swelling still an issue, but not so much-----

6/5/2016 - All done, except for Trazadone. 50mg/nt is all. It is next, in a couple of months. No more Tramadol either - that was unintentionally, but hey, I am not complaining. I am using Kratom once or twice daily.

6/13/2016 - 25 mg of trazadone. 
Doctor is happy for me how well this is all going. :) Almost done with it all!!


#11 Henosis

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Posted 07 September 2016 - 10:44 PM

Spokane area ..

Medication before problems: Took Paxil 60-100mg from 2003 to 2014 for OCD.
1) Last pill taken November 2014, horrendous withdrawal started six weeks later.

2) Re-instated successfully @ 20mg May 2015, but accompanied by severe anhedonia, loss of emotion, apathy, and fatigue

3) Switched to Prozac, Viibyrd, Zoloft, Nefazadone, Cymbalta, Nardil in attempt at abating WD symptoms while not re-introducing anhedonia. Each one either failed to relieve WD or brought back anhedonia (the serotonergic ones)

4) Re-stabilized on Paxil at 15mg

5) Tried augmenting Wellbutrin (only increased anxiety), Vyvanse/Adderall (works for anhedonia, but the crash is brutal) low-dose Zyprexa (bad rxn), low-dose abilify (no effect), cyproheptadine (precipitated withdrawal), mirtazapine (knocked me out), Tianpetine (no effect) in attempt at relieving anhedonia through boosting dopamine directly or indirectly through targeted serotonin receptor blockade)

6) Tapered down to 7.5mg as of October 2016. More energy, anhedonia/loss of emotions remains apart from short windows.

7) Attempted Nortriptaline to paxil trapper to boost motivation and reduce anhedonia (it acts like an NRI, with target serotonin blockade at the "bad" receptors)

8) Stopped Nortriptaline after increased anxiety, no effect on anhedonia, and increased withdrawal symptoms. Only positive was alleviating ADHD symptoms.

9) Now struggling with a simultaneous Libirum and Paxil WD/taper...

 


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Posted 17 September 2016 - 08:38 AM

University Place/Tacoma, Pierce County WA.  I'd be happy to have a facel-to-face get together!  Depending on my schedule, I could go as far south as Portland.


1971:  started anti-epilepsy drugs due to seizures.  In order:  Dilantin, Tegretol, Lamictal, Trileptal, and Lamictal again; changes dictated by MDs, usually a quick increase/decrease with larger decreases (1/4 of a dose or more) and short hold times (2 wks at most), but no issues I recall.  Last taper from Trileptal to Lamictal was a very slow taper (as directed by new Dr.)  All have had a mood-stabilizing effect.  **1996:  started imipramine for depression; shortly after, trazodone for sleep, beginning at 25 mg and increasing to 75 mg by 2010.  **1998 (approx):  tapered to Zoloft.  Over the next few years, AD changed by MD with fast tapers to (in order) paroxetine, Prozac (a few months; it incr'd side effects from the Tegretol), and finally Effexor/venlafaxine.  **2016:  June - August:  Over this summer, I successfully tapered myself off trazodone very slowly and haven't used it a couple of months.  I am satisfied with the mood stabilization and seizure prevention I get from lamotrigine.  I want to be off the antidepressants for good.   **8/22/16:  I started at 225 mg of Effexor daily (3 extended release capsules, taken in the am).  I decreased venlafaxine dose to 212.5 mg (two 75 mg XR capsules + one and a half 25 mg IR tablets, and another 25 mg IR tablet that I'm taking about 12:30 in the afternoon.  **9/24/16 reduced again by 12.5, making AM dose 150 mg XR +25 mg.  **11/26/16:  stable on total 175 mg (150 XR and 25 IR) and feeling good.  I have had a few hypomanic episodes and am learning to manage them - I'd rather do that than live with blunted emotional range and mood swings dipping only into depression or agitated hypomania. 


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Originally from Ilwaco,WA
Hashimotos 1988 started on levothyroxine. .1994-2012 all the different kinds of antidepressants. 1997 xanax 1.5 klonopin 2006. Geodon started 2003 160 mgs. Many neuroleptics. Seems like l have been on everything. gabapentin 1800 mg 2013 librium 75 mg then 60mg 5/15 Tapered trazodone from October 2014 450 mgs to march 2015 0 mgs. Geodon reduced from 80 mg 8/2014 to 0 12/19/15. switched to 3 mgs of clonazepam 11/15. 12/16 2 mg clonazepam. Currently 1.88 mg clonazepam 845 mg gabapentin. 88 mcg levothyroxine 10 mcg liothyronine. Tapered prevacid 8/16 after 6 six years use. Supplements:D3 2000 iu. Digestive enzymes, probiotic. No gluten, sugar, dairy. Eating nutrient dense foods to promote healing. Gentle daily walks in the fresh air.

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Posted 17 September 2016 - 05:54 PM

North Tacoma.


Year 0:      Social anxiety, obsessive thoughts, NO depression, NO suicidal ideations

Years 1-2: Ativan (benzo) <1mg as needed, not abused but developed physical dependence

Years 2-3: Paxil (20mg) augmented with Adderall XR (10-20mg) due to withdrawal from Ativan

Years 3-Present: Severe depression, headaches, psychiatric hospitalization, lost job, etc.

 


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Posted 19 September 2016 - 07:02 PM

Hello, IHadPassion,

 

We are quite nearby, I'm not that far from Tacoma.  For you and anyone else in the Tacoma area, I'd like to invite you to a support group I attend and co-facilitate.  (Admins:  From reading the rules, since this isn't commercial, I think it's OK.  If not, I can Message IHadPassion if that would be acceptable.  Please let me know.)

 

The support group is for those who, in the moment or in the past, have heard voices, seen visions, and/or have had an extreme experience.  If you have a close supporter, they may accompany you.  It meets in North Tacoma.  I invite anyone to come and see what we're about, if you wish.  It is in the meeting room at Cutter's Point Coffee, 2209 N. Pearl St. #104, Tacoma, WA 98407, and meets every Tuesday from 5:30 pm to 7 pm (the shop closes at 7).

 

Here is the blurb we use to describe the group:  "This group is expressly for people who have experienced voices, visions, wild energy, extreme states of consciousness, special messages and unusual beliefs — including the “mental illness” labels of bipolar disorder, schizophrenia, and psychosis. It is based firmly on a belief in the values of diversity, self-help, mutual respect and understanding. The atmosphere is inclusive and non-judgmental. You will be viewed as the expert human being that you are, not a psychiatric diagnosis. Your story matters here."

 

IHadPassion, I'd like to be in touch any way you are comfortable. 


1971:  started anti-epilepsy drugs due to seizures.  In order:  Dilantin, Tegretol, Lamictal, Trileptal, and Lamictal again; changes dictated by MDs, usually a quick increase/decrease with larger decreases (1/4 of a dose or more) and short hold times (2 wks at most), but no issues I recall.  Last taper from Trileptal to Lamictal was a very slow taper (as directed by new Dr.)  All have had a mood-stabilizing effect.  **1996:  started imipramine for depression; shortly after, trazodone for sleep, beginning at 25 mg and increasing to 75 mg by 2010.  **1998 (approx):  tapered to Zoloft.  Over the next few years, AD changed by MD with fast tapers to (in order) paroxetine, Prozac (a few months; it incr'd side effects from the Tegretol), and finally Effexor/venlafaxine.  **2016:  June - August:  Over this summer, I successfully tapered myself off trazodone very slowly and haven't used it a couple of months.  I am satisfied with the mood stabilization and seizure prevention I get from lamotrigine.  I want to be off the antidepressants for good.   **8/22/16:  I started at 225 mg of Effexor daily (3 extended release capsules, taken in the am).  I decreased venlafaxine dose to 212.5 mg (two 75 mg XR capsules + one and a half 25 mg IR tablets, and another 25 mg IR tablet that I'm taking about 12:30 in the afternoon.  **9/24/16 reduced again by 12.5, making AM dose 150 mg XR +25 mg.  **11/26/16:  stable on total 175 mg (150 XR and 25 IR) and feeling good.  I have had a few hypomanic episodes and am learning to manage them - I'd rather do that than live with blunted emotional range and mood swings dipping only into depression or agitated hypomania. 


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Posted 09 October 2016 - 11:02 AM

Hi, all.

 

An acquaintance in the Portland, Oregon area is looking for an MD to help with a taper. She's not a member here (yet). Can anyone recommend an MD (psychiatrist or other) who gets it?

WC


2009: Cancer hospital said I had adjustment disorder because I thought they were doing it wrong. Their headshrinker prescribed Effexor, and my life set on a new course. I didn't know what was ahead, like a passenger on Disneyland's Matterhorn, smiling and waving as it climbs...clink, clink, clink.

2010: Post surgical accidental Effexor discontinuation by nurses, masked by intravenous Dilaudid. (The car is balanced at the top of the track.) I get home, pop a Vicodin, and ...

Whooosh...down, down, down, down, down...goes the trajectory of my life, up goes my mood and tendency to think everything is a good idea.
2012: After the bipolar jig was up, now a walking bag of unrelated symptoms, I went crazy on Daytrana (the Ritalin skin patch by Noven), because ADHD was a perfect fit for a bag of unrelated symptoms. I was prescribed Effexor for the nervousness of it, and things got neurological. An EEG showed enough activity to warrant an epilepsy diagnosis rather than non-epileptic ("psychogenic") seizures.

:o 2013-2014: Quit everything and got worse. I probably went through DAWS: dopamine agonist withdrawal syndrome. I drank to not feel, but I felt a lot: dread, fear, regret, grief: an utter sense of total loss of everything worth breathing about, for almost two years.

I was not suicidal but I wanted to be dead, at least dead to the experience of my own brain and body.

2015: I  began to recover after adding virgin coconut oil and organic grass-fed fed butter to a cup of instant coffee in the morning.

I did it hoping for mental acuity and better memory. After ten days of that, I was much better, mood-wise. Approximately neutral.

And, I experienced drowsiness. I could sleep. Not exactly happy, I did 30 days on Wellbutrin, because it had done me no harm in the past. 

I don't have the DAWS mood or state of mind. It never feel like doing anything if it means standing up.

In fact, I don't especially like moving. I'm a brain with a beanbag body.   :unsure:


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Posted 31 December 2016 - 05:11 PM

Has anyone found a psychiatrist or neuropharmacologist in the Pacific NW area that understands SSRI and/or benzodiazepine withdrawal. I'm in a world of hurt, and my last recommendation was to David Dunner in Seattle, who is essentially a shill for Glaxo and Eli Lilly.  My current psychiatrist is leading me down a path to disaster, so I'm urgently looking for a second opinion.


Medication before problems: Took Paxil 60-100mg from 2003 to 2014 for OCD.
1) Last pill taken November 2014, horrendous withdrawal started six weeks later.

2) Re-instated successfully @ 20mg May 2015, but accompanied by severe anhedonia, loss of emotion, apathy, and fatigue

3) Switched to Prozac, Viibyrd, Zoloft, Nefazadone, Cymbalta, Nardil in attempt at abating WD symptoms while not re-introducing anhedonia. Each one either failed to relieve WD or brought back anhedonia (the serotonergic ones)

4) Re-stabilized on Paxil at 15mg

5) Tried augmenting Wellbutrin (only increased anxiety), Vyvanse/Adderall (works for anhedonia, but the crash is brutal) low-dose Zyprexa (bad rxn), low-dose abilify (no effect), cyproheptadine (precipitated withdrawal), mirtazapine (knocked me out), Tianpetine (no effect) in attempt at relieving anhedonia through boosting dopamine directly or indirectly through targeted serotonin receptor blockade)

6) Tapered down to 7.5mg as of October 2016. More energy, anhedonia/loss of emotions remains apart from short windows.

7) Attempted Nortriptaline to paxil trapper to boost motivation and reduce anhedonia (it acts like an NRI, with target serotonin blockade at the "bad" receptors)

8) Stopped Nortriptaline after increased anxiety, no effect on anhedonia, and increased withdrawal symptoms. Only positive was alleviating ADHD symptoms.

9) Now struggling with a simultaneous Libirum and Paxil WD/taper...

 


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Posted 31 December 2016 - 06:36 PM

Unfortunately no, when I was at my worst I called maybe 15 different psychiatrists in the South Sound area and didn't find a one who would recognize SSRI or Benzo W/D. It would be comical if it wasn't so pathetic.  

 

The closest I got to any 'professional' recognizing what I was going through was a neuro-psychiatrist  (Dr.Bess) at Swedish in Seattle, though he was clueless on how to treat it and was only interested in shooting electrical current through my brain which I kindly refused.  He acknowledged that he had seen several young patients with similar stories to mine.


Year 0:      Social anxiety, obsessive thoughts, NO depression, NO suicidal ideations

Years 1-2: Ativan (benzo) <1mg as needed, not abused but developed physical dependence

Years 2-3: Paxil (20mg) augmented with Adderall XR (10-20mg) due to withdrawal from Ativan

Years 3-Present: Severe depression, headaches, psychiatric hospitalization, lost job, etc.