I was suffering from a life resulting from a lot of bad choices I made as a messed up person. I was addicted to work and pleasing others.
A couple weeks after 9/11 happened I went to a doctor because my heart was racing and I thought I was having a heart attack. I had stopped treating my sleep problems (I had insomnia my whole life) with natural products like vitamins and herbal teas and was drinking lots of coffee at work -- doing stuff that made me worse, including working 6 days a week and long hours. What I needed was to just let go and let GOD and a vacation.
The doc probably thought it was stress due to all going on in the country at the time. She put me on a medication (I knew better than to do this!). It was called Paxil. In 2 weeks I called her and told her I was worse. She increased the dose. This led to a nightmare for me. In the 6 weeks I was on this drug I went what you call "MANIC". In all my years I had never gotten to this place before, even back many years ago when I did illegal drugs.
I was an outstanding employee; right arm to the president - helping doing various responsiblities of cleaning up a company they purchased.
During this time I stole thousands of dollars from my employer and spent it all in 6 weeks! Yes, me, who never stole a pencil from work. I also did some other crazy things. None of the money could be accounted for because I was out of my mind. Fortunately I or nobody else lost their life during those 6 weeks.
I stopped the drug and crashed. I told them what I did. I got arrested and ended up in a 3 day stay at a mental hospital because I was afraid I would kill myself over what I had done.
These psychiatric doctors said I was bipolar. Well who wouldn’t be after being on that drug. Anyway, these doctors wanted me to sue the medical doc who put me on that drug because she should have taken me off it when I called at 2 weeks with worse symptoms. Instead she had increased it. They kept telling me I had a great case. I didn’t want to sue anyone.
I had to go to court proceedings. I should have been put in prison. BUT, THE LORD TOOK CARE OF ME THROUGH THIS. Even though I did not plead insanity like the doctors told me to do (because I felt I should own up to the consequences of my actions), I pled guilty and did not present my medical issues. By the grace of God I got off with just probation and to make monthly payments for 10 years.
I was such a mess. I let the doctors put me on drugs. I believed the lie I was bipolar. After going through a lot of drugs, this is what I ended up on daily for a few years: (enough to put down an elephant): 900 mg Seroquel, 300 mg Topamax, 3 mg Ativan, 3 mg Klonopin and more that I forgot the names of. Also, for my fibromyalgia: 3 different drugs daily. I forgot what they were but they were muscle relaxers and pain meds.
So I was for sure not in my right mind. I could not function. I went on disability and gained a ton of weight. One of my daughters had to do my checkbook. I was a zombie.
It took some years of living like this before the Lord could break through the wall. But thanks to HIM I was delivered from all these very very addictive meds and HE HEALED me.
I had pain for 20 years. I had insomnia my whole life, and was addicted to lots of medications. Now I am pain free and drug free and I sleep. Also, I am more “balanced” than ever before, due to looking to Jesus for my everything - not others, nor constant drugs.
Also - instead of this legal mess going on for 10 years, in just 4 years for no reason at all every legal issue was all dropped and my record was wiped clean and I no longer had to repay the monthly payments. It was if it never happened. Who could do this?? JESUS of course!!!!
I have walked many paths but that was a very dark, scary one. Still - HE REMEMBERED ME! The Lord just keeps restoring all that the enemy stole from me. No matter what path you are currently on, Jesus is the Way, the Truth and the Light!
Staff Note: To appreciate even more what God has done in Mona's life, you can read another testimony she has written: http://www.precious-testimonies.com/BornAgain/L-N/Mona.htm
Many people ask God to take away their pain, (addiction;etc.) and leave it at that. When He doesn't, they come to believe God doesn't care. But for multitudes who have testified of the delivering and healing power of Jesus Christ becoming actively involved in their painful situations ... they had to be willing to place their total trust in Him, and then be willing to do everything He asked them to do from that point on.
Jesus declares: "Have faith in God" - Mark 11:22
When Jesus stated that, the context in which it was intended was addressing this issue: When there seems to be no way, God will make a way if we wholeheartedly trust Him. When we've run out of human answers, God has answers we can't fathom, but we must wholeheartedly trust Him. God always has and always will be the God who can execute ANY miracle. The question becomes: "How desperate and determined are we to trust Him for one?"
When we are in pain, we just want it to go away. We want a "zap" from God in a moment of time so it will go away. God has and does do that at times, but usually He DOESN'T because He sees areas in our lives that need to be dealt with first - often spiritual matters of serious importance - before deliverance and healing (and blessing) comes of our problems.
When it comes to sicknesses and diseases, often time we must be willing to change what we are putting into our bodies, as well as engaging in proper excercise. Lifestyles may need changing, because stress kills. What we are feeding our minds can be killing us. What we think about can kill us. There can be many issues God wants us to deal with before He's willing to execute healing on our behalf.
God allows us to reach points of pain where it will drive us to Him for relief. It's in our times of desperation when we call out to Him and refuse to let Him go, that He sees a willingness in us to deal with certain issues we've minimized in the past ... or outright buried because of the trauma it has caused us, and/or aren't even consciously aware of.
Sometimes it goes even deeper than that. Sometimes it becomes necessary to have pointed, accurate prayer executed on behalf of demonic strongholds in the spirit realm that hold us ensnared, and unless those demonic strongholds are broken, we can walk around never walking in total victory. Other times, breaking demonic strongholds off our lives involves changing the way we believe about things -- changing the way we go about trusting God and trusting His Word.
The person with serious health issues who does not have a trusted individual to help them deal with spiritual sickness issues has no recourse but to get alone with God and let God do what He knows is always best in their particular situation. (Though getting alone with God should never be a last resort. It should always be our first course of action!) In so doing, we need to be trustingly patient with God. We need to trust in Him to do what needs to get done in all areas of our lives -- doing whatever He wants us to do to work in co-operation with His plan -- and show a willingness to be teachable. This is the soil in which miracles happen in our lives.
There is no sickness nor disease that faith in Jesus Christ can't heal. There is no addiction/s faith in Jesus Christ can't set a person free from. There is no situation on earth a person might be dealing with that faith in Jesus Christ doesn't have an answer for and the power to execute His answer. His answer might not always be what we want at the time, but His answer/s will pay eternal dividends. Jesus Christ has ALL power, because He and the Father and the Holy Spirit are God. But we must be teachable. Often - We must come to a place where there is no other option to turn to for help but Jesus.
Wiser words have never been stated. For most people ... do you know when you'll get free from your addiction/s? When you get desperate enough. Do you know when you'll get healed from your sickness and disease? When you get desperate enough. When there seems to be no other way; when it seems like all hope is gone ... no matter how frustrated you are with God from times past or at present ... He is eagerly waiting for you to trust Him again and again and again and ...
Trusting God can seem to be the hardest thing in the world. I've tasted that painful, frustrating place. Yet it's the wisest thing we can do -- leaning on Him to deal with our pain. If it wasn't, I wouldn't be alive this moment writing this, nor would a multitude of others who have testimonies to share of the mighty power of God to deliver and heal and bless.
Yet I believe we need to be very careful about forming beliefs that refuse to believe that God can take someone to glory through their sickness and/or disease. We view things soley from this side of eternity. Ever person who has died from some sickness or disease and passed into heaven never started complaining they were in in heaven, I have no doubt.
I'm of the belief that God wants us doing everything we know to do to help either ourselves or someone else become free of sicknesses and diseases, if they want our help -- yet be willing to hear the Holy Spirit say that it's time to let that person go on to glory if that is what God determines is best for the person, or ourselves.
Sometimes the accumulated pain of life and/or the pain of the sickness or disease is too great for a person suffering (and sometimes those close to them). Sometimes God weighs that issue and determines it is best to let that person come HOME. Who are we to hinder that option, or get all bent out of shape about that option God many times uses?
Sure we would like everyone to be totally healthy at death. One moment perfectly healthy; then the heart stopping quickly and translation to heaven. I'm guessing God would like the same. But we don't live in a world YET that deals in "perfect situations". That world is coming; it just is not here YET. We live in a broken, chaotic world where sin and evil rages, and God works with us more at that level at present than in "perfect situations."
We'll close with that.
- Norm Rasmussen, Director, Precious Testimonies
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