AmyK

AmyK: Intro about myself

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Dropped to 2,14 mg yesterday and immidately felt better today. The drugged feeling is gone.

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I turned down a nice job today, because of this med. Sad. I cant trust how I will feel, and I cant let them down. It was just a very small place.

These drugs!

Anyway feel better after I dropped.

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Glad you feel better..yes I'm the same would love to work but cannot depend how I'm gonna be..someday we will be well x

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Yes, thankyou, LoveandLight.

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I guess I answered my own question about tolerance. I know this now, if I dont drop after four weeks I feel worse. Note to myself!

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I'm still uplifted from your post on the 19th ,  wonderful news AmyK.   :)

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Thanks Fresh! It was so nice to see you on the photo, in your thread.

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Dropped to 1.97 mg zoloft today. Felt really good the last ten days. Under 2 mg, so happy.

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Congratulations on getting under 2mg, and for feeling good for ten days.

 

((((((((((((((((((HUGS)))))))))))))))))))))

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Congratulations on your recent drop. This is such good news that you are doing so well on such a low dose!

 

I wish you continued success.

 

Tilly x

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Tom, Tilly -thankyou! I wish you both good health and continued healing.

It's a lovely spring day here in Sweden. I am about to buy spring flowers for my house. I just feel the drop a little bit. Take care all!

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Tom, Tilly -thankyou! I wish you both good health and continued healing.

It's a lovely spring day here in Sweden. I am about to buy spring flowers for my house. I just feel the drop a little bit. Take care all!

Good for you! Have a lovely day, Amy  :)

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So great to hear of people doing well..so brilliant!

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Just saying "Hi".  Can relate to so many symptoms.   I'm glad you're buying "flowers".    Take care.  Ali.    

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I can really feel the drop and it's not a surprise. But anyhow always overwhelming. How it can change. Brain fog, shakey, heavy chest, feelings of doom and despair. I just want to shut the whole world out. I am lucky, I dont have to work right now.

I havent told many about my tapering, there is somehow a feeling of shame in all this for me. About feeling so bad, having to take antidepressants. And I think I feel "safer" if I know that people don't know. But it's hard. I have kids, and for them I try to act as if everything is "normal". I dont want them to worry to much about me.

I try to cling to that I know that I can feel good. This is not me. This is wd. This IS wd.

Take care all.

 

---and thanks for stopping by, Tilly, Love&Light and AliG!

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I can really feel the drop and it's not a surprise. But anyhow always overwhelming. How it can change. Brain fog, shakey, heavy chest, feelings of doom and despair. I just want to shut the whole world out. I am lucky, I dont have to work right now.

I havent told many about my tapering, there is somehow a feeling of shame in all this for me. About feeling so bad, having to take antidepressants. And I think I feel "safer" if I know that people don't know. But it's hard. I have kids, and for them I try to act as if everything is "normal". I dont want them to worry to much about me.

I try to cling to that I know that I can feel good. This is not me. This is wd. This IS wd.

Take care all.

 

---and thanks for stopping by, Tilly, Love&Light and AliG!

you are completely right.  It is withdrawal.  Still I can relate.  I have kids too and I don't want them to worry.  My WD is so bad that it sometimes can't be helped though.  I don't feel you should feel shame though.  Doctors today hand out anti depressants like candy for everything.  You don't need to be depressed to get this med anymore.  So being on one doesn't mean what it use to.  The issue now a days is that doctors don't believe the drug causes issues.  This is where the problems lie.  This is why I don't share my WD with many people.  Tried to tell my doctor and he laughed at me.  Now that is shaming.  Just hang on and do the best you can.  It will eventually pass and you will get yourself back.

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Yes, Frustrated. The doctor's ignorance is so unbelivably sad. You are right, the shame lies there.

 

I feel quite good again. Grateful, grateful. I am able to enjoy the beautiful spring days and I am so happy for that. I am alone a lot during day time, and like my own company. Grateful for that too. I walk a lot and spend much time in the nature.

Always feel worse physically the hours after taking the pill, and long for the days to come when I dont have to take it anymore.

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I dropped to 1.87 mg six days ago. It has been ok. Up and down. Yesterday and today just neuroemotions, crying like a baby. I feel so miserable when I think about these last years. How it has affects my kids. How I have isolated myself.

But I also feel grateful. I believe I will be fine. This journey is so much about acceptance and not letting the neuroemotions get to us so much.

I am strong. So are you. I will beat this.

I want to be that butterfly, who comes out of this feeling free.

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AmyK, hi.

 

i have gone through so many periods when even the slightest dose change rattles me like wind through a willow tree. back and forth, up and down. the willow tree doesn't try to fight the wind. over time, i've learned to accept this as my mode of action as well. i don't fight, i sway. and then the winds settle, my branches become still, and everything is ok again. for awhile. it's like cyclical storms we must endure. but not forever.

 

the neuroemotions are intense, aren't they? sometimes i'll be at work and in a meeting and they'll come on strong. it becomes difficult because it is an inappropriate time and place to cry. which makes the emotions even more intense. i've never had to excuse myself, but have come very close. many moments i have cried in quiet places in my office. release is important.

 

your gratitude is uplifting. i think it is a real strength that you can squarely look at this journey, realize your strength, and push forward with it. any part of these last years that you feel have been a casualty to withdrawal will follow you when you complete your metamorphosis to the butterfly you speak of. do you see what i mean? not only will you yourself experience the freedom of healing, but so too will the affected areas in your life. complete transformation. your healing will be a soothing balm to any of the wounded areas of your life.

 

between the time i suffered while on the drugs and the time i suffered in the more difficult phases of withdrawal, the column of time lost seems stark. until i realize that the stability i taste now, and the healing i have experienced since acute withdrawal ended, is in fact my life - unobscured - in the wake of the suffering.

 

hang in there! you are doing great! and know when to hold! :)

 

dave

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:) nearly there Amy :) <3

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Looks like we are just at about exactly the same place Amy.  I slid to 1.7 a week ago.  As you read on my thread it has been hitting me more than usual, but I thing it is clearing more quickly too.  Acceptance and patience is what it is all about, without those we would be totally miserable.

 

(((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))

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So true, Dave. We will come out of this as better persons. And appreciate life so much more. Thank you for bringing this to my attention, I really needed it. (I would love to write a longer post but my poor brain has difficulties translating my words to English :)

And Tom, Love&Light, thankyou to you too!

Hugs!!

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Dropped again. (To 1,77 mg.) Felt extremely brainfoggish the first day. Today I feel optimistic! A lot of energy. I am soon off. I cant wait.

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I must add: the brain fog day I went to yoga class anyway and I felt so much better afterwards. Yoga effects the cns and it's such a good way to "calm down" and on the same time get energy. I do Kundalini yoga, a yoga everyone can do. It's a lot about meditating and breathing.

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This is great, Amy! Xx

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Hi Amy-- getting close aren't we.  I'm finding that I have to be very careful with these low doses.  The symptoms are tending to hit hard but don't stick around too long.  I am also finding that there are a lot of other things starting to come to the surface that need to be dealt with, social interactions and relationship things that have been drugged for years are waking up and need examining and brought in line with real life.  It leaves me pretty confused at times.

 

Hope you continue felling well.

 

((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))

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Well, I am happy I had a good happy break. Now just feelings of neuroemotions/depression. My whole life is on hold due to this s-t drug. I cant apply for jobs, I cant make plans with friends etc.

So low today...just lying in bed.

I guess it will change. It will.

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Hi AmyK

 

So sorry you are having a rough time.  You have done so well and this is only temporary.  Like you say it will change.

 

Love and hugs xxx

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(((((((((((((((((((((((((((HUGS))))))))))))))))))))))))

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Oh Flowers and Tom, thanks!

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Hugs..how are you doing today? X

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I am a little better. But feel "drugged". I believe it will get better. These small doses are so nasty and unpredictable,

Thanks for asking, Love.

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I am a little better. But feel "drugged". I believe it will get better. These small doses are so nasty and unpredictable,

Thanks for asking, Love.

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Felt better for almost a week and have now dropped again by 5 %. Down to 1,67 mg zoloft. Unbelivably tiny...but I can feel the drop. Same as usual. Brainfog, nausea, shakey. It's ok. I know what it is. But I cant help to hate it every time. I want my life back. I feel for you all. These drugs are insane.

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