johnson Posted July 5, 2015 Share Posted July 5, 2015 Hi Luca, Sorry to hear you are struggling from PSSD. I have been off my pills for 31 months now(Just over 2.5 years) and I am still struggling. I hope you get better. I am not taking any pills or supplements except for magnesium when i need it. I have thought about taking viagra but I am only 33 and still feel am too young to start taking it. Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 5, 2015 Author Share Posted July 5, 2015 to malf: thank you, I've posted on your thread. to johnson: thank you for your post. It's over 7 months I'm living in this terrible anhedonic world and I haven't seen a single good day yet, it's like living the same day again and again with no relief. Things will get better my friend... 2.5 years is a great amount of time but I've read surfing the web anhedonia can stay for long long time but eventually it will fade, then you will enjoy life with full force again. March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
Marta Posted July 5, 2015 Share Posted July 5, 2015 HI Luca! Yes we have to be very patient! But it's easy to be patient for a thunderstorm to stop , for a cake in the owen to cook...............to be patient and bear this burden everyday is very hard, we can't do a lot, just hope! I'm too still struggling a lot even after the reinsertion of the AD. It's nice to try to stay strong all together. Cheers and hugs! 06/2012 - 02/2015 CIPRALEX 10 mg (for somatic abdominal pain + reflux) - prior to this NOT any significant episode of anxiety/depression on medication: emotional-sexual numbness, total inability to cry, +8 kg, fatigue -> abdominal pain gone 02/2015 - 1/04/2015 tapering from 10 mg to 0 mg doctor advised 05/05/2015 huge anxiety, burning skin sensation, panic, fear, not able to cry again, never-had-before insomnia, totally lost appetite, little loss of vision in one eye, sweating, chest pain, short breath, restlessness, accelerated heartbeat, mild akathisia legs-feet 30/05/2015 reinstated 8mg (I was suggested 5 mg here) middle 07/2015 general improving 10/2015 start disastrous too long taper 7mg 11/2015 6mg 12/2015 5mg 1/2016 4mg 2/2016 4mg 3/2016 3mg ->FAIL back to 4mg .... 8/2016 3mg 8/2017 2mg (short wave in summer '17) 8/2018 2mg stable 8/2019 1mg 1/2020 0.6 mg 1/APRIL/2020 0mg FREE! 7/2020 - 10/2020 MILD WAVE(mostly anxiety, poor sleep) 6/2021 - 9/2021 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, deep depression, internal restlessness, anhedonia) 0.125g triazolam 2 times 18/03/2022 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, PAIN in muscles and nerves, arms and right leg,cannot exercise,hard to walk) 0.125g triazolam 3 times 7/5 rein 0.1mg Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 5, 2015 Author Share Posted July 5, 2015 Hey Marta, you are right. The lack of an 'antidote' to issues caused by drugs is discouraging...my hope is to survive long enough to see psychiatry, psyco drugs and big pharma burn in hell's flames! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
bluebalu86 Posted July 5, 2015 Share Posted July 5, 2015 Hi Luca, just wanted to tell you that I'm rooting for you. There are a lot of recovery stories about people recovering from antipsychotics. I think you will write your own success story in the not so distant future. Just hang in there, I know you're in hell. We all are, but at least we have each other. Peace and healing to you my friend I suffer from depression, anxiety, pure-o ocd, and panic attacks since 2004. Been on multiple different psychiatric drugs since 2006. Never had a significant WD problem before, only brain zaps for a month and then I'd be fine...............Been on Cipralex (escitalopram) 15 mg and Fluanxol (flupentixol) 1 mg since Sep 2014. Stopped taking the Cipralex after a fast 20-day taper.Took the last 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 5th, 2015. Then took Seroxat (paroxetine) 10 mg for a week, and stopped it too. Severe WD started suddenly on Feb 16th. RI 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 18th, 2015. RI worked and was relatively stable for a while................April 7 - decreased Fluanxol from 1 mg to 0.5 mg and took it at this dose for a week. - BIG MISTAKE; April 13 - WD starts creeping in; April 14 - RI full dose of Fluanxol 1 mg => severe muscle twitching and jerking when trying to relax and fall asleep, overwhelming sense of doom, dread, terror, and horror, insomnia, hoping to stabilize.Tried doing a 10% cut off Fluanxol in the end of May for a few days, but quickly updosed to full dose because the twitching returned.Experiencing waves and windows in the following months.Unsuccessful brief taper attempt of Fluanxol by 5% on November 1st. Symptoms hit the next day. Too scared to continue tapering, reinstate full dose.Severe crash in November after stupidly trying a barbiturate on November 9th. Grave mistake. Sense of unshakable inescapable internal torture, like my soul is in hell being tortured, terror/horror/dread/doom (probably akathisia?) that gets especially bad when trying to relax and fall asleep, muscles twitch, jerk and move on their own, shaking, insomnia, can't eat, confusion, disorientation, brain not working normally. Never felt so bad in my entire life. Never experiment with other meds while in WD! Praying to God I stabilize and get back to my baseline.December - things getting even worse. January - unbearable suffering Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 16, 2015 Author Share Posted July 16, 2015 update: I've stopped to take ADs one month ago and tapering valium 0,5 mg a week...depression hit and hit hard, now it's worsened. So I have complete anhedonia plus depression and of course my doc suggested me to take wellbutrin. I really don't know what to do. well I can hold on and suffer or try to have a little relief with wellbutrin. who knows? really miserable ps: I've just read wellbutrin gives insomnia for 25% of people. wtf? March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
bluebalu86 Posted July 16, 2015 Share Posted July 16, 2015 If I were you Luca, I wouldn't take it. I would stay away from meds and just suffer through the pain. Is your suffering bearable? If it is, I suggest you don't take any additional drugs. They made you sick in the first place. I suffer from depression, anxiety, pure-o ocd, and panic attacks since 2004. Been on multiple different psychiatric drugs since 2006. Never had a significant WD problem before, only brain zaps for a month and then I'd be fine...............Been on Cipralex (escitalopram) 15 mg and Fluanxol (flupentixol) 1 mg since Sep 2014. Stopped taking the Cipralex after a fast 20-day taper.Took the last 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 5th, 2015. Then took Seroxat (paroxetine) 10 mg for a week, and stopped it too. Severe WD started suddenly on Feb 16th. RI 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 18th, 2015. RI worked and was relatively stable for a while................April 7 - decreased Fluanxol from 1 mg to 0.5 mg and took it at this dose for a week. - BIG MISTAKE; April 13 - WD starts creeping in; April 14 - RI full dose of Fluanxol 1 mg => severe muscle twitching and jerking when trying to relax and fall asleep, overwhelming sense of doom, dread, terror, and horror, insomnia, hoping to stabilize.Tried doing a 10% cut off Fluanxol in the end of May for a few days, but quickly updosed to full dose because the twitching returned.Experiencing waves and windows in the following months.Unsuccessful brief taper attempt of Fluanxol by 5% on November 1st. Symptoms hit the next day. Too scared to continue tapering, reinstate full dose.Severe crash in November after stupidly trying a barbiturate on November 9th. Grave mistake. Sense of unshakable inescapable internal torture, like my soul is in hell being tortured, terror/horror/dread/doom (probably akathisia?) that gets especially bad when trying to relax and fall asleep, muscles twitch, jerk and move on their own, shaking, insomnia, can't eat, confusion, disorientation, brain not working normally. Never felt so bad in my entire life. Never experiment with other meds while in WD! Praying to God I stabilize and get back to my baseline.December - things getting even worse. January - unbearable suffering Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 16, 2015 Author Share Posted July 16, 2015 thank you blue. I was reading your thread and I've noticed you had a worsening of symptoms in the first days of July just like me. You said not to write on your thread so I ask you here: have you find any doc in your country that is specialized in the withdrawal syndrome? It would be a great help while tapering March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
bluebalu86 Posted July 16, 2015 Share Posted July 16, 2015 There's no one in Bulgaria I believe who know how dangerous these drugs are and what effects they cause. I called a couple of psychs on the phone and they all said it can't possibly be withdrawal. So I gave up looking. I wouldn't find any better advice from anyone than I do from the experienced people here anyway. But if you feel you will be helped by an understanding psychiatrist, try to find one in Italy. Maybe you'll have more luck than me. I wish you all the best my friend I suffer from depression, anxiety, pure-o ocd, and panic attacks since 2004. Been on multiple different psychiatric drugs since 2006. Never had a significant WD problem before, only brain zaps for a month and then I'd be fine...............Been on Cipralex (escitalopram) 15 mg and Fluanxol (flupentixol) 1 mg since Sep 2014. Stopped taking the Cipralex after a fast 20-day taper.Took the last 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 5th, 2015. Then took Seroxat (paroxetine) 10 mg for a week, and stopped it too. Severe WD started suddenly on Feb 16th. RI 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 18th, 2015. RI worked and was relatively stable for a while................April 7 - decreased Fluanxol from 1 mg to 0.5 mg and took it at this dose for a week. - BIG MISTAKE; April 13 - WD starts creeping in; April 14 - RI full dose of Fluanxol 1 mg => severe muscle twitching and jerking when trying to relax and fall asleep, overwhelming sense of doom, dread, terror, and horror, insomnia, hoping to stabilize.Tried doing a 10% cut off Fluanxol in the end of May for a few days, but quickly updosed to full dose because the twitching returned.Experiencing waves and windows in the following months.Unsuccessful brief taper attempt of Fluanxol by 5% on November 1st. Symptoms hit the next day. Too scared to continue tapering, reinstate full dose.Severe crash in November after stupidly trying a barbiturate on November 9th. Grave mistake. Sense of unshakable inescapable internal torture, like my soul is in hell being tortured, terror/horror/dread/doom (probably akathisia?) that gets especially bad when trying to relax and fall asleep, muscles twitch, jerk and move on their own, shaking, insomnia, can't eat, confusion, disorientation, brain not working normally. Never felt so bad in my entire life. Never experiment with other meds while in WD! Praying to God I stabilize and get back to my baseline.December - things getting even worse. January - unbearable suffering Link to comment
degen12 Posted July 16, 2015 Share Posted July 16, 2015 Risperdal is an incredibly sh*tty drug. I can't imagine how bad the withdrawal. I expect very high occupancy of 5-HT2a receptors at even very low doses (0.25mg has been used clinically). April / 2016: Cipralex 10 mg, Mirtazapine 30 mg, Lyrica 600 mg, Diazepam 20 mg, Bystolic 5 mg 2018: Lots of polypharmacy which is undocumented here. Started and stopped several drugs and changed doses of existing ones August / 2018: Back on track! Cipralex 15 mg, Mirtazapine 7.5 mg, Diazepam 15 mg September 2018: Cipralex 15 mg -> 12.5 mg October 2018: Cipralex 12.5 mg -> 10 mg, Mirtazapine 7.5 mg -> 3.75 mg -> Stopped, Diazepam 15 mg November 2019: Cipralex 5 mg, Diazepam 10 mg Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted July 16, 2015 Administrator Share Posted July 16, 2015 Luca, how much Valium were you taking? How much are you taking now? Is Valium the only drug you're on? It's not a good idea to go off various drugs PLUS a benzo you've been on a long time. You will compound withdrawal syndrome with benzo withdrawal. Please stop reducing Valium now. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 17, 2015 Author Share Posted July 17, 2015 hi degen, yes I know it now but too late god damn it! docs said risperidone 1mg was a tiny dose, it wasn't dangerous (still say it!). Altostrata, I'm taking only Valium 3mg now and I really want to go off it with a slow taper (I'm reducing 0,2 mg a week). I'm following benzo.org.uk: http://www.benzo.org.uk/manual/bzsched.htm#s2 schedule 2 I'm listening to you...should I stay on valium for some more time? No tapering anymore? I'm sure Valium is blocking my emotions and is making me depressed plus I have never had insomnia; I can't even remember why they gave it to me! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus apace41 Posted July 17, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted July 17, 2015 I'm listening to you...should I stay on valium for some more time? No tapering anymore? I'm sure Valium is blocking my emotions and is making me depressed plus I have never had insomnia; I can't even remember why they gave it to me! Luca, I think what Alto is saying is that, even though you are following a sound protocol for tapering Valium (good on you for that!), the Valium is "cushioning" the other symptoms you might get from the withdrawal of the other meds. While there have been some stories of people who did multi-drug very slow tapers (Rhi comes to mind), those situations are different than yours in terms of how they came to be here. While the Valium undoubtedly dampens your emotions (that's what it's for), it also helps to prevent the crash you might get from the other drugs. The idea would be to taper off the Valium last, after it has finished giving you whatever "protection" it does. Just my thoughts. Andy Sertraline 50mg and Clonazapam .375mg from 2000 -- symptoms of dizziness Spring 2012 increased to .5 Clonazapam and 100mg Sertraline -- no improvement Benzo microtaper from November 2012 to November 2014 (followed benzo sites "taper benzo first") Started Sertraline taper in December 2014 cut by 25mg to 75mg; 62.5mg 1/1/15 and 50mg on 2/1/15 Held at 50mg through April 5 to use liquid Reduced dosage in 10% or less drops from 50mg to 25mg -- at single tablet of 25mg on 10/5/15 Transitioned to all liquid for accuracy while tapering -- Horrible insomnia -- back to 25mg liquid and held until October 1, 2016 10/16 -- 11/18 tapered very slowly to 10.6mg. No real improvement and never really stable so updosed to 12.5mg (1/2 a pill) for convenience and long hold. After 8+ months of holding with no noticeable improvement decided to add .4ml of liquid Prozac (about 1.5mg) to see if that improves the situation Supplements, Magnesium, D3, Omega 3, curcumin, Valerian, 81mg Aspirin, L-Theanine, Vit. C, Link to comment
Marta Posted July 18, 2015 Share Posted July 18, 2015 Hi Luca, so sorry to hear a worsening of your symptoms. Stay strong! I wolud love to give you an useful opinion on valium...maybe you can go on with taper and hopefully thonhg will be better.....if things will get worse and worse at the end you can take a small dose again....but please listen to Alto! Hugs!!! .....by the way I read few articles in the "from scientific journals" section and one is from Italy (dott.Fava) he is currently teaching at university....I really hope the "new generation" of his future doctors will be informed on w/d 06/2012 - 02/2015 CIPRALEX 10 mg (for somatic abdominal pain + reflux) - prior to this NOT any significant episode of anxiety/depression on medication: emotional-sexual numbness, total inability to cry, +8 kg, fatigue -> abdominal pain gone 02/2015 - 1/04/2015 tapering from 10 mg to 0 mg doctor advised 05/05/2015 huge anxiety, burning skin sensation, panic, fear, not able to cry again, never-had-before insomnia, totally lost appetite, little loss of vision in one eye, sweating, chest pain, short breath, restlessness, accelerated heartbeat, mild akathisia legs-feet 30/05/2015 reinstated 8mg (I was suggested 5 mg here) middle 07/2015 general improving 10/2015 start disastrous too long taper 7mg 11/2015 6mg 12/2015 5mg 1/2016 4mg 2/2016 4mg 3/2016 3mg ->FAIL back to 4mg .... 8/2016 3mg 8/2017 2mg (short wave in summer '17) 8/2018 2mg stable 8/2019 1mg 1/2020 0.6 mg 1/APRIL/2020 0mg FREE! 7/2020 - 10/2020 MILD WAVE(mostly anxiety, poor sleep) 6/2021 - 9/2021 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, deep depression, internal restlessness, anhedonia) 0.125g triazolam 2 times 18/03/2022 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, PAIN in muscles and nerves, arms and right leg,cannot exercise,hard to walk) 0.125g triazolam 3 times 7/5 rein 0.1mg Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 18, 2015 Author Share Posted July 18, 2015 hi apace and marta, Valium is the last of my thoughts at the moment, I've crossed the 8th month from my last pill of Risperdal without a single window. Not a single minute of relief from my emotional anhestesia, blank mind and loss of personality. I'm living not knowing what to do all the day, my brain is disconnected, 24/7 interior pain and obessession thoughts about this hell that will never end. Thank you for your suggestion, I will try to taper Valium veeery slowly, ready to updose it again if things go worse. Marta, I'm not sure about doctor Fava anymore; I contacted him some months ago, he replied to my mail with this last sentence (translated from italian): I believe that a good work with psyco drugs and psychotherapy could be crucial. WTF drugs? is he suggesting to me more drugs? is he joking or what? It's very discouraging March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 18, 2015 Author Share Posted July 18, 2015 I will wait for one more year, if nothing changes I will leave this stupid life, as lapd and jim probably did! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
bluebalu86 Posted July 18, 2015 Share Posted July 18, 2015 Luca, I think about suicide everyday. I know how it feels. We're in hell. But if we die, we won't exist to experience the healing that will surely come. People recover from this. Once you die - that's it, you're gone forever. You don't exist. You can't experience relief if you don't exist. But suicide is on my mind too every single day of this hell. I'm with you buddy, let's try and hang on for now. We can always die, that's always an option. I suffer from depression, anxiety, pure-o ocd, and panic attacks since 2004. Been on multiple different psychiatric drugs since 2006. Never had a significant WD problem before, only brain zaps for a month and then I'd be fine...............Been on Cipralex (escitalopram) 15 mg and Fluanxol (flupentixol) 1 mg since Sep 2014. Stopped taking the Cipralex after a fast 20-day taper.Took the last 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 5th, 2015. Then took Seroxat (paroxetine) 10 mg for a week, and stopped it too. Severe WD started suddenly on Feb 16th. RI 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 18th, 2015. RI worked and was relatively stable for a while................April 7 - decreased Fluanxol from 1 mg to 0.5 mg and took it at this dose for a week. - BIG MISTAKE; April 13 - WD starts creeping in; April 14 - RI full dose of Fluanxol 1 mg => severe muscle twitching and jerking when trying to relax and fall asleep, overwhelming sense of doom, dread, terror, and horror, insomnia, hoping to stabilize.Tried doing a 10% cut off Fluanxol in the end of May for a few days, but quickly updosed to full dose because the twitching returned.Experiencing waves and windows in the following months.Unsuccessful brief taper attempt of Fluanxol by 5% on November 1st. Symptoms hit the next day. Too scared to continue tapering, reinstate full dose.Severe crash in November after stupidly trying a barbiturate on November 9th. Grave mistake. Sense of unshakable inescapable internal torture, like my soul is in hell being tortured, terror/horror/dread/doom (probably akathisia?) that gets especially bad when trying to relax and fall asleep, muscles twitch, jerk and move on their own, shaking, insomnia, can't eat, confusion, disorientation, brain not working normally. Never felt so bad in my entire life. Never experiment with other meds while in WD! Praying to God I stabilize and get back to my baseline.December - things getting even worse. January - unbearable suffering Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted July 22, 2015 Author Share Posted July 22, 2015 Took one pill of Wellbutrin about 12 hours ago...no changes yet! suffering continues March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted August 4, 2015 Author Share Posted August 4, 2015 Update: can't catch the meaning in anything. sitting or laying in my bed all the day, eating, sleeping and some walking. The most part of the day spent staring at the wall in front of me. Depression worsened and probably developed OCD. What is the meaning in writing on this forum? no meaning in all I do so I do nothing. March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted August 4, 2015 Author Share Posted August 4, 2015 Now I'm thinking 24 hours a day all days about the meaning of actions and things and I find none so I do nothing. Don't know how much time I can go on this way... March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted August 30, 2015 Author Share Posted August 30, 2015 I'm still alive and still miserable like in my last post, nearly one month ago...I go through days crying, lying in bed most time, some walking, a bit of videogames/music/internet and pacing in my room. always in despair and agony. don't know what to do. thanks altostrata for your suggestion to stop the valium taper...I'm still taking the same dosage of 1 month ago. ps: sorry if I don't write on the forum, but I'm highly nonfunctional and desperate, anyway I read the threads. March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted August 30, 2015 Administrator Share Posted August 30, 2015 Luca, what are you doing for self-soothing? To help yourself heal, you need to "change the channel" -- turn your thoughts away from going deeper into your misery -- or use other self-soothing methods, see Non-drug techniques to cope with emotional symptoms Please put your efforts into doing this, it will help you heal. Posting here day after day about how miserable you are is not helping you. This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted August 30, 2015 Author Share Posted August 30, 2015 yes, I'm doing CBT right know, once a week (just started); plus I'm trying to relax me with some meditation and music and doing positive talks. BUT many times I can't stop the crying, the interior pain, the anxiety, the suicidal urges...please don't think I'm not doing nothing to survive. Symptoms are often overwhelming, it's so damn hard; the temptation to take a stimulant or an ad is strong, but I don't want! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
Administrator Altostrata Posted August 30, 2015 Administrator Share Posted August 30, 2015 I am very happy to hear you're working on taking care of yourself. You need to apply the things you learn in CBT when you're alone, too. How can you use your posts on this site to help yourself feel better? This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner. "It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein All postings © copyrighted. Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted August 30, 2015 Author Share Posted August 30, 2015 My hope is to share a succesfull story on SA one day, then I would start to write something about the psyco drugs (articles, books) in order to inform people about what the real nature of these poisons. now they are only dreams March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
bluebalu86 Posted August 30, 2015 Share Posted August 30, 2015 You will get there Luca. You will heal. Right now it's all about survival. You need to stay alive to experience the healing that will surely come. Hang in there buddy, you can make this, I know how much you're struggling I suffer from depression, anxiety, pure-o ocd, and panic attacks since 2004. Been on multiple different psychiatric drugs since 2006. Never had a significant WD problem before, only brain zaps for a month and then I'd be fine...............Been on Cipralex (escitalopram) 15 mg and Fluanxol (flupentixol) 1 mg since Sep 2014. Stopped taking the Cipralex after a fast 20-day taper.Took the last 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 5th, 2015. Then took Seroxat (paroxetine) 10 mg for a week, and stopped it too. Severe WD started suddenly on Feb 16th. RI 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 18th, 2015. RI worked and was relatively stable for a while................April 7 - decreased Fluanxol from 1 mg to 0.5 mg and took it at this dose for a week. - BIG MISTAKE; April 13 - WD starts creeping in; April 14 - RI full dose of Fluanxol 1 mg => severe muscle twitching and jerking when trying to relax and fall asleep, overwhelming sense of doom, dread, terror, and horror, insomnia, hoping to stabilize.Tried doing a 10% cut off Fluanxol in the end of May for a few days, but quickly updosed to full dose because the twitching returned.Experiencing waves and windows in the following months.Unsuccessful brief taper attempt of Fluanxol by 5% on November 1st. Symptoms hit the next day. Too scared to continue tapering, reinstate full dose.Severe crash in November after stupidly trying a barbiturate on November 9th. Grave mistake. Sense of unshakable inescapable internal torture, like my soul is in hell being tortured, terror/horror/dread/doom (probably akathisia?) that gets especially bad when trying to relax and fall asleep, muscles twitch, jerk and move on their own, shaking, insomnia, can't eat, confusion, disorientation, brain not working normally. Never felt so bad in my entire life. Never experiment with other meds while in WD! Praying to God I stabilize and get back to my baseline.December - things getting even worse. January - unbearable suffering Link to comment
Marta Posted September 10, 2015 Share Posted September 10, 2015 Stay strong luca....you'll write a book and if I can help you, just tell me!!! .......I am curious about cbt in italy....how things are going?? Ps......have you ever seen the forum nienteansia ?? I'm not subscribed to that forum. I personally don't like it a lot because there are too many different people with too different stories.....plus is kind of depressive, you know italian are often "tragic". PPs I was thinking what could we make in Italy....a facebook group in italian maybe ? (you know italians aren't very good in ehglish) 06/2012 - 02/2015 CIPRALEX 10 mg (for somatic abdominal pain + reflux) - prior to this NOT any significant episode of anxiety/depression on medication: emotional-sexual numbness, total inability to cry, +8 kg, fatigue -> abdominal pain gone 02/2015 - 1/04/2015 tapering from 10 mg to 0 mg doctor advised 05/05/2015 huge anxiety, burning skin sensation, panic, fear, not able to cry again, never-had-before insomnia, totally lost appetite, little loss of vision in one eye, sweating, chest pain, short breath, restlessness, accelerated heartbeat, mild akathisia legs-feet 30/05/2015 reinstated 8mg (I was suggested 5 mg here) middle 07/2015 general improving 10/2015 start disastrous too long taper 7mg 11/2015 6mg 12/2015 5mg 1/2016 4mg 2/2016 4mg 3/2016 3mg ->FAIL back to 4mg .... 8/2016 3mg 8/2017 2mg (short wave in summer '17) 8/2018 2mg stable 8/2019 1mg 1/2020 0.6 mg 1/APRIL/2020 0mg FREE! 7/2020 - 10/2020 MILD WAVE(mostly anxiety, poor sleep) 6/2021 - 9/2021 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, deep depression, internal restlessness, anhedonia) 0.125g triazolam 2 times 18/03/2022 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, PAIN in muscles and nerves, arms and right leg,cannot exercise,hard to walk) 0.125g triazolam 3 times 7/5 rein 0.1mg Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted October 4, 2015 Author Share Posted October 4, 2015 hey marta, sorry I was away from the web in the last weeks, they were bad! Yes, I know nienteansia ans also other italian forums about psycho meds, depression, etc. but I don't like them very much because they all are 'pro-meds'. About the facebook group, I was thinking about a blog that helps those who are in trouble with meds but I'm not mentally ready for the task (going to explain now why). Update: Going on with CBT tecniques (like looking at the colours of the objects in a room for 5-6 minutes two times a day, it helps sometimes) and finally no more pacing through my room and no crying time. Trying to keep busy during the day and I laughed a lot one day (wow!). Walking every day and eating healty of course. Full anhedonia and blank mind are untouched symptoms and unlucky I had no windows yet. My worst issue at the moment is my OCD: during all the day I keep asking to myself why I have to watch TV (also when I watch TV) or why I have to take a shower, to go out for a walk and so on. What's the point in doing anything? Same questions when I have a conversation with someone: why saying anything to him/her, what's the point in speaking about everything? And also when I'm alone I keep asking to myself: what I have to think now? I don't know what to think! it's odd :/ I think it's something related to nihilistic/existential depression. I mean, we simply exist without a reason so we are obliged to do something in order to fill the day every day. It's like an over-active consciousness...I'm aware all the time of my mind and my body. I don't really know if this OCD is from WD or is something different! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted October 4, 2015 Author Share Posted October 4, 2015 mainly for Altostrata: finally I met dr. Fava; he is a sweet person and very concerned about post-withdrawal syndrome. I told him I'm a member of this forum administered by you, Alto. He laughed and said he remember you and the long correspondence in the past. Then I explained my story and he confirmed my troubles are caused by meds and reassured me I will eventually have a full recovery. Nice to hear! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
bluebalu86 Posted October 4, 2015 Share Posted October 4, 2015 Yes Luca, you will be absolutely fine, I have no doubt. Take care and stay strong, you're doing a great job. I suffer from depression, anxiety, pure-o ocd, and panic attacks since 2004. Been on multiple different psychiatric drugs since 2006. Never had a significant WD problem before, only brain zaps for a month and then I'd be fine...............Been on Cipralex (escitalopram) 15 mg and Fluanxol (flupentixol) 1 mg since Sep 2014. Stopped taking the Cipralex after a fast 20-day taper.Took the last 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 5th, 2015. Then took Seroxat (paroxetine) 10 mg for a week, and stopped it too. Severe WD started suddenly on Feb 16th. RI 5 mg Cipralex on Feb 18th, 2015. RI worked and was relatively stable for a while................April 7 - decreased Fluanxol from 1 mg to 0.5 mg and took it at this dose for a week. - BIG MISTAKE; April 13 - WD starts creeping in; April 14 - RI full dose of Fluanxol 1 mg => severe muscle twitching and jerking when trying to relax and fall asleep, overwhelming sense of doom, dread, terror, and horror, insomnia, hoping to stabilize.Tried doing a 10% cut off Fluanxol in the end of May for a few days, but quickly updosed to full dose because the twitching returned.Experiencing waves and windows in the following months.Unsuccessful brief taper attempt of Fluanxol by 5% on November 1st. Symptoms hit the next day. Too scared to continue tapering, reinstate full dose.Severe crash in November after stupidly trying a barbiturate on November 9th. Grave mistake. Sense of unshakable inescapable internal torture, like my soul is in hell being tortured, terror/horror/dread/doom (probably akathisia?) that gets especially bad when trying to relax and fall asleep, muscles twitch, jerk and move on their own, shaking, insomnia, can't eat, confusion, disorientation, brain not working normally. Never felt so bad in my entire life. Never experiment with other meds while in WD! Praying to God I stabilize and get back to my baseline.December - things getting even worse. January - unbearable suffering Link to comment
Moderator Emeritus JanCarol Posted October 6, 2015 Moderator Emeritus Share Posted October 6, 2015 yes, I'm doing CBT right know, once a week (just started); plus I'm trying to relax me with some meditation and music and doing positive talks. BUT many times I can't stop the crying, the interior pain, the anxiety, the suicidal urges...please don't think I'm not doing nothing to survive. Symptoms are often overwhelming, it's so damn hard; the temptation to take a stimulant or an ad is strong, but I don't want! Hey Luca - I'm sorry you are still struggling. Stop bouncing your brain. Stop taking wellbutrin or other stimulants - they will only delay your healing. I'm thinking that CBT, while it may help you, might not be enough. DBT also addresses the extreme emotions. Try: http://www.dbtselfhelp.com/ BUT many times I can't stop the crying, the interior pain, the anxiety, the suicidal urges...please don't think I'm not doing nothing to survive. Symptoms are often overwhelming, it's so damn hard; the temptation to take a stimulant or an ad is strong, but I don't want! Ah, so you DO have feelings, even if they are all bad ones. This is a reason to have hope! My first thought is - maybe you don't need to stop the crying, the pain, the anxiety, the urges. Fighting them, only makes them stronger. Let go. Cry. Rage. Feel the pain, the anxiety, the urges. Is there something the crying is telling you about what you really want in life? Is the anxiety trying to steer you away from harmful situations? Even the urges - as scary as they are - are a plea for you to change your life. We are taught in our Western society to fight emotion, when emotion is often there to teach us something. It is the expression of an intuition - a "feeling," made into words and images. It may seem like overwhelm, but I will suggest, maybe just select one: the crying. Let it in, let it happen, and follow it down until you are completely exhausted and can cry no more. Fighting it, only pushes it down, and it is like a water dam - you must release the flood gates or the dam will burst, overflow and cause more damage and pain. Finding release mechanisms (I know, anhedonia and PSSD make this hard) to ease the emotions through, to process them, to learn from them - may be key to your survival in this. Like taking walks. Like watching movies that make you cry. Cry when you look at something beautiful and feel nothing - and yet - you are crying - so you must feel something. What is that? Let it come, let yourself cry, even if it is for days. At SOME point, you will stop. And you will be tired and weary, and you will be in a clearer space, because the crying dam will be emptied, and you will no longer have the pressure of that emotion. THEN, you can work on other emotions. * That is awesome news about Dr. Fava! See? It is true - you will recover! It will take time - and it will take hard work. Sometimes just waiting is very hard work. I hope I've offered you something to occupy you while you wait. Will you see Dr. Fava again? I hope you see the sun today. "Easy, easy - just go easy and you'll finish." - Hawaiian Kapuna Holding is hard work, holding is a blessing. Give your brain time to heal before you try again. My suggestions are not medical advice, you are in charge of your own medical choices. A lifetime of being prescribed antidepressants that caused problems (30 years in total). At age 35 flipped to "bipolar," but was not diagnosed for 5 years. Started my journey in Midwest United States. Crossed the Pacific for love and hope; currently living in Australia. CT Seroquel 25 mg some time in 2013. Tapered Reboxetine 4 mg Oct 2013 to Sept 2014 = GONE (3 years on Reboxetine). Tapered Lithium 900 to 475 MG (alternating with the SNRI) Jan 2014 - Nov 2014, tapered Lithium 475 mg Jan 2015 - Feb 2016 = GONE (10 years on Lithium). Many mistakes in dry cutting dosages were made. The tedious thread (my intro): JanCarol ☼ Reboxetine first, then Lithium The happy thread (my success story): JanCarol - Undiagnosed Off all bipolar drugs My own blog: https://shamanexplorations.com/shamans-blog/ I have been psych drug FREE since 1 Feb 2016! Link to comment
Marta Posted October 6, 2015 Share Posted October 6, 2015 Hi Luca! Nice that you have talked with dr. Fava!!! He gave you hope! That's VERY important! I also think a lot about sense of life, why doing things everyday, the relation with other people, talk to myself and so on...you are not alone, I'm sure all the members here have/had more stronger or less stronger the same. When I try to relax I think" why I should relax insted of work more,why I am relaxing wasting oxigen without doing nothing useful (I know it's crazy)?" On the other hand,when I am at work very often I loose concentration and start to relaxing and then I'm angry with mysef because I worked too little.........basically I can't "escape" uhuh (For me playing "quiet" videogames is useful to distract me more than TV) I'm sure you will find your own meaning and your own answers and you will stop so often to "ask why" ! You will!!!!! Hugsssss! 06/2012 - 02/2015 CIPRALEX 10 mg (for somatic abdominal pain + reflux) - prior to this NOT any significant episode of anxiety/depression on medication: emotional-sexual numbness, total inability to cry, +8 kg, fatigue -> abdominal pain gone 02/2015 - 1/04/2015 tapering from 10 mg to 0 mg doctor advised 05/05/2015 huge anxiety, burning skin sensation, panic, fear, not able to cry again, never-had-before insomnia, totally lost appetite, little loss of vision in one eye, sweating, chest pain, short breath, restlessness, accelerated heartbeat, mild akathisia legs-feet 30/05/2015 reinstated 8mg (I was suggested 5 mg here) middle 07/2015 general improving 10/2015 start disastrous too long taper 7mg 11/2015 6mg 12/2015 5mg 1/2016 4mg 2/2016 4mg 3/2016 3mg ->FAIL back to 4mg .... 8/2016 3mg 8/2017 2mg (short wave in summer '17) 8/2018 2mg stable 8/2019 1mg 1/2020 0.6 mg 1/APRIL/2020 0mg FREE! 7/2020 - 10/2020 MILD WAVE(mostly anxiety, poor sleep) 6/2021 - 9/2021 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, deep depression, internal restlessness, anhedonia) 0.125g triazolam 2 times 18/03/2022 WAVE (anxiety, severe insomnia, total loss of appetite, PAIN in muscles and nerves, arms and right leg,cannot exercise,hard to walk) 0.125g triazolam 3 times 7/5 rein 0.1mg Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted October 8, 2015 Author Share Posted October 8, 2015 thanks so much, blue! Hey JanCarol, I've never heard about DBT it sounds interesting...going to check your link, thank you. Yes, I always let myself cry, or pace, or whatever. I see that when my body and my mind are exhausted I simply stop crying or pacing so it's useless to try and resist. I saw dr. Fava again this morning, he said again 'no irreversible damage for sure' and he strongly suggested to me to keep myself busy all the time and to not think about what had happened, instead I have to look to the future and to stay positive. Wise words, uh? Hi Marta, so true! many members here say they think about meaning of things, life, relationship and so on during WD but I've never heard the word obsession or OCD related to these thoughts. Maybe it's the same issue explained in another way but I'm sure the root problem is a sort of hyper-awareness of my consciousness, I continue to control my body and my mind all the day, 24/7 eheh what a mess! It's the 'flow' I miss. And I'm also sure anhedonia and asking why doing or thinking or saying anything are related to each other. Quiet videogames are great to kill time and to move your brain, thank you for the suggestion March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LexAnger Posted October 9, 2015 Share Posted October 9, 2015 Hi Luca, Hope you are feeling better! I just read your post to another thread mntioning your head pain. Before I find time to read your entire introduction, how and when did that go away? Lex Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
LucaDiProspero Posted October 11, 2015 Author Share Posted October 11, 2015 hi LexAnger, my head pain is discontinuos. I have had it sometimes during the last months, especially at night but it lasts only few hours. Last hit was some days ago. It's very disturbing! March 2010/ October 2010: Sereupin 30mg a day, EN 15 drops a day October 2010/ 1st November 2014: Cipralex 50mg a day (tapered to 40mg a day in August 2013), EN 15 drops a day (switched to Lexotan 15 drops a day in September 2014) Started Risperdal 1mg a day on the 1st November 2014. Stopped Risperdal on the 23 November 2014 because that day, after a short mental crysis, I suddenly lost all my emotions,desires,motivation and they not come back yet. Stopped Cipralex C/T in December 2014. Added, tapered and stopped other drugs during the following months (also a voluntary hospitalization in January 2015 for a suicide attempt)...no changes yet. I'm med free from 3rd December 2015 Link to comment
LexAnger Posted October 12, 2015 Share Posted October 12, 2015 That's great to hear! Thanks for getting back to me! Sending healing wishes to you! Lex Drug free Sep. 23 2017 2009 Mar.: lexapro 10mg for headache for 2 weeks. 2009-2012: on and off 1/4 to 1/3 of 10mg 2012 June--2013 Jan,: 1/4-1/3 of 10mg generic, bad jaw pain 2013 Jan-Mar: 10 mg generic. severe jaw and head pain; 2013 Mar--Aug. started tapering (liquid ever since) from 10 to 5 (one step) then gradually down to 2.25 mg by July. first ever panic attack, severe head/jaw pain 2013 Aug.: back to 2.75 mg; Nov: back to Brand Lex. 2.75mg -- 3mg, 2014 June: stopped PPI, head pressure/numbness. up-dosed 4.5mg, severe reaction mental symptoms added on 2014 Aug--2015 Aug: Micro taper down to 3.2mg, .025mg (<1%) cut holding 2-3 weeks. 2015 Aug 15th, Accidental one dose of 4.2mg. worsening brain non-functional, swollen head, body, coma like, DR 2016 Feb., started dosing 10am through 11 pm everyday 2/13--3.2mg, 3/15-- 2.9mg, 4/19-- 2.6mg, 6/26--2.2mg, 7/22 --1.9mg, 8/16--1.8mg，8/31--1.7m g, 9/13--1.6mg, 9/27--1.5mg, 10/8--1.4mg, 10/14--1.3mg， 11/1--1.2mg, 11/29--1.1mg, 12/12--1mg, 12/22--0.9mg 2017: 1/7--0.8mg, 1/15--0.7mg, 1/17--0.6mg, 1/20--0.52, 1/21--0.4mg, 1/22--0.26, 1/23--0.2, 2/13--0.13mg, 2/20--0.06mg, 3/18--0.13mg, 6/1--0.12mg, 7/6--0.1mg, 7/14--0.08mg, 8/17--0.04mg, 8/20--0.03mg, 8/28--0.02mg, 9/6--0.0205mg, 9/8--0.02mg, 9/17--0.015mg, 9/20--0.01mg, 9/21--0.0048mg, 9/22--0.0001mg, Link to comment
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