Wish I could. I wish I could.......
I went to the highlighted site without success but that's okay...........as I am doubtful I could fill anything out. Difficulty logging in even so maybe will just read a bit.......there is a ton on this site. And journal a little.
I did a phone visit with my therapist.........I mean it is nice that after all these years I have one who I feel pretty okay about.
I guess my quest for going med free someday started with reading Robert Whitaker's anatomy of an epidemic. I actually felt like his poster child. I mean he is so right and I am so thankful that he can see and get into words what has really been going on with mental health care since prozac came on the market. Kind of coincides with when I started seeking treatment for depression and anxiety.
And then I was able to attend a freebie given in my State, training to be a certified peer specialist. And I began to trust what I already knew...........that all along I was right.........
I used to be a medical professional. First an RN..........pediatrics, critical care and then became a pediatric nurse practitioner. I used to believe it all. After worsening psychologically with every medication prescribed and gaining diagnosis after diagnosis I certainly do not believe it anymore.
I guess I do believe I will get there.........not knowing where where is going to be yet. And refuse to believe that I will lose it all, in fact, still believe I may get further than I am now. And do know that it could be worse, I could have worse circumstances.
So hard to read some of the stories here and the time consumed in healing to get to a functional level again. I so wish it was easier for us all.
I wrote another entry but managed to lose it.........one of these days.........don't know when..........I will try and get that medication history going that is alongside most peoples posts.
Still working on paying bills........do what I can when I am able, that is my motto for now...........and stay afloat.
Thanks Altostrata for having this site.
Started with psycho meds circa 1988 I think 27 or 28 total.
AD's, antpsychotics, antiseizure mood stabilizers. Lithium, lamictal,benzos, and stimulants. Some med. for narcolepsy once?, Gabapentin........probably more. Ask me?......I probably was on it. Haphazard W/D's by Dr. recommend or uneducated self.
10/2014- off Lexapro--had been on highest dose 10 mg. then 5 mg. for a couple of years, went from 5 mg. to 3 mg. liquid and then CT in hospital(voluntary). I got out of the hospital on a combination of low dose adderal salts x1/day and trileptal 150mg. x2/day.
5/28/2015-off Adderal salts 2.5mg. (I had been on that since hospital 10/2014)
12/2015---just holding, holding, holding, with trileptal/oxcarb at 75 mg. 1/2 tab at hs. My last psycho med ever!
3/21/2016---I did some unwise updosing of trileptal/oxcarbazepine with some stressful stuff......doubled the above dose x2 during this last wave but began liquifying again and on approximately 68mg. starting today. 11/12//2016 24 mg. oxcarbazepine 12/9/2016 off oxcarbazepine/trileptal!!!! optimistic
Omega3's,EPA +DHA= approx. 1200/day. Magnesium citrate orally,diluted in a liter of H2O(that I can shake up.....it usually dissolves more completely as the water gets down to room temperature) and/or Epsom salt baths prn. Vit. C and E. B12, melatonin 3mcg., and bioidentical hormones sublingually. Trace mineral drops. L-lysine. L-methylfolate=300 mcg. Totally ready for a good long window to hit soon and getting better strings of full days and partial days along the way. Definite improvement overall since I first arrived on the SA survivor ship. Herb and alcohol free since 5/15/2016.