servadei

☼ Servadei

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Ahh thank you!! I'm having a window now!!

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I wish you all the best too! May this window doesn't go to waste.

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Hey guys. So since friday I've been feeling a lot better. But all that stress left me with with severe derealization. Is that normal?,I've never had it that bad. My dreams feel more real. Please how long will this go on... It's so hard :( I'm not even sure if this is derealization or I'm really losing it. Everything feels so unreal and I feel drunk/drugged. If I fal deeper into this I won't be able to do amything. :(

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Feeling of derealization is normal in withdrawal. But it gets better. I'm month and a half off and it already got better. Be patient, it will pass

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Thamks, I guess I got scared because it was never this severe. I used to have it before but this is...whew...

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This happens naturally even outside withdrawal in the moments of great stress. Its brains natural coping mechanism

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Servadei,

 

How would you describe your derealization? Before I went on Lexapro, I would get it occasionally after being very anxious. It would only last for a few hours and then go away.

 

I have been off Lex for 10 months. At the end of month 8 I woke up one morning and it felt like a glass wall was in my vision. It's worse in the mornings and gets better in the evening but is always present. Though I do have my emotions for the most part except when it gets real bad I feel very out of it.

 

Anyway, not to hijack your thread hut just curious how you would describe yours?

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Uhh, Horns85, I feel detached, things I know, like my house or grandmas suddenly feels unfamiliar, everything looks 2D, i don't feel connections to nobody, i feel traped and really weird. Being human and my conciousness feels really weird etc. It' really bad in the morning when I wake up because my dreams feel more real, and I have real feelings in them, feelings I would have if I was normal. Sometimes I check my bed to see if I really woke up. Lol

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Dortheatos... I know, I had it before... But what about people who get it out of nowhere? Or people who have it for 10 years? I never understood that.

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Guys, I'm getting better every day. Still have weird thoughts, DR, chest pains, head throbbing, face tingling, ocassional constipation and dizziness.... but the eye pressure is gone. Everyday is different but I'm able to function almost normally.

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Brilliant news!

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Guys, I'm getting better every day. Still have weird thoughts, DR, chest pains, head throbbing, face tingling, ocassional constipation and dizziness.... but the eye pressure is gone. Everyday is different but I'm able to function almost normally.

Great, Servadei!

 

What kind of eye pressure did you experience?

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I don't know. M right side of the head really hurts and then the pressure in right eye starts.

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I don't know. M right side of the head really hurts and then the pressure in right eye starts.

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That sounds like the stress headaches I use to get.  They were caused by unnoticed tight back and neck muscles and responded well to massage and heating pads.  Worth a try.

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Hm yeah, I have couple of pinched nerves. Also my back hurts a lot, and my uncle told me my muscles are really stiff.

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Ahh it's not good again. Started with a small fight with a friend who is extremly rude and I endes up crying and having suic. thoughts. So much stress and I'm back with derealization now. Also feeling very irritable and angry. I don't know why. It's funny how, when you feel like this, you can't remeber anything good, onl bad memories :(

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Does anbody get this? I start to freak oit because I'm alive and conscious... Then everything becomes weird, like relationships, eating, walking and how world functions? Am i crazy? Oh and at the same time I'm afraid of eternity but I'm afraid of not existing anymore. I feel like nobody understands this and that this feelings are to weird to be fixed. Like I'm the only one who experiences life to be this weird and since nobody understands I'll be like this forever. :(

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Merged with your main intro topic as this relates to your personal journey.

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Oh okay...I hope somebody will see this. I wanted to see if anybody shares same expriences...

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Oh okay...I hope somebody will see this. I wanted to see if anybody shares same expriences...

 

Does anbody get this? I start to freak oit because I'm alive and conscious... Then everything becomes weird, like relationships, eating, walking and how world functions? Am i crazy? Oh and at the same time I'm afraid of eternity but I'm afraid of not existing anymore. I feel like nobody understands this and that this feelings are to weird to be fixed. Like I'm the only one who experiences life to be this weird and since nobody understands I'll be like this forever. :(

 

What you describe are the thoughts (ruminations) that attend anxious feelings.  In other words, it sounds like you are trying to make sense out of all the anxiety you feel.  You might benefit from talking therapy from someone you can sit down and talk with face to face.

 

There is more traffic in the Itro Section than any other part of the forum, so your chances of getting a response for this sort of question are greatest when you post to your Intro thread.

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Okay, thanks. To be honest I can't really talk about since I find it very hard to describe these feelings. And when I finally manage to I usually get blank looks. Heh

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This is what we mean when we say your nervous system is sensitized. The strong emotion of your argument caused your nervous system to over-react. See Neuro-emotion

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Yes, I read it. It doesn't bother me as much as it bothers me to be alive and human.

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I don't know what to do. Today we went to visit my grandma, driving for 4-5 hours was okay, I made it, but now that we are here everything feels weird. It's beautiful here, she lives in the mountains, the sea is also near but i feel so out of it. I have a big family and most of them live here but my mind won't give me a break. I feel nauseous and trapped. Like feeling of terror even though nothing's going to happen. I'm desperate, because yesterday afternoon and until I fell asleep i felt almost normal. Could it be because of the trip to different place? Also, I'm supposed to get my period in 4 days... Help please :( Everyone here is normal and happy and I can't explain to them how I feel. There are so many cool places to visit here but i don't have energy or will. :(

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I am so scared and I don't know whats going on. I just woke up. Ive never been this scared. I dont know what to do, this cant be real

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It's not real Servadei, it's just the drugs playing tricks on you.  Panic upon waking is a very common symptom, it will frequently ease up as the day goes on.  Try and ignore it as best as you can and go through the motions of enjoying being with your family and let the distraction take your mind off of the bad feelings.

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It wasn't morning it was middle of the night :(

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How the f can I feel so weird. This isn't even derealization anymore. I can't even describe what I feel, how is this even possible. Maybe I died and went to hell.

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I don't know what to do anymore. I can't take it. I don't belong here. Life isn't for more.

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I've always had suicidal thoughts. But now I feel I could really do it.

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I also experienced suicidal thoughts for the first time when withdrawing from prozac. In my case the thought was like : "I wouldn't care if I jumped out of hat window", it was not that I wanted to die, it was more that I didn't care enough to be scared of the idea of dying, I don't know it it's the same in your case.

 

I found that one thing that helps enduring withdrawal is thinking that i am doing it for someone. For me it is easier to think that I am doing it for someone rather than for me... 

 

I took my last dose of prozac more or less at the same moment as you, I also started my ADs trip last year and I think we are similar age. So feel free to send me a message for whatever you want :). you are not alone.

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I wouldn't kill myself but if i saw a train coming directly at me I wouldn't be scared. I also think that. I have a big family so they would probably be sad and wonder what they could've done. So if I'm already suffering at least they don't have to. I really wish I could feel like human again. DP and DR make my existence feel extremly unnatural. Like i try to imagine myself in some normal situations like faaling in love, marrying, having kids AND i can't. It feels unnatural

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Why do I feel so vulnerable? I think I'm going to burst when I think of my trip to Ireland next week. I'm so afraid and I don't know of what. Also, I want to be with my dad all the time (it's like being kid again). I've never felt like this since being little. I feel so afraid of life and I keep living in the past...so much mistakes I wish I could set right. What to do with this separation anxiety?

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Okay this is so weird and it's freaking me out. I get up in the morning very depressed, suicidal thoughts etc. but I think more clearly. Then in the afternoon/evening my face starts tingling. I feel very relaxed, but not in a good way. I feel drunk, slowed down and everything I did that day feels like a dream not a memory. This is freking me out. I become sooo tired until it's time for bed. I feel exhausted by 9pm but when I lay down my brain won't shut up. And I have the weirdest thoughts EVER. Last night I thought my trip to grandma was a dream. I'm going crazy.

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omg I can relate to this

 

everything I did that day feels like a dream not a memory.

 

For me, it is like a recent memory looks like a distant memory even when it happened some hours before.

 

For example when I think in the afternoon about what I did in the morning I feel like I did it some days ago, and not in the same day.

 

I think it is our brain changing faster than usual, so a few hours feels like days becuase our brain is not used to change so fast. (that's my theory)

 

And I also can relate to the slowed down feeling, and I prefer it rather than the restlessness feeling that I have sometimes

 

Hang in there servadei! it will take time but eventually it will get better

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