When JanCarol said the following: ‘We'd also love to hear any Non Drug Techniques for Coping with Emotional Symptoms you have been using to help you!’, the thought that came to mind was that I had no idea at all because for the past 4 yours it was as if I had been living in a no-man’s-land with hardly feeling anything, if not to say being completely numb.
However, when I read the post where Healing states: ‘The neuro-emotions include -- neuro-fear neuro-anger neuro-guilt neuro-shame neuro-hurt neuro-regret neuro-self-criticism neuro-grudge-holding ...’, I thought: Jesus, I have been living through them all.
I often wondered if I had done so many terrible things in my life that I had to live through all of these hellish emotions. I used to either withdraw myself from people or look for company depending on the emotion that became too overempowering. Now, looking back upon them, caused by the meds or not, I learned a lot from them. Crazy as it may sound, I can now empathically understand the terrible things that are going on in this world, what may cause them and how people are driven to so many harmful actions.
Around the age of 16, we had a school outing and visited a psychiatric ward. While we were being shown around, I felt deeply for the people who were hospitalized. I remember thinking: ‘I truly hope I will never end up here.’ So many years later, I experienced what it is like to be in an open psychiatric ward 4 times after going through two psychoses.
About 11 years ago, just before the first psychosis, I knew I wasn’t feeling myself and when my youngest daughter was doing her Holy Communion I prayed to God to give me the strength to overcome (although I didn’t understand at that moment) and lit a candle. He brought two wonderful dogs into my life who, for the past 4 years, have been my strength when I was too weak to leave the house and each time pulled me out to have a walk in Mother Nature who freely gave me of her energy. They also helped me to remember that they needed their daily food and that I needed to eat as well. He surrounded me with the people who all in their own way gave me what I needed to believe in myself, to never give up and to persevere. And He led me to three wonderful books that finally helped me to understand what I had been living through and gave me the answers I had semi-unconsciously been looking for in my life.
If you would like me to share these books with you, I am very happy to do so. I have two of them on pdf-file. The third book, however, is written in Dutch and there is no English translation. At the end of this book there is such a beautiful passage that I really would like to share with you as well but I will need to ask the publisher for permission if it were to be translated into English.