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  2. Jaffa

    Doctorsrcrap: can't cry and frustrated

    It seems that it does according to Alto who mentions b12 and fish oil in a post about preparing for psych drug withdrawal. That said, in my humble opinion, if you are eating well and getting good quality red meat and green veg, nuts and seeds and good fibre then vitamin deficiency shouldn't be too bad. I'm more inclined to think this is nerve pain but you could carefully try some vitamins to see if they help. Tumeric in large doses has some effect on inflammation. Have you tried an anti -inflammatory diet? Have you ever tried a ketogenic diet which is also anti inflammatory? Have a look at the work of Dr Chris Palmer. Just checking - is menopause or peri menopause a possibility. ? Please please hold on. I'm sure this is excruciating. Have you sought a second opinion ? Does the pain prevent you from sleeping? Im so sorry @Doctorsrcrap. I wish I could be more helpful.
  3. So is yours. Some days harder to be positive but this is what we have to work with…
  4. Drugs are just to run away from reality, pain and problems, that's what I did with Sertraline.
  5. I am sorry to read you're back in a wave, my friend. Your attitude is amazing, LostinCanada. Time and continued patience...
  6. Crochet

    Lecithin / phosphatidylcholine

    In 2023 I started taking high dose fish oil supplements and wheat germ oil. Within a week, I stopped waking up with fear moving through my body. This would happen during the night-time and upon waking in the morning. It was such a relief to not experience intense fear every day! Recently, I decided to try to dropping wheat germ oil and the waking fear came back. I think I might just stay on this supplement for the rest of my life! Anyway, I wondered why it had such an impact, so I did some looking. I'm undergoing something called the shoemaker protocol to treat chronic inflammatory response syndrome and came across this lecture on youtube: CIRS: Biotoxin Treatment Protocol - An Integrative Model (https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=7dPNjLhe2OY&t=684s) There is a slide that speaks to Neurolipid Therapy: “Phosphatidylcholine - repairs outer membrane and double lipid bilayer of mitochondria 1.8 grams BID Balance Oil 7:1 ratio Omega 6/3 - improve membrane fluidity Butyrate - SCFA beta oxidation of abnormal and long chain fats to ‘burn off’ from membrane Wheat Germ Oil - contains structural lipids to strengthen membrane" It sounds like Phosphatidylcholine and other supplements help to repair and strengthen cell membranes. There are communities out their doing this kind of therapy. I've seen it referred to as lipid replacement therapy, phospholipid therapy, and plasmalogen therapy. I've heard there are some facebook groups, but I haven't had a chance to check them out. I was already taking omegas 6's and 3's, wheat germ oil and butyrate, so I decided to add Phosphatidylcholine since they all have different functions. My sleep has improved. I used to wake up frequently in the middle of the night and then spend an hour or two before falling back asleep. I now still wake up in the middle of the night, but fall back to sleep easily. I currently take: Omaprem (green lipid mussel) - 2 capsules twice per day Biomega 500 - 3 capsules once per day Standard Process Wheat Germ Oil - 1 capsule twice per day BodyBio Sodium Butyrate - 1 capsule twice per day BodyBio PC (Phosphatidylcholine) - 1/2 teaspoon twice per day Hoping this info might help someone as much as it helped me!
  7. No one ever understood that my problem was trauma, my moral, relational and emotional injuries, what made me have all these reactions and be "dysfuntional", so because I lacked other's understanding I lacked other's moral and emotional support as well, and I had to face my moral, emotional and relational problem and trauma always on my own, alone. I need to recover the person I was before the psychiatric intervention, even if it needs to be updated, I need to recover my old and true identity. I'm slowly realizing what my old self wanted and needed, his objectives, etc, the more I reconnect with myself, the more I understand my true feelings and emotions. This society is emotionally stupid, so disconnected, some people calls it the emotional dark age.
  8. Tale

    Tale: My story

    This is awful. If only I could cut the nerves that connect my ears to my brain I could at least live in peace. But I have the worst neighbors that just keep dragging all their furniture every day all day long. It is 1 am and they keep making the loudest noise. What is wrong with them? This is unbearable. Most withdrawal symptoms are fine. This is just torture. Every time, I feel an intense feeling in my chest telling me to run away, but it is 1 am and if I leave my parents will be extremely worried. So I have no way to escape. So I am just traumatizing myself everyday and I don't want to do this anymore. I want to leave. What is the point of living like this? It's been months of the same everyday. How can sound hurt this much? Nothing helps. Nothing. I've tried everything except more drugs and I don't want to ever touch those things ever again. I just stay all day in bed covering my ears. My arms and ears hurt from doing that and it doesn't even stop the insanely loud noise they make. This is not living. What am I supposed to do? Keep living like I am about to die everyday for who knows how long? All while making my parents extremely worried about me? How am I going to heal under this amount of stress? I have no friends. No future. People told me I was very smart and I would do great things in life. I was so close to finishing university and I don't think it is possible without my arms. All my dreams have gone away just because of human greed. Gotta love it. I am not sure I will survive. Now I get the name of this forum.
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  10. I wouldn't. When you get to the really low doses the changes in the brain are much more profound. Everyone gets the temptation to go faster when things are going well, the important part is resisting the urge. I would go down to at least 0.1mg before considering jumping.
  11. I need to recover my spirit, my morale, my passion, my energy, all that I lost at the hospital, in 2017, and that got replaced by that false synthetic mental and emotional state. I lost all meaning when the psychiatric intervention happened and I got drugged.
  12. bastringue

    bastringue: Is my tapering strategy good?

    Hi, I have a question. I'm going on with the Brassmonkey method and am now down to 9.8 mg duloxetine and 0.8 mg amitryptiline. My question is concerning amitryptiline: would it be safe to go from 0.8 mg to 0 faster than what was expected? It's kind of pretty low dose. Or what about simply going on until 0.5 mg and then stopping?
  13. How do I walk and cook and do when we have this kind of pain . And terror . ? I was cooking and starting to clean and shower and I was even going to get my hair done . And then this zyorexa . And I couldn’t . I started to a little and then I got scared and panicked and Frustrated. And tired of waking w little sleep w burning brain . And all of it . Mom knows . She’s been helping me and she’s been here every day almost . But feels so helpless . It hurts her so much . Becaise I am not this person and I have gone through just too much . And I will not go on medicine again ever
  14. LostInCanada

    Jami: need help and advice

    @Jami this is an iatrogenic illness. An illness caused by doctors and drugs. It is no less than any other illness and maybe worse because there is no protocol on dealing with it. But the fact is you will heal and you have validation here. You have to be strong and think positively. Many have been worse and healed. You will too. Find things that are positive and distracting. Reading, games, cooking, a walk, music, write in a journal, anything.
  15. Congratulations on healing and being med free! Huge achievement! Hibari
  16. Thanks SurreyGuy. I hope your journey is going well..
  17. @Onmyway im so sorry to hear this. It really does knock the wind out of you, esp frusterating when it comes out of no where. Sending positive vibes your way.
  18. Still considering tapering up, especially when I have "bad" days - I had initially reinstated thinking I could live a little bit of a normal life for the wedding festivities but joke was on me for that. On the bright side, I can say that I haven't needed alcohol to have fun - which is a god send. Sometimes I do feel othered when out with friends and everyone else is drinking, but 90% of the time, I'm really fine in those situations. Leaving a note for myself mostly as I did try a few sips of people's beverages on Friday night of my bachelorette party, just to taste them, etc. I just sipped on a mocktail, and truly just tasted the other drinks, didn't take a large sip or anything. That night i felt SO ACTIVATED. I'd heard people describe this and honestly just thought they were much more sensitive or something, but after not having a drink since December 31st, a night that sent me into awful waves for a few weeks, I recognized the feeling right away. It was like my body and eyes were tired, and it was well past my normal bedtime, but my brain felt so alert and like it kept waking me up all night when I had fallen asleep. Truly a wild experience, and while it was uncomfortable, I'm also glad I had it because it reminded me I'm much too sensitive for anything like that for the time being, and also that I don't need it to have fun. I never thought i'd be living a sober life. I wouldn't say I was a lush or anything, especially not over the last 3 years, and I realllllly cut back my drinking once my partner went to grad school, but I still thought we'd enjoy wine together or a cocktail out occasionally - my father owns a liquor store! But after this experience with WD, it's just not worth it at all, and being sober is actually not as boring as I'd imagined it would be.
  19. Psychiatry desordered my mind so much, all what I've doing these past 3 years is reorder my mind and readjusting to the true reality. I just needed to be heard, seen, understood, validated, when I was at the hospital, before and after. Psychiatry destroyed my morale in the hospital, vicitmizing and traumatizing me and at the same time drugged me, deceiving me and my mind, creating this huge mental and emotional chaos, it is all so cruel. What I need to do to finish my recovery process is to finally accept is that my original problem never got away. But the good news is that I can fix my original problem, it always has been fixable, I just lacked the external social, moral and emotional support to do it.
  20. Lost in Canada … please god . ! I can’t breathe . I think I’m going crazy ! I think I’m going crazy . I have been so f gaslit from eveyone . And told so many things . And I have been through so much trauma w this . And it makes me doubt this ! It makes me doubt it when I wake up burning alive . I think I may take a clonidine . I can’t calm it down ! Omg . I’m sorry ! I can’t call down . I wish there was someone that can take me by the hand and say jami , please , this is wds and it always has been and I won’t suffer for life :! But my mom is dealing w my sister has stage four cancer . And my dad didn’t want to believe me . And I haven’t spoken to him in almost a year ! Parents aren’t married anymore . And I can’t call my sister the one person that I always called ! And I can’t be there for her Becaise I don’t know how to take care of myslef w this . What I’m the hell happemed here . I am sorry I will let u go now . Thank u do much for being here for me all day long !
  21. mariamisery

    mariamisery: Can I survive this withdrawal?

    Yes losing my mind. When I say quiet I mean I am not jumping off walls but body feels like it wants to. This is a new feeling just today. So difficult to navigate.Trying to distract. I was not built for this
  22. LostInCanada

    Jami: need help and advice

    The best thing you can do is heal. Don't change the Prozac. Be resolved to stay the course. Try to do some CBT. There are many free online courses as well as books at the library. Look at Claire Weekes Help and Hope for your nerves. Listen to some of her YouTubes. You are definitely dealing with WD. Now just heal. It takes acceptance, patience, kindness and time.
  23. BaccatePlayer

    mariamisery: Can I survive this withdrawal?

    Like I said you don't even need to fall asleep. Even if you just lied down and spend a while with closed eyes this frees your brain from a few processes like coordination, walking, interpreting seen images. Anxiety may even be omnipresent because you know that inside you there is a constant change. Changing and adapting into something new is mysterious. You are tense and alerted because this is one of the states your body can be in and your CNS is yet to figure out when it should be and when not. Sentesized system simply overreacts. Maybe you were in a crowd room lately and it's a delayed response, maybe you were feeling lonely but didn't notice, maybe you thought of your last wave and your mind tried to fixate in it hoping it'll figure out a way to prevent it. It's a valid feeling, accept it because like you said "this is something new" and we naturally are scared of something we don't control or recognize. Good luck!
  24. This is a worthy topic. I am currently finding it difficult to tread the right path between “looking after myself” - taking time out from work, taking care not to exhaust myself, avoiding the news which tends to fuel these awful feelings of being unsafe, avoiding social situations that might be difficult etc - and living my normal life. I do not think it is at all healthy to identify with the condition. I sometimes wonder if I would regard myself as being essentially better - but with difficult periods still - if I hadn’t learned about PWS. Perhaps I would be living a far more expansive life again by now. On the other hand, not knowing about it in the past has kept me on the ADs for years and has nearly landed me with additional diagnoses and more medication. I would strongly encourage people not to identify with their PWS as best they can. I think this includes be wise about how you use this excellent forum.
  25. BaccatePlayer

    mariamisery: Can I survive this withdrawal?

    This is a bit complicated cause it may mean many things. Feeling like you're gonna collapse? Yes, it's common. You may be feeling so week that you couldn't believe you are still standing. Feeling like you are dying? Yes, I was sure this will happen during first panic attack and at some point before falling asleep. But you mentioned feeling like you're going mad, so I suspect you mean "losing it" as "losing control over yourself". This may be on the depersonalization spectrum or you feel your thoughts keep narrowing and you can't access something in your mind, like forcefully being expelled from some paths in your mind. I experienced all of it and yes, it is powerful enough so that you feel you wouldn't be able to break past it. Quiet? Depends on severity. Mines were not quiet, but these are normal emotional rockets during recovery and will neither harm you nor stay like that forever.
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