Eleven10: 30 months off Prozac

[thecowisback]

Reading eleven10's posts is heartbreaking. I hope she finds some relief soon 😢😢

[Rosetta]

I really hope this works for you, Eleven10.  All fingers crossed!

[Eleven10]

Iv started at 2mg in liquid. I read a story on Dr Healy’s risk website about a lady who reinstated Prozac after a while. It initially made things much worse but then when she got up to 30mg she found relief and was back to normal functioning. 

 

I dont know if 2 is too high or not high enough. 

 

[jonnypeters1234567]

how long was the person in withdrawal for?

[Eleven10]

6 months which I know is nowhere near 5 years but she had many of the same symptoms I have.

[jonnypeters1234567]

is it working?

[Eleven10]

I’m taking 2mg of Prozac a day and not feeling any worse but no better. In the story I read the lady did not get any real relief until she got 30mg but I’m scared to increase too much.

im having terrible tinnitus but it’s been around since the start and iv had times it’s been this bad before so trying not to blame the Prozac. 

My sleep is still a torturous experience every night. Cannot sleep longer than 1.5 hrs without waking with horrible vivid dreams. My ears scream when I wake. 

 

Praying I get relief as I’m on the edge 

[jonnypeters1234567]

Have you had signs of your pre-med self come back?

[Eleven10]

I don’t really remember my pre med self but I did have quite bad depression 

[jonnypeters1234567]

I see. do you have periods that you feel like you are still on the drug?

[jonnypeters1234567]

As i do and it freaks me out

[Eleven10]

No never. Wish I did I was very happy on Prozac 

[SkyBlue]

E, what are you taking now? Please update your signature so we know where you're at. 

[Eleven10]

Yes I will. I’m taking 2mg prozac

 

What I have never been able to work out is that if I sleep more I feel much more depressed teary and dizzy. 

Last night I slept 7 hrs with 3 awakenings and woke up feeling so down, iv always been slow in a morning but it has taken me two hrs to make a cup of tea. I have vertigo and headache pounding as usual and a shower is out of the question. I don’t have the energy to turn the faucet on.

 

i don’t believe in the chemical imbalance rubbish but I do believe I have always had low seratonin levels. Being on Prozac for so long then coming off CT has made it much much worse. 

 

The only thing that has slightly improved over the years is the sensory over stimulation. There was a time I couldn’t look out the window at the trees. It was all too green too big too stimulating to my brain.  I still have constant light sensitivity which is oddly worse when it’s cloudy to sunny but I can look at views. 

 

I beat myself up about what I have done to myself. People say withdrawal is not dangerous but it is. It can be deadly and even if you survive if you have it long term the insomnia, depression and inflammation will increase the risk of many conditions such as dementia, heart disease, diabetes etc. 

I used to run 25 miles a week have a resting heart rate of 53, work full time and be an excellent mum. 

It is scary what withdrawal and it’s legacy has done to my body and mind. 

 

 

 

 

 

 

[jonnypeters1234567]

did you have moments of pyscosis, where you feel detached from reallity? with very low mood with no fear of anything?

[Eleven10]

I had terrible DP when I first stopped Prozac. I still get it but not as bad. I would  often go for walks in remote places not really caring what happens. I feel very very numb 

[jonnypeters1234567]

Is it DP is it? feel like i turn into someone else. Think its stress induced?

[Eleven10]

Your still you, stress does weird things to the brain. I got to the point where I just accepted it. I remember sitting in the drs office one day feeling like I was flying around the room and he was talking to my body still sat in the chair. 

[TikkiTikki]

Eleven10 I'm praying this works for you. Stay safe.

[jonnypeters1234567]

I hope you find some relief soon

[Eleven10]

thank you. It has to work I cannot stand to be this desperately unhappy anymore. I just want to laugh again. 

[Eleven10]

If I have a reaction to Prozac what am I looking for. I already feel so terribly ill how would I know. For example before I tried the 2mg I could have days of brain burn where I would be completely unable to function in anyway. The last two mornings I have had bad cortisol/adrenaline surges but I don’t want to put this down to the Prozac as I would get them before. 

I absolutely despise this drug and what it has done to me but I need to feel relief.

im still on 2mg of liquid which is 0.5 ml as 20mg is 5ml I hoped iv worked that out right. 

Dont know if to go to 4ml

god I’m so scared 

[jonnypeters1234567]

akathisia id say

[Eleven10]

I had that for the first year off. If I got that again I’m checking out. That is the one symptom that would push me over. 

[jonnypeters1234567]

ive got it bad. citalopram works on dopamine alot more than other ads so mine is bad

[jonnypeters1234567]

Did you keep rapid cycling between personallities? 

[Eleven10]

No not personalities just moods 

[marconyc]

Hi Eleven10,

 

I'm so sorry you've gone through this for so long, and I admire your stamina. You deserve relief. Are you able to see a therapist? If you can afford it and have the time and energy to do it, therapy might be helpful. My therapist has been enormously helpful throughout many difficult periods in my life, including the antidepressant withdrawal I'm going through now. Like you, I have been beating myself up for trying to come off of my antidepressant, and therapy has helped me stop doing that as much. I've come to realize that my desire to stop taking meds wasn't reckless; it was reasonable. And my psychiatrist didn't explain any of the risks. It's not your fault that these drugs are so difficult to discontinue. The public has very little information about withdrawal, and psychiatrists are criminally ignorant of the risks. 

 

 

[powerback]

Im strongly thinking of a prozac bridge myself Eleven10 ,I had a 10 hour sleep last night and its done nothing for me today ,out getn fresh air and falling asleep I am .

.take great care .

[Eleven10]

I’m worried about kindling taking such a low dose. God I wish that I could have tried the lamotregiene better but I had no support from my dr and could not afford a private script. 

 

[TikkiTikki]

How are you tolerating it so far? Any change?

[Eleven10]

5 days at 2mg. Going to 5mg Monday.

im very activated but I’m pretty sure that’s not the Prozac. The last two nights iv had adrenaline surges at the begging and if of the night. I did not get to sleep until 1.30am then woke regularly until 8am

 

i think the surges may be fear more than meds as a few weeks ago after a bill I couldn’t pay arrived I had the same surges.

They had been a constant for the first 3 years but then started to Peter out.

 

im exhausted and feel very desperate 

 

i really dont don’t know if I’m doing the right thing messing with a drug that has caused so much pain, maybe because of some genetic vulnerability that will never change. It’s all unknowns but I cannot carry on how I was. Life was not worth living. The pain truly outweighed the hours relief I got here and there. Plus my health was suffering.

 

fingers crossed I have done the right thing 

 

 

[powerback]

36 minutes ago, Eleven10 said:

5 days at 2mg. Going to 5mg Monday.

im very activated but I’m pretty sure that’s not the Prozac. The last two nights iv had adrenaline surges at the begging and if of the night. I did not get to sleep until 1.30am then woke regularly until 8am

 

i think the surges may be fear more than meds as a few weeks ago after a bill I couldn’t pay arrived I had the same surges.

They had been a constant for the first 3 years but then started to Peter out.

 

im exhausted and feel very desperate 

 

i really dont don’t know if I’m doing the right thing messing with a drug that has caused so much pain, maybe because of some genetic vulnerability that will never change. It’s all unknowns but I cannot carry on how I was. Life was not worth living. The pain truly outweighed the hours relief I got here and there. Plus my health was suffering.

 

fingers crossed I have done the right thing 

 

 

You are far from alone in your desperation eleven10,I hope you get your peace and relief .

Be safe .

[Eleven10]

Thank you powerback 

[powerback]

50 minutes ago, Eleven10 said:

Thank you powerback 

Of course your welcome E ,I get you about the panic surges ,I cant even look at some things but I always try get around to it before things mount up too badly .what a pain hey .

I need to go physio and im trying to book online and my brain is saying no youl be too tired for it but i have to,the knots I can feel in my kneck and shoulders fuzeing badly from stress .

Take care.

[Eleven10]

Very anxious tonight. Keep getting waves of anxiety in my stomach.

very dizzy as well.

tried to talk to my friend on the phone but was too exhausted to speak. 

If there’s a god he needs to give me a break.5 years is too long