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Hello everyone, 

I'm having an awful hard time with Lexapro withdrawal. I was under a lot of stress a little over two years ago and was put on 10 mg Lexapro in August 2015. About a month on them I met an amazing man! After only a couple months of being together I knew he was the one and we were making plans to get married within the next year and couldn't wait to start our lives together. About 8 months later my life was still amazing and I didn't think I needed pills anymore so I made the biggest mistake of my life and quit them cold turkey. I woke up about a month later and that's when my nightmare started. I completely felt like I lost feelings for my boyfriend/soon to be husband overnight. I can't explain it, it was like I knew he was the same person but I couldn't feel anything when I looked at him and being around him just didn't even feel right. We had moved in together about 3 months before that. It has been 18 months since that day and the feelings have still not returned. I'm really looking for any advice on this. How long has ssri withdrawal lasted for some of you? Did your feelings come back even when you felt they wouldn't? I know I'm probably asking questions that can't be answered but I'm desperate and I'm losing hope. I don't even know what to do anymore. 

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sadandconfused

Hello everyone, I know everyone is different. I was just wondering how long I should expect the anhendonia from quitting Lexapro cold turkey 18 months ago. My main problem is not feeling anything for my boyfriend who I was so so in love with before the withdrawal. I'm so devastated, I feel like things should be looking up. Should I be discouraged that the feelings aren't back? I was only on pills for 9 months. I feel so lost right now :( please tell me your experiences with withdrawal and if it affected your relationship. Thanks in advance. <3

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MiguelFreeman
On 13/12/2017 at 4:23 AM, sadandconfused said:

Hello everyone, I know everyone is different. I was just wondering how long I should expect the anhendonia from quitting Lexapro cold turkey 18 months ago. My main problem is not feeling anything for my boyfriend who I was so so in love with before the withdrawal. I'm so devastated, I feel like things should be looking up. Should I be discouraged that the feelings aren't back? I was only on pills for 9 months. I feel so lost right now :( please tell me your experiences with withdrawal and if it affected your relationship. Thanks in advance. <3

hi Post this on your introduction post it will help the admins helping you 

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RealMe
On 12/12/2017 at 11:23 PM, sadandconfused said:

Hello everyone, I know everyone is different. I was just wondering how long I should expect the anhendonia from quitting Lexapro cold turkey 18 months ago. My main problem is not feeling anything for my boyfriend who I was so so in love with before the withdrawal. I'm so devastated, I feel like things should be looking up. Should I be discouraged that the feelings aren't back? I was only on pills for 9 months. I feel so lost right now :( please tell me your experiences with withdrawal and if it affected your relationship. Thanks in advance. <3

How are you doing?

 

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sadandconfused
On 12/31/2017 at 11:11 AM, RealMe said:

How are you doing?

 

Hello, I'm doing okay. I've had a very off past couple days and I'm sure it's the depression from withdrawal. Something seems seriously wrong with my brain :( all I wanna do is sleep, I have no motivation and that's awful when you have to still work full time. 

How are you doing? 

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RealMe
14 minutes ago, sadandconfused said:

Hello, I'm doing okay. I've had a very off past couple days and I'm sure it's the depression from withdrawal. Something seems seriously wrong with my brain :( all I wanna do is sleep, I have no motivation and that's awful when you have to still work full time. 

How are you doing? 

Hi sadandconfused,

Have you been able to go to work?  I was retired when I withdrew from Abilify and Trintellix, and I couldn't even make my bed or get dressed.  If my husband didn't take over, I don't know what would have happened to me.  That was before I found out about tapering.  I had no motivation and all I could do was sleep or wish for the end.  I have a little motivation now, but my main motivation is just to recover from withdrawal symptoms.  I spend a lot of time on the computer and watching television to escape.  I used to be very active and interested in things.  Now you could give me a million dollars, and I would trade it in a second for healing.

 

You seem young, and I've read that young people recover more readily from AD withdrawal.  I was touched by your feelings of worry about not loving your boyfriend.  I haven't experienced not loving my husband, but I have felt an awful lot of guilt about being depressed and irritable and just not doing loving things for him and letting him take over so many of my responsibilities.  Today I tried to be extra attentive at dinner time.  He is very supportive, but he is frustrated and worried that he cannot seem to help me feel better.  As I progress with this withdrawal, I can occasionally act a little more cheerful, but I can quickly turn to a cranky complainer or a ball of crying helplessness.  Today I had a bit of a window, and I am so grateful.

 

In the beginning I would write down the little things I was able to accomplish.  It encourages me when I am able to do even small things despite feeling unmotivated and so tired.  Today I went to the eye doctor, went to the store and took one of my grandchildren to piano lessons.  I called a few friends and made an easy dinner for me and my husband.  This was definitely a good day.

Thanks for responding to me, and best wishes for continued healing,

RealMe

 

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sadandconfused

Hi everyone, 

I know there's definitely not a quick fix or "cure" for withdrawaling from an antidepressant, but I was wondering if there was anything that could help ease the anhendonia or speed up the process? 

Any natural supplements, foods, diet or exercise? 

I know it's a long shot, I'm just wondering if it's only time that will heal this or I can be doing anything to help myself out. 

Thanks in advance! 

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scallywag

sadandconfused, I've moved your post about withdrawal remedies to the Introductions Forum so that more people will see your question.

 

What non-drug techniques are you using to cope with symptoms?

 

Supplements: Many people have reported difficulty with supplements during withdrawal probably because of a sensitized or destabilized CNS (central nervous system). We have found that most -- but not all -- people tolerate magnesium and omega 3 fatty acids. Both can be helpful.  Pick one or the other and start with a small amount.

Omega-3 fatty acids (fish oil).

Magnesium, nature's calcium channel blocker.

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Altostrata

sadandconfused, I merged other topics you started on the "what should I do" theme here.

 

Please review this topic, you've gotten many good suggestions. apathetic and ShakeyJerr went out of their way to counsel you.

 

Please also post your updates and "what should I do?" questions here rather than in the Symptoms or Relationships forums.

 

If you want to discuss your emotional anesthesia in Relationships, please add to the existing topic you started there, do not start a new topic. Thank you.

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ChessieCat

I've merged the new topic you created with the other topic you created in the Relationships area.  Alto previously requested that you DO NOT START A NEW TOPIC.

 

On 1/28/2018 at 2:28 PM, Altostrata said:

sadandconfused, I merged other topics you started on the "what should I do" theme here.

 

Please review this topic, you've gotten many good suggestions. apathetic and ShakeyJerr went out of their way to counsel you.

 

Please also post your updates and "what should I do?" questions here rather than in the Symptoms or Relationships forums.

 

If you want to discuss your emotional anesthesia in Relationships, please add to the existing topic you started there, do not start a new topic. Thank you.

 

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ChessieCat
16 minutes ago, sadandconfused said:

Thank you! Yes I'm tapering off very very slow and right now I'm at .5 mg. I'm close to being off but I definitely don't wanna rush it 

 

Please add your current dose to your signature.  Thank you.

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Gridley

sadandconfused,

 

Congratulations on getting down to .5mg.  You are right not to rush it.  This link has helpful information regarding when to jump off to zero.

 

 

 

 

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sadandconfused

Hey guys, 

it has been brought to my attention that I haven't been good about replying to messages or responding to my forums when I ask a question. I wanna go ahead and apologize for this. I've been extremely scatterbrained and obsessing about this withdrawal like crazy, I truly appreciate everyone on this site and advice that I've been given. I realize it's selfish of me to keep posting looking for answers while everyone else on here is having just as much of a hard time as I am. Thank you for everything you all have done, it really does mean a lot. 

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Gridley

It's okay, s&c.  Let it go.

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sadandconfused

My boyfriend told me he's sick of this pill situation and basically that we're gonna have to figure out something soon. Meaning we either get married while I am unsure about my feelings or we break up and I risk losing the love of my life. He made it very clear how he's over it and two years has been long enough for the withdrawal. I do all I can to show him these stories on here and tell him it just takes time to recover but he said he's not buying it anymore. As if I wasn't already depressed enough over the loss of feelings and now this.. I just don't get what the point of life is right now. I'm tired. I just wanna be happy again and I forgot what that even feels like. I hate my life right now and I hate these pills. I don't know what to do anymore 

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Itzakadoozee
43 minutes ago, sadandconfused said:

My boyfriend told me he's sick of this pill situation and basically that we're gonna have to figure out something soon. Meaning we either get married while I am unsure about my feelings or we break up and I risk losing the love of my life. He made it very clear how he's over it and two years has been long enough for the withdrawal. I do all I can to show him these stories on here and tell him it just takes time to recover but he said he's not buying it anymore. As if I wasn't already depressed enough over the loss of feelings and now this.. I just don't get what the point of life is right now. I'm tired. I just wanna be happy again and I forgot what that even feels like. I hate my life right now and I hate these pills. I don't know what to do anymore 

Well I know for a fact seeing as I’m living it that healing takes a damn long time. 

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sadandconfused
On 5/3/2018 at 11:48 PM, Itzakadoozee said:

Well I know for a fact seeing as I’m living it that healing takes a damn long time. 

 

I know. How long have you been dealing with this? I'm so scared cause I can't really feel the feelings but I know I don't wanna lose him. I would never forgive myself if I lost the love of my life because of some pills. This is so miserable. 

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Itzakadoozee
4 hours ago, sadandconfused said:

 

I know. How long have you been dealing with this? I'm so scared cause I can't really feel the feelings but I know I don't wanna lose him. I would never forgive myself if I lost the love of my life because of some pills. This is so miserable. 

Going on a full two years and I’m feeling worse then ever. But it’s my fault because I keep on binge drinking and feeling like poo. It’s hard not to drink because I used to drink all the time. I start to feel a little better and want to drink and socialize then BOOM! Back in hell again.

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Itzakadoozee
4 hours ago, sadandconfused said:

 

I know. How long have you been dealing with this? I'm so scared cause I can't really feel the feelings but I know I don't wanna lose him. I would never forgive myself if I lost the love of my life because of some pills. This is so miserable. 

Don’t worry anyways because I’ve had at least three “loves of my life”anyway , and if you lose him you’ll get another one.

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Justcope
On 10/22/2016 at 2:18 AM, sadandconfused said:

 

 

Hi everyone, I'm not sure if people still get on this site but I really hope so cause my story is similar to many I've read on here. I started nursing school last fall and was very stressed and I was put on lexapro 10mg.

 

About a month later I met an amazing guy. I absolutely adored him and we were head over heels for each other. About 7 months later we were making wedding plans and even talked about having kids not too far after.

 

I decided to stop taking lexapro because I was so beyond happy and didn't think I needed them anymore. I quit cold turkey. Which I knew was bad but I thought I could handle it.

 

I was okay for a while and then about a month later I can't explain what happened. It was like something in my brain literally snapped And I woke up one morning thinking I didn't love him anymore and questioning how I really felt about him. To say it was awful would be an understatement. I spent the next two days in bed crying and vomiting from panic. It was so bad.

 

I finally one day broke down and told my mom the feelings I had been having, and she didn't understand and was trying to figure out what was going on. My whole family knew I was crazy in love with him and this just didn't make any sense.

 

It's been 3 months since then and my feelings will come and go. Some days it's almost back to the old feelings where I know I wanna grow old with him but the next day I'll wake up crying and not wanna get out of bed. I seriously do not know what's going on in my body right now. I just want to be completely in love with him again. This is the most gut wretch in and heartbreaking thing I think I have ever gone through. This is not me. I just hope it's my head trying to get balanced out and once it does everything will go back to normal.

 

Any advice or words would be great. I would not wish this on anyone but it does give me some hope reading other people who have had the same issues with this drug. Thanks so much in advance!

Oh how I sympathise with you. I’ve had the same issue- this all came out since tapering off Lexapro. I can see your post is from 2016. I’m curious to see how you’re doing now. 

I really do think was a withdrawal issue... 

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