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The importance of others

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Asjf   
Asjf

For me one of the greatest challenges in WD is that suffering can breed a very deep self-centeredness.

 

I've struggled a lot with being very self-concerned around my condition and almost obsessive about my recovery.

 

The big problem with this is that the self-centeredness itself is largely what causes the actual suffering.

 

The happiest and most peaceful times in my life have been as such because I've been able to foster compassion, empathy and connectedness with others--being concerned with the affairs and well being of others.

 

Yet ironically, at this time in my life when I'm most desperately seeking some sort of peace and happiness, I'm also the most compelled to be completely self-concerned and so wrapped up in my 'affliction' that I'm often completely oblivious to the needs and feelings of others--which would/could be my most powerful pathway to the peace and happiness I so desire.

 

I mean, I get it, it makes sense that one would become particularly self-centered in a time when one's basic survival is threatened; it's as though our animal brain is programmed to be that way.

 

Yet it is a horribly flawed solution, because I know that my actual survival in this world depends so strongly on my literal and sensical connectedness with others--not obsessive rumination over my own predicament.

 

Notice when reading the various posts on the various forums that us 'psych med survivors' frequent, that quite often the people who are seemingly suffering the most consistently and horribly are the ones who are also seemingly the most self-obsessed??

 

I don't think it's a coincidence.

 

I'm not judging btw--I've BEEN that guy many times in the past. And I also realize the importance of balancing 'self care' with caring for others.

 

I just needed this reminder and feel it's useful sharing it here as it might be a useful thing for others to ponder as well.

 

I'm interested in your own perspective should you feel like sharing....

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ShakeyJerr   
ShakeyJerr

You make some great points here, ASJF.

 

The pain we are going through does make us focus inward. But for me, I find that it has also made me more focused outward. The reason for that is, when I was on the meds, I was a complete ass most of the time, very self-righteous and self-centered (and mean and angry). Off of the meds, I am gentle and kind and concerned and loving.

 

Unfortunately, the symptoms of our condition do often find me seeking things - comfort and concern and prayer - from other people a lot.

 

I try to balance it out by consciously asking people about their own cares and concerns, and by spending part of my prayer efforts on praying for others. That has helped me be more connected, and in turn has had a positive effect on their lives and on mine.

 

Sadly, when a symptom spike hits, I tend to go into attention-seeking mode, looking for understanding and relief - and that can drain other people, especially the ones closest to me.

 

So it is a balance. We need to be conscious of it. As I have been saying since withdrawal began - "I didn't have a chemical imbalance until I took these medications - and now I need my body to find its balance."

 

Key to that is balancing our own concerns with those of the people in our lives.

 

SJ

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Asjf   
Asjf

I often feel concern about the impact I'm having on those closest to me when symptoms (waves) appear. I've been in WD for 2.5 years and I know that those who love me sometimes wonder when this dramatic roller-coaster is going to end. I'm very grateful for the unconditionally loving people in my life. I think a lot of the time I'M more concerned then they are of my journey's impact on them.

Thanks for your beautiful post ShakeyJerr.

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miT   
miT

Others are very important in my process. But only the ones who really know me, the ones I don’t have to pretend with. I’ve had many spats with people that are not in that comfort zone. Like some people experiencing a wave will seek comfort with others, I tended to seek fights with people who don’t even know me. Before the drugs I’ve never ever been like that. When in pain you’re really a different person. You do acts that cause harm to yourself and others to release yourself from your pain, which it never does.

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