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when i was growing up we always had a pretty 'blah' Christmas - my mother was quite 'bah humbug' and that feeling of not liking something about Christmas is sort of embedded in me - i love it but have this weird dread about it as well.

 

Our church hosts a lunch on Christmas day for anyone who wants to come - we normally get a couple of hundred people coming for a roast lunch. The last couple of years my husband and I went along to help serve and clean up because our kids were far and wide. This Christmas we had them home so we didn't go.

Started in 2000 - On 150mg most of the time, (but up to 225mg at highest dose for 6 months in the beginning)
Reduced off easily first time - but got depressed (not too much anxiety) 6 months later
Back on effexor for another 9 months.
Reduced off again with no immediate w/d - suddenly got depressed and anxious ++ again 3 or 4 months later.
Back on effexor - this time for 3 years
Reduced off over a month - 6 weeks later terrible anxiety - back on.
Rinse and repeat 4 more times - each time the period before the anxiety comes back got shorter and shorter
Jan - July 2012 75mg down to 37.5mg;, 8/3/12 - 35mg. 8/25/12 - 32mg. 9/11- 28mg, 10/2 - 25mg, 10/29 - 22mg, 11/19 - 19.8mg; 12/11 - 17m,
1/1- 15.5mg; 1/22 -14mg, 2/7 14.9mg, 2/18 - 17.8mg - crashed big time: back to 75mg where i sat for 2 years....

4th  March 2015 - 67.5mg;   31st March - 60mg;  24th April - 53mg; 13th May - 48mg; 26th May - 45mg;  9th June - 41mg; 1 July- 37.5mg; 20 July - 34mg; 11 August - 31mg; 1st Sept - 28mg;  1st Dec - 25.8mg;  28th Dec - 23.2mg; 23rd Jan-21.9mg; Feb 7th- 21mg; March 1st - 20.1mg, March 30th - 18mg

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I've had a wonderful time volunteering at holiday meals for the needy.

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Jemima,

 

What have you done for Christmas in past years?

 

I honestly can't remember much except for a few times when an older couple invited me to their home along with another single woman and a few Christmas dinners at a local Mennonite church that were actually held on Christmas Day. (Many of the charity Christmas dinners in this area are held on days other than Christmas, which I think is really shabby, sending a clear message that attendees aren't good enough to come to the family table on the actual holiday).

 

When I was a kid, Christmas Day was always so very special. I'm an only child from a small family where most of my aunts and uncles never had children, so I was the star of the show. My mother was a dang good cook, too, so just dinner by itself was quite the treat.

 

I marked planning for the holidays on my calendar for November 1, 2013. No more of this.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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when i was growing up we always had a pretty 'blah' Christmas - my mother was quite 'bah humbug' and that feeling of not liking something about Christmas is sort of embedded in me - i love it but have this weird dread about it as well.

 

Our church hosts a lunch on Christmas day for anyone who wants to come - we normally get a couple of hundred people coming for a roast lunch. The last couple of years my husband and I went along to help serve and clean up because our kids were far and wide. This Christmas we had them home so we didn't go.

 

There's a church about six miles away that has had a community dinner on Christmas day every year since I've moved here (Y2K), but this year the organizer of that event got very sick right after she pulled off a huge Thanksgiving dinner, and the "Christmas" dinner was held on December 19th. See above. Bah, humbug.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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I've had a wonderful time volunteering at holiday meals for the needy.

 

I considered that, but I serve dinner at a soup kitchen every Thursday afternoon, so serving dinner on Christmas wouldn't have been very special for me. Selfish, yes, but once in a while I need to have someone treat me as special.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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Do you like spas, Jemima? A few years ago on a holiday I was alone, I treated myself to a day at a spa resort that I'd wanted to try for years. A hideout for Hollywood set. It felt good after the initial sticker shock guilt wore off. ;)

 

Maybe I'll do some pre-planning, too. Perhaps we need a discussion of how to treat and pamper ourselves in the future. Think outside the box of traditional holiday dinners..

Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc).

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Christmas was just me and DH ... exchanged some gifts in the AM. For Christmas dinner we had homemade lasagne. (No one said you HAD to have a full course turkey dinner for Christmas dinner :lol: ).

 

I have a friend whose children are grown ups and live on their own ... she and her DH always go to a tropical resort for Christmas ... this year she went to Mazatlan. She keeps her tan going year round :rolleyes: .

 

Another friend used to live in Florida and would go to Disney World every Christmas.

 

I like the idea of planning, that way you don't float into the holiday will possible expectations that disappoint. I think it is good advice to mark your calendar to begin planning November 1.

 

Love and light,

Karma

2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax

200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg
Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg;

1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg
Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor


I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers

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Do you like spas, Jemima? A few years ago on a holiday I was alone, I treated myself to a day at a spa resort that I'd wanted to try for years. A hideout for Hollywood set. It felt good after the initial sticker shock guilt wore off. ;)

 

Maybe I'll do some pre-planning, too. Perhaps we need a discussion of how to treat and pamper ourselves in the future. Think outside the box of traditional holiday dinners..

 

I'm really not into spas or related luxuries. I even hate going to the hair stylist.

 

I did think of something, though. There's a book about retreats in North America, many of them located in monasteries, so I ordered it from Amazon and will look through it sometime during the year before the holidays. (I considered just going away this year, but my cat sitter has been too sick to drive for a couple of months). It would be wonderful to find a monastery that has a special Christmas celebration.

 

Weird, huh? Well, so be it. I AM weird.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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Christmas was just me and DH ... exchanged some gifts in the AM. For Christmas dinner we had homemade lasagne. (No one said you HAD to have a full course turkey dinner for Christmas dinner :lol: ).

 

I have a friend whose children are grown ups and live on their own ... she and her DH always go to a tropical resort for Christmas ... this year she went to Mazatlan. She keeps her tan going year round :rolleyes: .

 

Another friend used to live in Florida and would go to Disney World every Christmas.

 

I like the idea of planning, that way you don't float into the holiday will possible expectations that disappoint. I think it is good advice to mark your calendar to begin planning November 1.

 

Love and light,

Karma

 

Your Christmas sounds lovely. I wouldn't care what's on the dinner menu. It's the idea of making the day special and preferably sharing it with someone I love that I miss so much.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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I think going to a retreat that has a special Christmas celebration sounds really nice.

 

In the fall I tried an online meditation challenge through the Chopra Center ... I noticed that they have meditation weekends, but I didn't see anything scheduled for Christmas. I think something like that would be a nice change from the hectic, commercialized event that Christmas seems to have become. Being around like-minded people could be heart-warming as well.

 

Warm wishes for a happy, healthy new year!

 

Love and light,

Karma

2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax

200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg
Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg;

1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg
Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor


I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers

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Thank you, Karma, and may the New Year bring you healing and peace.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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Christmas was just me and DH ...

 

Without hijacking the thread, Jemima, here's my question for Karma. Who is the DH? What does this mean? Dsomething husband? Designated Hitter?

"Well my ship's been split to splinters and it's sinking fast
I'm drowning in the poison, got no future, got no past
But my heart is not weary, it's light and it's free
I've got nothing but affection for all those who sailed with me.

Everybody's moving, if they ain't already there
Everybody's got to move somewhere
Stick with me baby, stick with me anyhow
Things should start to get interesting right about now."

- Zimmerman

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In my house...Dufus Husband.

 

I'm wallflowering with ya on NYE, Jemima.

 

This WILL be a better year.

Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc).

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Dufus Husband - that's great!

 

Usually means Dear Husband on internet forums....

 

I love the idea of a retreat or going away for something special at Christmas.

Started in 2000 - On 150mg most of the time, (but up to 225mg at highest dose for 6 months in the beginning)
Reduced off easily first time - but got depressed (not too much anxiety) 6 months later
Back on effexor for another 9 months.
Reduced off again with no immediate w/d - suddenly got depressed and anxious ++ again 3 or 4 months later.
Back on effexor - this time for 3 years
Reduced off over a month - 6 weeks later terrible anxiety - back on.
Rinse and repeat 4 more times - each time the period before the anxiety comes back got shorter and shorter
Jan - July 2012 75mg down to 37.5mg;, 8/3/12 - 35mg. 8/25/12 - 32mg. 9/11- 28mg, 10/2 - 25mg, 10/29 - 22mg, 11/19 - 19.8mg; 12/11 - 17m,
1/1- 15.5mg; 1/22 -14mg, 2/7 14.9mg, 2/18 - 17.8mg - crashed big time: back to 75mg where i sat for 2 years....

4th  March 2015 - 67.5mg;   31st March - 60mg;  24th April - 53mg; 13th May - 48mg; 26th May - 45mg;  9th June - 41mg; 1 July- 37.5mg; 20 July - 34mg; 11 August - 31mg; 1st Sept - 28mg;  1st Dec - 25.8mg;  28th Dec - 23.2mg; 23rd Jan-21.9mg; Feb 7th- 21mg; March 1st - 20.1mg, March 30th - 18mg

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Jemima,

Regarding comment on Nikki's thread:

 

"...I get outright suicidal on tetracycline. It doesn't help at all to know that the drug is causing the depression."

 

Have you always reacted to tetracycline this way? I've known of quinolone CNS effects, but not other antibiotics. Disturbing.

Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc).

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Yes, Peggy ... in my case it means Dear Husband :D

Karma

2007 @ 375 mg Effexor - 11/29/2011 - 43.75 mg Effexor (regular) & .625 mg Xanax

200 mg Gabapentin 2/27/21 - 194.5 mg, 5/28/21 - 183 mg, 8/2/21 - 170 mg, 11/28/21 - 150 mg, 4/19/22 - 122 mg; 8//7/22 - 100 mg; 12/17 - 75mg; 8/17 - 45 mg; 10/16 40 mg
Xanax taper: 3/11/12 - 0.9375 mg, 3/25/12 - 0.875 mg, 4/6/12 - 0.8125 mg, 4/18/12 - 0.75 ; 10/16 40mg;

1/16 0.6875 mg; at some point 0.625 mg
Effexor taper: 1/29/12 - 40.625 mg, 4/29/12 - 39.875 mg, 5/11/12 - Switched to liquid Effexor, 5/25/12 - 38 mg, 7/6/12 - 35 mg, 8/17/12 - 32 mg, 9/14/12 - 30 mg, 10/19/12 - 28 mg, 11/9/12 - 26 mg, 11/30/12 - 24 mg, 01/14/13 - 22 mg. 02/25/13 - 20.8 mg, 03/18/13 - 19.2 mg, 4/15/13 - 17.6 mg, 8/10/13 - 16.4 mg, 9/7/13 - 15.2 mg, 10/19/13 - 14 mg, 1/15/14 - 13.2 mg, 3/1/2014 - 12.6 mg, 5/4/14 - 12 mg, 8/1/14 - 11.4 mg, 8/29/14 - 10.8 mg; 10/14/14 - 10.2 mg; 12/15/14 - 10 mg, 1/11/15 - 9.5 mg, 2/8/15 - 9 mg, 3/21/15 - 8.5 mg, 5/1/15 - 8 mg, 6/9/15 - 7.5 mg, 7/8/15 - 7 mg, 8/22/15 - 6.5 mg, 10/4/15 - 6 mg; 1/1/16 - 5.6 mg; 2/6/16 - 5.2 mg; 4/9 - 4.8 mg; 7/7 4.5 mg; 10/7 4.25 mg; 11/4 4.0 mg; 11/25 3.8 mg; 4/24 3.6 mg; 5/27 3.4 mg; 7/8 3.2 mg ... 10/18 2.8 mg; 1/18 2.6 mg; 4/7 2.4 mg; 5/26 2.15mg; 8/18 1.85 mg; 10/7 1.7 mg; 12/1 1.45 mg; 3/2 1.2 mg; 5/4 0.90 mg; 6/1 0.80 mg; 6/22 0.65 mg; 08/03 0.50 mg, 08/10 0.45 mg, 10/05 0.325 mg, 11/23 0.2 mg, 12/14 0.15 mg, 12/21 0.125 mg, 02/28 0.03125 mg, 2/15 0.015625 mg, 2/29/20 0.00 mg - OFF Effexor


I am not a medical professional - this is not medical advice. My suggestions are based on personal experience, reading, observation and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers

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Jemima,

Regarding comment on Nikki's thread:

 

"...I get outright suicidal on tetracycline. It doesn't help at all to know that the drug is causing the depression."

 

Have you always reacted to tetracycline this way? I've known of quinolone CNS effects, but not other antibiotics. Disturbing.

 

I was able to take tetracycline when I was younger. The first incident of depression from the drug happened in my late forties. I was going through an upsetting period in my life and blamed my feelings on the circumstances at first, but the mood lifted when I was done with the course of antibiotic. Then it happened a second time.

 

I've always tended to get lots of side effects from drugs. Too bad Lexapro didn't make me sick immediately.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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I agree with you, Jemima, recovery has been a test of my ability to learn about myself. Good to hear you're doing so well.

 

It's still difficult to be patient though, at least for me. I know that with time and insight and intelligent action my sad and fearful feelings will abate and that someday life will be better (or at least different), but it's still so difficult not to get all uptight because it isn't happening fast enough.

 

It occurred to me on my way home from soup kitchen tonight that I'm probably catastrophizing my feelings on top of having them. As in: "OMG!!! I feel sad! This has to stop IMMEDIATELY or surely I will die! AGH! HELP!" I'm really starting to think that this is the emotional 'logic' behind some of my emotional reactions. I seem to be terrified of feeling bad. :blink:

 

I totally understand where you are coming from. One of the hardest parts for me during the worst of my AD WD was not getting swept up how long it will take along with not looking at some imagines future especially from a place where I'm not doing well because the imagined future from that spot is horrific.

 

Being terrified for negative feelings is actually very normal. Buddhism speaks about that and how we avoid suffering. I don't see buddhism as a religion BTW but as a practical coping tool, which I feel is what it was meant to be when Buddha shared it thousands of years ago. Basically we do whatever we can to avoid pain and suffering in any form and see pleasure. Acceptance of feeling bad when you feel bad and just allowing it to be as it is seems to help it pass and minimize suffering. That was a hard lesson I had to learn 20+ years ago while going through PTSD after being assaulted. Bad days seemed to rule and when I was taught to just accept them and say to myself 'ok, this is a bad day, accept it. Now do something that keeps me from thinking about it.' those bad days passed much more quickly and I suffered less because my mind wasn't preoccupied all that time on the bad day. They started flying by and the better days came more often while the bad diminished.

 

Being terrified of suffering is really quite normal. Often we don't even notice things we do or the great lengths we go to in order to avoid suffering. It's acceptance that this is part of life and to just accept the suffering that helps it pass because I think it releases tension and stress that come with the terror or fear. Just my 2 cents on it anyway.

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I totally understand where you are coming from. One of the hardest parts for me during the worst of my AD WD was not getting swept up how long it will take along with not looking at some imagines future especially from a place where I'm not doing well because the imagined future from that spot is horrific.

I agree. Staying in the present moment as much as possible and telling myself that I have no idea what the future will bring (often over and over) helps a lot. And truly, things hardly ever turn out the way I think they will.

 

Being terrified for negative feelings is actually very normal. Buddhism speaks about that and how we avoid suffering. I don't see buddhism as a religion BTW but as a practical coping tool, which I feel is what it was meant to be when Buddha shared it thousands of years ago. Basically we do whatever we can to avoid pain and suffering in any form and see pleasure. Acceptance of feeling bad when you feel bad and just allowing it to be as it is seems to help it pass and minimize suffering. That was a hard lesson I had to learn 20+ years ago while going through PTSD after being assaulted. Bad days seemed to rule and when I was taught to just accept them and say to myself 'ok, this is a bad day, accept it. Now do something that keeps me from thinking about it.' those bad days passed much more quickly and I suffered less because my mind wasn't preoccupied all that time on the bad day. They started flying by and the better days came more often while the bad diminished.

 

Being terrified of suffering is really quite normal. Often we don't even notice things we do or the great lengths we go to in order to avoid suffering. It's acceptance that this is part of life and to just accept the suffering that helps it pass because I think it releases tension and stress that come with the terror or fear. Just my 2 cents on it anyway.

 

It's interesting that you bring that up today. I woke up feeling really low and came to a point where I thought, "Okay, I'm depressed. That's just the way it is, and maybe this will go on for a while and maybe it won't." I felt better immediately. I need a lot of practice with this, but just accepting the feelings works much better than struggliing against them. And realistically, no one is happy all the time or even a lot of the time.

 

I really appreciate your caring and your advice. I will likely come back and re-read this post for many days to come.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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I totally understand where you are coming from. One of the hardest parts for me during the worst of my AD WD was not getting swept up how long it will take along with not looking at some imagines future especially from a place where I'm not doing well because the imagined future from that spot is horrific.

I agree. Staying in the present moment as much as possible and telling myself that I have no idea what the future will bring (often over and over) helps a lot. And truly, things hardly ever turn out the way I think they will.

 

Being terrified for negative feelings is actually very normal. Buddhism speaks about that and how we avoid suffering. I don't see buddhism as a religion BTW but as a practical coping tool, which I feel is what it was meant to be when Buddha shared it thousands of years ago. Basically we do whatever we can to avoid pain and suffering in any form and see pleasure. Acceptance of feeling bad when you feel bad and just allowing it to be as it is seems to help it pass and minimize suffering. That was a hard lesson I had to learn 20+ years ago while going through PTSD after being assaulted. Bad days seemed to rule and when I was taught to just accept them and say to myself 'ok, this is a bad day, accept it. Now do something that keeps me from thinking about it.' those bad days passed much more quickly and I suffered less because my mind wasn't preoccupied all that time on the bad day. They started flying by and the better days came more often while the bad diminished.

 

Being terrified of suffering is really quite normal. Often we don't even notice things we do or the great lengths we go to in order to avoid suffering. It's acceptance that this is part of life and to just accept the suffering that helps it pass because I think it releases tension and stress that come with the terror or fear. Just my 2 cents on it anyway.

 

It's interesting that you bring that up today. I woke up feeling really low and came to a point where I thought, "Okay, I'm depressed. That's just the way it is, and maybe this will go on for a while and maybe it won't." I felt better immediately. I need a lot of practice with this, but just accepting the feelings works much better than struggliing against them. And realistically, no one is happy all the time or even a lot of the time.

 

I really appreciate your caring and your advice. I will likely come back and re-read this post for many days to come.

 

I'm glad I could help. This technique for lack of a better word got me through the worst of PTSD over 20 years ago after I was assaulted. A friend who was going to the same counseling center shared the acceptance bit with me and it was the most powerful think I'd ever learned. Still is when I come back to it. I think it works so amazingly well because the minute we accept life as is, we release all that tension, stress and fear. We can then calm and that helps put us immediately on a path to a smoother day. When we fight against them it builds more tension and stress and fear. That is counterproductive. It reminds me of that saying 'release your burden' though I think the saying is meant to be used differently, I find that it fits quite appropriately here.

 

I'm just glad something I offered could help you through a rough day. All these little things add up to a much better healing journey.

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Hey Jemima....

 

Is it exactly a year now that you have been off Lexapro? And, how are you feeling?

 

 

Trust me on this one.....after a year off the Big L, you will turn a corner and there will be less of the anxiety/depression. When issue crop up and they do you may have the Neuro-emotions

I did. But they do go away.

 

Work on yourself. Eat healthy, rest, play, exercise, meditate, find something that takes you away (something you love, painting, etc.).

 

Try to give it as little of your attention as you can. Tell it to go away, I don't have time for you anymore......

 

Wishing you all the best. What you did was Big B)

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Paxil 1997-2004

Crossed over to Lexapro Paxil not available

at Pharmacies GSK halted deliveries

Lexapro 40mgs

Lexapro taper (2years)

Imipramine

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Now Nefazadone/Imipramine 50mgs. each

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Hey Jemima....

 

Is it exactly a year now that you have been off Lexapro? And, how are you feeling?

It's a bit more than a year. I had my last crumb of Lexapro on December 14, 2011, although the really hairy, disabling side effects didn't happen until weeks later.

 

Trust me on this one.....after a year off the Big L, you will turn a corner and there will be less of the anxiety/depression. When issues crop up and they do you may have the Neuro-emotions. I did. But they do go away.

Things do seem to be better, although I'm not where I'd like to be. My sense of humor has come back, the neuro-emotions are fewer, and I've experienced some windows of feeling truly myself again, not just improved. I'm still having trouble getting interested in the things I used to like, but considering how my very draining job kept me from those things for years, perhaps I've just plain changed. I seem to want to be with people a lot more now that I don't have to put up with really aggravating examples of humanity five days a week.

 

Work on yourself. Eat healthy, rest, play, exercise, meditate, find something that takes you away (something you love, painting, etc.).

 

I'm doing those things, although finding that something that takes me away seems elusive right now.

 

Try to give it as little of your attention as you can. Tell it to go away, I don't have time for you anymore....

Working on that, too. I have a Kindle book titled The Power of Now by Eckhart Tolle that helps people stay in the present, which I think will help and some more books on that subject are on the way from Amazon. I so tend to ruminate and get anxious about the future, never mind I can't possible know what it holds.

 

Wishing you all the best. What you did was Big B)

 

Thank you, Nikki. Your thoughtfulness, kind words, and friendship mean a lot.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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Today I had the biggest window of normalcy that I've had since jumping off Lexapro in mid-December of 2011. I felt like I used to feel when I had a few days off from work - content and looking forward to working on a personal creative project.

 

I don't know what triggered what, but I've been thinking about getting some adult coloring books to ease back into painting or some sort of fine art or craft, and while I was looking at adult coloring books on Amazon today I came across a book on doing original artwork with Crayolas. It really turned me on, and nothing much has turned me on for the past year+.

 

I went out and took a walk before splurging and came back still feeling good despite the weather being gray, cold, and damp, and placed an order for four cheap adult coloring books, a pack of 150 Crayola crayons with a tower-style holder and carrying case, and the book on using crayons. The window lasted a good four to five hours and gave me hope that I will be myself again in the near future. (I also have a book on the way called Escape Adulthood: 8 Secrets from Childhood for the Stressed-Out Grown-Up. Reading the excerpts on Amazon gave me a sense of peace).

 

I don't know how long it will take for me to be me consistently again, but I'll sleep a lot better tonight knowing that it's going to happen. And this time around, I will appreciate it a lot more. :)

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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That's wonderful! I hope it happens very soon for you!

2006-Cymbalta 60mg for lyme disease2009-Quit Cymbalta c/tFeb. 2010-Reinstated 60mg CymMar.2010 to May.2012 tapered Cym to 36mgMay 2012-Crossed over to 30mg CelexaMay 2012-Oct.2013 Tapered Celexa down to 2.5mgOct.2013-Switched to 30 beads CymbaltaDec.4,2013-Stopped Cymbalta at 17 beads<p>Akathisia hit at 6 wks off and continuesNow taking melatonin when needed for sleep.

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YAY!!

Pristiq tapered over 8 months ending Spring 2011 after 18 years of polydrugging that began w/Zoloft for fatigue/general malaise (not mood). CURRENT: 1mg Klonopin qhs (SSRI bruxism), 75mg trazodone qhs, various hormonesLitigation for 11 years for Work-related injury, settled 2004. Involuntary medical retirement in 2001 (age 39). 2012 - brain MRI showing diffuse, chronic cerebrovascular damage/demyelination possibly vasculitis/cerebritis. Dx w/autoimmune polyendocrine failure.<p>2013 - Dx w/CNS Sjogren's Lupus (FANA antibodies first appeared in 1997 but missed by doc).

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That's brilliant and your book sounds great I'm going to have a look at that

 

Hope it's onwards and upwards from here

 

Well done

 

Dalsaan

Please note - I am not a medical practitioner and I do not give medical advice. I offer an opinion based on my own experiences, reading and discussion with others.On Effexor for 2 months at the start of 2005. Had extreme insomnia as an adverse reaction. Changed to mirtazapine. Have been trying to get off since mid 2008 with numerous failures including CTs and slow (but not slow enough tapers)Have slow tapered at 10 per cent or less for years. I have liquid mirtazapine made at a compounding chemist.

Was on 1.6 ml as at 19 March 2014.

Dropped to 1.5 ml 7 June 2014. Dropped to 1.4 in about September.

Dropped to 1.3 on 20 December 2014. Dropped to 1.2 in mid Jan 2015.

Dropped to 1 ml in late Feb 2015. I think my old medication had run out of puff so I tried 1ml when I got the new stuff and it seems to be going ok. Sleep has been good over the last week (as of 13/3/15).

Dropped to 1/2 ml 14/11/15 Fatigue still there as are memory and cognition problems. Sleep is patchy but liveable compared to what it has been in the past.

 

DRUG FREE - as at 1st May 2017

 

>My intro post is here - http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/2250-dalsaan

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My thanks to the cheering section! Love you! :D

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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I haven't posted in some time because I seem to be stuck and am feeling very discouraged about getting past this emotional numbness. There have been a few hours here and there when I felt calm and content, but I just can't seem to stay in that place. I know that I need to get out more with people and do some things that aren't pleasant, such as my taxes and setting up a new computer, but I just can't seem to get motivated by much of anything. I could have gone to a women's Bible study tonight, but I just didn't feel up to a big group setting.

 

I seem to be going through one of those times that so many of us experience, thinking that withdrawal symptoms will never end. In my head, I know things will get better, but it doesn't feel that way right now.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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Sending you a cyber hug tonight and a. :-)

I can relate to not wanting to go out into the crowd if you just don't feel like a crowd or chit chat.

 

please don't beat yourself up over it today.

A time will come for you look forward to this..... and I hope a time will come for me also.

 

Judy

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I am very sorry....but maybe you did the right thing tonight. A few years ago, I pushed myself to go to a Bible study in spite of my depression. I was asked to tell my life story....and quite an interesting story I told. Some things are better kept at home, but I hope you are out and about soon. Meimeiquest

1st round Prozac 1989/90, clear depression symptoms. 2nd round Prozac started 1999 when admitted to dr. I was tired. Prozac pooped out, switch to Cymbalta 3/2006. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder due to mania 6/2006--then I was taken abruptly off Cymbalta and didn't know I had SSRI withdrawal. Lots of meds for my intractable "bipolar" symptoms.

Zyprexa started about 9/06, mostly 5mg. Tapered 4/12 through12/29/12

Wellbutrin. XL 300 mg started 1/07, tapered 1/18/13 through 7/8/13

Oxazepam mostly continuously since 6/06, 30mg since 12/12, tapered 1.17.14 through 8.26.15

11/06 Lithium 600mg twice daily, 2.2.14 400mg TID DIY liquid, 2.12.14 1150mg, 3.2.14 1100mg, 3.18.14 1075mg, 4/14 updose to 1100mg, 6.1.14 900 mg capsules 7.8.14 810mg, 8.17.14 725mg, 8.24.24 700mg...10.22.14 487.5mg, 3.9.15 475mg, 4.1.15 462.5mg 4.21.15 450mg 8.11.15 375mg, 11.28.15 362.5mg, back to 375mg four days later, 3.4.16 updose to 475 (too much going on to risk trouble)

9/4/13 Toprol-XL 25mg daily for sudden hypertension, tapered 11.12.13 through 5.3.14, last 10 days or so switched to atenolol

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Jemima, I can relate to that feeling well. I have been practising not making a judgement about how i am actually feeling - be it good or not so good. One of the principles in mindfulness is not to try to hang on to the good any more than not trying to get rid of the bad - it is whatever it is. WOW, I wish i could be more consistent with it - but that is another unhelpful thought!!

 

This morning when i was meditating, i was imagining all my little serotonin receptors being upregulated - i imagined them all in a row lying down and gradually standing up LOL.

Started in 2000 - On 150mg most of the time, (but up to 225mg at highest dose for 6 months in the beginning)
Reduced off easily first time - but got depressed (not too much anxiety) 6 months later
Back on effexor for another 9 months.
Reduced off again with no immediate w/d - suddenly got depressed and anxious ++ again 3 or 4 months later.
Back on effexor - this time for 3 years
Reduced off over a month - 6 weeks later terrible anxiety - back on.
Rinse and repeat 4 more times - each time the period before the anxiety comes back got shorter and shorter
Jan - July 2012 75mg down to 37.5mg;, 8/3/12 - 35mg. 8/25/12 - 32mg. 9/11- 28mg, 10/2 - 25mg, 10/29 - 22mg, 11/19 - 19.8mg; 12/11 - 17m,
1/1- 15.5mg; 1/22 -14mg, 2/7 14.9mg, 2/18 - 17.8mg - crashed big time: back to 75mg where i sat for 2 years....

4th  March 2015 - 67.5mg;   31st March - 60mg;  24th April - 53mg; 13th May - 48mg; 26th May - 45mg;  9th June - 41mg; 1 July- 37.5mg; 20 July - 34mg; 11 August - 31mg; 1st Sept - 28mg;  1st Dec - 25.8mg;  28th Dec - 23.2mg; 23rd Jan-21.9mg; Feb 7th- 21mg; March 1st - 20.1mg, March 30th - 18mg

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Hi Jemima

 

I think you made a good decision for yourself not going to bible group. And I wouldn't engage in anything that is taxing, including your tax! Again I would frame this as making a good decision for yourself

 

Can you think of some little activities that you can do which are pleasant, calming and non stressful

 

I'm thinking of things like going out in the sun and just enjoying its warmth for a while. Going to a pet shop and patting the puppies/kittens, doing something new, inviting someone over for a cup of tea, losing yourself in some music, watching a feel good film, planting a small herb garden. Things that distract but also contribute positively to your wellbeing without adding a burden emotionally of physically

 

You are a wonderful, generous and courageous person. I love your contributions here and hope you have a turn for the better soon.

 

Take care

 

Dalsaan x

Please note - I am not a medical practitioner and I do not give medical advice. I offer an opinion based on my own experiences, reading and discussion with others.On Effexor for 2 months at the start of 2005. Had extreme insomnia as an adverse reaction. Changed to mirtazapine. Have been trying to get off since mid 2008 with numerous failures including CTs and slow (but not slow enough tapers)Have slow tapered at 10 per cent or less for years. I have liquid mirtazapine made at a compounding chemist.

Was on 1.6 ml as at 19 March 2014.

Dropped to 1.5 ml 7 June 2014. Dropped to 1.4 in about September.

Dropped to 1.3 on 20 December 2014. Dropped to 1.2 in mid Jan 2015.

Dropped to 1 ml in late Feb 2015. I think my old medication had run out of puff so I tried 1ml when I got the new stuff and it seems to be going ok. Sleep has been good over the last week (as of 13/3/15).

Dropped to 1/2 ml 14/11/15 Fatigue still there as are memory and cognition problems. Sleep is patchy but liveable compared to what it has been in the past.

 

DRUG FREE - as at 1st May 2017

 

>My intro post is here - http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/2250-dalsaan

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Jemima,

 

Just hang on, there has to be a rainbow somewhere. We all get that discouraged feeling from time to time.

 

I'm very sorry you're feeling this way.

 

Sending you love and hugs!

 

Thanks, Tezza. I know I have to just accept where I am and move on from here, but that's easier said than done!

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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Sending you a cyber hug tonight and a. :-)

I can relate to not wanting to go out into the crowd if you just don't feel like a crowd or chit chat.

 

please don't beat yourself up over it today.

A time will come for you look forward to this..... and I hope a time will come for me also.

 

Judy

 

Thanks, Judy. You picked right up on one of my main problems, which is beating up on myself for not doing things (supposedly) just right. I have to remember that I'm the center of no one's universe except my own and that people will get along without me just fine.

 

There have been times when I've looked forward to this group and enjoyed it, so I guess I'm just on a bad wave at the present.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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I am very sorry....but maybe you did the right thing tonight. A few years ago, I pushed myself to go to a Bible study in spite of my depression. I was asked to tell my life story....and quite an interesting story I told. Some things are better kept at home, but I hope you are out and about soon. Meimeiquest

 

Thanks for the good wishes, Meimeiquest. My Bible study group doesn't get very personal, but I think I would have been uncomfortable just the same.

Psychotropic drug history: Pristiq 50 mg. (mid-September 2010 through February 2011), Remeron (mid-September 2010 through January 2011), Lexapro 10 mg. (mid-February 2011 through mid-December 2011), Lorazepam (Ativan) 1 mg. as needed mid-September 2010 through early March 2012

"Never attribute to malice that which is adequately explained by stupidity." -Hanlon's Razor


Introduction: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1588-introducing-jemima/

 

Success Story: http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/6263-success-jemima-survives-lexapro-and-dr-dickhead-too/

Please note that I am not a medical professional and my advice is based on personal experience, reading, and anecdotal information posted by other sufferers.

 

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