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mammaP
9 hours ago, Dabhob33 said:

I’m feeling extremely suicidal.   Called the hotlines.   Not sure what to do.   Hospital?   I’m afraid of hospital.  Feel trapped.  

Keep calling, it is important to talk to someone, face to face if possible.  This will pass, I've been there and come out the other side. Get through today, don't worry about tomorrow, face it when it arrives.  You will get through this.  

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Dabhob33
11 minutes ago, mammaP said:

Keep calling, it is important to talk to someone, face to face if possible.  This will pass, I've been there and come out the other side. Get through today, don't worry about tomorrow, face it when it arrives.  You will get through this.  

Thank you mammaP.  Benzo taper/wd really is rough.  (Trying not to carastrophize).    Did you taper benzos? 

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Altostrata

It's not just Valium -- any benzo, including LIBRIUM can caused a paradoxical reaction, also depression and suicidality.

 

Did you reduce the evening Valium to 5mg as we discussed?

 

 

Please keep reminding yourself you are feeling the effects of the drugs. This will change. Hang in there.

 

Let's discuss your benzo dosing here

 

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16 minutes ago, Altostrata said:

It's not just Valium -- any benzo, including LIBRIUM can caused a paradoxical reaction, also depression and suicidality.

 

Did you reduce the evening Valium to 5mg as we discussed?

 

 

Please keep reminding yourself you are feeling the effects of the drugs. This will change. Hang in there.

 

Let's discuss your benzo dosing here

 

Thank you.  I did drop the .5 valium last night.  

I will refuse to switch to librium.  

 

I want to reduce the valium.  Just unsure of the pace.  I know we have a conversation going with Shep on the Benzo side.   I’d like to put a plan in place.   Just not sure how to go about doing it.    

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Let's talk with Shep.

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Dabhob33

5/24/18

12 - woke up - panic - burning pain over body - 

325mg Tylenol 

3 - woke panic

430 - woke panic 

6 - woke - anxious 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

9 - 450mg Lithium

9 - feeling very suicidal today.  I don’t want to die, but can’t cope with the pain.  Worried about wd and the pain.  Verrrry anxious / Heavy head / agitation / short temper / feeling overall awful today.   Burning feet.    Contemplating going to the hospital 

12 - lunch 

2 - pick up Syd and go to doctor 

Feeling hopeless...just want a glimmer of hope.  Can’t stop ruminating. 

6 -  feeling awful.  Nervous about sleep tonight

730 - 162mg Tylenol   In pain . 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

10 - sleep

5/25/18

1215 - woke

230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain

445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet

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Dabhob33

I’m so sick of all the negativity surrounding the benzo taper/wd I’m going through.   I have the horror stories stuck in my head about how devastating it is.   I feel as if I have ptsd, I’m worried so much.  There are people who are working through their taper, taking care of their family.  I have this belief that everyone is on the verge of killing themselves bc of their symptoms.   I have myself so worked up.  Unbelievable.  I hope others going through this are finding peace.  I’m just done with the negativity.  

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Altostrata

Benzo withdrawal is no picnic, but we have many people here who have done it. You can find just about anything on the Web. There are many people out there who were not very systematic in their tapers and had a bad result.

 

Slow and gradual will work. You are having a bumpy time right now, hang in there.

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5/25/18

1215 - woke

230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain

445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

Doze and wake in panic 

9 - 450mg Lithium

9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head

12 - lunch 

1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time.  Feeling extremely suicidal still.   Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs.   

6 -  pizza - ugh

730 - 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

10 - sleep

5/26/17

3 - woke

6 - woke - some anxiety in chest

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5/25/18

1215 - woke

230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain

445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

Doze and wake in panic 

9 - 450mg Lithium

9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head

12 - lunch 

1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time.  Feeling extremely suicidal still.   Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs.   

6 -  pizza - ugh

730 - 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

10 - sleep

5/26/17

3 - woke

6 - woke - some anxiety in chest

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5/25/18

1215 - woke

230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain

445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

Doze and wake in panic 

9 - 450mg Lithium

9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head

12 - lunch 

1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time.  Feeling extremely suicidal still.   Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs.   

6 -  pizza - ugh

730 - 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

10 - sleep

5/26/17

3 - woke

6 - woke - some anxiety in chest

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5/25/18

1215 - woke

230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain

445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

Doze and wake in panic 

9 - 450mg Lithium

9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head

12 - lunch 

1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time.  Feeling extremely suicidal still.   Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs.   

6 -  pizza - ugh

730 - 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

10 - sleep

5/26/17

3 - woke

6 - woke - some anxiety in chest

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5/26/17

3 - woke

6 - woke - some anxiety in chest 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

9 - 450mg Lithium

Fatigued / heavy head

Charlie had friends over to play basketball 

12 - lunch 

730 - 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

11 - sleep

5/27/18

12 - woke - anxiety

3 - woke - anxiety 

5 - woke - anxiety in chest

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Carmie
On 5/25/2018 at 9:59 PM, Dabhob33 said:

I’m so sick of all the negativity surrounding the benzo taper/wd I’m going through.   I have the horror stories stuck in my head about how devastating it is.   I feel as if I have ptsd, I’m worried so much.  There are people who are working through their taper, taking care of their family.  I have this belief that everyone is on the verge of killing themselves bc of their symptoms.   I have myself so worked up.  Unbelievable.  I hope others going through this are finding peace.  I’m just done with the negativity.  

 

Hey Dabhob, 

 

So sorry you have a lot of anxiety at the moment. 

 

Yes, reading all the horror stories can take its toll. There are some good articles and threads on this site though that can help us to keep coping. Some things people write are so relatable as everyone is going through this same process.

 

I read the article entitled Victim Mentality by Apathetic today. It’s under Symptoms n Self Care. It was really good if you want to check it out.

 

Hang in there my fellow survivor

 

 

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2 minutes ago, Carmie said:

 

Hey Dabhob, 

 

So sorry you have a lot of anxiety at the moment. 

 

Yes, reading all the horror stories can take its toll. There are some good articles and threads on this site though that can help us to keep coping. Some things people write are so relatable as everyone is going through this same process.

 

I read the article entitled Victim Mentality by Apathetic today. It’s under Symptoms n Self Care. It was really good if you want to check it out.

 

Hang in there my fellow survivor

 

 

 

 

Thank you so much Carrmie!  I will look up the article right now. 

All the best to you!   I’m head to listen...

 

 

 

 

 

 

5/25/18

1215 - woke

230 - woke 162mg Tylenol pain

445 - woke - extremely anxious in chest and feet 

8  - breakfast - valium 5mg / eye drops /  omega / probiotic

Doze and wake in panic 

9 - 450mg Lithium

9 - heavy anxiety in chest and heavy head

12 - lunch 

1 - worst I’ve felt in a looong time.  Feeling extremely suicidal still.   Fatigued. Feel trapped by benzo wd and depression and physical pain from last 2 yrs.   

6 -  pizza - ugh

730 - 

9 - lithium 225mg 

10 - 5mg valium 

10 - sleep

5/26/17

3 - woke

6 - woke - some anxiety in chest

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