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Good grief!

How functional are you now? Did you ct?

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Also, I wanted to add, I have been very angry at the NP who haulted my Lexepro cold turkey and put me on Effexor, and oversaw an Ativan taper that was much too rapid.

I saw her yesterday, as I needed an RX for the Ativan. I noticwd her demeanor had softened since last i saw her. The pridefullness was gone. Surprisingly, she told me that she saw I was depressed but was AFRAID to even recommend meds to me. So, at least she recognizes that my experience is valid. This is huge!

Also, she gave me the title of a book to read about overcoming depression naturally. Whether it proves useful is irrelevant. She told me not to pay her for the visit, but to instead use the money to buy the book she thought would help me. She made an attempt to correct her wrongdoing. She also informed me that she is closing her practice, which has only been open a short time, which she says is for health reasons, but I believe she has been very disturbed by the outcome of my experience and the part she knows she played in it.

As I left towards the door in tears, she took both of my hands in hers and began to pray for me. Then she hugged me and told me she cared about me.

This is a gift from God. An opportunity for forgiveness. An opportunity for healing.

That is an incredible. Actually, she is probably ready to practice now.

1st round Prozac 1989/90, clear depression symptoms. 2nd round Prozac started 1999 when admitted to dr. I was tired. Prozac pooped out, switch to Cymbalta 3/2006. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder due to mania 6/2006--then I was taken abruptly off Cymbalta and didn't know I had SSRI withdrawal. Lots of meds for my intractable "bipolar" symptoms.

Zyprexa started about 9/06, mostly 5mg. Tapered 4/12 through12/29/12

Wellbutrin. XL 300 mg started 1/07, tapered 1/18/13 through 7/8/13

Oxazepam mostly continuously since 6/06, 30mg since 12/12, tapered 1.17.14 through 8.26.15

11/06 Lithium 600mg twice daily, 2.2.14 400mg TID DIY liquid, 2.12.14 1150mg, 3.2.14 1100mg, 3.18.14 1075mg, 4/14 updose to 1100mg, 6.1.14 900 mg capsules 7.8.14 810mg, 8.17.14 725mg, 8.24.24 700mg...10.22.14 487.5mg, 3.9.15 475mg, 4.1.15 462.5mg 4.21.15 450mg 8.11.15 375mg, 11.28.15 362.5mg, back to 375mg four days later, 3.4.16 updose to 475 (too much going on to risk trouble)

9/4/13 Toprol-XL 25mg daily for sudden hypertension, tapered 11.12.13 through 5.3.14, last 10 days or so switched to atenolol

7.4.14 Started Walsh Protocol

56 years old

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Agreed!!!! Amazing how just a bit of humility can do so much.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Good grief!

How functional are you now? Did you ct?

I have good days and bad days. I did cold turkey.  See my history there is lots to read at the bottom of any of my messages.  I still have digestive issues and a stomach that looks like I am expecting a baby any day. Sleep issues are changeable depends on the day.  I can fall asleep three times in an hour one day... and go a few nights with 4am wake up calls or go to sleep at 4am it is a mixed bag.

I am not taking any psych drugs however I find a lot of drugs have strange affects on me. Bad reactions and I am very hypersensitive in the neurological front ..most of my problems with drugs are related to psych issues blood flow issues and neurological issues or a mixed bag of all.

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Thank you for your reply btdt. I now see your history, I was using my phone, and could not see it. Are you able to work? I've read some of your thread. I can't read too much as the computer light overstimulates me right now got too long. But, how are you mentally? It looks like you have improved a great deal. I'm just looking for some light at the end of the tunnel.. Thanks for sharing.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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This is a question for Alto, or anyone else who had any experience.

I have been having responses to food. Some of which I started having while on ssri.

1) can you start to WD from an ssri while still on it? I started getting more and more depressed the last year I was on Lexepro and I'm realizing that's when the food intolerances started.

2) also, the reactions I get now from some food are very mood related, like I feel like I'm on opiates and I'm irritated and agitated. I have eliminated many of these foods, dairy being one, but then I didn't sleep for three straight days which is unprecedented. I experimented and had some cream in my decaf, and I slept that night! But, the dairy, even in very small doses makes me have the opiate agitated feeling. So it's aggravating my nervous system, but when I tried to get off I didn't sleep. I feel like I'm stuck, I feel either way I'm going to upset my already upset nervous system. The three days with no sleep sent me into a pit. I have never been so tired and depressed. I feel like I'm still not recovered from the wave of insomnia. I just don't know what to do. I've read other threads, and I know that food is an issue for many people. My friend who is a nutritionist did an MRT test on me to try and help find problem foods. But the elimination diet is what threw me into complete insomnia. Maybe too much at this point? But, the foods are aggravating me, so what to do?

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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What do you mean by an opiate agitated feeling?

 

Other than dairy, can you figure out which foods are causing reactions?

 

That one experiment with cream does not show much. It could have been something else that caused you to sleep.

 

See our Symptoms and Self-care forum for food sensitivities and special diets http://tinyurl.com/3hq949z
 

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

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Well, it feels like I'm on a downer. Brain fog. Slowed mental process. Almost drugged, then it a few hours later it makes me agitated, irritable.

I had an MRT test done for food intolernaces and sensitivities, which says im sensitive to dairy, and it was the ONLY thing I cut the day before I didnt sleep for those three days. I was shaky after cutting it, and once reinstated, it subsided. Also, I eat the same thing all the time because of my appetite being altered right now, so there is little variance.

That's how I came to the conclusion it was the dairy. Guess I just have to weigh cost/benefit. I'd rather sleep and be irritable during the day than shaky and in crazy anxiety unable to sleep for days. I know dairy can give you WD, so probably not worth it to cut at the moment.

 

Also, the last year I was on Lexepro I felt more depressed, and I developed sensitivities to food and supplements etc. is it possible that Lexepro damaged my system even before I went off of it? The last year on it felt like a WD, but much less severe.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Taper the dairy. You might find undenatured whey protein or Lactium capsules to be good substitutes -- see the Symptoms and Self-care forum for relevant topics.

This is not medical advice. Discuss any decisions about your medical care with a knowledgeable medical practitioner.

"It has become appallingly obvious that our technology has surpassed our humanity." -- Albert Einstein

All postings © copyrighted.

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Thanks for the response. I've just started tapering today with the dairy. Hope u are well. Thank you for all of your time.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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New symptom:

Little electric like shocks in my legs. Restless legs...

Makes it so much fun to try and sleep.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Did the not sleeping and the leg issues start after you started a supplement if so which ones?  It could be....

I have not worked in years and am still not working.  I have improved I seem to have some ok thinking times then other times I can't seem to function at all.  Have sleep issues ect.  I can't seem to nail it down to anything I am actually doing.  

Have had ongoing health issues.  Much better than cold turkey withdrawal tho light years away from that thank God!  

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Btdt,

I haven't done anything different but have been eliminating gluten. I tried to cut dairy (see earlier posts) and the day after I cut it completely I didn't sleep for three days. Reinstated it, and have slept ever since, broken sleep, but thankful for any at all. Around that time is when the restless legs started. I took about 50 mg of magnesium and it helped. So, hopefully, it continues. Always afraid something is going to backfire on me.

Thank you for your response, I read a lot of your thread, how are you emotionally? That's the most important thing to me. I can deal with physical symptoms better, I guess I'm just looking for someone who has been in a similar situation as me who is not still constantly battling anxiety and awful depression. I have to search for light at the end of the tunnel everyday.

 

Hope you are well, and thank you for your responses. They are helpful.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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I did improve and it was hit and miss a few times I actually thought I had beat it but it came back.  Life takes it's toll as things do not sit still and wait for us to heal... so many things have went down that have set me back.  Family illness adult kid illness... deaths many deaths... it has been a constant struggle in some ways.  I think I am still a bit not there emotionally not right either take things too hard or don't feel what I think I should ... always the anxiety is just under there waiting I have to keep my tool kit handy... relaxation is a must... not a choice not really.  

 

So my answer is when I could keep life under some sort or control I was getting there but life refuses to be controled by me and I fall of the bus when big time stress hits.... I have also had a car accident and had a lot of infections bone and tooth problems. Wish I could say life is rosy but it is not... still with all that has gone down in real life while I was battling withdrawal I think I am doing well all things considered.  

 

If life gives you a decent run I think you will come out of this ok... getting the time and space to heal is another thing.  Money is a big one if you have any still hang on to it and invest wisely.  

Looking back I wish I had given somebody else control of my money when I was out of my head... but oddly I did not know I was out of my head.  Think about this hard if you are married... let your spouse take control of the money for now.  

 

think I am rambling sorry if I am off topic things run all together for me it is tricky to see just one side the withdrawal side when there are a lot of things on my mind ....

  

Be careful what goes in your mouth.. try elimination diet why not... for me it was sugar I naturally stopped the dairy long ago other than cheese butter and cream in the odd odd coffee I may indulge in now.  For me sugar and no fruit I could not do any fruit ever. 

As for coffee I quit completely for 2-3 years trying to drink coffee made me so dizzy I would literally fall down.  Took the hint and quit. 

What I could eat changed over time... things I was ok with changed things I was not ok with changed... it is all very confusing actually.  water melon was bad for a  time ... walnuts ...avocados.. for a time.  There is for sure a connection to what we eat.  I just don't understand how it completely changes so can't help you there.

 

To start with it was elector lite issues.. then sugar insulin pancreas... then lipids ...then histamine ... amino acids... seems I have taken a look at them all.  That does not mean it is wrong either as the body is complex and if we are healing like I believe in the rubic cube fashion it can make sense... in a complex way. 

 

clear as mud I bet sorry for that is how it has been. 

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Btdt,

Thank you so very much for your response. Well, I'm 30 and single, and have no children. My parents are in their late 60's and are trying to help me. My mom has moved in. I have no money to speak of. I have had to apply for disability. For right now my Dad is helping me financially.

 

To be honest, I'm scared looking into the future about when my parents age. What will happen to me? But this is not productive. I also wonder if my chance to have any relationship/children is out the window. I hope not. Some days I am hopeful, others I am not as much.

 

Yes, I think diet is very important. It seems like every day, there is something new, and I try to figure out what caused it. But, it gets tiring. Just keepin at it.

 

Forgive me for asking soooo many questions! How is your emotional state compared to before medication? I have no problem dealing with the anxiety I had before, and that's what Im hoping, that I end up somewhere close to where I started.

 

How are you? And thank you again?

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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I think I'm in a wave. I feel like I can't see the forest for the trees. Had an ok day, went to therapy, came home made dinner, washed the dog. But, feeling tense, and muscle twitches in legs. Almost like crawly skin. Hoping to sleep tonight.

I believe this latest wave was set off by several recent conversations with someone from my past.

I don't talk that much except over text, because it's overstimulating and makes me nervous. But, how quickly I forget, and think I can do too much. Then WHAM!! Knocked on my behind. God give me strength.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Btdt,

Thank you again. No ? Mark. I have to proof read things several times these days. ????

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Btdt,

Thank you so very much for your response. Well, I'm 30 and single, and have no children. My parents are in their late 60's and are trying to help me. My mom has moved in. I have no money to speak of. I have had to apply for disability. For right now my Dad is helping me financially.

 

To be honest, I'm scared looking into the future about when my parents age. What will happen to me? But this is not productive. I also wonder if my chance to have any relationship/children is out the window. I hope not. Some days I am hopeful, others I am not as much.

 

Yes, I think diet is very important. It seems like every day, there is something new, and I try to figure out what caused it. But, it gets tiring. Just keepin at it.

 

Forgive me for asking soooo many questions! How is your emotional state compared to before medication? I have no problem dealing with the anxiety I had before, and that's what Im hoping, that I end up somewhere close to where I started.

 

How are you? And thank you again?

I did not have any emotional or nervous system issue when I was put on prozac years ago for pain in my leg it was suppose to help with the pain I was not told it was a psych drug but a pain drug like an NSAID ... the doctor was a liar he did not say it was exactly that but like it... he did not say it could make me crazy ect. 

 

I was much better before but very naive in those days I trusted doctors.  I had damaged my leg in a car accident that is how I got started on these drugs.

 

I am glad your young and have support from you parents it could make all the difference.  I am on disability too.  I know it sucks.  after all this time I still don't see a future... I am sorry it may be just the day and the mirgraines like my rubics cube has slipped to the dark side today... best I wait and answer another time when I am more optimistic... all that said lots of people have healed and we can't go on anothers experience.  I wish we could I so want to be done with all this and just do anything different. I am very sensitive to weather now... and it a bad weather day where I live... another day without pain and mirgraines I will try to answer again.  

 

I am not all over the map usually... I am coming out of a long drawn out infection from March to June I was on antibiotics... and they ruined my stomach so now I am taking a ppi to help heal it that ppi seems to cause headaches and stupidity in me... so another time would be better to answer...

I am sure you can heal you have as good a chance as anyone small bites just now bit by bit... is how to approach this.

peace 

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Could be you had a reaction to some chemical in the dog wash.

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Could be. I thought of that. Ever since I had the three completely sleepless nights, I haven't been the same. I still don't sleep well at all right now, but grateful for any sleep I get. I'm don't even know how much I'm getting because I refuse to look at the clock when I wake up in the middle of the night, and I have no idea how long I lay in bed before I fall asleep. I don't want to give myself anything else to worry about, so I don't check the time. But I can feel I'm sleep deprived the last week since the three day stint. So, maybe that is it. I've never dealt well without enough sleep, even in college, never could pull an all nighter for exams. Couldn't handle it. Made me sick as a dog.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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I think I'm in a wave. I feel like I can't see the forest for the trees. Had an ok day, went to therapy, came home made dinner, washed the dog. But, feeling tense, and muscle twitches in legs. Almost like crawly skin. Hoping to sleep tonight.

I believe this latest wave was set off by several recent conversations with someone from my past.

I don't talk that much except over text, because it's overstimulating and makes me nervous. But, how quickly I forget, and think I can do too much. Then WHAM!! Knocked on my behind. God give me strength.

There are a few things it could be... besides just normal withdrawal.  

What you ate, the soap for the dog or the stess of washing the dog... or the text from the past. 

 

Food can be an issue so can stress so can other people.... 

Keeping food simple is my best move on food.  Stress can hurt me a dog washing depends on the dog :) people from my past in conversation... lordy if they were people who knew me when I was out of my head and stripping that can floor me in a heart beat. 

 

I had only one incidence a cook from a bar was cooking in a place I went to order take out for some company... I about fainted when I saw him... I am not even sure what one would call it. I turned and ran out. Seemed my two worlds were colliding... he knew me and came and talked to me... for some reason I felt afraid of him. The old stripper me was not afraid of him I was not afraid of anything when on E... least of all him a cook ha with a lot of gang people in strip bars the cooks is far down on the list of people to be scared of. 

 

Sorry seems I am doing a tell all here not my intent was going for example got caught in my own crap sorry. 

 

Thing is if past people are from when you were what they thought of as functional on drugs they will not know you now... you will not really know them.  Out of the two of you your the only one who knows this... it is freaky.. or can be if your like me. 

 

Either way an epson salt bath would likely help you sleep... that and a good relaxation video on utube I use deep relaxation that is all I search and have become quite attached to the first one that shows up. 

peace

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Btdt,

 

Yes, Im not sure if it may not be just a combo of all of the above. The text was from my ex-fiancée. And I have not spoken to him in years and it was not a good departure. So, that for sure caused tension. My dog is a basketcase, so baths are never enjoyable. Lol

 

Also, I only eat about fifteen whole food items as I'm doing an elimination diet to fish out intolerances. Fun times. I agree food is def best kept simple during this process.

 

And, what you said about not knowing people from my past in the same way, I'm beginning to realize this is true. Very true.

 

 

 

So good to hear from you. Praying continued healing for you, for us all.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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And I enjoyed your "tell all" btdt,

 

When I was I Lexepro, I made many many decisions, that honestly baffle me! Like what the *** was I doing? Was I insane? Now I know, possibly so, thanks to meds. And I was never afraid of consequences, and I had a very very blunted, numbed conscience. I didnt really care who I hurt. This is not the person I was before meds. Not at all. It's like I was in another world for 6 years. I just left a wake everywhere I was during that time.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Yep I left a wake too.. I was smart enough when I started dancing to go to another city a few hundred miles away... oddly enough I then told everyone where I lived what I did yep... went further and further down the rabbit hole.. 

 

I have this feeling still of waiting to see who I am going to be...next.

I do wonder who I am off drugs should I ever completely heal it is never going to be simple at this point I would like to find out before old age and death just curious.  

 

Don't sweat the small stuff bit jealous about the dog so miss mine know that having a dog is a blessing no matter the sanity of the dog mho. 

peace

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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So, started magnesium to help with restless legs, it helped, but I'm 3 days into taking it and this morning I woke up feeling like a panic attack was coming. Haven't had but one panic attack during this whole time, except one, and it was after a neurofeedback session.

 

Managed to leave the house anyways, but felt like I may pass out.. Which could be panic, but didnt chance it and came home. Feeling weak and shaky. Nothing new except the magnesium.

 

So, giving it a break and will try it at a lower dose.

Anyone else had any experience like this? I'm gonna search the magnesium thread when I feel up to it.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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yes I did after a few days that is how it went thought I had found the answer till it bit me in the ass 

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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Didappointing. How long did it take for it to pass? This is awful. Feel like I'm going to pass out and I'm laying in bed...

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Disappointing *

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Figured it out! Magnesium lowers blood pressure! I already have low blood pressure due to another health condition. So not good. But now I know.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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What magnesium dose did you take? You might need to take a really low dose and titrate up, or maybe it is not right for you.

1st round Prozac 1989/90, clear depression symptoms. 2nd round Prozac started 1999 when admitted to dr. I was tired. Prozac pooped out, switch to Cymbalta 3/2006. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder due to mania 6/2006--then I was taken abruptly off Cymbalta and didn't know I had SSRI withdrawal. Lots of meds for my intractable "bipolar" symptoms.

Zyprexa started about 9/06, mostly 5mg. Tapered 4/12 through12/29/12

Wellbutrin. XL 300 mg started 1/07, tapered 1/18/13 through 7/8/13

Oxazepam mostly continuously since 6/06, 30mg since 12/12, tapered 1.17.14 through 8.26.15

11/06 Lithium 600mg twice daily, 2.2.14 400mg TID DIY liquid, 2.12.14 1150mg, 3.2.14 1100mg, 3.18.14 1075mg, 4/14 updose to 1100mg, 6.1.14 900 mg capsules 7.8.14 810mg, 8.17.14 725mg, 8.24.24 700mg...10.22.14 487.5mg, 3.9.15 475mg, 4.1.15 462.5mg 4.21.15 450mg 8.11.15 375mg, 11.28.15 362.5mg, back to 375mg four days later, 3.4.16 updose to 475 (too much going on to risk trouble)

9/4/13 Toprol-XL 25mg daily for sudden hypertension, tapered 11.12.13 through 5.3.14, last 10 days or so switched to atenolol

7.4.14 Started Walsh Protocol

56 years old

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I took 100mg, I think I need to start with 25 mg. gonna take a break for a few days. Disappointing because it helped so much with the leg twitches.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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The thing that hurts the most is memories of enjoying my life. It's fall here, I walked past the mums on my way into the grocery store, and glanced at the pumpkins. The smell of the fall flowers with the crisp in the air triggered a memory. Fall is my favorite season. It made me tear up. I used to love pumpkin lattes, and carving pumpkins, and the smells of the season. I loved wearing my sweaters for the first time each season. These are things that are lost for the moment. And I guess I'm mourning them. I used to take pride in cleaning my home, and making it smell fantastic. Now, I do bare minimum, if that. This is the time of year I loved to go for a good run. I haven't run since Feb. And, I miss the person I was, and I want her back, and my family does too. And I don't know where she is, or if she will come back, or how to get her back. And maybe I just have to mourn the loss, and to be open to the pain it brings. It won't last forever. But today it hurts, so I'm just going to feel it and sit with the pain and learn how to be with myself. This self... in this moment.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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I took 100mg, I think I need to start with 25 mg. gonna take a break for a few days. Disappointing because it helped so much with the leg twitches.

. I would also make sure you get enough salt while you are transitioning.

1st round Prozac 1989/90, clear depression symptoms. 2nd round Prozac started 1999 when admitted to dr. I was tired. Prozac pooped out, switch to Cymbalta 3/2006. Diagnosed with bipolar disorder due to mania 6/2006--then I was taken abruptly off Cymbalta and didn't know I had SSRI withdrawal. Lots of meds for my intractable "bipolar" symptoms.

Zyprexa started about 9/06, mostly 5mg. Tapered 4/12 through12/29/12

Wellbutrin. XL 300 mg started 1/07, tapered 1/18/13 through 7/8/13

Oxazepam mostly continuously since 6/06, 30mg since 12/12, tapered 1.17.14 through 8.26.15

11/06 Lithium 600mg twice daily, 2.2.14 400mg TID DIY liquid, 2.12.14 1150mg, 3.2.14 1100mg, 3.18.14 1075mg, 4/14 updose to 1100mg, 6.1.14 900 mg capsules 7.8.14 810mg, 8.17.14 725mg, 8.24.24 700mg...10.22.14 487.5mg, 3.9.15 475mg, 4.1.15 462.5mg 4.21.15 450mg 8.11.15 375mg, 11.28.15 362.5mg, back to 375mg four days later, 3.4.16 updose to 475 (too much going on to risk trouble)

9/4/13 Toprol-XL 25mg daily for sudden hypertension, tapered 11.12.13 through 5.3.14, last 10 days or so switched to atenolol

7.4.14 Started Walsh Protocol

56 years old

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Yes! I've put salt all over my food. Thank you, meimeiquest. Thank you for your caring. ????

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Ok, fishing out food intolerances. I bought some organic ground turkey, and half way through I thought, ya know, tryptophan would probably not be my friend right now. Only ate half. But feeling anxious already and "off"

This is surely a process, marathon running, but 5 forward steps 4 backwards and so on. Frustrating.

2005-Zoloft bad reaction.....2006-Lexepro......2012-Upped Lexepro.......2013-Upped Lexepro......2/2014- Attempted Taper Lexepro...2/2014- Updosed Lexepro.......3/2014-Ativan.....5/2014- CT switch from Lexpro to Effexor.....

5/2014-7/2014-Tapered Ativan from 1mg to .25mg.....6/2014-Bad reaction to Effexor........7/2014- Rapid taper Effexor every other day......7/5/2014- Off Effexor.......7/2014-12/2014 - Ativan .25mg.......12/25/2014 -Taper Ativan by 4% due to paradoxical reaction .24mg...11/18/2015-Taper Ativan 1% CURRENTLY ON: .2376mg Ativan taken in 6 .0396mg doses.

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Yes frustrating.. I barely know the person I was. 

I hope your one of the lucky ones who get it all back till then being with yourself here and now is the best you could hope for I wish you peace and healing. 

WARNING THIS WILL BE LONG
Had a car accident in 85
Codeine was the pain med when I was release from hosp continuous use till 89
Given PROZAC by a specialist to help with nerve pain in my leg 89-90 not sure which year
Was not told a thing about it being a psych med thought it was a pain killer no info about psych side effects I went nuts had hallucinations. As I had a head injury and was diagnosed with a concussion in 85 I was sent to a head injury clinic in 1990 five years after the accident. I don't think they knew I had been on prozac I did not think it a big deal and never did finish the bottle of pills. I had tests of course lots of them. Was put into a pain clinic and given amitriptyline which stopped the withdrawal but had many side effects. But I could sleep something I had not done in a very long time the pain lessened. My mother got cancer in 94 they switched my meds to Zoloft to help deal with this pressure as I was her main care giver she died in 96. I stopped zoloft in 96 had withdrawal was put on paxil went nutty quit it ct put on resperidol quit it ct had withdrawal was put on Effexor... 2years later celexa was added 20mg then increased to 40mg huge personality change went wild. Did too fast taper off Celexa 05 as I felt unwell for a long time prior... quit Effexor 150mg ct 07 found ****** 8 months into withdrawal learned some things was banned from there in 08 have kept learning since. there is really not enough room here to put my history but I have a lot of opinions about a lot of things especially any of the drugs mentioned above.
One thing I would like to add here is this tidbit ALL OPIATES INCREASE SEROTONIN it is not a huge jump to being in chronic pain to being put on an ssri/snri and opiates will affect your antidepressants and your thinking.

As I do not update much I will put my quit date Nov. 17 2007 I quit Effexor cold turkey. 

http://survivingantidepressants.org/index.php?/topic/1096-introducing-myself-btdt/

There is a crack in everything ..That's how the light gets in :)

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